SWASAN: ONLY FOR YOU [EPI-27]
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NOTE:- sorry for delaying the episode of swara’s mood swings but i am writing as per i am getting ideas in my head. but read this epi. it’s full of swasan.
flashback-
on dining table.
sanskar- so how’s the food.
swara- [acts like thinking and made bad faces] sanskar don’t cook from tomorrow.
sanskar- [sad] is it that bad. leave it.
he held swara’s plate to remove it and swara hit on his hand.
sanskar- why you hit me.
swara- who said you to remove my plate. [pointing one finger to him] don’t dare to touch my food. [all shocked by swara’s behaviour]
swara started eating.
sanskar – but the food isn’t nice then why are you eating.
swara- [while chewing] who said that food isn’t good. it’s awesome.
sanskar- [happily] really. then why you said me not to cook.
swara- because if you cook for me like this then you will have to cook for lifetime. i will never enter kitchen.[showed all her teeth]
sanskar was extremely happy that swara liked the food.
sanskar- [in happiness] no worries princess. do as you wish.
tanmay- [fake cough] ahhemm bhai don’t show me so much of love and romance in one day. i will faint. [swara blushed]
sanskar- [glaring tanmay] have your dinner.
uttara- bhai will you prepare breakfast, lunch and dinner for bhabhi everyday.
sanskar – no uttara everytime its not possible but sometimes when i am free i will surely do and not only for swara but for you all too. how is the food by the way.
uttara- very nice.
they all had dinner happily.
in swasan room
swara was standing near window waiting for sanskar. sanskar came in the room and saw swara standing at the window and went to her.
wrapping his hand around her shoulder he stood beside her.
swara- life is so unpredictable naa.
sanskar- hmmm. i still feel that i am dreaming. i am not able to believe that i am going to be a father and will hold my baby in my arms in few months.
swara- me too.
swara- sanskar i want to say you something.
sanskar- hmmm.
swara turned to sanskar completely and tip toed and holding sanskar’s shoulder by one hand and the other hand on his cheek. she gently kissed on sanskar’s forehead. sanskar smiled on swara’s act.
swara- i love you.
sanskar- [holding swara by waist] i love you too. [paused] you wanted to say this.
swara- i want to tell you something more. [sanskar was looking at her] [directly looking into sanskar’s eyes] you know today while talking to tanmay i realised something which i want to tell you.
sanskar- [confused and questioning look] what.
swara- answer me some questions ok.
sanskar- hmmm.
swara- listen to me calmly. [sanskar nodded] you know when i left you when kavita returned i felt that i gave my life to someone. i was no more left in me. but later when we confessed and decided to marry and all that crap by kavita and urvashi massi was done then i feared to lose you. i never felt like that before for anyone, not even laksh. at that time i only wanted you.
swara- i am not able to explain you what i am trying to say or what i felt. it’s just that now i have realised that you are not only my true love but first love too. i don’t know why i am saying this but i wanted to say this that what i felt for laksh was i guess mere attraction, infatuation that’s it. it was not love for sure. although i don’t have anything for him now and these talks are of no use but ifelt like to say this to you. i hope you are understanding what i am trying to say.
swara looked at him hopefully and he hugged her.
sanskar- swara i know all this before you said me because i have gone through this realization before itself. that time when kavita returned i was not at all happy. although i lived five years away from my family just in the thought that i loved her but actually i didn’t. i only love you.
swara breaking the hug.
swara- [excitedly] yaa right.i discovered this fact too that i am not only your true love but first love too. remember when i fell from cliff you knew that nothing happened to me. you could feel that i am alive and you did not feel like this for kavita. that means i am only love of your life.
sanskar was just looking at her excitement and smiling. he too kissed her forehead and hugged her.
sanskar- yes swara i only love you. and you are my life, my everything.
swara too hugged him tightly.
after few minutes they broke the hug and were staring each other. swara then closed her eyes and sang a line
swara- AANKHEN BAND KARKE JO EK CHEHRA NAZAR AAYA
WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM , WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM.
[swara opened her eyes to see sanskar and saw him smiling and staring her with love. she too smiled back looking him with love.]
sanskar- [AAKHEN BAND KARKE JO EK CHEHRA NAZAR AAYA]*2
WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM, WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM
[JISSE PYAR KARTE HI DIL KO MERE KARAR AAYA]*2
WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM, WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM
[sanskar too started singing to express his love, his affection, his desire to love her]
swara- [AANKHEN BAND KARKE JO EK CHEHRA NAZAR AAYA]
[WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM]*2
[swara caressed his cheeks with her soft handsand then kept her head on his chest, hugging him]
sanskar- [TUM HI JAANE JANA MERE PYAR KA SAPNA
DIL NE MERE MANA DILBAR TUMHE APNA]*2
[MERE YAAR PE]*2 HAI MUJKO BADA HI NAAZ
[MERI CHAHATO SE TUM]*2 NAA KARNA KABHI AITRAAZ
[sanskar sang the above lines while caressing swara’s hairs while swara was smiling and felt the warmth of his embrace]
swara- [AAKHEN BAND KARKE JO EK CHEHRA NAZAR AAYA]*2
[WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM]*2
[swara with closed eyes still hugging him sang these lines.]
swara- [ZINDAGI HAI TUJHSE MERA ISHQ KEHTA HAI
TU MERI SAANSON ME HAR WAQT REHTA HAI]*2
[MERA KHWAB TU]*2 HAI TU HI MERI PARWAZ
[MERI CHAHATO SE TUM]*2 NAA KARNA KABHI AITRAAZ
[swara parted from him and looked him lovingly. she turned and brought his hands from side of her waist and kept on her belly and held them tight looking as if sanskar is back hugging her. sanskar placed his chin on her shoulder and kissed on her hair]
sanskar- [AANKHEN BAND KARKE JO EK CHEHRA NAZAR AAYA ]*2
[WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM]*2
swara- [JISSE PYAR KARTE HI DIL KO MERE KARAR AAYA]*2
[WO TUMHI HO AE SANAM]*2
[swasan sang these parts while closing their eyes and stood there for sometime like that]
sanskar- swara now we should sleep. come.
sanskar took swara to bed and made her lie down on bed. he kept pillows on the side of bed and then went he went on other side and then kept pillows between them and slept on the extreme side of bed. swara looked at him with wide eyes.
swara- [sat up] sanskar why have you kept pillows around me and this pillow in between us.
sanskar- i kept pillows that side so that you don’t fall in your sleep and in between us so that i don’t hit you or come over you in my sleep. if you suffocate then. i can’t take risk on your and baby’s health.
swara- [got angry and threw a pillow on sanskar] how dare you
sanskar- [catching he pillow] what happened? why you are angry.
swara- because you are a fool.
swara threw all the pillows down the bed.
sanskar- aree why are you throwing them down.
swara- shut up
she pulled him and said gritting her teeth– from next time if you do like this then i will not throw it down but on your head.
swara pushed him and he fell on the bed all shocked.
sanskar-woahh.
swara angrily glared him and laid on his chest pulling the comforter upto her neck.
sanskar- swara..[interrupted]
swara- sanskar think before you speak. you know your embrace is the safest place for me and our baby. how can you keep pillows in between us. i hate you.
sanskar felt his t-shirt wet and realised that swara is crying and felt guilty.
sanskar- princess i am sorry. i am so sorry, please don’t cry.
he slowly and carefully rolled and now swara was beneath him while he balanced his weight on his hands not to hurt swara. swara was hugging him and sobbing.
sanskar- swara look at me.
swara didn’t but finally on sanskar’s insistence parted and looked at him still holding his t-shirt. sanskar rested himself on her side and cupped her face.
sanskar- i am sorry. i thought that will be better for both of you. i had no intention to hurt you. i am really sorry.
sanskar wiped her tears and kissed on her forehead.
swara- sanskar don’t ever put these pillow in between us. i don’t want anything. baby and me wants only your love and a bit of your attention, nothing else. we feel protected when you wrap your arms around us. sleeping in your embrace is the best place to sleep without any worries. never take this right from me for any foolish reason of yours because no reason could satisfy me for being away from you.
sanskar- i am sorry. i will never do it again.
swara- sanskar [looking at his chest in shyness] k…….kis..s……me.
sanskar first shocked and then smiled. he held her chin and moved her face up. she has lowered her gaze in shyness.
sanskar- swara look at me.
swara did not look at him. so sanskar kissed on her eyes and swara smiled.
sanskar- swara look at me please.
swara finally looked at him and they had a passionate eyelock.
sanskar- [huskily] what did you say?
swara- [again looking away] k……k.i..s.s
sanskar smiled and then rubbed her lips with his thumb. swara closed her eyes and breathed heavily. sanskar leaned closer and more closer and swara felt his hot breath on her lips. she shivered and finally their lips met and moulded into a perfect kiss. swara’s hand moved on his neck and then she fisted his hair. they were kissing tenderly and finally broke apart panting.
before sanskar could open his eyes and look at her, swara again placed her lips on his and kissed shocking him. swara was sucking his lips and licked his lower lip. sanskar was not responding initially finally gave in feeling the intensity of her kiss.
when they broke this time and opened their eyes simultaneously swara felt his gaze but this time along with love, surprise could also be seen in his eyes. [why not swara rarely takes initiative]
swara immediately hugged him hiding her face in his chest feeling shy. sanskar too smiled at her boldness and then on her shy nature. he too hugged her and putting blanket over them.
they were resting but both were not getting sleep.
swara- sanskar are you still awake.
sanskar- hmm. why didn’t you sleep.
swara- what can i do if i am not getting sleep.
sanskar- same here.
swara- talk something naa.
sanskar- what should we talk about.
swara- [thinking for a while] baby. tell me how are you feeling about baby.
sanskar- [smiled] the best feeling in my life was loving you and now is that i am going to be a father and my love is my child’s mother. in other words i am having the best feeling for you being mother of my child.
swara blushed on his answer.
sanskar- [smirk] don’t blush or else i will lose my control.
swara- [slightly hitting him] don’t be shameless. you are going to be a father of a child.
sanskar- look who is saying [huskily] who kissed me now again surprising me and by the way madam our baby is the result of my shamelessness. [proudly] so you should be proud of me.
swara- [blushing hard] sanskar please.
sanskar- ok ok now i won’t make you blush.
swara- sanskarr [sanskar giggled]
sanskar- accha accha ok. waise i was the first to talk to my baby. i am sure my baby will recognise me first and love me more.
swara- [looked at him surprised] when?
sanskar- you were unconscious that time.
swara- this is not fair, this is cheating. i was unconscious and you took advantage. you talked to our baby.[pout]
sanskar- what could have i done? you were in the effect of medicines and i was eager to tell you the news but couldn’t and so shared my problem and eagerness with baby and also told that how much i love our baby.
swara- [pout] i haven’t talked to baby yet.
sanskar- so what are you waiting for. talk now.
swara got excited and happy.
she kept hand on her stomach.——
swara- baby this is mumma. today i got to know about you. i am very happy. i am waiting to hold you in my arms and play with you. mumma loves you a lot and since you are inside me so tell your papa that you will recognise me first and love me more as without knowing also you had first connection with mumma.
swara showed tongue to sanskar while his eyes widen hearing swara as she was absolutely correct. seeing his condition she laughed while he made a pout.
swara- haha sanskar see yourself. accha jokes apart. [cupped his face] baby will love us equally or may be love you more.
sanskar- [confused and innocently] how?
swara- since baby had direct or indirect first connection with me so till now baby would have known that mumma loves papa more than anything and baby would have started loving you like i do.
sanskar was extremely happy hearing this.
sanskar kissed on swara’s belly and placing his hands on her belly.
sanskar- papa loves you too and your mumma also. you and your mumma are my everything. just come fast.
he again kissed on her belly while a lone tear escaped his eyes which he wiped immediately but it was noticed by swara. he came above and gave a light peck on her lips.
sanskar- i love you swara.
sanskar hugged her tight and she reciprocated.
swara- i love you too.
sanskar- princess come on now sleep. it’s quite late and not good for your health. good night
swara- haan good night.
swara- [in mind] why he cried. will talk about this later.
done with this part.
precap- special episode.