Swasan- I fell in love with my rapist (OS)

Hi…..everyone… this is first os so ignore my mistake bt do tell me …..

Rabia api here is farewell gift…..ignore my mistakes ……nd plz don’t beat me fr this i can’t bear pain……nd also don’t think to kill me …..i m only daughter of my parents…………??

# A beautiful bride is sitting in front of mirror….. Her frnds r makin him ready……suddenly her one frnds Shout’s…… Swara baraat aa gayi( yes the girl is swara) all the girls went downstair to welcome barrat leaving our swara alone……

Swara wents to balcony to have a look of her lovely husband……after admiring him she came back to the room nd start thinking how all this happen

Swara pov.

today is my marriage…..its a love marriage……all my frnds r asking about my love story….. Bt i can’t tell them anything… Why……..mein unhe yeh kaise bataun ki hamari love story ki starting rape se hui……rape yes, rape jo kisi bhi ladki ki zindagi barbaad kar sakta hai……bt….me….it brings happiness in my life….. It brings my love……strange…..yes….i knw…that’s why i can’t tell anyone…. My parents also don’t knw about it…….in fact they don’t their would be son in law is my rapist…..i can’t tell them…. I cant hurt them……. i still remember that day………..7 august the day which change my life…………………

Like everyday i m going home after office…..i was walking on road when i saw a man who was sitting under a tree helplessly……. His hand was bleeding…. I thought to help him……i went to him nd ask….

Swara- ummm….do u need any hhelp…..r u okk

Man- ( shouts) go…go from here…i don’t need ur help

Swara- look ur hand is bleeding…. Let me see it….

Man- ( Shout’s in anger) i said go

Swara- ( in mind)okk it’s enough….i thought to help…. If he don’t want help….so what can i do

I start walking from……suddenly i feel a grip on my hand….. that man was holding my hand…..with strange eyes….because of darkness i m only able to see his eyes….his big brown eyes……..he was drunk….his voice is telling me…

Swara- what???

Man- where r u going baby…..

Swara- what??? Leave my hand u

Man- nt so easily….first u have to fulfill my lust….then u can go

Swara- ( gets scared) p…lz……z, plz..let me….g…go..

That man is draginig me inside the forest…..i was screaming fr help…iwas beating…. Her hand….bt all in vain…….he was so strong…….he dragged me under a tree nd start coming closer to me…..

Swara- please… Le…let..me go…plz

Man- how can i…..

Swara- pl…plz…do…don’t… Come close….plz….lemmme…go

But ……usse koi fark nahi padha vo mere pass aata jaa raha tha………. mein madad ke liye chilla rahi thi par koi fayada nahi use andhere jungle mein meri madad ke liye kaun aata………………….

.he comes to me nd start tearing my clothes…..i was pleading to him to leave me……….bt he was nt in his sense……..that time i can see lust in His eyes……nd….nd some kind of pain……….he has torn my clothes……he was scratching my body……playing with my dignity….. Nd…me…..i was numb…….i m nt in my sense……looking at sky…..cursing myself fr talking with him………………

After playing with my body……..after rapping me…….he throws my clothes on me………nd goes under a tree……i was crying silently…. my whole body was paining…. Bleeding….i wants to go from there….wants to wear my clothes….. But my body is nt allowing me….it was paining…. I tried to sit…..i see my body which has scratches all over….i touch them….they were paining………after few minutes i come to my sense…….crying bitterly on my condition………..

After sometime i stop crying nd see towards that man….he was sitting under a tree…..I can’t see his face….my pain… My screams………become anger….i shout at him…..

Swara-( while crying) u….u…ruined my life….u have no shame…….do u have any sense what u have done……

Man- yess, i knw bt i do wrong…..u all….want this….u girls…..always desires… This.. .u should be tthankful to me…..

Swara- chiii…..u how shameless u r …….mein aur ladkiyon ki tarah nahi huin…….sareef ladki huin mein…….( i keep scolding him fr his deeds )

I don’t knw how…..why….bt he realised his mistake….. He ask me to forgive him…..bt…is it so easy…..he ruined my life….how can i forgive him………..

Man- come i will drop u home……

Swara- no thanks…. I will go myself…

Man- look…..let me drop…u..

Swara- nno…..bt….please…take me out of this forest…. From there i will go my home …….

Man- okkk….come…..

I wear my extra cloths which i carty always in my bag…. Do some light makeup…..because if crying my eyes become red…… Dull face……mein nahi chahti thi mere parents ya koi aur mujhe use halat mein dekhe…….

Man- tum ladkiyan bhi kamal hho……make up itni achi tarah kiya hai ki lag hi nahi raha abhi itni der se tum roo rahi thi…..

Swara- can we go….

Look at my destiny….. Jisne mera rape kiya usi ke saath chalna padh raha hai.. …..usne mujhe jungle se safely bahar nikala…..weak tthi……girne se sambhala……chal nahi pai toh apni arms mein utha liya……pata nahi kyun par mujhe ab usse dar nahi lag raha tha…protective feel ho raha tha….hmmm.protective……par uska face ab bhi nahi dekha……

Finally i reach my home.. My parents were waiting fr me… Unse ankhe bacha kar unhe excuse diya aur apne room mein chali gayi ……….kuch der baad mere phone par ek phone aaya unknown number se…..

Swara- hello…

Os.- hello…swara….r u okk…

Swara- ( i recognised that voice….its rapist) who…r u

Os.- ummm….( with a chocked voice) who raped u

Swara- that’s it—- hw dare u to call….hw u knw my name……nd hw u get my number…

Os- i m sry swara….fr what i done….i m nt in my senses that time please…. forgive me if u can

Pov.ends

Amy- ( swara’s frnd) swara r u ready…..aunty is calling u

Swara- just a little touch up amy

Amy- okk i will come

Swara pov.

My thoughts get disturbed by amy…..where i m….yesss ……..he called mme……ask forgiveness nd cut the call………i went to bathroom to cry…….i don’t let my parents knw about…..it…..i switch on the shower nd start crying………my wounds….remembers me about…..his hands………..i don’t forgot this night ever…….

I kept crying fr three days……..mein apne room se bahar sirf dinnner ke liye aati thi….mere parents worried they …..mujhe kya ho gya hai …..mein unhe kya bataun……….in this 3 days the rapist continuously calls me nd ask about my health…..nd forgiveness…. But hw can i forgive…… Somehow his voice…..his care….his eye…… made me fall fr him….but is it so easy to forget everything…… Finally i switch off my mobile to control my feelings….

.. Days passed ….i m becoming normal again…..one day my parents were watching tv….when….i….saw …those eyes…..the….eyes of….my rapist …….he is a police officers….he has told me…..so…he is……what was his name he had tell me…..think swara think…. S….san……yesss….sanskar…..he is so smart…. What ???? ….stop ur nonsense swara….a news was flashing on tv…..that some…..criminal has kidnapped innocent children’s…… He….nd his team was trying to save them……..

If he is a gud person so why he do this to me…….now i want my answer…….. I switch on myphone nd dials his number……its…ringing…. Ughhhh….he is nt picking….. Oh….hw dumbo i m he is on a mission…. Hw can he pick my call….i drop a msg fr him…. That i want to meet him nd tells him place………..i was waiting desperately fr his reply at last after 3 hours his msg come okkk..

Next day i went to meet him nd throw my questions on him…..why u do this to me…..why u don’t kill me then…..
Why u drop me safely…… Why u call.me daily…..why do u care fr me dame it……

At next moment…….i feel a burning sensation on my face…..he slapped me…. why….

Sanskar- hw dare u say that i can kill u….look i nw i have a done a mistake…. Nt mistake…. A sin…bt please i m nt in my senses…

Swara- why sanskar…..why….

Sanskar- i loved a girl very mmuch….she was my life….bt she ……she cheated me nd….. that day i saw him sleeping with my frnd ……..i was broken….. I lost my trust on everyone……..i was drunk….then i saw u ……i thought every girl r like him only that’s why ……..please forgive me swara…..please….

Swara- leave it sanskar…..its past…i have forgiven uu…..

Sanskar- swara i want to say something……. I want to marry u……i m nt showing sympathy…… Actually i love u ……i fell fr ur innocence….. Ur pure heart…… I want to live a happy life……

Swara- sanskar u knw na its nt easy to forget that night….

Sanskar- i knw…i knw….please give me a chance….. Please ……..

swara- okkk sanskar…….i can see ur goodness…… Bt don’t think i can forget that day…..
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present
Amy- swara let’s go…..ur husband is waiting fr u ….

Swara- yesss
( while coming downstairs) nd nw i m going to marry……with my rapist…..i know i hve forgiven him……..that’s why i m thinking it nw……..because nw this rape chapter is closed…… Sanskar nd i have decided we will never talk about it……..

Our bright futher is waiting fr us……………….

Huuu….finally its completed…. Biggest task is writing an OS……….my fingers r paining nw…….. sry fr the hindi sentence……….

Rabia apiii ……..u knw ……i think……mein ab kabhi os nahi likungi…..it is very difficult to complete it in one shot……………nd u read it carefully nd then tell me howz it……….