His Solace.. His Angel – Part 5

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Sanskar POV :
The sun rays falling on her gave her a dazzling appearance. She looked so surreal that I couldn’t turn my eyes away from her form. She lightly clears her throat to get my attention and I have to refrain from throwing my head back and close my eyes in pure bliss as she asks me in a soft, graceful yet shy tone, “Umm w-who are you”? If I was not smitten before then I sure as hell was now. Her voice has such a melody that it was capable of soothing all my pain. Trying not to make a fool out of myself in front of My Angel.. wait a minute..My Angel?? “From when have she became mine?” I asked the question to my own self. “From the moment you saw her you idiot” retorted back my inner conscience.
All these feelings are so confusing to me. Everything I am feeling right now is so overwhelming. It has been such a short time but the moment I laid my eyes on her I felt a warmth inside my heart. It felt like she is a missing piece of mine which I finally got back after waiting for centuries. I met her just 15 minutes ago and it feels like I know her from eternity.

Something inside me felt weird whenever I look at her. My heart beat goes abnormal when I look in her eyes and I hated it. I hated it because I myself was not able to fully comprehend the waves of emotions swirling inside of me. I know I am letting my anxiety get the better of me but what can I do? I am scared . Scared of all the emotions, the feelings that are harbouring in my chest right at this moment. I know who she is to me. The second our eyes met I knew she is the “IT” for me. She is My Angel for whom I waited for so long. But I am no longer the same person who used to live for others.

I am a selfish ba****d who don’t deserve to be anywhere near this beautiful creature sitting before him forget about spending a life time together. I am a horrible person. A ruthless man who don’t give a damn about anyone. I know if I let my emotions overrule me I will never be able to stay away from her. I learnt to live alone and I can’t let her change that. Her entering my life will end up with either me or her getting hurt and I can’t let that happen. I will protect her even at the cost of me staying away from her. If it’s the only way for her to be away from the harm’s way then so be it.
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He knows that the Devil may try how much he can but can never deserve an Angel. The monstrous side of him can be hidden but how long until the beast inside him will be unleashed. And prefer to kill himself rather than becoming the cause of His Angel’s pain. He got her by fate and if his feelings surpassed his rational mind then there will be no turning back.

With these thoughts in mind he abruptly stood up from his place and walked away from garden looking back once trying to imprint her alluring image in his mind knowing very well that if he stayed a moment longer his resolution will crumble. He headed towards the exit of the college leaving a confused Ragini behind.
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