#off air serials #os competition #tashan-e-ishq entry 6

I wish I could turn back the clock so that I’d find you sooner n love you longer but alas!! it’s not possible but still when I think about you a smile creeps on my face. I can still feel your presence around me. ‘I love you Sadu Sarna.’ Moving towards me, my beloved wife Twinkle looked at me. ‘I love you too my siyaapa queen.’ I confessed hugging her tight. I continued,’Is it necessary to go?’ ‘Yah it is. My dad is alone at home and you know he has heart problem. He needs me right now.’ She caressed my hair. ‘But…’ Before I could complete she place her finger on my lips,’shushh..if you utter even a single word it will be difficult for me to leave.’ She cupped my face with her finger. I didn’t want to let her go. I don’t know why I felt so uncomfortable. My heart was racing. ‘Please don’t go…please.’ I pleaded. ‘I have to go.My dad needs me.’ She turned around to avoid eye contact. She knew very well that if she would look into my eyes then she would not be able to go. ‘Ok go but at least give me a kiss.’

I said embracing her in my arms. I slowly turned her around and lifted her face. ‘Firstly leave me and then you will get one.’ She bantered with a smile on her lips. I left her waist. She came closer to me. I could feel her breathe. She was about to kiss me but was disturbed by the sound of the horn. She backed off. ‘Oh no.’ I wailed softly. She smiled looking at me. ‘Promise me you will take care of yourself.’ She said picking up her bag from the bed. ‘Promise.’ I whispered yet I knew that I couldn’t take care of myself without her but I had to do it for her. ‘Promise me you won’t cry instead you will smile by remembering me.’ She teased me. ‘Kunj sarna never cries.’ I contradicted quietly. ‘Promise.’ She grinned. ‘Promise.’ I whispered. ‘Bye.’ She said moving towards the door. ‘My kiss.’ I reminded her. ‘Not now.’ she said. I sadly looked at the floor. ‘My drama king.’ She said moving towards me. I smiled. She came closer to me and gave a peck on my cheeks and ran out of the room. ‘Unfair.’ I shouted. ‘Everything is fair in love and war.’ she laughed.

An hour later
It had been almost an hour since she left n I had already started missing her. ‘How will I be able to live without you for two long days.’ Lying on the bed, I looked at her photo kept beside the bed. Should I call her? Nah other else she would start teasing me. I rolled to the right side of the bed. ‘This side fills so empty without you.’ I got up and moved towards the arm chair. ‘See Twinkle I am sitting on your armchair and you are not here to scold me.’ I said looking at her photo. ‘I just love you.’ I said getting up from the arm chair. ‘Now I can’t take it any longer. I am calling her.’ But right then my phone buzzed. It displayed the name siyaapa queen.

‘My siyaapa queen is missing me.’ I said as I picked up the call. To my suprise I heard a male voice,’Hello…’ The voice was breathing heavily. ‘Who is this?’ I asked.
‘Yuvraj.
‘ I could figure out that he was rushing somewhere.There were noises around him. ‘When did you came back from simla?’ He didn’t reply. ‘Yuvraj you there…’
‘Kunj actually right now we are rushing to the ICU. Twinkle met with an accident.’
‘W-H-A-T??’ Something struck my heart. ‘ACCIDENT.’ I rechecked.
‘The car she was in got hit by some big truck. The driver…the driver…the driver..’ ‘What happened? Say it.’
‘He died on spot.’ My heart beat increased.

‘Oh god!!! For god sake please yuvi…please tell me how is Twinkle?? She is fine right.’ Tears started forming in my eyes.
‘Twinkle is in ICU. The doctor’s haven’t confirmed anything yet. She has suffered a lot of blood loss and is unconscious.’ By now the tears had started flowing down my cheeks. Yuvi cut the call, probably to meet the doctor. I was still in a state of shock. I felt suffocated. I tried breathing as much air as possible. ‘Please god spare her. Please god. Not her. I can’t live without her. Please not her.’ I prayed to god.

At hospital
I could see yuvi standing outside the ICU. ‘How is twinkle?’ I asked breathing heavily. ‘She hasn’t gain consciousness. The doctors can’t say anything till then.’ I could feel my feet trembling. Yuvi was trying to stregthen me but instead he was only not able to control his tears. Meanwhile the doctor came out of the ICU. ‘Doctor how is she?’ I asked hurridely. ‘We can’t say anything right now.’ doctor said. ‘Please doctor can I go meet her??’ He nodded,’But only one visitor at a time.’ I rushed inside the ICU. Tears started rolling down my eyes seeing her. She was connected to number of machines and drip. I sat beside the bed and kept staring her as tears rolled down my eyes. ‘Twinkle please get up. You are my strong girl right.’ I said softly holding her cold hand. I continued, ‘I promise I will never trouble you. Please get up.… please. I will obey each and every order of you…please get up…’ Tears rolled down my eyes.’Talk to me…fight with me please Twinkle please.’ I pleaded. Suddenly she moved her fingers slightly. ‘Twinkle.’ I said rubbing her hand slightly. She slowly opened her eyes.
‘Where am I?’ She asked.
‘ICU.’ I replied wiping my tears.
‘Don’t cry. It hurts.’ She said wiping my tears with her thumb.

I immediately called the doctor. According to the doctor,’There was still no improvement in her condition and anything could happen anytime.’ Hearing this I broke down but I had to stay strong. I wiped my tears and went to Twinkle plastering a fake smile on my face to hide my tears. As I entered the room I stumbled a bit because of weakness. I hadn’t had anything since morning but still I didn’t care. ‘Are you okay?’ She asked while trying to get up. I helped her n then she reclined on the pillow. ‘Are you okay?’ She repeated. ‘I am okay.’ I said yet I knew that I was not. SOMETIMES WHEN I SAY “I AM OK”I WANT U TO LOOK ME IN THE EYES, HUG ME TIGHT, AND SAY, I KNOW YOU’RE NOT…!!!!! She looked into my eyes, hugged me tight and said,’I know you are not.’ Love really connects two persons heart. She did hear my heart. Tears started rolling down my eyes. I hugged her tightly. After a minute she broke the hug. ‘Don’t break the promise.’ She said wiping my tears. She also had tears in her eyes. I too wiped her tears. ‘No crying.’ ‘After I die..’ Before she could complete I placed my finger on her lips,’You are not dying…at least not before me. If u live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you…never. I will die.’ She placed her finger on my lips. ‘Truth is always bitter to accept.’she said as tears rolled down her eyes. ‘Always remember the promise.’she said. Two days later she passed away leaving me alone in this sophiscated world.

Two years has passed since she left me but still I love her. Still I feel her presence around me but yet I feel yor emptiness in my life. This emptiness can not be filled by anyone. I will always love u Twinkle. I was, I am n I will always remain yours. ‘See Twinkle your Sadu Sarna is still fulfilling the promise. See I am smiling. I love you.Promise are not meant to be broken.’ I said as I hold her picture close to my heart. When I close my eyes I see u. When I feel the cool breeze I remember the times spent with you. No doubt love is like a war, easy to begin but hard to stop. I will always love you till my last breathe.

THE END