SWASAN:FATE (Chapter 4)

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Hey friends…. Here we go chapter 4….

Sanskar’s point of view
I was doing my pending works at my own library because I couldn’t go to office…. Yessss…. Yessss…. You all go it right… I have my own library at my house due to my craziness for reading since young and I do have a hug collections of book which unlimited editions…. I heard someone screaming at the top of voice…. Ohhh… Sh**!!! I realized that it must be her screaming….I quickly made my way to my bedroom…. When I reach the bedroom… Someone jump on my back and start to pull out my hairs!!!!!

Swara: You!!!! How dare you kidnapped me! “Idiottttttttt!!!! Pig!!! Stupid!!Dog!!!She keep pulling my hairs and knock my head….I trying hard to pull myself from her….I stumbled with the carpet and fall down while struggling with her…. She getting more fierce when we both fall down… She started to scratch me…. I couldn’t handle her craziness…. I shout at the top of my voice… “Stop you crazy lady!!!” She stop her actions hearing my shout and get up from me…. Her eyes almost bulged out and her jaw drop down when she see me properly…. Again she start to shout at me… without any thoughts I shut her mouth with my palm…. She get more angry and bite my palm hardly…. I guess it’s screaming day….. I also screamed due to the pain…. I see my palm got her teeth scar…. She really did a big mistakes by getting me angrier than before…. I pull her harshly by her waist… She started to to get out of my hold…. I tightened my hold on her waist and I can feel my nails dig through her skin….

She is in pain as much as me because I can see tears start to form near her eyes…. She still struggling to get out of my grip which make me more angry…. My another hand roughly grab her hair…… Her face only a few inches far from my face…. I can feel her heavy breaths fanning my face….. She look vulnerable…. I also saw anger in her eyes….. She spit on me…. My angered reached the maximum….. I slam my lips on her…. I kissed her harshly….. I kiss and bite her lips without any mercy….. I can taste the taste of blood…. Soon enough I felt her whole weight fall on me….

She faint again in my arms…..I swear to God…. I’m an animal…. I couldn’t control and get grip of my emotions when I’m with her….. The way her hair Tangled, fresh dried tears, swollen and bleeding lips make me feel so low…. And make me teary….. I carry her carefully to my bed….I rush to the bathroom and take a bowl of water and towel…. I slowly wipe her face…. I applied creams on her injury…..than I saw her waist so reddish because her clother ridden high a bit showing me her waist….

I remembered the way I man handled her…. Without giving any thoughts to my guilt conscious, I ridden up her blouse a bit and apply medicine to her waist…. I can see well my finger prints in her waist…. I couldn’t stand to see her more…. I get up and went to bathroom…. I see my face on mirror…. I remember she spit on my face again and again and how is mand handle…. I fisted my hands and punch the mirror… The mirror broke to pieces like my heart… I never behave like this with anyone… It’s like she is my punching toys…. I can feel blood rush through my fingers and broken pieces of mirror stuck in my skin….. I couldn’t feel the pain… The physical pain compared to the emotional pain is more bearable….. I hear her voice again… So I went out to see her again….she had a nightmare I guess because she keep struggling in her sleep…. I feel so pity of her…. I quickly went beside her and sat down while patting her head…. She keep murmuring something like “no…. Dont…

Please…. No… Don’t tou…ch… Me…. I’m won’t do anything… Let me go….” With that I hug her sleeping form tightly and keep kiss her forehead while giving sothing words to her…. I feel she stop struggles after awhile…. I try to move from there but she hug me tightly… The more I try to loose her hold the more she tightened her grip on my shirt…. She snuggle more to me… I give up and I went to a deep and peaceful slumber after so long…..

The next day, I wake up due to the sun lights…. I wake up from bed to take shower…. When I try to wake up only found a small bandage on my hand…. With that previous day memories came to my attention…. I quickly search for her my whole house…. But I didn’t found her….I didn’t see her the following day also… A few months went by…. I trying to forget everything…. But I couldn’t….. I couldn’t forgive myself… I know it’s my fault…. I really hope I can meet her….I got search for her but I didn’t get to locate her….. even she didn’t file any case on me… It’s like she disappeared from the earth after that…..

This make me feel more guiltier….I hope one-day I able to ask her forgiveness….