SWASAN – MY LOVE (OS)
Hi all, i am Satz back with OS again and this is my most awaited OS which i want to pen it down for so long. Pls read it and share your comments.
I am dedicating this my fav to all my friends in TU…each and one. Love you all for supporting me.
@ Kipling Cafe,
How long i am waiting here for him? Idiot? Can’t he come at correct time for one day atleast? Oooppsss, sorry guys i forgot you all and talking to myself. Well, i am
here in Kipling Cafe and waiting for my dear husband. As usual the punctual king is late for an hour now. But u know what i never felt bored of waiting for him.
Because i always comes first and looks for his presence so eagerly and impatiently. There is something special in waiting for your loved ones. And that’s what i am
experiencing too, expecting him with lots of love.
Ooopsss sorry for the distraction, he is calling. Just a sec.
“Hey Hello? Where are you?”
“Hmm, find. I already reached there. Come fast. Bye”
Ssshhh…again he will be late for another 1/2 an hour. He told me to spend time in reading the cuisine book..stupid he is …Chalo now i will tell you all my story.
It will be quite interesting only, you know why i said that? Because i am gonna tell you about my first and secret love. Interesting isn’t it?.
So from where should i start? OK, i will start telling about my first meeting with him.
That was my first day in my college and i was so excited. I heard from my neighbours who was senior to me, they always talk about their college life and their enjoyment, so automatically an excitement, happiness, expectations arised in me and it was clearly visible in my face. I was walking along with few more girls who also looks like a freshers but they look scary and why not me? I looked at them confusingly thought why i did not get that fear fact when it was my first day in college like theirs. Soon my self thought got muddled when a group of people called us, they called me and the other girls who came beside me. Expect me all others looked terrific and they were in the verge of crying at anytime. And the people who called us were Seniors and they were so excited to rag the juniors, i mean us. Among them, a guy came forward and snatched my notebook from me..i was startled and glared him angrily thinking, “How dare he can snatch my note without even asking me?”
Before she opened the book, i snatched it back from him saying, “Not a manners to snatch other’s things without their permission” i told straight on his face.
The gang behind him looked me shockingly and looked at his back with the same reaction. I was wondered why they were shocked and again got into my own thoughts, “Am i did something wrong?”
My thoughts again got interrupted when someone snapped their fingers on my face and it was none other than him, the one who snatched my book.
I looked at him and he smirked at me asking my name with an attitude tone and i too replied it with same attitude to show him…i am not less than him. And you know what i should have controlled my tongue that day, and because of not doing that, i faced a major problem during my whole 3 yrs of college.
Before he continued, i asked his name and with a surprise package in his face, he told his name with a small smile in his face. I liked that smile ofcourse.
He looked at me astonishingly and said, “You have lot of guts at the very first day. Good”
Like a mad, i smiled at him listening him but i did not think about why he praised me. And the very next moment, he gave me a shock saying, “I want to check your dare now? R u ready?”
I just quaffed looking at him and others, he continued, “Say something? R u ready?”
Ego arised in my head and started dancing madly for all the western tunes and i replied, “Yes, i am ready”
He smirked looking at me and yes his eyes was sparkling like a star, even in that situation i was admiring him unknowingly.
But all my admiration on him faded away when he asked me to kiss him. Yes, the dare he gave me is to kiss him, infront of all.
I snapped my eyes like a butterfly of unable to believe what i heard and he replied back saying, “You heard it right. Show your dare by kissing me and i will promise you that you will have a peaceful college life till you finish your course”
I turned cold for sometime and the girls beside me was looking at me with more pity as if he was a dinosaur and ready to eat me…and i hated that the most.
I took hardly 5 minutes to decide and walked towards him with some determination and he looked surprised seeing me approaching him. To be frank, he is shocked seeing me ready to do the dare he gave. And when i moved close to him, he stepped back…and that’s my victory.
I moved my face so close to him and saw his eyes and lips are closed tightly as if he did not expect me to do that dare. I smirked seeing his face and pecked his cheeks softly and gently with a cute kissing sound, “itch”
I moved myself away from him only to witness his surprise look with his eyes wide open and looking at me with a cute and handsome smile on his face. Others who were watching us were dead shocked seeing my actions and they did not expected it to be frank. Freshers who gathered there to witness the expected kiss scene, started clapping for me.
One of the senior from behind came forward and shouted, “It’s cheating”
“What cheating i did? He asked me a kiss and i did it. What cheating i did here or weren’t you expecting me to kiss him somewhere?” i retorted back.
He was loss of words and was about to say something but stopped by the man who got kiss from me. He signed me to go and without any delay i went away from there.
I searched my class and reached before the staff came. Everyone in the class room praised me for my guts and i was feeling like flying high due to sudden limelight.
Soon our classes started and we settled down at our respective places. Meantime, i made some friends there.
After two hours of class, we got a break, so me and my new friends were decided to go to Canteen, we got up from our place but stopped moving hearing an announcement from the person barging inside our class saying, “Hello my Fellow Juniors. Tomorrow is the welcome party for u all. We all will have the masti, song, dance and it will be a pakka entertainment for you guys. So don’t miss it and everyone must come”
We all were so excited for the party, me and friends started discussing the party wear n all. Since i was coming from hostel, it was not a problem for me to roam with my friends after college.
Next day, the most memorable day in my life..i should say. Me and 3 fellows got ready well and went to the venue where the party was announced. Before us, some of our class mates also came there and we all indulged into a juniors gossip. I always felt something pricking on my back, but soon i understood that i was a curious look from him , the one who got kiss from me.
Yes, he too came there and starring me continuously…i felt chillness in my spine and moved my gaze from him. Guess, he used some telepathy, coz when i turn to his side, he still looked at me without moving his gaze from me.
Soon the party started and so many funny activities we got and have been asked to perform on the stage. My turn came and i was so nervous thinking what kind of task i will get. I took a chit and before i opened and saw, it was snatched from my hand…AGAIN..it was him. Seriously i should have zipped my mouth but did not and asked, “Is Snatching your hobby or habit?”
All laughed at my sudden question and i biten my tongue realizing it later, he passed me a sharp glare and told seeing the chit, “You have to dance with me”
I was jaw dropped and hissed him, “WHAT?”
He shrugged his shoulders, “You heard it right”
“If i don’t?” i replied back
“Ready to bare the punishment” he gave back.
I kept a pout face and i don’t want to have the punishment and i felt like if i step back then all my image build up on the first day i created, would go down to the valley and i did not want that. I looked at him and seems like he very well understood me and my thought.
I let a heavy breathe said, “FINE. I WILL DANCE WITH YOU”
At one sec, i saw his face and it glowed brightly, his eyes were sparkling….i was like mesmerized seeing the Charming prince infront of me but soon i shoved away the irritating thoughts and looked at him who extended his hands for me.
I hesitatedly gave my hands to him and with a jolt, i was in his embrace the very next moment. I felt so nice, safe and some relaxation surrounded me in my body being in his embrace…i don’t know what was the reason but i felt like it was my solace.
We both danced for the romantic number making the audience glued on us and few just stunned seeing us with their mouth opened widely.
Our romantic, sensual dance lasted for 5 minutes, and in that 5 mins we rolled on each other, he twirled me, he held me by my waist, he attached me to his chest, he buried his face in my nape, i held his tightly of not letting to go away from him, and finally he made me leaned half way and lifted me in the same posture and took a small twirl with me in his arms having him looked up and i looked down to watch each other’s face. It was a fantastic moment for me and was a memorable one for me in my college life.
We both got our sense when we heard the huge applause and i got down from him and ran to my place to hide myself from blushing. I felt a different kind of looks from each one including my friends and at that moment i really blushed like hell and avoid looking at everyone.
Our Welcome Party got over, days passed, months passed, and in these span, we both understood each other well and a good friendship formed between us. But i developed a feeling on him and it was more than as a friend. I did not know about his thoughts on me and i did not want to know also. Because i was sacred what if he rejected me and my friendship with him also would get spoiled. I did not want that to happen, so held my feelings tightly within myself.
As the years passed, my feelings on him also got increased. I was totally fallen for him, the way he cared me, the way he behaved with me, the way he spoke, the way he shielded me when other department guys teased, his affection on all his dear ones, his social interest everything made me glued to him and increased my love on him.
The girl who kissed him on the very first day, melted slowly being with him and became a soft and often blushing girl. I used to curse him for making me weak and blush often..but still i liked it…only for him. But i observed his activities on me was only purely on frienship basis. I could find the difference in him when treated me and others. Probably he would have not felt the spark in me and i was afraid to open it up also.
Now i was in my second year, and he was in his final year..last semester. In those time, i found a difference in him, he always being with me, he never allowed me to go out with anyone else other than him. I found it wierdly, but still even i liked it though.
His possessiveness was crossing the limits day by day, and sometimes i felt little irritated coz of that. I observed him, his restless behavior, i worried for him and assured him that i always be with him. He was not convinced but still he listened my words. When i asked him the reason and he stated as I am his best friend and it was his responsibility to care me. At that time my heart was little ached listening him considering me as a friend …just friend.
Finally the most awaited day arrived, it was his Farewell Day. I desperately waited for this day to confess my feelings to him which i held it for these years. I wanted to hug him tight, kiss him and so many dreams were going on in my mind. I got ready so nicely and we all went to our senior’s farewell party. He hugged me tighty when he saw me there and he felt so happy and i could feel that too. He always kept me in his arms giving a side hug and left his hands out from my shoulders. I felt so proud of being with him and nervous too. He met his other department friends, he asked me to stay back and went with them. I went behind some tree and started practising on how to confess my love to him. After did so much of practising, i felt little convinced and let out a heavyyyyyyy breathe to calm myself. I wasn’t able to hear my heart beat itself and slowly gradually i heard it and i felt it was little loud..only to me or even others were able to hear.
I came out from the bush and looked at him who still talking to his friends happily and i started walking to him. I did not hear anything in the surroundings, all i could hear was my heart beat and it beats for him, “dhak dhak..dhak dhak…dhak dhak…dhak dhak”. I couldn’t handle the tension arised in me and i placed my palm on my chest to cool down my heart…looked like it became boiling inside.
Soon my foot stopped moving further seeing him with another girl and she was in his embrace. Now i did not hear any noises, no dhak dhak also…i felt like whether my heart stopped beating or what? My eyes starring them with tears seeing her in his embrace, the place which i felt as my solace and now it became another one’s. My heart broken into pieces seeing them together. Tears oozed from my eyes and i was not in my senses initially and stood like a statue.
Soon, i came to my sense hearing some people murmuring her as his girlfriend from different college and now i found him searching something…i know what he was searching. He was searching me having that girl in his embrace still…his face was glowing and he was smiling happily. I understood what he want to tell to me and i knew it that i could not take that, so i hidden myself behind the tree again and before he noticed me i ran to my room without telling to anyone.
I fell on my bed and cried my heart out to ease my pain..but it was not that easy right. After crying for so long, i packed my things and left from there leaving a note to my fellow friends saying, “Leaving home, mom not well” and that was the last information i gave to my known ones.
No one was able to contact me by any way, coz till i was there i did not tell them any details about my place, family etc. Coz i did not want them to keep distance from me after knowing me as a daughter of a well known business man in that city. I finished my pre-college in boarding school, so mostly no one knew about me and for college i came to my home and joined there by hiding my identity.
I reached my home and lied to my parents that i was feeling to be with them, they worried for me but still they accepted my lies. Poor parents. I stayed in home for more than 10 days and thus made my dad questioned me about my college, my mom too worried about me. I was not able to hide anything from them and told them everything from my heart. I cried and they pacified me a lot to calm me down. I should thank god to give me such an understanding parents, they supported me to come out from my sad mood, i told them that i won’t be joining back to the college. They agreed and i did my last year through distance education in some other college.
I stayed in home, hiding myself for more than an year, and my parents thought i became normal but i was not but still i showed them my fake happiness and made them believed that i am alright. Soon they came up with a marriage proposal, i was shattered but i did not find any other option to make my parents happy who sacrificed their everything for my happiness. With a heavy heart i agreed for the marraige proposal but with a condition that i won’t see anyone, and told them that i will marry the one whom they chose. They were happy and they did the arrangements for my marriage. I did everything as per their wish and my marriage day also came.
I knew that i was hurting a person who believed that his soon to be wife will love him but how could i told him that it won’t happen at anytime in future. I blindly married him, i did not even wish to see his face. All i did was like a robo, if they asked me to bend…i bent, if they asked me to smile…i smiled. I was in a mindset that from now on, there won’t be any love in my life.
I thought my life was over, but my thought was wrong and i realized that, “There is a life after love failure”. I understood this on my marriage day…on my marriage night..by my HUSBAND.
Yes, i found love again in my life and i am soooooooooooo happy now on what i got. I don’t whether i would have been this much happy or not if i got succeeded in my love…but the truth is I got my life’s most precious gift as MY HUSBAND. I should say that i am world’s luckiest person to get such a caring, loveable and affectionate person as life partner. The most proud moment for me is, when i told him my first love on my marriage night, he just smiled at me and said, “You will be tired…Sleep now”. That’s it and that was the words he told me and i was shocked looking at him but i did as i been told.
The next morning, he greeted me happily and i too smiled at him and i did not know that that was the arrival of my beautiful life ahead. He spoke to me so nicely to soothe my pain, he was very understanding, and more over he told me that he will wait for me till i completely get out from my first love. That’s an amazing right?
I was stunned to see such a wonderful person and that time i really prayed god for making him as my life partner. From that day, my life took a new shape, and i put all my efforts to shape it in a better way. Finally the output came well. I was completely fallen for my husband…yes “I FALLEN IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND”.
I smiled at me thinking that moment when i prepared myself to propose him. I gave him a surprise in our home only, i made the candle light decorations all over my home and welcomed him in a dreamy way…quite cinematic way only but still i did it for him. I made myself dressed nicely to please him. Actually he was impressed a lot seeing me done everything on his likes, we had our dinner together, we spent time in talking with each other and then i took him to our terrace.
That was a full moon day and we both stared it for sometime and i kneeled down infront of him saying, “I NEVER BELIEVED IN GOD, BUT NOW I BELIEVE..ITS JUST BECAUSE HE MADE ME TO MARRY YOU. I COULD NEVER ASK A WISH MORE THAN ELSE BEING WITH YOU FOREVER. FIRSTLY, I THANK GOD FOR GIFTING YOU TO ME, SECONDLY I THANK MY PARENTS FOR CHOOSING YOU AS MY LIFE PARTNER WHICH IS THE BEST GIFT I COULD ASK FOR. FINALLY, I THNAK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ME, SUPPORTING ME, CARING ME AND LOVING ME THOUGH I WAS NOT IN, BUT YOU NEVER THOUGHT WRONG ABOUT ME AND STOOD BY MY SIDE. YOU BEING THE GREAT STRENGTH FOR ME TO COME OUT FROM MY FAILURE AND SHOWED ME THE NEW PATH OF LIFE AFTER A LOVE FAILURE”
I paused for a moment to observe his reactions and i could see tears in her eyes…HAPPY TEARS. I smiled at him and confessed my love, “I WAS WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT AND TODAY I MYSELF WANTS TO CONFESS MY FEELINGS ON YOU. I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR HUSBAND. WILL YOU ACCEPT MY LOVE AND STAY WITH ME FOREVER?”
I was eagerly waiting for him to respond back after my confession and he walked towards me and made me stand and look at him. He kissed on my forehead saying, “THIS MOON IS THE WITNESS FOR OUR LOVE. IF THE MOON STAYS FOR ETERNITY, THEN OUR LOVE WILL ALSO BE THERE FOR ETERNITY. I WILL LOVE YOU, I WILL LOVE ONLY YOU TILL MY ETERNITY”
We both got immersed in our love so deeply and that day becomes the most most most memorable and loveable day in my life so far and will always be. We consummated our marriage in a beautiful way and that gives us our life’s precious gift. AAYUSH, My son..our only son.
Oooppsss, sorry got a call again…it’s him..my punctual husband.
“Hello, where are you? how long i have to wait for?” i asked in a irriating tone.
“I am already there my dear Senorita”. I jerked and looked back to see my cute loveable husband with my son Aayush having some parcel.
I know what is that…after all it is our 9th Wedding anniversary and we came here to celebrate it as usual like previous years.
“Mumma” Aayush jumped on me and plants a kiss on my cheeks saying, “Happy Wedding Anniversay Mumma”
“Thank u soooooooo much Aashu kutty” i too hugged him tightly and kissed him.
“Won’t i get one?” i heard my hubby looking at us with puppy eyes.
“After going home” i snapped it back with lot of blush on my face. He winks at me. I tried hard to hide my blush cheeks and i succeeded in it.
Aayush opened the parcel and there inside a beautiful cake with the names on it.
Aayush reads it, “Happy 9th wedding anniversary to Mr. Sanskar and Mrs. Swara” he started clapping after reading it.
Oh shit, i am sorry sorry, i forgot to introduce my family right. OK let me introduce them now.
I am Mrs. Swara Sanskar Maheswari (Shortly Shona-called by my son), he is my husband Mr. Sanskar Maheswari and the chotu packet is our symbol of love Mr. Aayush Sanskar Maheswari.
And this my sweet lovely family. And many thanks for listening my story patiently and hope you enjoys it. Now i am gonna spend my time with my family..so BYE BYE.
“THERE IS A LIFE AFTER LOVE FAILURE, AND
THERE IS A LOVE AFTER LOVE FAILURE”
“THE BEST FEELING COMES WHEN YOU REALIZE
YOU ARE PERFECTLY HAPPY WITHOUT THE PEOPLE
YOU THOUGHT YOU NEEDED THE MOST”
(Below are My own thoughts on love..suddenly it came to mind…HOW S IT)
“I LOVE MY LIFE THE MOST THOUGHT IT HAS SO MANY FAILURE, UPS & DOWNS, BUT STILL I LOVE TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST WHICH I DESERVE TO BE. LOVE IS NOT JUST THE ONE WAY PATH, WHERE IT ENDED IF WE FAILED IN ACHEIVING IT. IT’S JUST THE KIND OF EMOTIONS TO EXPRESS IT ON MY LOVED ONES, IT DOESN’T HAVE ANY END AT ALL…WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE AND HAVE LOVE IN OUR LIVES TILL WE ARE ALIVE. IF SOMETHING GOES OUT OF OUR HAND MEANS, SOMETHING BEST IS WAITING FOR US TO LAND IN OUR HANDS. JUST KEEP FAITH AND BELIEVE IN LOVE”
How is this OS guys. I want to write this one for so long and today i want to penned it down. I wrote this because i was not in a good mood today and thought of sharing it with you all by expressing my point on love. The quotes which i gave above is not just the words…it has lot of meanings, i always felt bad seeing or reading the news when boy or girl did suicide coz of love failure, or killing the one they love…it really aches a lot. Love is just give what you have…it doesn’t say to take others lives.
OH shit…why i am being so senti…fine….chalo dearies….pls give me ur views and waiting impatiently.
Love you all ?