‘i must you have become more successful… That’s why the great sanskar maheshwary is traveling in train…’ i said sarcastically…
He gives half smile and shook his head : i was a looser… I am a looser and will always be…
He says looking straight into my eyes… I feel he is new… He is another sanskar…
Soon he bow his head… Though we lived together for 1. 5 years but all i knew he never ever bow his head… For the 1st time i am seeing him bowing head…
He slowly goes out… Suddenly train stops in a small station… Our love birds means raglak returns ..
Ragini (sadly) : swara di… Train will stay here for 3 hours…
I was shocked : 3 hours but why??
Laksh : wo line is not clear…
Ragini is upset…
Laksh : jaan don’t get sad…
He was trying to fine her mood…i Look at them smilingly remembering mine days with sanskar…. Just then i saw sanskar standing near door with pale face… He looks at me… Our eyes convening there pain… He goes out… I can’t control anymore runs to washroom crying hard…
When i came out see him standing near door looking at something deeply… I slowly stands beside him and looks at his direction… I saw a father and his 10 years old daughter playing…
I remember the day…
Flashbacks….
Sanskar will go for business trip… He is packing when he heard vomiting sound from bathroom … He goes towards the door worriedly. .
Sanskar : jaan…
Swara comes out wiping her face total tired…
Sanskar : jaan.. It’s 5th time… It’s only 9am and you vomit 5 times…
Swara (hugs him) : it’s ok sanskar… I am fine… You go… Do your packing …
Sanskar : no first we will go to doctor.
Swara : not needed i am…
Before she could complete she Fainted… Sanskar Feeling her full weight place her on bed and call doctor… Doctor came and declared she is pregnant…
Sanskar squeals with joy and hugs swara tightly….
That day night is his flight…
Swara and he was sitting on bed hugging each other…
Sanskar : take care of my princess…
He placed his hand on her tummy…. Swara kiss his cheek…
Swara : hubby ji… It’s Prince…
Sanskar nodes in no vigorously… : princess… Papa’s girl…
Saying this he kissed her tummy…
Swara : is this necessary to go sanskar… I need you…
Sanskar kiss her forehead… He also don’t wanna go but he has to… He hugs her tightly…
Sanskar : i will try to come as soon as possible promise….
Fb end…
My eyes fills with tears… I look at sanskar who is already looking at her… As soon as our eyes met… Sanskar lower his gaze and goes away..
Swara’s pov end…
Swara was sitting on a chair on the station… Suddenly she feels someone beside her… She looks and find sanskar…
Sanskar : eat something swara…
Swara chuckles : wow mr maheshwary… Suddenly you become so caring…
Sanskar didn’t said anything…
Swara : and why the great mr sanskar maheshwary traveling via train…
Sanskar : i transfer whole property on rajat’s name…
Swara is shocked…
Sanskar : i have many things to say swara… But have none… Will you listen…
He looks at swara with teary eyes… Swara feels her heart stabbed… She nodes… Both goes to train room… Raglak was already not there…
Sanskar : i was 11 years old when mom died… Dad brings chhoti ma… After 2 years rajat born… And then after 5 years chhoti… Swara chhoti ma never ever liked me… When i was 21 years old dad died and before dying he told me to take care of chhoti ma and her children… I promised him… He transferred whole property on my name…. Swara after Papa’s death they became more violent… No they never beat me but they started silent torture… Swara they never talked to me… Swara those 4 years was so dreadful… I also want some love, love touch… I became selfish swara… I marry you cause i was so alone… That room seems like it’s trying to gulping me… Swara i know you also have some dreams about marriage but i was helpless… Swara what do you think i had no sorrow about our child… Swara you felt her for 2 months swara but i… I didn’t… That day not only you but i too lost… When you told to choose one… I being selfish tried to stop you again… I being coward looser i chose them… Cause i thought about baba’s promise not yours… I was coward swara… I was afraid to face my father after my death… I am sorry… About 6 months before rajat turned in to 24… I transferred whole property on their name and as expected they deny to take my responsibility… Swara believe me i wanted to finish myself… I had none… But i just wanted your forgiveness… I just want to tell you sorry… I am sorry… I searched you everywhere swara… I am still alive for this only… I am doing a job as a manager in xyz company… I needed money for survival and also to find you… I never thought to cheat you… I always love you swara… Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena…
Swara listen all this with teary eyes…
Swara : is your sorry bring my baby back… Bring my those days… Sanskar in human’s life some moments come for only one time… That will never return if you ruin that moment… And your sorry neither bring my those moments nor bring my those years which i spend lonely… Sanskar It’s too late… Too late to ask sorry… Now we are different… Our life meet for a while then again separated… Now nothing can be done…
She was about to leave….
Sanskar sits on his knees : one chance swara… Please…
Swara rushed out of the room…
It’s announced that train will start in next 3 minutes… All settled…
Laksh asks sanskar : bhai… Where are you going…
Sanskar : delhi for office work…
Laksh : what about your family…
Sanskar : i have none…
In next station swara gets down from train with luggage… She was moving to escalator… When she heard someone is calling… She looks behind… And found sanskar…
Sanskar : my card(extend a card)… I know you don’t need me… But firvi… If you need help please call me… I will definitely come if i alive…
Swara looks at him in the last word… Sanskar left… Swara was about to throw the card but stops… And put it in bag and left…
Sanskar’s pov…
I always become selfish regarding swara… I need her… I need her love… I know i hurt her a lot… But what about me… I was also hurt… My baby died… I can’t leave my step mom and step siblings and i tried with my all to stop swara… But may be i never understood her pain… She never complains… They ruined our 1st night our honeymoon and many more special moments… But she can’t stop when it comes to our baby… We lost our baby… I know it was a full proof plan… And indirectly i am the killer of my own baby… After 11 years when i have none beside me i agaon see her… I must say she became little chubby but same cute and beautiful as before… And after seeing her the lust inside me to live a normal life again wake up and shamelessly asked for another chance… Why would she give me chance… If i would be in her place i will never ever listen to the person who once break me in thousands of pieces…. I am sorry swara i am sorry..
Sanskar’s pov ends…
Swara’s pov…
I an in my room crying bitterly thinking the recent moments… It’s not easy to forgive him… But whatever it is… I still love him…
Swara’s pov ends….
3 months passed….
Neither swara nor sanskar forget the train moments… Swara is a music teacher in nagpur… And sanskar is manager in Kolkata…
It’s night… Sanskar right a resignation letter in his lappy… He close it and looks at swara’s photo in his wallet…
Sanskar : i was only living to ask sorry from you… Don’t know swara still now i look every second on my phone thinking you will call me… But i know it will never happen… I can’t handle anymore swara… I have no reason to live… Already the guilt is killing me and this loneliness… I can’t handle… I will get rid of from this last responsibility and will finish myself…
He slept while thinking all this… He saw dream that swara returned to him and is calling him…
He woke up with jerk… And sees sun is rising… He looks at swara’s pic…
Sanskar : you told na the dream which we see in morning will become true… Will my dream become true…
Just then he heard doorbell… He frowns and look at the watch… It’s only 4:30… He goes to open the door… When he opens he shock to see his dream really come true… Swara is standing there with a big trolley…
She looks at sanskar with cold face… She then shook her head and push him slightly to enter… She enter with full attitude and frowns looking at small apartment… She directly goes to the bed room and shocked to she it’s so untidy… Sanskar’s Clothes is spread everywhere with files and other things… She starts to collect all…
Sanskar here still standing near door total blank… He pinch himself and finds he is in reality only he rush to bedroom to check that is swara really there… He looks at her collecting his clothes while blabbering something under her breath…
Sanskar whispers: swara…
She turns and looks at his blank face then again engrossed in work…
Swara (angry tone) : you are manager of a company right?? Then salary will be much enough that you can buy a big apartment… How can i live in this small apartment… And single bed… Where you will sleep… So arrange everything in today itself…
Sanskar is too shocked to react…
Swara (same angry tone) : and han go talk to your lawyer and tell him to prepare marriage registry… I am not gonna live you with a live in relationships…
As soon as swara’s every word register in his mind he sits with thud and starts crying like a baby… Swara rush to him and sit before her…
Sanskar : you really came swara… You forgive me…
Swara : whatever it is sanskar but the fact is i love you and i can’t live without you anymore… I don’t wanna regret in future that i got a chance to get my love but for my stupid anger ego and hatred i missed that… Let’s start a new life sanskar… Forgetting everything….
Sanskar hugs her tightly and cries more… Both cries…
Swara : and this time if you break your promise na i will kill you…
Sanskar nodes in no in her embrace… Hugs her more tightly…
Swara : sanskar now leave me i have to clean this all… And han call for big flat and talk to lawyer also…
Sanskar looks at her : why you love me so much swara… I did a big sin… And you…
Swara : cause i want everything back…
After 3 days….
Morning 5 am… A big flat total neat and clean… A big bedroom… A couple is cuddling with each other… It’s none other than our swasan…
Swara is awake and Caressing sanskar’s hair… Who is sleeping peacefully holding swara tightly…
It’s Sunday… Sanskar wokeup and sees swara is staring at space… He frowns… And cups her cheek for this swara comes in sense…
Sanskar : jaan… You woke up so early… Why… Anything bothering you??
Swara looks at him tensedly then hug him…
Sanskar : jaan… Tell na…
Swara : sanskar yesterday i went to doctor…
Sanskar departs and looks at her worriedly : why jaan… Any problems… Are you alright… Nothing happens right??
Swara smiles : i am fine… Wo… I.. I
She fumble…
Sanskar : tell na jaan…
Swara : wo i went for asking… Whether i can conceive again or not…
She says while avoiding eye contact…
There was silence….
Sanskar : so…. What she said…
Swara (lower her gaze) : she said we can try… If further we face problem she will see…
Sanskar : you want baby…
Swara looks at him with tears and nodes in yes…
Sanskar smiles and hugs her tightly…
Swara : don’t you want sanskar… Our own baby…
Sanskar didn’t said anything but start to kiss her nape… And comes to her face and capture her lips….
They consumate….
After 3 months…
Swara is preparing dinner… And sanskar is doing office work in room… Swara was not feeling well from last 2-3 weeks… But she ignores… She tries to hold up a big jar of flour… But she feels immense pain in her tummy…. She leaves the jar and shouts in pain…
Swara : aaaaa maaaaa…
Sanskar listen this and runs to kitchen…. And finds swara is wincing in pain holding her tummy tightly and shouting…. He Immediately takes her in embrace and try to calm her…
Swara : aaaaa… Sanskar bohot dard ho raha h….
She cries….
Meantime all neighbors come to his door… He immediately takes her to bedroom and opens the door…
Sharmishta aunty (mid 60):arey sanskar beta what happened….
Sanskar : i don’t know aunty…
They heard swara’s yells and rush to her…
Colony Doctor came… Swara is now unconscious…
Doctor : sanskar… By any chance she lift something heavy…
Sanskar (confused) : ummm han… Shayed flour jar….
Meantime swara gains conscious… She is now stable….
Doctor : how could be you both so irresponsible… You mrs maheshwary you lift heavy jar in this situation….
Swasan looks confused….
Doctor: don’t tell me you both don’t know anything….
Swasan looks at each other…
Doctor : arey she is 1.5 months pregnant….
Sanskar and swara looks at each other with teary eyes…
All bless them and left… Sanskar hugs swara tightly….
Swasan : love you…
In next 8 months sanskar took care of swara like a doll of wax… Pamper her a lot and after that she gives a birth of a baby boy…
And they used to live happily ever after….
And about maheshwarys i mean his step mom… Some time we should leave those things which create unrest in life… If we keep ourselves busy in those things then might be we will lost our normal peaceful life…
Sorry if you feel it wrong… And sorry to bore you all