Realisation (OS)

I am a person with goals and policies. I had my own way of doing things. I am silent and hard working.I am Thapki.I am very caring and innocent.I had zero belief in love.I always believed love is just a myth. I had been brought up this way.I had lovely parents and a sweet sister.It was the first day of my college. I met someone whom I never thought would be so important and would make me write this story.He was good looking and jolly type. At first I hesitated to talk but I could see he has a good heart.We became close friends and we stood for each other.

The whole clg knows about our friendship.We became so close.Our meetings became frequent.He knows all my secrets and I know all his secrets. Eventually it ended in the thing which I called a myth in the beginning.It was not me who got into the myth at first.It was him.WE were talking in phone that night.Everything was normal. He suddenly said I like u so much. I didnt care much coz I thought he was saying it casually. I said I know and our phone conversation ended. Then he texted me. He was simply asking if I love somone. I said no. He asked me wat if someone proposes u? I said I will bite them for fun. He asked me wat if it was me? I was taken aback by his words. I was dumbstuck.he then said yes thapki. I love you. I want u in my life. I couldnt answer him. He said im not gonna force you but please do answer take ur own time. I couldnt sleep that nite. I was shivering the whole nite. Next day early morning he called me. I was confused whether to attend or ignore. I called up some courage and answered him. He was normal and he said im not gonna force. Then he didnt talk about it for some months. Sometimes he becomes flirty and at times he was normal. Days passed. He had to leave the city for somedays to participate in a tournament. He said he will come soon.

I said okay. It was five days and we didnt talk to each other and we didnt see each other. I couldnt tolerate it. I cried at times. And that is when I realised I fell in the trap of love. As soon as he arrived I said I missed him. He was shocked to hear me say such things. And soon things started getting better. We were in a relationship.

Whenever good things happen theres always something bad.Suddenly he started avoiding me. He started to call some other girl as his best friend without a reason. I thought he was doing this to irritate me and then I realised he was doing it to avoid me. I still dont know the reason.I have always felt betrayed. I have talked about this to him directly too but he didnt take it seriously.One day I realised my self respect has some self respect and it was me who was keeping on nudging him. I thought if he wanted to talk he would. I then started involving myself in different activities to forget him and one among them is writing. I know it is not easy to forget someone who gave u so much to remember. But I have always believed in time that heals pain. Always remember when people start avoiding you never disturb them again.