Darkness. The first thing that I saw after opening my eyes. I blinked my eyes. Now, I came to know that I am not dreaming. I scanned my surroundings. The entire place was pitch dark. Where am I? What am I doing here? Wasn’t I supposed to be with him? I took out my phone with great difficulty as it was dark everywhere. I turned on my mobile torch. To my wildest shock, I found that I had been lying on the road. From when am I lying here? Plenty of questions arose in my mind. My head was aching like hell. I clutched my head as it was unbearable. Then I noticed the blood stains on my shirt and my jeans which I was wearing. Now, my brain slowly started recollecting the chain of events that happened recently. I wanted to get out from here. The whole place looked scary. Somehow, I wanted to go to him at any cost. I tried to get up. But I could not move my leg.
I tried to move my right leg. I let out a loud anguish cry as a pricking pain spread over my leg. I slumped down on the road as I couldn’t get up. I looked out for some passer- by, who could help me out. To my misfortune, no one was out there. Tears streamed down my cheeks as helplessness made me tremble. I took my mobile and dialled his number. I could hear the dial tone, but he didn’t pick the call. I tried again and again. God! Why doesn’t he pick up the phone? My sobs became louder as my mind was flooded with a sea of negative thoughts. I am not able to think of some other idea now. I tried once again. No response. I banged my fist in anger.
Life. This is the most uncertain of all the things bestowed by god. It delivers blissful moments to cherish. It gives painful wounds that never vanish. It gives the fun filled moments that make us laugh. It gives bitter moments that makes us sullen. If life is defined like this, so does love. The most beautiful feeling in this world. Everyone in this world are bound by love. A child’s innocent love for his parents;
A mother’s selfless love and a father’s innate love for their children; A man’s expressive love for his wife; A woman’s pure and deep love for her man and so on. Everyone in this world have all these kinds of love. I am not an exception. Even I have these love in my life. Even the last kind of love that I mentioned. He is a man whom I had not dreamt in my dreams. He stays by the side of me to pursue my dreams. He is not a Mr. Perfect. Because, flaws define a man. He is my solace. He is my soul mate. My husband.
“Kaun tujhe yun pyaar karega…..” My phone rang breaking my trance. I saw the name of the caller. It was him. Seeing the name, my eyes shone with the hope of going back to him. I hurriedly picked the phone. “Hello?” I shouted. “Hello?” I shouted again. “Please do say something!” I cried loudly. The call ended breaking my hope into pieces. My sobs became heavier as I wanted to see him now. Only he could comfort me. His embrace is my home. “Lakshya!! Where are u?”
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“Kaun tujhe yun pyaar karega….” My phone rang again. I picked the call. But I couldn’t speak again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know where is she now. I wanted to know if she’s ok. But I don’t know why the hell I am not able to speak. It hurts when you can’t comfort your love when she needs you the most. I wiped the drops of blood which rolled down from my ears and head. I felt giddy. By hearing her voice, I know that she’s not fine. I sensed that she’s crying. It makes me mad. I texted her. But it was not sent. I heard the agonised cries of the people behind me. The scenario just wrenched my heart. I looked at the people who lay dead beside me. Few hours ago, they were alive, talking with me. But in a fraction of a second, just a fraction of second, they are no more now. How uncertain life is? How do I find her? She must be somewhere around here. She could not be in a distant surrounding. I know that she is around me. I could feel her. Ragini, be strong. You will be in my arms within some time. Trust me. The surroundings started to spin. “Sir, you need medical help.” A volunteer said to me as he held my arm. I have no time for that now. She is my priority. I have to go to her. I need her beside me. NOW. But, little did I know what the fate has in store for us.
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Lakshya. My husband. The man, who filled different shades of love in my life. Yet again, it’s the destiny’s game by which we are together now. The least expected thing will be the thing which remains with you forever. It is true, in my case. I never expected that a man like him, who is so practical and plans everything in his life will be my life partner. I am a girl, who lives life to the fullest. For me, planning everything in my life is not a solution to any problem. What should happen, must happen and it will happen for sure. This is fate. No human has the power to rewrite fate. He always disagrees with this. Such a stubborn man, he is. But I love him from the core of my heart. Our first meet, still remains fresh in my heart after 4 years.
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“Can I meet Mr. Lakshya?” I asked meekly to a man, who was in his mid-twenties, wearing a goggles. He removed his goggles and looked angrily at me. After I saw his face without goggles, I realised that this man was Lakshya. First impression has become a bad impression. “What’s the time now?” he asked me. 6:30 P.M. I replied. “When were we supposed to meet?” he asked me rudely. “Why don’t you say directly that I am late?” I said bluntly as I lost my cool. “What the hell? First, you come late and then you are arguing with me.” He said in a sharp tone. “Look Mr. Lakshya, I am working in a NGO. I am not like you to own a business empire due to which you can order people and go to a place at any time you like. Today, I had an important work and I am sorry.” I said to which he just nodded his head. “Mom said that you wanted to me.” I told him. Actually, it was a lie, because I myself overheard the conversation between him and mom. “Yeah. But I have no time for talking about that in detail now.
I am having a meeting at 8 and I should depart soon. Excuse me” he said as he answered a call. “Yes Vishal. First I shall go there after this meeting at 8 and then I will visit that site and then you can send me the details. Rest of the plan, I’ll tell you later.” He said over the phone. “Why do you plan so much?” I asked him. “Only planning makes a man successful.” He said. “No plan becomes successful in front of the plans of destiny” I told him. “Whatever. Anyways, I wanted to ask you one thing. Are u ok with my condition of asking some time before I accept this new relationship fixed by our family?” He asked me. Hmm. He speaks something sensible too. “Yes. I don’t have any problem with it. Love marriage is not my cup of tea and I always wanted an arranged marriage. But before moving onto this, both of us need some time to decide upon.” I told him. “You speak a lot” He smiled as he said that. My eyes were glued to his charming smile. I smiled back. “So, Lakshya, do u know how to smile?” I asked him for which he replied, ” You are impossible, Ragini”.
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That was the beginning of this beautiful relationship. That moment is one of the best moments in my life. Then it was no looking back. We bonded with each other in a short span of time and It didn’t take long for me to realise that I loved him. Soon, I confessed my feelings to him rather hesitantly as I didn’t want to spoil my beautiful and precious bond with him. And, the golden moment in my life, no our life, which made our bond more stronger happened. Our marriage. That was a lovely phase in our blossoming relationship. Like any other couple, we had our ups and downs in our relationship. But, it could not last longer as the love between us dominated these drawbacks and made our life a beautiful one. As these events flashed in my mind, an unknown smile appeared on my face. But my face fell, as I realised the current situation, which I am in. I tried again to get up, but I fell down again as that pain made me weak. Suddenly, the hidden hope arose in my heart seeing a streak of light approaching me.
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Ragini. The best thing that ever happened in my life. I never thought an arranged marriage proposal will change my life. Both of our families wanted us to marry and we wanted to know about each other before we marry. In this period, I discovered a beautiful soul inside her. I felt attracted to her by her each and every action. Soon, I knew that I loved her. But, I am more of an introvert and was sceptical to talk about my feelings towards her. Though I may appear very hard and bold from outside, I was scared to tell her that I love her. But to my shock, she herself told me that she loved me. She proposed me first and I pretended to think for a while and then took her into my embrace. But she does not know that I loved her before she confessed. My phone rang again. This time, I was determined to talk to her. I picked the call. “Hello?” her voice made me curious. I tried to speak.
I opened my mouth and I tried hard to speak to her. “Hello?” she said again. I took a deep breath. “Hello.” with great difficulty, I managed to say those. “Hello, lakshya?” she squealed in happiness. “RRagini..” I felt immense pain as I said those. “Where are u?” I asked her. But before she could answer, the call ended to my frustration. I dialled her number again. “Kaun tujhe…” I heard the ringtone. It was our favourite song. More than me, she loves that song. But she didn’t pick the call. I tried again and again. No response. I could not move from here as the police did not allow the victims to move from there. The police is suspecting that she could have been thrown away to some of the surrounding fields. My heart panicked. I am becoming restless now. I looked at her pic in my phone. My mind travelled back to the memory lane.
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“What’s this ragini?” I asked her as I returned home when she blindfolded me and took me somewhere. As she removed the blindfold, the cool breeze hit my face and I knew that we were at the terrace. “Happy birthday Lakshya” she whispered in my ear as she kissed my cheek. I hugged her.
Tu aata hai seene mein
Jab jab saansein bharti hoon
Tere dil ki galiyon se
Main har roz guzarti hoon
She held my hand as she sang these. I looked at her eyes, which were filled with immense love for me.
Hawaa ke jaise chalta hai tu
Main ret jaisi udti hoon
Kaun tujhe yun pyar karega
Jaise main karti hoon
Ho ho….
She cupped my face and caressed my hair and hugged me tightly as if I would go away from her.
Meri nazar ka safar
Tujhpe hi aake ruke
Kehne ko baaqi hai kya
Kehna tha jo keh chuke
I looked into her hazel brown eyes, which locked mine. I felt like I am drowning in this beautiful love.
Meri nigaahein hain
Teri nigahon ki tujhe khabar kya be-khabar
Main tujhse hi chhup chhup kar
Teri aankhen padhti hoon
Kaun tujhe yun pyaar karega
Jaise main karti hoon
Ho ho….
I hugged her firmly as this song sung by her stirred my emotions and made me vulnerable. That day, that moment was special to me and will remain in my heart forever.
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It was a blissful journey together till now. We were on a trip to our family temple in my native village. I insisted her that we could go by car but she was stubborn and wanted to go by train. I could not refuse her wish and hence we decided to go by train. But, never we thought that these nightmarish events would happen. The train derailed all of a sudden and ragini, who had went to washroom that time was missing from then. I just wanted to see her now. I wanted to hug her firmly never letting her go. Tears streamed down my eyes, as my mind thought about her plight now. But I understood one thing. No one can win fate. My head ache became severe and I felt like I would become unconscious anytime. I tried to keep my eyelids open. I kissed her pic in my mobile. “I love u Ragini” I muttered. The surroundings around me started fading away before I slumped down unconscious.
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“Sir,Look. Your wife is on the line” a man patted my cheeks as he pointed towards my phone. I opened my eyes slightly. But I felt my breathing become heavier and I knew what it meant. It was my time to go. I wanted to see her once, before I leave this world. “Lakshya? What happened to u? What’s he saying? Please speak to me once.” her sobs reached my ears. I couldn’t respond. “RRagini.. ” I mumbled feebly. “I love you” I told her as tears covered my eyes. “Love you more lakshya. I am on my way and I’ll reach you within few minutes” she said. But I knew that I will not be there when she reaches here. “I will not…” before I could say more, my breathing became heavy and I found difficult to breath. My Ragini was right. The plans of destiny always win. “Lakshya?” her voice vanished as the call ended. My eyes started to close slowly and I heard my phone ring, “Kaun tujhe……” Little did she know that I was not there on earth that time.
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Guys, desh here. Presenting my first os. Hope u liked this. Fingers crossed.