Chapter 8: Dealing with the New feelings!!
I woke up to the sun shining down on me while I curled up on my bed. Groaning I rolled and crushed my head deep down in my pillow. I hadn’t slept well and it was clear that day wasn’t going to be nice. Luckily it was Saturday and I wasn’t going to face Neil at least for two days.By then I might have figured out how to deal with this new feeling.
I pulled the blanket over my head again and tried to sleep but Thoughts of Neil haunting my mind not allowing me to go back to sleep. I finally hopped out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I pulled off my cloths and slipped into the shower.
The water was warm but felt good against my tense muscles. After putting my body wash on loofa I messaged to my muscles in hope of relaxing them. I leathered my hair applying some shampoo and rinsed it. I let the water ran across my body for little longer.
I pulled my towel and tucked around me. I started drying my hair and then I stared my reflection in mirror.
Who I’m I kidding? Neil wouldn’t want someone like me? I’m not tall, elegant, graceful….I’m just plain….ordinary…he even said I wasn’t his type.
Sighing, I stepped out of bathroom. I was pulling the door shut when I heard gasp from behind me.i turned to see Neil sitting on my bed.
“Neil…what the hell are you doing in my room at this early morning? “
“good morning Sammy” he said in sarcasm
“Get out” I screamed
“Chill out Sammy..it’s not like I haven’t seen you in towel before”
You haven’t seen me like this since I realized that I like you more than friend.
“Neil…Please Give me few minutes…” I tried to sound like I’m annoyed with his presence that he can give me few minutes.
He looked at me for a moment, and left, pulling the door close behind him. I quickly dressed up in my pajama shots and tank top.
“You can come in Neil…I know you are standing outside the door….”
He pushed the door opened and look at me that it was safe to come in. I sat on chair while he went and sprawled on my bed. The guy that I like is on my bed.stop it, Sam. Though you having feeling for him..he is still Neil….
“what are you doing here on Saturday?”
“Can’t I come over to see my friend? “ he asked
“Yeah..but I am not used to see you on weekend…so what the reason behind gracing me with your presence on Saturday? “
His eyes studying mine. I was trying to hide my feelings my sounding casual. I want to burry this feeling deep down and not acknowledge them at all.
“Sam, what got in to you? Why are you acting weird?” his eyes and expression showed me that he was worried.
“I’m good..just tired due to tournament…” I was trying to sound normal but I guess he noticed the change in my tone.
He stood from bed and walked towards me.now I noticed his body while walking. It was almost like lion walking in to kill his pray. He touched my forehead by back of his palm and stayed like that for a moment. His touch….it was so electric and powerful. I surprised that I hadn’t noticed stuff like this before.
“you don’t feel hot..but you looked exhausted “ I didn’t have time to think before he scoped me in his arm from my chair and put me on bed and covers pulled around me.
“You know I can walk….” I said sarcastically
“ what kind of friend would I be if I didn’t take care of my friend, Sammy? ‘ he said dramatically
Friend…always a friend..never the girlfriend…I sighed and rolled my eyes.
Then I felt his hand wrapped around my waist and his body next to mine.. I tensed up some.
“Idiot, what are you doing? “ I asked while my heart beating at up fast and it like soon it will come out from my chest.
“I want you to sleep peacefully..dont be stressed…I’m right here..i wants to spend whole day with you…I missed you while you out of town for tournament….”
“Me too…” I mumbled
How can I sleep peaceful when he was so close to me. I want to tell him right this moment what he meant to me…that I love him…in few minutes I heard him snored…I felt relax a bit…I turned to see his sleeping face.Neil looked the same as I saw him first time those years ago. As I looked my eyes fell on his lips. I wondered how it felt kissing those s*xy lips.
Sammmmm…stop it….
I couldn’t help but to smile at my childish thought. I closed my eyes tight and let myself sleep.
When I woke up , I was confused cause I wasn’t on pillow but on someone. I forced my eyes to open and saw him..it’s not dream..he was really here. I got up from bed with jerk. His eyes then opened slowly and looked at me.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to wake you up….” I wished that he would have slept for some more time that I can have that freedom to observe him .
“It’s okay..you look better now…..” he said smilingly charmingly“ what do you want to do today?”
“ no clue….” I shrugged a little.he got up from bed and stretched his upper body little revealing his well-toned abs….Gosh…..Kriti was right..he is muscular….
I took my eyes off from him but again turned my gaze to look at him when he was busy searching something on his phone.as I was actually examining him , I could see why girl run head over heels for him.
He then looked up to meet my eyes..I’m frozen….
“I’m waiting..Sammy….i guess we are not spending whole day here…..”
I was blanked because of this very man seating in front of me and he wanted me to think….Unbelivable…I couln’t think anymore as he was so close to me..he was always like this close to me…but now my feelings changed for him but he still think of me as a friend..Oh God…How difficult situation is this…I don’t want to this happen but my subconscious mine always wanted this I think.
“I guess I would like to go book store…I have read all books here already ten times….”…yeah bookstore..only place would bring my mind back…and yess he may be would deny to come along with me..as Radz and Nandu’s horror stories about my book shopping would have scared him…though he had been with me to book store many times.
“Sure..Your wish, command for me..whatever you want to do…I’m with you….”he stood and started to walked towards the door..Damn…My plan got flopped to avoid him…..
“Okay I will come in minutes…when you come mom and dad weren’t home?”
“Nope..Aunty told…..they went for some work…and would back by evening….”
He closed door behind him..I crashed on bed and yelled in irritation..Oh God I have to act Normal around him…I couldn’t let him discover my feelings for him..that i wanted him and no other guy would take his place.. stupid emotions..why did they have to change my perfect friendship with him?
I quickly slipped into my favorites pair of jeans and casual top and came down to the stairs, found Neil sitting on couch shuffling some general magzines.when he heard me descending stairs , he turned to look me. I was mesmerized by his eyes.they truly shimmered.he has some beautiful pair of eyes. I shook my head and broke my thoughts.
“you ready? Neil” I tried to act casual
“Yup..do you want to eat something before? “
“Nope” I said and grabbed the keys from drawer and as we got out, I closed the door and unlocked it.
Entire time while driving we enjoyed singing along the radio and I got disappointed when we arrived to bookstore. I always like to listen him singing.
As soon as I entered into store I inhaled deep the smell of new book. He laughed at me and I gave him glare.He thought my love for book is insane since he wasn’t much a reader.
“I don’t laugh on your love for cars..for god sake Neil….”he smiled and pulled me inside the shop.
He didn’t release my hand walking to the various aisles. When I reached the fiction section he let go my hand and let me engrossed myself in my book world. I started reading few pages to ensure that I would enjoy reading or not and then handed book to Neil.
Finally. I need help to find some books on mythology. I started to look for some assistant. Finally found someone who worked there. He was guy in his early 20s with brownish hair and angelic smile. He was attractive but not as much as Neil.
“Excuse me, I need to find some books on mythology? “
“Ofcourse….author? “
I gave him information and noticed the Neil protective stance on me. The assistant laid me to the mentioned section and handed me few books.
“Is there anything else I can do for you? “ he asked
“No…that’s all I need..thank you…..”
“If in case you need any help, My name Rocky. Don’t hesitate to ask me personally….”he smiled and left us standing there…
I turned to see Neil giving odd glares to that guy.
“what’s wrong with you?” I asked to divert his gaze.but still his eyes were burning..what’s that..Jealousy? No..it couldn’t be….
“That guy was exclusively flirting with you…Sam” he sneered
“What? No way…It’s your illusion..he was being nice with me..simple….”
“I’m surprised that he didn’t grab your hand and take you with him…I bet if I wasn’t with you he would have had your no.”
“Are you jealous, Neil? “ I know he wasn’t..but I have to ask
“No..but I don’t like guys looking at you like piece meat…”his eyes where enough to tell me he was furious….like really furious…
I grabbed his hand and laid him towards the cash counter. I hope that Rocky wouldn’t be there else Neil would punch him. Thanks to God , a lady was there at the counter. I placed my books and about to pay but Neil’s had his card out already and paid the bill before I could utter a word. He took the bag and led me out of the store.
“You know I’m going to kill you? Why you paid my bill? “ I asked him when we reached out near his car. He looked at me as if he didn’t done anything wrong
I think you need to eat something Sammy..Let me take you for lunch…” he said out of the blue to make my mood right and appear cute infront of me…
But I was surprised cause it was unexpected.he didn’t take people out to eat.
“what’s brought that?” I asked in curiosity
“Sam, I’m hungry and obiously you are hungry too..i heard your stomach grumble like lion..i afraid if I don’t make you eat for somemore time..you will eat me….”his eyes shimmered…I wanted to become mad at him. But there was something in his eyes restrict me to mad at him..instead I laugh.
We slipped into the car and in no time halted at good Italian restaurant in the town. As we got in and grabbed one of the corner table, a waitress came to us. She was giving signaling look to Neil. I ignored and concentrated on menu card.
Then I felt his hand on my hand brushing.
“ hey, why so dull…? “ looking into my eyes he asked. I realized he must have sense my lowly mood. I forced a smile.
“Nothing..a lots of thing going in my mind…” I lied
“Like???”
“nothing particular..” I wanted to avoid this convo. When he was the reason of all the thoughts.
“I know you are lying..talk to me…” his voice sounded strange so I looked at his face. He was worried
“ Neil. I know we are best frinds..but some things I can’t share to you..some are girl’s thing..you know..so please…”
“Alright..Sammy but mark one thing..i’m right here..no matter what , okay? “
I knew he was actually worried for me.. but I have to keep this thought deep inside me.
Finally food arrived, we continued to talk on anything and everything.i just really didn’t notice the taste of food.it was just food for me. My attention was on him. I was rationalizing my feeling that how I had fallen for the person that I shouldn’t love..i just have complicated the things..that’s why I refused to the people when they suggested me this thing for Neil.Now I just wanted nothing more than to be his girlfriend to with whom he will spend his weekends and would love me back.
I was badly terrified to lose him..i was thinking how I will deal with rejection if I told him about my feelings. I was silent all the time when we drive back to home. Finally I came to the conclusion that I couldn’t my feelings secret forever. And eventually I have to tell him this. That I want him only him on this very own planet more than oxygen.
Finally he pulled car in front of my house, I was engrossed in my thought that I didn’t realized when we reached.
“Sam….”
I turned to look at me. He didn’t bother me while driving. He let me be me with my thoughts.
“Yeahh..”
“I think we should do this stuff of outing much often..i didn’t realized until today that I have missed you so much…you are always busy with college stuff and badminton practice…we need to hang out like this…”
He smiled and pulled me into hug. I was at peace. I wanted to stay in his embrace forever.
We finally got out of the car..
“Well I need to get back home..Radz had planned some family thing..”
I groaned because I know if radz was involved what’s that thing are.
“ Then..Good luck to you…..Good night..idiot…”
“Night Sammy….”
He pulled his car out on road. I greeted mom and dad who were enjoying some reality show on Tv. I went to my room and changed into Paijam shots and tank top and crumbled on my bed. I grabbed one of the pillow and dip my head into it…I smelt his cologne and I inhale it as much as I could.
Oh God!! I need to clear my head.but hell…my head was keep displaying his face while talking, joking on me around.
Sighing, I stood up and went to the window and looked at the clear sky shimmering with stars.it was then I saw it. Shooting star.
I made wish in that moment.
Please Let Neil feels the same for me..let him know how truly I love him….
I sat down there staring beautiful shimmering dark blanket over me. As I feel tired I led on my bed. I have to tell him what going inside me. I hoped he wouldn’t change after hearing what I had to tell him.
A/N
How was it guys?? I know its kinda odd to let them sleep together.but it was a cute idea to let them stay together for a while.
Next will be confession…and Neil’s reaction….God I’m worried….LoL…Just acting….hehe
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