I am very much happy as my darlo friend sweet got reply from her jaan…sorry our jaan #Rrajaan….keep smiling bro….
Yrr mai recheck nehi kr rhi….to koi spelling mistake wagera ho to smjh jaana or meri bhawanao ko smjhane ki kosis instead of words….
Ridhima’s mother was died after her birth and this things created small hurt in her father. Somewhere he use to feel that he lost his wife due to Ridhima. He was always busy in business and never gave time to her….when she need love of both parent at that time she was devoid of father’s love too. He kept nani for her and when she started going school she met ishani, gayu and kabeer. They gave importance to her that she never received from anyone. As she grown , everyone started praising her beauty and she liked all this and all the attention that people use to give her. All these things made her believe that beauty is everything and all want this only…..she is beautiful that is why all are behind her and giving love to her but she didn’t aware about true meaning of love…..she got all attention and people support for her beauty and status so for her these both things are most important. All this when kabeer confessed that he love her so she accepted as somewhere she too attracted toward him and loved things that he use to do for her like praising her beauty and roaming all the time around her like puppy and many more……but she didn’t know when this attraction turned into true love from her side “ushe pata nhi pyaar kis chiriya ka naam hai kyu ki kabhi sachha pyar krne wala ushe mila hi nhi….if she didn’t recognise vansh’s love for her….at some point of angle she was not wrong but still she was not right too…. When she told that she want to marry kabeer then her father made her marry to vansh…..she denied but he manipulated her as for the first time her father asked something from her and considered her as his daughter and showed right on him. Even he gave swear of her mother then how can she deny. She didn’t want to marry vansh as she loved kabeer truly and didn’t wanted to give his place to anyone…..vansh primitiveness added fuel to this….
All these things can’t change fact that she was destinated to live alone…and loneliness is his destiny. First her mother left him…then father never showed love…when she got kabeer and decided to live happily then again her bad luck came to her….she got married to vansh….and when again she decided to life peacefully with her love then she found that he never loved him…she was trapped on the name of love….after this she lost everything that she have for name shaken only….her father…her husband….her so called love and friends …and shelter….what not
But…but she didn’t gave up. She decided to live…live for her baby and gave all the love that she have….she decided to become best mom and give love of both father and mother to her baby….but again her bad luck knocked the door and she was almost lost her baby but vansh saved….and gave a ray of hope.
She took all the broken pieces of her heart and built love for baby and she didn’t realised when she fallen in love with vansh….she tried to control her feeling but can’t….she was helpless and expressed her love to him and what she got….emptyness…pain….but she still didn’t gave up and tried to move on for her baby…for her Ridham…..and thought to live peacefully with her child far from everyone….but how can she live happily….how can she forget that happiness isn’t in her destiny…..her bad luck will stay with her till her last breath….it will never allow anyone to say her” yes, I still love you…..”
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Ridhima went to vansh’s room to inform him that she will leave today.
Ridhima: vansh they are allowing me do work from home and even they are giving me house to live.
Vansh: you will not go.
Ridhima: vansh try to understand…..or kitne din me aise tmhre sth rahugi.
Vansh: you are leaving because I rejected your proposal nah…..
Ridhima: haa bhi or nhi bhi….now you rejected me so I don’t want to become burden on you.….and disturb you in your life….(sadly smiled)
Vansh: if you love me then why are you leaving….or your love was for that instant only.
Ridhima: I do vansh.
Vansh: you don’t…i know so stop your drama.
Ridhima came near him and tried to cup his face ” I mean it vansh.” Getting back he replied ” you are lying…..do you know why I rejected your proposal”
Ridhima: because you don’t love and I can understand how can one love that person who is so bad.
Vansh: I rejected your proposal because I know that you don’t love me….and will going to leave me when you will find other as I am not handsome and good looking as you want.
Ridhima: nhi vansh….i really love and will always love…i accept that you are not my first love but you will be my last love.
Vansh (angerily) : stop it ridhima….or kitna tm neeche girrogi…..
Ridhima with little crying voice: vansh what are you saying…. What I done now.
Vansh: that you drama of loving me is doing….stop this….i know you can never change.
Ridhima with hurtfull voice: vansh you didn’t seen change in my….you can’t see love in my eyes…ha mai manti hu maine pahale tmse pyaar nhi kiya…agr ab tm ye bolte ho ki mai tumse pyaar nhi krti to galat….vansh mai bahut pyaar krti hu.
Vansh holded her shoulder tightly and yelled ” lie….lie…again lie…if you really love me then why we’re you talking to that kabeer….now you are leaving because of him Nah….i know…i know…you can never change…you don’t want love…you only want one this that is…that is (closing his eyes) that is physical pleasure….that is why that day you kissed me…..and now I rejected you proposal so your ego is hurt….how can I say no to you….
Hots tears rolled down from her eyes…..he broke her heart like no one did….he also raised figure on her character like kabeer….he also think same like his so called brother Aryan….she was unable to utter a world…seems like a lumb is stuck in her throat…and her is overloaded with hard stones…collecting the all her strength she opened her mouth but worlds didn’t come out. She rubbed her heart to easy the pain.
Ridhima: va….vans…vansh you…you think this low about me….(tears were following like rain.) I….I…never knew…that you…you…(closing her eyes)…consider me a sl*t who is ready to pleasure any one….
Vansh: I didn’t mean that…
Ridhima: indirectly you are saying same….you mean that I enjoyed with kabeer…and now I am with you and proposed you so that I can have s*x with you…then again I will leave you and go other…..tell me what all this mean….(hurt was visible in her eyes )
Vansh: you are taking me wrong….
Ridhima: earlier I was wronge….i glad I was that you understand me and saved my baby….after god I started believing you…is there is one for me then you will be there….you became like god to me….but I didn’t aware that you think this good about me….you be feeling disgust while leaving with me…..i should leave now so that you can live with pride.
Vansh: leave…leave….yahi to kr skti ho….why can’t you stay with me if you love me so much….
Ridhima: I love and will always love you….but more than love I need respect….pyaar apni jagah hai or self-respect apni jaha….thank you so much for all the things that you have done for me…
Vansh: why are you twisting things and can’t you say directly that I am not interested in you that is why I am leaving….i know your are attention seeker and want me to roam around you like puppy….that I stopped now so you are leaving.
Ridhima: if I am that much attention seeker than I would have never divorced you when you were happily roaming around me….if you are blaming me now so you are wrong vansh….you gave shelter to me and for that I am grateful to you…. but I never came to you that vansh help me and do this and that for me….itani to self-respect hai ki mai ush insan se help nhi maag sakti jise maine bahut hurt kiya ho or kuch nhi smjha ho…..and when I kissed you at that time also I left the place after seeing that romantic scene which created havoc in my pregnancy harmones…..i know you came after me because you were worried according to me…..but I don’t know now what you thought at that time….may be you were thinking that I am going to take advantage of any man….so you came there to rescue him and became victim…..now all the things will end as I am leaving…please give Ridham’s report.
Vansh shouted ” if you can’t stay here then go where you want and do what ever you wish…..but this time I am not going to come to you.” He angerly left the room….and ridhima was crying standing in the room then she realised that she need to take medical reports of her child that he was keeping with him….she went after him and in all this she slipped from the stairs….
Vansh’s thoughts were get broken by nurse’s voice…he stood up and asked “how are they”
Nurse: please fill this form as both are in critical situation….if somethings happened with them we are not responsible….
Vansh was already in guilt and now his face became dull…he took form with shining hands. After Singing them he returned them to her. She quickly went from their….vansh sat on the bench with jerk closing his eyes tightly and tears formed thinking about the outcome. He will never able to forgive himself if something happened to them…all the bad thought started coming in his mind.
Doctor: sorry we tried to save them but can’t…..
Listing to this ground slipped under his feet….he stumbled then….then opened his with jerk and realised that it was just an bad dream….he went to the temple of hospital and prayed for them.
After sometime nurse came there to call him and he died listening to the doctor ” sorry, we are not able to save baby….baby was dead at the spot only and mother is also in bad condition but she is safe….in evening you can meet her.”
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Ridhima gained conscious and saw vansh setting near her with dull face…she tried to get but vansh stopped her….she looked as and there then asked ” vansh where is my baby…..tell me I was right nah….it’s…it’s…baby boy nah….Ridhima’s Ridham….tell me where is he…he must be hungry nah…” Vansh wiped his tears turning to other side.
Ridhima (with curiosity ): what happen vansh…tell me..i need to see him….i want to take him on my arm and want to see how is he…want to love him.
Vansh: Ridhima you are not well first rest…
Ridhima: nothing is important for me than my child….and I am well enough to take him in my arms and hold him near my heart….please bring him….I can’t wait.
Vansh: I told you take rest…why are so stubborn. (Said with little tone)
She looked at him with hurt full eyes and nowadays his behaviour is not so good with her…then remembering their argument she became sad and said low voice with so much intensity ,calmly ” sorry if I troubled you and thanks for helping me…..i didn’t do all this for your attention and to trap you….you must be feeling ashamed by staying here as I am just sl*t….(with a heavy voice) sorry for your inconvenience. You should leave….i will take care of myself and my child….and don’t worry about money too….i will arrange….once again thank you….while going can you please call nurse as I want to see by child….please.” Saying this she curled on the bed as tears were breaking in her eyes…she don’t want to show him otherwise he will think that she is doing emotional drama.
Vansh didn’t realised at that she was highly affected with his behaviour and now he is feeling ashamed for his behaviour… He didn’t want to hurt her but he did….
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And when she came to know that her child is no more…she became mad….she became lifeless…she tried to kill herself as she use to see that her child is calling her…he want her with him….once she was going to jump from the building because she was hallucinating that Ridham is calling her and asking her to hold his hand but she didn’t realise that she is standing at edge of top floor….once she slit her nerve …..and she always use to cry holding toys and clothes like mad…..
Once she was went out as she saw her child who was asking her to catch him…so she ran after him and then she was asking all the people on road that did they saw her baby who was wearing red handmade sweater…..in all that two boys thought to advange of her and said they saw her baby and asked her to go with them…she happily went after them…then tried to molest her….but somehow a girl named “Ragini” saved her. She was also working in vansh’s company so she knew her…..even she Ridhima with vansh in park also…(same girl with whom vansh was talking happily).she took ridhima to VR mansion….and when Ragini told him the matter….he got angry on ridhima and shouted at her for carelessness as he is fade up with her behaviour…she became to prone to danger…
Ridhima didn’t showed any emotions and wiping her tears she went to her room….then vansh started handcuff her when he use to go out….once he forgot to chain her and same day she left then mention and never came back….after couple of days vansh got to know that she met with an accident….
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Vansh looked at Riva and said ” ridhima listen to me
Once….”
Riva get up looked at him then chief. She asked with emotionless tone ” I told you ma’am….i don’t know him then why he is here….”
Vansh with lots of love ” okay I will not disturb you….please accept once that you are Ridhima”
Riva: I am not.
Vansh: why are you living her and hurting your self….come with me.
Riva: why will I go with you.
Vansh: because you love me…
Riva: here I don’t know who are you and you are talking about love….
Vansh looked at with painfully eyes but found nothing except emptyness…..no love…no emotion…no pain…no happiness….nothing….” Okay please show me your left wrist ….my ridhima has cut sign there.”
Riva: ma’am please take him from here…..he is troubling me more.
Chief: sir please come as it is against rules….
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After that vansh usually come to orphanage to see him…she confined herself to a room only as she don’t want to face him……
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It was the day when she lost her child….4 months passed and she went to palace where they last right of her baby….unware about the fact the someone was hiding their and waiting for confirmation…..she is really riva of ridhima…..seeing her there he became both wry and happy at same moment….he was happy as he found her but sad as she was not ready to recognise him….he waited for her to go as rain started….but she was still shooting there and mourning….. She kept crying for hours in heavy rain as she was not able to sleep…..her baby’s cry and voice use to haunt her…ask her why did she killed her….why did she ran after him…why did she proposed him that he got that angry and argued with her…if she didn’t became selfish and proposed him then neither he rejected her propasal nor she decided to leave….he use to ask her is being loved by someone that much imported that she didn’t care about him….these thought were always use to kill her….eavh day…every second….she just want to Die and escape from pain….
She didn’t realised when did she lost the conscious and fainted their….on seeing no response he came to her and called her name…found her faint..he carried her to the mansion….
When we gained conscious and found vansh setting near her….she panicked and ran from there without listening to him…he was running after her…she didn’t care about rain…she was kept running but not as much as that he can’t catch her as she was weak too….she came so skinny with dark circle near eyes with dull face….
He caught her ” ridhima please listening to me damn it” he shouted holding her hand. She looked at him and tried to go….” I know you are ridhima only…you can’t run like this.”
Ridhima with low and painful voice ” please let me go….”
Vansh: why are you running away from me….and why did you left mansion.
She didn’t answered him then after fraction of second she said ” please jaane do mujhe…..kya bigada hai maine tumhra….please leave me” seems like she is scared
Vansh: what happen to you ridhima and why are you leaving in orphanage.
Ridhima: because I don’t have any relation on this earth….I am orphane.
Vansh: why are you punishing yourself…stop hurting yourself….
Say this he goes near her and rested his forehead on her….she too closed her eyes feel peace and calmness but then his words started ranging in her mind….
“You will going to leave me when you will find other as I am not handsome and good looking as you want.
stop it ridhima….or kitna tm neeche girrogi….
Stop your drama of loving me is doing….i know you can never change
now you are leaving me because of kabeer Nah….i know…i know…you can never change…you don’t want love…you only want one this that is…that is (closing his eyes) that is physical pleasure….that is why that day you kissed me…..and now I rejected you proposal so your ego is hurt….how can I say no to you…...
She pushed him…and tried to run before she can run he again caught her….”Not this time ridhima…when both know that we love each other then this hid and seek….”
Ridhima spoke with weakly ” I don’t….you were right…. I had lust not love….you kept me in your mansion because you felt sympathy as I was venerable + carrying someone other’s mistake on my womb….now he is no more….so you mustt don’t have any sympathy for me as girls like me who have just hunger for s*x only….if you think that I can give any pleasure to you then I can’t…i can’t Mr. Raisinghania….(CLOSING EYES ) I…I…STOPED F***ING POEPLE……so please let me.”
Vansh don’t have anything to say. He was crying…”why are you crying Mr. Raisinghania….you didn’t said anything wrong. I am a sl*t…you and your family recognised my true colours.”
Vansh opened his mouth and moved his lips to say ” sorry”
Ridhima: I am sorry Mr Raisinghania….you are so good and I am saying genuinely….there is no sarcasm…..but what to do that I am very bad. I think you should not waste your time on a mere mistress…
Vansh: why are you again and again calling yourself by these name….your are not.
Ridhima: if your saying then it may be right….now leave my hand.
Vansh: nhi….never…I love you Ridhima.
Ridhima she looked at him and answered looking into his eyes ” it’s sympathy….or may be guilt but it can’t be love….” With broken voice
Vansh: it’s love only….come with me….i will mend all the things….i will you the ways no one did…
Ridhima with teary eyes and her throat is choked. She put finger on her heart and then showing her hand to him she singnalled that there is no heart and she will not able to love him back….
Vansh: I know I broke your heart but…but this time I will collect all your broken heart pieces and will make heart with my love….just one chance…one chance….i know “I know you still love me”
Saying this he took her in his arms and she wiggled in his arms and asked him to leave again and again but he didn’t……
He out her down in the his room….ridhima asked ” why are you doing this….”
Vansh: because I love you Ridhima.
Ridhima: don’t spoil your life….
Vansh: my life was spoiled when you were not there…
Ridhima: don’t talk like mad….in these four months what happened that you started loving me….as I am that spoiled girl who slept with many ma….
Before she could complete vansh pulled her by wait and kept finger on her lips ” ssshhhh….never ever utter this kind of thing.” Ridhima kissed in pain…he looked at her because according to him it was gentle…” What happened ridhima?”
Ridhima with pain “leave me vansh”
He left her and they saw her skin became red there where he touched her….he became worried “what happened “
Ridhima: nothing….
Vansh: why this happened?
Ridhima: it’s nothing….i have to go as after an hours entry will be closed.
Vansh: don’t divert the topic….why your skin became so sensitive….and what are you hiding…and why did you fainted there….
Ridhima: it was exhaustion….nothing else….
Vansh: and this…pointing to mark…
Ridhima: it’s….it’s….nothing…
Vansh: please don’t hid…
Ridhima: it’s…..its….just…(closed her eyes )….it’s just that I don’t have much time….i am suffering from…..
To be continue….
Precape….ridhima brought ragini at VR mansion so that vansh and she can come close and develop feeling as before leaving the world she want to see her love happily settled…..