Sorry friends for no swasan scenes in previous two episodes. Because I wanted to give them a proper track not just as extra scenes. Soon, I will start their track from this episode .Thanks for your support friends…
Episode 45:
In Ooty,
At Shekar’s house terrace, The same night,
“what are you thinking,Laksh?”Ragini stood beside him and kept a glass of hot milk in his hand.
“Nothing…”Laksh answered and sipped milk which flavored the hotness inside his food path.
“hmmhmm?”Ragini expressed her unwillingness in a sound and sipped her glass of milk.
Laksh let a smile out by hearing her tone.
“Just thinking about our life, Sahi”Laksh said by looking at a endless point then sipped his milk a bit.
Ragini looked at him.
“what about our life?”Ragini asked by helding his hand supportively.
“It’s not particularly… just random… how I mistrusted my Papa… How I endup with you… How Our love story started… How my friendship with Sahil started… How I lost sa…”Laksh stopped.
Ragini put her head on Laksh’s shoulder.
“Have you ever heard Swara’s quote? Our beloved ones never leaves us Laksh, either they will see us a star or come back in our life in any form.”Ragini said.
Laksh let a smile again by remembering Swara.
“why did you chose to live here,Laksh?”Ragini asked by deviating him.
Laksh turned and looked at her.
“This is the place where we started our life really,Sahi! We might be started our life in our house but not really. This is the place which taught us what’s the life and responsibilities are… this is the place where we started to support each other in our hard times… This is the place where our beautiful memory resides…your soul resides… your happiness ,sadness, anger resides…”Laksh said.
“And I thought This place would help you realize what’s you are… and Be frank, I couldn’t help myself what attachment I have this place… But ,it makes me feel light…”Laksh said by looking far again and sipped his milk.
Ragini smiled at his word but his eyes hid his sadness in depth… This place made him feel light by giving a lot of heaviness inside his heart… The memories which was haunting him in the core like a slow poison and the wonder his heart accepted it.
Ragini glanced at him for a moment as she felt there was a virtual thin layer between them… Laksh understood her feelings irrespective of time for what she proud of. But , she wanted to understand what’s in laksh’s heart… she wanted to understand his feelings as he do… Her heart desperately wanted to remove all the barriers between then including the layer… Her heart wanted to break it but she felt that layer was becoming harder to break it… But the sadful part that the persons who could remove it not in a state to think about it; one left the world while another forget about him; Meanwhile the remaining two didn’t know what’s his brother was going through.
“How is Swara?”Laksh asked suddenly by seeing two stars in the sky .
“She is good and She is pregnant now”Ragini said while Laksh smiled happily by hearing the news.
“And Aadi?”Laksh asked further.
“he also… he and Uttara are leading a normal life now”Ragini said.
“Can we go to Kolkata to see them?”Ragini asked.
“No need,Sahi”Laksh spelled in a calm voice while Ragini just nodded.
Laksh heard a sound from downside and he rushed to see.
Ragini looked at the way Laksh left.
“why, Laksh? I know how much you long for your family. May be my soul resides in this house. But, your soul resides with our family… their happiness… And, I will make you return to our family, Laksh… I want to see your heartful smile which only based on your happiness”Ragini thought and stepped down towards hall.
In Kolkata,
“Laksh’s mind is completely different, Sanskar… The shock of witnessing our parents death has created a irreversible damage in his subconscious mind… whatever the mishap happens in his beloved one’s life , he would be the reason… Such a thought sown in his depth of subconscious mind because his subconscious mind belived that he trusted the killer at that time and came out of his hide out which resulted in our maa’s death. Though it’s not, His mind trusts that blindly still now. To save him from such a guilt, His mind kept his memories hidden. He started to live as your brother… as a son of Maheshwari family but the thought in his subconscious mind couldn’t fade away easily, Sanskar.”Amrit’s face cringed..
Sanskar looked at Amrit’s face , held his hand and signed him to continue.
“He may looked hard , bit playful and insensitive in past. But, it’s not . Inside he is so sensitive and anyone can break him easily though his mind tried a lot to make him look strong. And the miseries started. He went to jail by mistrusting badepapa. You might have wondered why he never tried to confront Badepapa”Amrit said.
“Because he couldn’t take revenge against us as it’s his family and he can’t see our family broken which was already broken at that time…”Sanskar said.
“That’s all a part,Sanskar. He could have confront badepapa about those lies but he didn’t because in his subconscious mind, Badepapa is his father… it’s registered like that… Being not able to choose his mind and subconscious mind, he chose his subconscious mind and went to jail and gave the properties… because of that guilt…”Amrit stopped as he saw Sanskar’s cringed face.
“His struggle never ended at that point itself. He married Ragini and started a fresh life For him, She is not his wife only; his base; his world; His only reason to live; His solace for all his pain; Her love made him like that and her family become his family; The love which they showed made him believe that was his own family; Swara is like his sister while Sahil is like his son. . But that doesn’t long. That lady entered in their life, everything messed up. Laksh’s mind again hid his memories but not Ragini’s memory flashes. Do you know which made Laksh walk in a death path at that time? Ragini’s memories… Without her , His subconscious mind shouldn’t live while His mind hid her memories to save him… To make him live… But, Their love didn’t let him forget about her. After long struggle ,He revived his memories of his married life which made his situation worse because of you…”Amrit stopped.
“You are not only his brother his soul friend while Uttara is more than a sister to him. when he lost his memories about you, he got to know that lady tried to kill him and his Ragini. She planned to destroy your life by using Laksh’s anger. She told him that she tried to kill him to get all the properties on her grandchild’s name.”Amrit said.
“Laksh should thought her grandchild was me.”Sanskar gasped.
“yeah Sanskar! Do you remember once police tried to arrest you for murder attempt of Laksh? Laksh framed you in this as even he would be dead , she shouldn’t win. He even insulted badepapa a lot of times by this thought in his mind. He couldn’t speak openly because he wasn’t even able to accept the thoughts which he had about that lady.”Amrit said while Sanskar remembered their Golguppa chat on that day.
“No Ammu, you are mistaken… Though he lost his memory, his love and concern never changed for me”Sanskar said.
Amrit let a meaningful smile.
“His love and concern for you , it’s not changed. But, His revenge and pain were more powerful at that time. The pain he saw in your face, not only forced him to save you at that day even he understood at that day, he couldn’t do anything against you. But, Revenge is always powerful Sanskar. And the first prey for his revenge, Devan… Laksh was the one who really attacked him at that day while I just killed him in the hospital… being struggle between his revenge and his love for his family, his mental state started to worse. Even I was scared to lose him… I was scared that he might endup with broken memory… Fortunately, he got his memory back … At that time ,we all thought Uttara was dead… and Laksh was also the one who witnessed her slip from cliff while saving Ragini… laksh was the one who had a bitter memory with her while his stay on Ooty… Her struggles to get him back to your house put him in a deep guilt while ragini’s separation made it’s even worse… At that time, His mind decided to end his life as it couldn’t handle more pain… But, A tragedy was happened which even didn’t let him to think further… Sahil’s death…”Amrit stopped as he saw tears in Sanskar’s eyes.
“His subconscious mind pointed him to hold responsibility for Sahil’s death as he was the one who hid the truth about that lady… as he scared about your and Swara’s life… But, His subconscious mind pointed that he hid because he scared about your life, his brother’s married life… because of his selfishness for his brother’s life, he became main reason of Sahil’s death… Thoughts are more powerful,Sanskar… It can make worst condition to be good or viceversa … The pain he tried to handle at that time, it’s so over for him… he just needed a person to share his pain ,But there was no one with him and Ragini left him… Ragini’s decision made his thoughts stronger including his pain. Even our mind can handle a limit of pain , he crossed his threshold… what I was scared, it happened … He went to coma even he came out of coma, his memory was broken into pieces… His mind made him stay away from his family just to save him from pain …Only he remembered about Ragini, because of his love and Sahil, because of his deep driven guilt in his heart… The Little Sahil became his life and source of happiness in these past years. But now…”Amrit let a tear out from his eyes and then wiped once he observed.
“He remember everything… From his own parent’s death to Sahil’s death… His pain is back which haunts him to the core… it made a wall which even Ragini couldn’t break now… Only Ragini’s presence with him motivate him to him live… to enjoy his small small happiness now … and ,He decide to detach himself from your house because he felt that he doesn’t deserve a place in your house… But deep inside, he don’t have any confidence. He is living a life by fooling others with his smile while a dark sadness occupied in his heart ”Amrit sat on a chair in garden.
“And there is another one truth he don’t know. The little Sahil, whom he was growing up as his son, that Sahil is really Uttara’s son”Amrit looked at Sanskar who was shocked.
After 15 minutes,
“when that truth comes out, I don’t know how will Laksh subconscious mind react… which way it will lead him… I can’t take risk… But, Still There is a way to reduce his pain by making him stay in MM… because, it’s his house… we can remove his guilt but that’s in your hand. But, Uttara will be in pain as even her son Sahil will be nearby , she has to stay away from him as she won’t let that truth out easily… you have to make the choice Sanskar”Amrit stood as he was leaving.
Sanskar sat on the chair and held his head.
In Ooty,
In Shekar’s house,
Sahil and Sathya were fighting with each other with spatula in their hand as swords sincerely while flour was spreaded over the floor and also their body.
Laksh let a smile while Ragini also smiled by seeing that.
“what are you both doing?”Laksh asked while walking towards them while Ragini followed laksh.
Sahil and Sathya bot hid their spatula’s back and gave a puppy face by seeing Ragini and Laksh.
“So,what are you both doing?”Laksh raised his eyes with a hard voice.
Sathya looked at him a bit scared while Sahil facepalmed himself by seeing Sathya’s face.
“Papa, will you join with us?”Sahil asked by pointing the spatula at Laksh.
“oh!”Ragini registered her presence and stood beside Laksh. Sahil let a sheepish smile.
“Voh maa!”Sahil stammered a bit.
Laksh smiled broadly by looking at his sons face.
“Ohh! My little champs”Laksh muttered and took his sons in his hands. In the swing, Sathya and Sahil left their spatula which resulted in a sound but none was seemed to bother about it.
“won’t you get sleep?”Ragini asked by caressing their face while Sahil sneezed because of flour which was followed by Sathya then Laksh.
Sahil and Sathya again let out a sheepish smile by seeing flour in Ragini and Laksh’s face.
RagLak looked at each other for an instance and let out a big laugh along with their children.
In Kolkata,
“Sanskar…”A soothing voice filled Sanskar’s ears while a supporting hands held his shoulder.
“Swara..!”Sanskar surprised to see her at this time in garden.
“It’s so cold here… Go inside”Sasnkar said in a authorative voice at the same time Swara smiled by observing his worry about her health.
“Then what about you,Sanskar?”She asked by handing him a jacket.
Sanskar looked at the jacket questioningly.
“I want to go out.Let’s go”Swara said in a same authorative tone which Sanskar used before.
Sanskar let out a smile.
“Won’t you miss your oggy now?”Sanskar asked .
Swara’s face became red while she pushed him a bit.
“Ok, I will tell Annu maa that his son doesn’t take care of his pregnant wife’s small wishes”Swara said with a fake angry tone and turned slowly.
Sanskar held her hand to stop her and then hugged her from back.
“Swara, it’s not telling; It’s complaining”Sanskar corrected while Swara hit in his stomach lightly by her elbow.
“whatever it is! You are not ready to fulfill my small wish. Don’t talk with me”Swara said.
Sanskar turned her face and pinched her nose.
“Let’s go. Wait! I will take car key”Sanskar said and started to walk while Swara held his hand.
Sanskar looked at her questioningly while Swara shown the key in her hand and signed Sanskar to see the key.
Sanskar smiled by seeing Swara’s expressions
Swara sat on the front seat carefully by holding her baby bump while Sanskar helped her to sit.Then,Sanskar sat on the driver seat and started the car.
In Ooty,
Laksh bathed Sahil first then started to bath Sathya.
“Oh My champ… next time, when you want to play, call me also… do you know your papa is very good in spatula fight and also in pillow fight?”Laksh said while Sathya opened his mouth in surprise.
Laksh smiled by seeing Sathya’s expression.
“Really?”Sathya asked while Laksh just nodded.
Sathya smiled broadly.
“and Papa wants a promise.”Laksh asked while putting soap.
“what Papa?”Sathya asked.
“either you do right or wrong, you shouldn’t hide anything from me. you shouldn’t hesitate to tell me what you are thinking or your wish. Promise?”Laksh asked a bond which could come by naturally.
Sathya thought for a minute then placed his small palm on Laksh’s palm.
Laksh finished his bath , covered him with towel and then sent to Ragini.
In Kolkata,
In Sanskar’s car,
SwaSan were silent while Sanskar was so busy in driving and thinking about Laksh and swara was looking outside.
“what are you thinking,Sanskar?”Swara asked by comforting herself.
“Nothing,Swara…”Sanskar said.
“if you don’t want to tell that you are thinking about your brother, then it’s ok”Swara said casually by looking outside again.
Sanskar stared her in shock.
“Don’t stare me .Drive carefully or stop the car on side”Swara said without turning.
Sanskar stopped on the side.
“How did you know?”Sanskar asked in the doubt that she might have overheard the conversation.
Swara looked at him concernedly while her hands automatically caressed his face.
“I don’t need your words to understand your feelings,Sanskar.”Swara said casually.
A feeling to hug her urged in Sanskar’s mind but Sanskar stared her with moist eyes.
Swara looked at his eyes while her eyes conveyed her love.
Sanskar kissed her forehead while Swara lost herself in his love. Sanskar got back to his seat.
“Sanskar, I know you are missing your brother. I don’t know what happened. But A lot of things can be solved by talking. Just give a try.”Swara said while icecream vendor crossed them in his tri cycle.
“Sanskar, I want Ice cream”Swara said.
“Not now Swara. it’s already cold . it’s not good for you and baby. we will eat tomorrow morning”Sanskar said .
Swara nodded with a sad face while Sanskar turned his car.
In Aadi’s house,
“I am very happy ,Uttu”Aadi swinged Uttara while speaking then made her stand.
Uttara observed at his overflowing happiness and then smiled.
“I am so much happy today,Uttu. Do you know when I and dadu were went out, How much he was happy? I am feeling that I get everything today whatever I want though I miss…”Aadi stopped then changed his topic.
“Uttu, why can’t we go to your house?”Aadi asked while Uttara looked at him being numb by his question.
“what Aadi?”Uttara asked to get clarified.
“I asked why we can’t go to your house. even I wanted to apologize for marrying you without their concern and …”Aadi stopped .
Uttara looked at his face where his happiness went away without any trances.
“you didn’t do anything wrong with them,Aadi. yes, you have to apologize to them for what you said not for what you are thinking.”Uttara said in a strict tone.
Aadi put a smile in his face then hugged Uttara tightly.
“Ok, Let’s sleep. From next week, I will come to our office. “Aadi said while Uttara held his hand.
“I want to speak about our son,Aadi.”Uttara said .
Aadi hugged her a little by seeing pain in her eyes. Even it’s painful to lose his son . Aadi patted her shoulder slowly which started to break her.. His concern.
“He didn’t die,Aadi. I gave him to be the reason for my bhai’s life.”Uttara said in a void voice.
Aadi shocked by her words while his grip loosened by her words.
In Swasan room at MM,
“where did he go?”Swara thought and looked at the door then the clock.
“Swara be there in room.I will come in ten minutes”Sanskar word while leaving her in MM echoed in her mind.
“He told me that he will come in ten minutes. But still…”Swara thought then Sanskar entered their room.
“where did you go?”Swara asked.
Sanskar showed icecream cup in his hand.
Swara’s anger melted a little .
“Is this important at this time? Do you know how much I am worried?”Swara asked by taking ice cream cup in her hand.
“if you don’t want , give it to me”Sanskar said intensionally.
“you made me tensed. I am cooling myself. Go Go!”Swara signed as she was trying to make a puppy away from her.
Sanskar smiled then Swara also smiled.
“Take a spoon, Otherwise I will get a stomach pain.”Swara said a lame excuse while Sanskar kissed her lips lightly.
Sanskar licked his lips .”Swara, do you know this ice cream indeed very tasteful. Even I don’t trust that vendor words. But, it seems to be true”Sanskar said with a smirk while ice cream cup fall down from Swara’s hand in shock.
“you monkey donkey sanky! How could you kiss me in a sudden? Because of you, My ice cream was also fall down”Swara hit him with pillows then Sanskar showed another ice cream cup.
“no you eat yourself. I am going to sleep.”Swara said while laying on the bed. Sanskar kept the ice cream on the mini fridge which he had on his room.
Sanskar lay beside Swara while Swara put her head on his arms without turning.
“Swara… “Sanskar called slowly.
“Tonight sleep like this without seeing my face. How could you kissed me suddenly?”Swara asked.
“It’s not my mistake. You look so pretty while eating ice cream.”Sanskar said.
Swara smiled at his chessy line.
“I won’t fall for your cheesy lines”Swara twisted her lips while Sanskar let a smile out.
After ten minutes,
Swara turned and saw Sanskar fall asleep.
“Kumbhkarn! My Sweet kumbhkarn…”Swara smiled at her thought.
Swara looked at the lines in Sanskar’s forehead.
“Never be Sad,Sanskar. I can’t see your sadness though you were smiling for me.I wish to remove your reason for your worries and sadness “Swara muttered and then hugged him by thinking he was sleeping.
Sanskar opened his eyes slowly once he confirmed Swara fall asleep. In these five years, he never let her to know about his pain or worries. By putting a happy face mask on his face, He always reciprocated her love. But now, she was penetrating his mask that much easily.
“I will never my worries and pain affect you,Swara”Five years before, This is the promise which he made himself while he left Kolkata with Swara.
“Rakchashi! My pyarri rakshashi!”Sanskar cursed her while making her hair strands correctly.
He thought about so many things but his mind was so relaxed now… he felt a confident building up inside him with Swara’s presence . She was his strength while his brother and sister were the another. The trio was so important to him .Sanskar closed his eyes being determined about his decisions.
In Aadi’s room,
“Everyone wanted a reason to live,Aadi. My reason of living is my Lucky, Aadi. but , My Lucky lost that reason. Everyone left his hand . I wanted someone to hold his hand for his life long .I wanted someone to beside him as his reason to live… as his strength… And, I made our son as his son…”uttara said in the same void voice.
“I know I did injustice with you… I separated our son from you… But , I can’t take our son back. I gave pain to you.”Uttara continued while Aadi pressed her shoulders .
“Then, what about your pain,Uttara? You are his mother. In these four years, you might have spent all your time by worrying about our son. Is he ill or good? Is he ate or not? how is he?”Aadi stopped while Uttara hugged him tightly and started to cry badly.
“you did what you thought correct at that time,Uttu. We can’t change it. But about our son…”Aadi stopped as his phone was ringing.
Aadi wiped his tears by seeing Ragini’s photo on the screen.
“Hello Ragomaa…”Aadi spelled.
“Aadi… are you ok?”Ragini asked by sensing sadness in his voice.
“I am perfectly fit and fine, Rago maa… Tell me, how is Sathya? Even he didn’t call me once. Tell him that I won’t speak with him.”Aadi asked.
“you and your Sathya take care of yourself. I won’t do the mistake by being a messanger to you both again.”Ragini smiled by her memories.
“maa, is it Aadi?”Sathya asked on another side for what Ragini nodded.
“Hi Athu! I miss you a lot”Sathya screamed over the phone.
“But it doesn’t seem to be Sathu! You even didn’t call me once”Aadi complained.
“what can I do?Maa strictly said that I shouldn’t disturb you until she let me to talk with you. do you know I saw my choti and papa. and ,I want to see you…”Sathya voice drop down at the last sentence.
“even I want to see you,Sathu! Don’t worry, your Athu will come to meet you soon”Aadi promised while Ragini took the phone in her hand.
“Aadi, I am very happy for you. Dadu shared me everything. I want share another happy news to you.”Ragini said.
“what is that,Rago maa?’Aadi asked.
“There is another new member in our family…Sahil… My son Sahil Lakshya Maheshwari.”Ragini walked towards Rooftop to speak alone with Aadi.
“Sahil Lakshya Maheshwari?”Aadi asked being bit shocked.
“Haan Aadi… he is not only my Laksh’s life . He is also my son,Aadi. Laksh didn’t complete any adopting terms properly. And , I don’t want any loose holes in that. I can’t lose my son at any cost,Aadi. I want to secure our rights over him. can you take care of these procedures ?”Ragini said without knowing what she was asking.
Aadi closed his eyes tightly .
“I will do, rago maa..”Aadi muttered.
“Aadi, can I talk with Uttara? She must be so angry on me. And , her anger is correct.”Ragini said.
“She is sleeping Ragomaa. Don’t worry, your friend will understand you.”Aadi said.
“It’s midnight naa. I am mad in my happiness. “Ragini said .
“Maa…”Sahil called her while Aadi also heard his voice over the phone.
“Sahil…”His lips automatically muttered while Uttara looked at him .
“Aadi, I think Sahil is searching for me . I will call you tomorrow morning… good night”Ragini said over the phone .
“Rago maa want to secure her rights on her son ,Sahil.”Aadi said to uttara.
Both of their eyes spoke a lot which their words can’t express.
“Let them live happily with their sons.”Uttara said by wiping her tears. Aadi stood beside her and held her hands.
Being decided to start a life long struggle, both held each other hand to support each other.
In Ooty,
Ragini climbed down towards hall and stood beside Laksh.
“what happened to them, today? Why are they not sleeping upto now?”Ragini and Laksh muttered at the same time.
“Maa.. Papa … Let’s play…”Sathya and Sahil said while clock strucked at 12 in the night.
“No way…”Ragini and Laksh muttered by seeing each other , took their naughty sons in their hands and then walked towards their bed.
Precap:Countdown 6…5…
A/N
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