Marring the Seclusion-part 4
It had been a month since that fateful night and 10 days since she was coming to this place, nothing have changed in the air, or the two stars which shined the first in the night or the busy street which raced with cars but here she wasn’t the same. she wanted to feel she was still the same but she wasn’t.
Her mother in law had supported her which she never knew she would, she wanted her to shift to the place they all lived but she needed a little time to …..adjust to the fact that he was no more.she never wept, not a single tear for him, even when they were taking away his cold body, no reasons maybe she felt he was still coming with her favorite lavender scented room freshener.
The only thing she had asked them to take away was their Microwave. She couldn’t see it with the memory of she denied him his cinnamon muffins. For days no one knew she was pregnant. It was only after everyone left and her mother one day sighted the envelope peeping through the drawer of her side.
(“Krishna, what is this sweetie, you didn’t tell anyone.” She had caressed her hairs lovingly putting the envelope to her side. And she had tried thinking any sign of a life inside her and found her mother’s hand over her own palm on her belly.
“I am okay mom. If I am still alive then I know I have to live for our baby, I am fine.dont worry I am fine.” whispering those words she had put her head in her mother’s lap. And she knew her mother was again crying because of the constant shaking of her body.)
But she didn’t know why she wasn’t feeling anything, till today she wasn’t feeling anything.
Her in laws had stayed with her after her mom left two days back. Her strict mother in law wasn’t the same these days, she was much caring towards her, she helped her when she felt nauseous in morning or when argued she didn’t want to drink the drink she was forcing her, she was even patient when she wanted to come here . yes, the old lady was patient when the first thing she said she wanted to visit this place, she wasn’t okay with this wish she had felt it but she didn’t stop her and here she kept coming to this place for a few hours.
They have compensated for the loss happened to the store in a just couple of days maybe ,she didn’t want to talk about that,she didn’t want to know what happened and how ,her loss can never be cured so there was no point in staying with that ill feeling.
tightening the shawl she had been covering herself with, she gave one look to that shining name board of CITY STORE and stood to leave for home, she herself didn’t know why she kept doing that but she did- coming to this store which was the cruel remainder of he wasn’t here, but maybe she felt it was the last place he visited and she came to inhale that same air.
She has just taken the hold of her keys when came a wail from behind her and she turned to find a young girl with a chubby baby who doesn’t look more than one year or maybe less and it was him who was crying and giving the girl a hard time.
She wanted to turn away and let the thing just go,” kids kept crying when they were disturbed or wanted something.” Thinking to herself she moved towards her car when the baby cried loudly and she couldn’t keep herself going and stopped.
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“he is such a naughty kid ,he never stops crying until he is in his dad’s arms if he starts once but see as he came to you he is okay.” the young lady complained lightly pulling his cheeks.
“looks like he doesn’t like when people pull his cheeks,”she smiled and she felt she had smiled after ages.
“yeah, you are right .he doesn’t like but isn’t he just too cute .as soon as I met him I wanted to just pull his cheeks.” Young girl was too talkative she felt.
She kept patting the baby until he slept in her arms and when the girl asked her to give him back she felt her time passed real fast.
“thank you, ummmmm . what should I call you.” She asked politly.
“Krishna…
“ok,thank you Krishna, I am Yuvani by the way. And you helped me today otherwise I didn’t know how to pacify him.”
“its okay, I felt good meeting him.”she said looking intently at the sleeping baby who was unconsciously chewing his little thumb. With soft hands she pulled out the little finger.
she kept looking at their faring frames and then with tired feet stepped towards her car.
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“Yuvani…..where is Arth?” he asked coming out from his room.
“Sayyam, she has taken him to some nearby park as he was restless again.” came his mother’s voice.
“oh,” and he turned towards his room.
“Sayyam !!!!
“yeah ma,
“come ,have tea with me.”
“okay, I’ll be back in a while.”and he entered into the corridor leading to his room.
Old Lady knew he wasn’t coming back to have the tea .
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He kept shuffling through the shelves in order to search for the little lighter he knew was there, whole day he kept himself busy but in evening when he used to come back it was the hardest part of the day to hold a smile on his face and pretending he was fine cause he wasn’t fine.
Grabbing the one stick he put it on his lips and tried lighting. He always knew it took lives,it was harmful for him and so he had left this bad habit years ago but these days it soothed his burning soul.
Resting his one foot on the window rack, he sat in the long easy chair and recalling any such moment when she wasn’t there and tried to feel the same way, like she will be back in a few days or in few hours and it was temporary.
They said these small circles of cigarette smoke took away the pain, and yeah he felt he was soothed if not normal.
With the creaking of his door he crushed the butt beneath his feet and straightened, he never did it in his room because he knew it was bad for his toddler.
As he entered into the room he found his sister putting his son in the bed and covering him with the little net of his. “he slept ,how it happened?” he said closing the balcony door.
“you are smoking brother?” her face suddenly went white.
“sorry.” He felt embarrassed. “the habit just came back.”
“I’ll come in a moment.” And he rushed inside the washroom for a cold water splash to get rid of the smoke if it was there.
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“you didn’t tell how you mananged him.” He asked as he shifted all the pillows around the baby and making place for himself.
“I couldn’t have if that lady had helped me, he was comfortable as soon as she took him in her arms.” She said recalling her. “she looked pale but she was comfortable with our Arth.” She jolted as she heard her mother calling.
“I am going brother ,mum needs me. and if you are okay, come have dinner with us.” She requested even when she knew it was no help.
“I’ll try,” he said and tried caressing his son in a little hope the baby wakes up and he feel less lonely.
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Hey guys ,next part updated. hope you like it. Will be waiting for your response. With love Morusya.