Ridhima: wo…wo…I am suffering from a type of infection…..(looked down) and continued “after that accident I didn’t took care of me…so so….due internal injury, pus started secreting in my stomach and this infection increasing day by day…so marks on my skin is symptom of it.
Vansh was socked with and didn’t know how to react…..she is telling him casually that she is going to die. Seems like it is not big deal for her.
Vansh: Ridhima how can you so casual about
…come lets go doctors
He pulled her hand to moved but she didn’t move from her place and when he looked at her. She said” I know what are results….why you want to waste your time….nothing will going to happen.”
Vansh came to her and with love he cupped her face whereas her eyes were teary “I am sure you will be fine and we will consult best doctor of world….I promise you nothing….” He didn’t complete his words as he remembered how he promised to save her child but couldn’t….then…then how come she going to believe him this time…
Ridhima looked at but this time he wasn’t able to see in her eyes….Ridhima tightened her grip and said ” I trust you vansh…but I myself don’t want to live on this earth….i have full faith in you.”
Her words gave courage to him and Vansh again looked at her face ” I promise Ridhima I will save you this time…nothing will going to happen….mai kuch nhi hone duga tuhme”
Ridhima removed his from her wrist and said ” I am fine. I don’t want to go doctor….”
Vansh: why and what about your course…are you taking your medicine on time…
She looked down and nodded. Vansh in mind ” why I am thinking she is hiding something….”
Without saying anything she moved the room. When she came out of the bathroom she saw him and with tea and food. She came to the couch and sat. She silently started eating not before offering him.
Vansh: now take your medicine.
Ridhima closed eyes and looked down “wo they are in orphanage”
Vansh looked at her for sometime and then said ” tell me where they kept…i will bring them….”
Ridhima looked at him with scared face and said “wo…just now i remeber that they are finished…i will buy tomorrow….”
Vansh looked at her with suspicious eyes and said ” Ridhima what are you trying to hid….” Directly looking into her eyes with lots of deepness he added ” at least this time don’t hid anything…”
Ridhima slowly moved her lips to form his name with sound….helplessness clearly visible in both pairs of eyes….one was reluctant to tell and other was determined to fined things.
Ridhima: nothing vansh….I will show you my medicines tomorrow…leave Nah….it’s late you should sleep now.
Saying this she get up from the couch but vansh held her wrist ” answer me correctly if you ever loved me…tell me what are you hiding “
Ridhima: vansh please!!!
Vansh: that means you never loved me.
Ridhima closed her eyes and said ” I am not taking any medicine….because (paused)…beacuse I don’t want to live….I didn’t have reason to live in this world….”
Vansh stood in shock and said ” are you mad or what….why are you behind to end your life….your father is there…”
Ridhima chuckled ” that father who boycotted me when I needed him most….he told me so high things that day but did tried to understand my POV….he was the one who forcefully made me marry you….kon krta hai aisa…he never considered me as his except killer of his wife….never understood as much as he needed his wife…i too needed a mother and her love…even he made me devoid of father’s love….and you are expecting me to live for him…”
Vansh: and I….
Ridhima didn’t said anything. Vansh again asked ” bolo ridhima….what I am to you…”
Ridhima: you deserve best things of this world…vansh tum bahut achhe ho or mai bahut buri…..like darkness and light…at one time only thing can stay either light or darkness…they can never stay together and same way we two.
Vansh: it was not the answer to my question….I asked what I am to you.
Ridhima: you are something that I can’t define in word….you are the joy that we feel in winter when sun comes after so many foggy days…you are feeling of fullness that one feel when drink cold water in hot sunny days….you are a ray of hope for everything. You are best thing that happen to me.
Vansh: then live for me, with me….
Ridhima: you need not to feel guilt of anything vansh….you were not at fault and don’t waste your life on a girl like me….
Vansh: It’s my wish to live with my love….
Ridhima: but I am not worthy of your love….I am the girl who spoiled your life…
Vansh: everyone one deserve one chance and I want you to use it…
Ridhima: I am used by someone else even was pregnant with his child….you will going to feel disgust whenever you will touchh me…my betrayal will come in front of your eyes…..not now but kabhi nah kabhi tumhe in sab baato ko soch kr bura lagegs… Or One and other day may this thing will create rift between us or we will start arguing on it like we had that day…
He held her both hand to assure ” I was mad that day….there is nothing hidden from me….i am accepting you with all…and I promise I will never going to question about your dignity….just trust…”
Ridhima: vansh life is not so simple and sometime these promises doesn’t work…we end up with mess….we never know
Vansh: In my life promises does matter and have high place.
Avoiding the topic Ridhima replied ” soo jaate hai…kaafi raat hogayi hai…” Good night”
Vansh: tomorrow we are going for your check-up.
Ridhima: vansh, please!!
Vansh: I don’t want to hear anything…
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The next day they went to the doctor and she informed them that the infection is spreading but still there is 10% for cure but she can’t promise she needed her report that will come after 3 days.
That day only Ridhima invited Ragini asked her to stay with them…she confronted her about her feeling for vansh and she agreed….Ridhima told vansh that she a need friend and she is good. Vansh didn’t said anything….and they started living together.
After 3 today Riansh went to hospital. Doctor informed them that it started from her womb and it is infected fully…..then it spread outside….so for cure she has to remove the womb then removing all the infected cells from her stomach can make her fine…..
Ridhima denied for the operation saying that “she will love to die but can’t live sterile…” Saying this she ran from there.
It was night she was looking at stars and crying on her faith…..vansh came to her and back hugged. He was also in tears.” I am sorry vansh” said she slowly in between the cry.
Vansh: kya mai tumse kuch mag skta hu…
Ridhima: mere pass kuch nhi hai dene k liye except pain.
Vansh: kya mai tumhri first priority nhi ban skta.
Ridhima: you are my priority.
Vansh: I am talking about first.
Ridhima: does it matter now…i have only limited days….
Vansh: will you choose me first between me and child…..will you give me first priority this time….will you choose live with me rather than death….will you still love me even it cost your motherhood.
Ridhima stumbled hearing him….she was blank…she never thought what will happen if one day she has to choose between him and her child….
Vansh: bolo ridhima…
Ridhima (crying): vansh!!!
Vansh: it’s okay….I know I was never your priority and even not now.
Saying this he left the room. Ridhima collapsed on the floor crying…how can she willing make herself devoid of motherhood when she already lost her first child….how keenly she was waiting for him and what she got….how can she say to him…..she cried all the night laying on floor….she need someone there….someone who can console her and show her right path…she needed him but how can he will be there when he too needed someone who can tell him is he really asked right thing….
In morning…
Vansh went to her room and saw her laying on floor. Her face was dull…tears marks on her cheek…lips we’re shivering due cold floor..hairs were messy.
Vansh: Ridhima…..
She opened her eyes hearing him. He helped her to stand up.Vansh bent down and kissed her stomach. And hugged her sitting on knees “I know how much you were happy for Ridham and love kids……” Listening Ridham’s name she burst in crying…”i think I asked wrong think….how can I do that…you are free to take any decision and I will support you like always….”
Saying this he looked at her and she too looking at him with lots of love….she slowly bent and placed her lips on his. After sometime they broke the kiss and joined the head. Vansh wiped her tears and taking her in arms he moved to bed. Placing her carefully hovering her he again joined his lips with her….when he pressed his body over her she hissed in pain. Listening to her painful moan. He left her and laid beside her, hugging her.
Vansh: sorry!!
Ridhima: it’s okay…you can go ahead.
Vansh: no….it will be painful.
Ridhima: it is normal nah…
Vansh: it will be more painful than normal make out……look at her your lips how badly they are swelled….your skin too much sensitive due to loss of blood cell…..
Ridhima: chalo ready ho jaate hai…
Vansh: why??
Ridhima: we have to go to doctor for appointment.
Vansh: that means…..
Ridhima: I choose you over child….this time you are my first priority….i will still love you even it cost my motherhood.
Vansh hugged her tightly and then started kissing her whole face saying ” thank you…thank you….thank you…thank you ridhima….i can’t tell how much I am happy…”
Soon they did she was operated and vansh took good care of her…Ragini was still with them. Whenever vansh and ridhima was sit…after some time Ridhima use to call Ragini and then after sometime she use leave place by making some excuse leaving them alone…..vansh didn’t like all this but he never said anything to her because he don’t want to hurt both….
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Ragini: Ridhima I think mujhe chale jaana chahiye yahase….
Ridhima: kyu!!! Aise nhi jaa skti….tmne promise kiya…
Ragini: mujhe nhi lgta sir mujhse kabhi pyaar karege….
Ridhima: Ragini, vansh will love you…give some time to him….
“Why will I love Ragini, ha ridhima”
Both turned and saw vansh…Ridhima signed ragini to go…
Vansh: what is going between you too…and why will I going love her when I love you.
Ridhima: vansh wo….
Vansh (loudly): what?
Ridhima closed her eyes in fear…” Tell me why you brought her here….”
Ridhima: calm down vansh……i will tell you all the things….
Vansh: tell me….i am fine.
Ridhima: I think you should…….
Vansh: what?
Ridhima: move on with Ragini.
Vansh: what?? are you mad or what…
Ridhima: listen vansh….she is good..
Vansh angrily hold her shoulder and shouted “shut up….”
Ridhima: vansh!!
Vansh (shouted): I said shut up….hoti kon ho tm meri life k decision lene wali….kisne diya huq tmhe ye choose krne ka mujhe kisake sath rahna chahiye or nhi…..
Ridhima: please listen to me once…
Vansh (loudly): why?? When I am nothing to you then why I will listen to you…who the hell are you to hold my life….
Making the grip more tight. His eyes were red in anger and pain…Ridhima’s eyes were also teary.” Vansh you are hurting me”
Vansh: jo tumhne dard diya hai uska kya….
Ridhima: sorry….ishi liye to bol rhi hu move on kro ragini k sath….
Vansh: tmhre sath kyu nhi!!!
Ridhima: because I am not perfect for you…mai life me har khusi tmhe nhi de paugi…
Vansh: tm mere sth rahogi wo hi sabse bad khusi hai mere liye….
Ridhima: vansh tmhe aaj nhi smjh aa rha…when you will see other people with their child then you will regret…you will to chose me…tum jaante ho na mai ek “baanj” hu…with me you will be devoid of best of world’s best feeling.
Vansh: you think this low about me….you know you never loved me….that I why I have to always beg in front of you…i have to beg in front of you to love me….but you are same who never respected my feeling….
Ridhima: nhi…i really love that is why I want to see you happy in your life….
Vansh: you always ready to destroy present for unknown future….when things slip from your hand then you will going to cry for bitter past….same you did when we married….instead of moving on with me you chose to make life miserable….and now you are crying for that….you know you don’t deserve me….you deserve that kabeer only who left you after ….after….after…
Ridhima: why….what happen….say nah….complete kro….bol do….after having s*x….
Tears escaped from her eyes….” You know vansh I will not going to blame you for it…..because I know I was at fault….”
Vansh: sorry!!! You don’t want me in your life….aaj se mai tumhe disturb nhi Karuga…
Ridhima: we can be friend…
Vansh: I don’t want any friend….i am fine in my loneliness.
Ridhima: aisa nhi hai…we can be good friend…
Vansh: don’t!!
Saying this he left the room…after that he started ignoring her….she was trying to be friend with him.
Vansh and Ragini work discussing about one deal when Ridhima came their and sat as it was time for dinner so she wanted to eat with. After discussing the deal he was going when Ridhima asked ” vansh come and have your dinner….”
Vansh: Ragini can please bring food in my room only.
Ridhima didn’t said anything. When they left, tears started rolling from her eyes….she wiped her tears thought ” why she is crying….he doing what she wanted…she wanted him to move on with Ragini….then why his closeness breaking her heart….she. Should be happy…happy for him.”
But she missing his care ….his love for her…and his ignorance piercing her heart….she can’t live like this….but she thought he have done so much for her so she can bear this much pain for his happiness.
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Today vansh asked Ragini to leave the VR mansion….when Ridhima came to know then she went to vansh who was in his room.
Ridhima: vansh why Ragini is going.
Vansh: what she will going to do here.
Ridhima: vansh you should….
Vansh: I can take decision of my life and I don’t need so called friend
Ridhima: why are you hell bent in destroying your life….
Vansh: can please leave me alone like always…
Ridhima: when I left you alone….
Vansh: when were you there when I needed you…please out because I don’t want to shout on you….
Ridhima: I know I did wrong in past but after breakup with kabeer I have never left you and will never leave you in future….
Vansh: I don’t need your sympathy…
Saying this he made her out from his room and closed room in front of her face….
Next day was same she waited for him on dining table but he went to office ignoring her without having food.
Ridhima arranged things for him….she never did anything like earlier for anyone by own even not for kabeer….at time she use to give money to arrange things but this time she decorated room herself….
When vansh came she followed him to his room. Ridhima ” how was your day”
Vansh: what does it matter to you….leave my room…
Ridhima: arre it does matter to me…achha leave all this…come with me to my room…
Vansh: I am not in mood to see your any of your drama….i said leave….
Ridhima: are there is not any drama….i have surprise for you….
Vansh (shouted): how many times I have to tell you…i don’t need your fake care and love….
Ridhima: I honestly do….
Vansh: then I don’t need you “bheekh” leave and stop clinging on me….i already told your so called friendship….
Ridhima eyes teared and whispering ” sorry” she left the room…. She went to her room running and laying on bed started crying. She cried for hours thinking about his words….
Vansh to laid down….but sleep was far from his eyes…Ridhima’s words ringing in his words…at last he getup and went to her room…and saw decorated….it was not perfect or good but he was happy she did for him…when he read board on which written ” sorry baby” he smiled at her foolishness because she used same board that they made for Ridham….she wrote sorry just in place of “welcome”… He know she bad in all these things because she never did….
He went to Ridhima who was laying on bed covering herself with blanket….
Vansh: Ridhima….
She didn’t replied…vansh again called her but she acted like she is sleeping because she don’t want to show her tears…slowly wiping tears and pulled down just showing her forehead and eyes…
Ridhima (sleepy): what happen?
Vansh: sorry I should not shouted at you…
Ridhima: it’s okay…..good night
Vansh: you arranged all this for me and I shouted at you…
Ridhima: i just did like that you don’t have to feel sorry….you were not at fault…
Vansh: I know I hurt you…
Ridhima: arre….i am feeling sleepy…
Vansh: okay I will also sleep with you…
Ridhima: vansh please…
Vansh: stop acting I know you were crying….
Saying this he pulled her blanket and she burst into crying as from long she was holding her tears in front of her…..vansh hugged her and wiped her tears….murmured “sorry”
Ridhima calmed herself and said ” it’s okay…i deserve this only….your anger and hatred”
Vansh: I never hated you Ridhima….i know I was angry but I can’t hate you…..i only love you…kitna bhi chahu mai tmhe kafarat nhi kr pata….jb mai tmhe dekhta bs pyaar aata…..mai tumhe aaj or kl se pyaar nhi krta hu…when I saw you for the first time only at time I fallen in love with you or din par din mera pyaar run pr bada chahata that and I want only your happiness that is why I divorced you so that you can leave your life happily with kabeer but he cheated you…..jaaanta tmhre cheat k liye mujhe tumse nafarat krni chahiye but I can’t ….i can’t mera dil tumse bafarat krne k liye gawahi nhi deta…..and when you talk about leaving me then this made me lose my sense and in result I pour my anger on you….what I am asking from just little love or stay with me….am I that bad so you can’t reciprocate me feeling….
Ridhima: nhi vansh….
Vansh: I am not good looking as you desired….and you will feel bad when you stand with me….or will go out….
Ridhima: earlier I was blind so I didn’t saw your beauty…you are most handsome person…
Vansh: I know I am not….my all the things are outdated….my look…my dressing sense…..everything….
Ridhima: if that much outdated…then you would have never chose me…..I thought to give chance to us….
Vansh: no need to feel pity on me…
Ridhima: I am not….
She made him sit on the bed and looked at his tears and then slowly moving to his face she kissed tears of his both cheeks…placed a warm kiss on his eyes then moved to the forehead. When she looked at him, found him looking at her with so much deepness. when his eyes met with her. He waved his lips to say something but Ridhima interrupted him ” don’t stop me today…I know I hurt you but today I want to love you….show you how much I love you…mai tumhe aaj ek pal k liye bhi akela nhi chhorna chahati….jaanti hu tmhre dard ko mita nhi sakti but today I want to promise you that jo bhi mere dil me tmhre liye pyaar, ijjat , everything …mai ushe or nhi chhupaugi or na hi door bhagugi tmse….bas tmhse bahentehaan Mohabbat karugi….aj tk jitne bhi jakham diye hai maine un sabko mai apne pyaar se bahar dugi or ye bas ke liye nhi hai….jab tk meri jaase chalegi mai wada karti hu….tum duniya me sabse jada loved feel karoge….or mai ye sab tum pr taras kha nhi bol rhi hu…..mai sach me bahut pyaar krti hu….bahut….so please don’t stop me today….please allow me to love you and forgive me for my deed….I know one sorry can’t change everything…i am ready to do anything to seek your forgiveness.”
Vansh didn’t say anything. Just let her do want she want coz he was feeling good after hearing her words., ..he was happy that there is someone who love him back. Ridhima leaned to his face and placed her lips on her but he was not kissing her back but she didn’t back off….slowly vansh leaned back and soon he was on bed but still he was not kissing her back and even he was not touching or holding.when Ridhima found him unsupportive she felt but she held his hands and made them hold her waist and pressed her body more to him. Moving her one hand to his neck and started caressing and other hand was opening his shirt.
After breaking the kiss she started kissing his chest and was closed his eyes to feel her love. Taking his one hand she unzipped her kurti. Vansh was looking at him and seems like he is asking ” do you really not doing this out of sympathy….”but she replied in worlds “I love you vansh” saying this she again slammed her lips but this time he reciprocted the kiss.
Like this way he equally supported her and drowned in love….
It was 11 O’clock when vansh opened his eyes and examined the surrounding, found himself tangled with her and when tried to move then realised that he was still inside her. When he freed himself , Ridhima hissed in pain and opened her eyes. She looked at him and smiled at him then pecked his lips ” good morning vansh”
Vansh: good morning.
Ridhima: if you want you can also kiss me…
Vansh: you are really not feeling bad for yesterday night.
Ridhima cupped his face and said ” nhi vansh…because I really love…why are you asking the same question…are you regretting for giving me second chance.”
Vansh: nhi Ridhima….i never felt this much love now I you are showering so I am not able to believe it….i do not point finger on your intention but., ..
Ridhima cupped his mouth and said ” there is no need for explanation…..it do happen…ab adat dalo Mr. Raisinghania….” Vansh hugged her and kissed her temple.
Ridhima: but I am feeling bad for one thing…
Vansh scared and thought “is she again want to leave”
Ridhima looked at him and said ” I am not your first…jo kushi tmse mera virginity blood dekh k bilti or jo proud feeling hoti na wo mai tuhme nhi de payi….because I am use…..”
Vansh placed finger on her lip and said ” I am happy more than that…you know why (she asked with her eyes “why?) Because I needed you yesterday you gave yourself without thinking once if I did same with you like kabeer use or throw…or I was just planning to take revenge on you….dood ka jaala chhachh bhi phookh phookh kr pita hai…but you trusted me and loved me even without having any legal relation…you didn’t thought about people and future as in past I raised fingere on your dignity and hurt you but still you loved me…..I am happy you accepted me as I am….not tried to change me like other who suggested me change myself to match with their standard….i know we have bitter past memories but they can be changed by our future bundle of joys….i happy because you are with me “
Ridhima was in tears…how much she did bad with him but this men always looked at her positive side ignoring all the bad behaviour.she snuggled him more and again appolozinged.
Vansh: if you again going to bring our past in our present then I will not talk to you.
Saying this he tuned his face like angry child. Ridhima held her ears and apologised but he didn’t looked at her. She was making him look at her and murmuring “sorry vansh” again again but he became gruppy baby because he was enjoying her attention and love.
She get up and sat on his stomach by keeping her legs both side of his waist while he was half sitting position with the help of bed post. she cupped his face and made her look into her eyes ” I am sorry baby…i will not repeat this….”
Vansh whispered ” baby”
Ridhima shly said ” wo yesterday you told me nah you liked it…so you are my grumpy baby”
Vansh gaze went to her chest as in all that she forget that she was naked and freely sitting on her stomach. When she noticed then she hugged him immediately. Vansh also pulled the cover on her and hugged her tightly.
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Vansh was going to cook food but Ridhima insisted him to teach her so on one stove vansh is cook and the other she is copying him. Here vansh cooked food nicely but she burned. Vansh came and back hugged her ” koi nhi…you will learn.”
Ridhima: hmm!! Okay, let me throw it in the dustbin.
Vansh started placing food in plate .when she was returning she fall down. Vansh ran to her and take in arms he made her sit on the chair.
Ridhima: don’t worry….i think my leg was twisted.
Vansh: sure, you are fine.
Ridhima: hmm…i am hungry let’s eat food.
They had their food. Days are passing like this. Ridhima taking good care of him and trying to make him happy in all means.vansh is also happy and loving all the things that ridhima doing for him.when vansh use to go office then she use to call him and ask about his food and his things.
Today both are walking in garden and talking, enjoying the sweet weather but Ridhima’s leg again twisted and she collapsed on the floor.vansh hurried bent down and asked ” are you okay…kahi lgi to nhi”
Ridhima: Yeah, fine…i think my leg slipped.
Vansh: aaj kal tum kuch jada hi nhi gir rhi ho…..let go to doctor.
Ridhima: don’t worry I am fine..
Vansh: that I can see…your leg use to slip 3-4 time daily…see how many scars on your skin due this.
Ridhima: so now you are losing interest in me due to these scars.
Vansh: shut up Ridhima…i am saying because I care for you.
Ridhima: now I will walk properly don’t worry.
Vansh: hmm…
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Vansh was in office as today was a important meeting. Ridhima was sitting in the room. Vansh came and laid keep his head in her lap, tightly hugging her waist, hiding his face in her stomach.
Ridhima lovingly caressed his hairs.
Ridhima: how was the meeting?
Vansh:good!!
Ridhima: what happen…is anyone said something?
Vansh: no…(still not looking at her)
Ridhima: sure!!!
Vansh: hmm!!!
Ridhima: go and get fresh…I am going to warm your food.
Vansh turned his face and said,d ” right now more than food, I need you…” He was looking at her face for her answer. she bent and kissed his forehead ” hmm!!”
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3 hours later…..
Ridhima was in half sitting position….he was resting his head on her bare chest with closed eyes….Ridhima was massaging his sculps…
Ridhima: vansh what happened……aaj aaj achanak…mtlb…
Vansh: you didn’t like it (still closed eyes)
Ridhima: when I love you then why I will not like it…
Vansh: mujhe door to nhi jaogi….
Ridhima: never…not even after death….
She quickly wiped her tears before he could see…..
I know many of you will not going to like end but it was pre decided….because before writing any story I conclude end then on that basis title of story then I start writing…..if you didn’t like then you can show it by less voting /reading as silent reader….you are most welcome bro 💗….