hello frnds..how r u all..im hr with new chap..
thnk u my dear frnds,,,
thnk u for@ stg,anuann,soujanya,simi,anu,tani
@independent,,thnk u dear,,yeah he knew his mistake
@sonia..thnk u dear,,yes u r right,,he must do something big for her
@kumu…thnk u di…
previous epi:Episode 18
“okay,,,swara,,,,listen to me”
swara kept silent as she stared at ground,,she wants to go bck, ignoring him. but no she can’t move ,,his gaze,,its melting her,,,if she move frm here she will loose her control..her next step will lead to him,,to his arms,,only she knew how much she wish to be in his arms,,,feeling safe nd peaceful,,,,,but no ,,she wont do,,,she wont repeat her mistake again,,,
taking it as a positive ans,,,sanskar move a little close to her,,,but swara stepped bck making him to stop at his spot,,,just thn her sight whn to his hand,,,which is bleeding,,blood is dripping through his finger,,but he is least concerned abt it,,,doesnt he feel the pain????,,,she look at him with shock,,where he get confused by her look,,,
her eyes was showing anger…nd he cant understand,,,wht its for??,,she was abt to grab his hand,,,but she stopped herself frm her stupid act…
“ur hand..its bleeding,,pls do something”she spoke softly,, which shaken him nd he look at his hand
now only he noticed it,,,its bleeding ,,but pain is less as compared to his heartache…nd this will be part of his punishment,,,he smiled painfully,,,nd his love is still caring for him,,,he didnt deserve tht,,
“its okay,,i will do it later shona,,(looks at her)i mean swara,,,listen to me”
“stop ur drama now!!,,,nd clean ur wound now,,im not going to listen anything otherwise,,”
he sighs..but was happy somewhr,,she have tht same love in her…he was more guilty now,,he just want to ask forgiveness frm her,,but ,,he took out his hanky frm his pocket nd was abt to tie it over his palm..
“stop,,!!”swara stopped him nd he look at her ,,,
“clean it first”she ordered,,,
“i will do it later,,,now this is enough”
she look at him angrily,,,nd he was trying to tie it properly..swara take steps towards him nd grab his other hand,,thn took him to the corner of the garden,,,,he was simply staring her,,her nose was slightly red,,may be bcz of anger,,or sad,,,she hold his injured hand as she open the pipe nd shows it to water..
“huhhh”he was wincing in pain as water hit his wound with force..
she hold his hand more tightly,,nd her eyes bcm small as she was in pain,,she place her another hand above his wounds,,so water will softly hit his hand,,her other hand which was holding his hand is now slowly rubbing the wound to clean it,,,his eyes was teary,,he didnt deserve this,,she closed tap nd take hanky frm his hand nd tie it properly
she softly moved her hands above the hanky whn tears filled her eyes,,,she looks down nd left his hand,,,nd was abt to walk bck,,but she stopped as he grabbed her hand,,
“i need to talk to u swara..”
“say”she didnt turn bck,,,for him it was good,,he cant face her..
“swara…i want to ask sorry form u..i know,,,i,..”he voice was cracking with emotions
his vision blurs .he glanced towards swara who is showing her bck..a teardrop leaks out of his eye and slide down his face,,,he didnt wipe it away,,he cotinued..as he need to talk to her ,,he sigh
“swara…i did a huge mistake,,,and its a sin,,,i knew “trust” its something more impt…nd i ….i broke it..”he sobs while swara closed her eyes tightly
“tht day whn i met akki,,i was confused,,,u too knew it na,,,tht time i was a failure,,,i felt like i didnt deserve u…i will snatch all the things u have…”
“but i know swara u didnt think abt anything else thn love!!!..i was stupid tht i ignored tht truth,,,i was concerned abt u,,,i only wanted ur happiness,,,nd i thought u wont be happy with me!!
“u would have to leave everything tht time for coming to me,,,nd if i fail to give wht all u need??thn..tht i thought tht time swara…im sorry,,it took me time to understand tht u only need love,,”he could barely utter words as the tears streamed down his face
“but whn i realized it thn i was away from u,,,my guilt didnt allowed me to come bck for u,,i loose my hope..i…i was…di..dieing day by day…”his voice cracked
“u too would have feel same na swara!..i had my mom with me….whom u had??..i left u alone..i left u alone to suffer..im a bad person,,but ..”his knees bcm weak nd he stopped,,
he looked at swara who is at same position but now her head hang down,,,she is weeping ,,,nd he was out of words now,,
“swara,,,im sorry,,whtevr i did to u..pls”sanskar froze at his track whn swara turned as storm,,,
her eyes was red,,,tears flowing endlessly,,lips trembling,,she hold him by collar in anger,,,making sanskar shocked,,
“sorry????…is tht enough!! sanskar!!!for whtevr u did to me is tht enough?””she scremed at him making him more guilty,,she pushed him to side
“u knew wht u did to me ..do u knew sanskar???? how will u knew?..isnt?”she laughed at him,,
“swara”he was abt to hold her
“stop thr sanskar…dont touch me!!..do u hear??dont touch me”once agn her voice echoed in whole garden…making sanskar more worried,,,
“why u need to touch me now???…where were u whn i was carving for someone to hold,,whn i was screaming for u,,,whr were u??,,”
sanskar was numb,,,
“i will ans sanskar,,this swara itself will ans u,,,u were setting ur life in delhi,,,after dumping me,,am i right sanky”
his eyes bcm wider,,,she was saying truth but she is not in her sense,,,her emotions are overpowering her…
“shonaa….”varun shouts frm bck ,,
he just reached thr after listening to her screem a few sec before,,he was praying for her safety,,,but when saw sanskar thr he realized tht his fear had came true,,but all this time swara was just staring sanskar,,she is angry,,hurt,,sad,,,varun hold her hand nd she jerks it..
“u come shona,,,we will talk later..”varun agn tried
“no!!,,,,im not coming,,,i need to talk to him..u be silent.”
varun was helpless ..he knew how much her emotions was playing with her,,those pills are effecting her,,,
“sanskar,take care of her”varun said with concern nd run bck to mansion in high speed,,,
“swara..calm down”sanskar consoled her whn he find her sobbing.
“why u did this to me ??”her question brk his heart to million pieces,,
but she wiped her tears nd take a long breath,,nd she continued..
“u knew,,,i lived in a pit,,,a pit full of darkness,,i was unaware of other colors ,,,so i was living thr with wht i have…nd u came to my life,,”she stopped for few sec nd sanskar look at her being concerned..
“thn u came to my life,,,u show me those colors of love,,,tht was new to me,,i dreamed a lot abt living in tht colorful world with u nd ur lovely family..”she smiled in her tears..thn her smile vanished..
“thn,,,thn wht u did??u push me bck to tht pit again…u push me bck to tht darkness once again…im struglling in tht darkness now,,,”her words r killing him,,,its piercing to his heart like sword,,
“sanskar,,this darkness is not new to me..but now this darkness is more thicker thn before, bcz now i knew other colors too,,,each sec i feel like i cant evn take breath in this darknes,,i..i”she stumbled as darkness slowly swept her eyes..it chocked his breath from his lungs..
sanskar quickly hold her…he only have one wish now..”kill him!!!he cant face anything more,,keep her safe””
“shona beta!!!!wht happen?”ram run towards thm without bothering abt anything else,,,
just thn varun came with sandra ,,,varun is having a syringe in his hand nd sandra is talking on phone,,,
“varun do something”ram shout
swara was loosing her strength,,her breath get faster,,,but she was not ready to give up,,she struggled in sanskar’s hold,,he make her lay at grass,,nd was abt to take her head on his lap,but ram take her head in his lap…sanskar hold her hand tightly,,,,
sandra on phone”ok doc kabir,,i will call u bck”
sandra:do it(to varun,,he nods his head)
varun:sanskar..hold her hand,,i need to take this injenction
sanskar:why?
ram:do it sanskar
sanskar hold her hand nd varun prepared injenction,,,thn he gently insert the needle ,push the plunger all the way down thn he removed the needle,,swara stopped struggling as she felt darkness engulfing her completely..everything went black
“u will be alright shona”ram cried after seeing her pale face…
precap:guilt
so frnds how was it??
swara went through too much in last years,,u guys wish to knew abt it??
nd how many of u need to meet a bold swara.
so give ur comments!!
thnk u for reading…