Manan : Jeene Laga Hoon Pehle Se Zyaada by Crystal : Chapter 22
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Recap : Manik lost the bet to his mother as he was sure that he had fallen in Love with nandu
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(Manik’s POV)
Next day, fortunately or unfortunately, she came for breakfast. I decided it is best to separate myself for some time from her and clear my thoughts and actions. After breakfast, I told her that there was a house for sale and asked if she wanted to see it. She seemed surprised but she came with me. It was just behind Rishabh’s school – five minutes’ walk. The compound wall is huge. Inside, in the middle of the garden or maybe a small forest, is a small and cosy house. There is a corridor connecting to a separate building, the office outside and a separate entrance for the same. By the entrance to the house, there is a waiting space connecting to the living room and open kitchen. Opposite to the kitchen are two rooms which are connected to the garden outside. By the entrance of the rooms are stairs connecting to the first floor which has about five rooms of different sizes. It fits her need. We saw the interior and went out. We were looking around the house. I have never seen her so excited. I guess she will buy it. I don’t know if my feelings will fade. She hates me as it is. So, maybe if I confessed and she rejects I can move on. I stopped walking and stood still deep in my thoughts.
(Nandini) “Finally, I got it. Thanks, Manik. It is everything I wanted. I like this house so much. You were asking why I need to work so much; to buy a house like this; with my own money, not to rely on Dadaji’s. Yes! I finally got it. Manik? Manik? What hAppened? Why did you stop?”
(Manik’s POV) She was walking back towards me. I didn’t know what to say or what to do. I won’t be seeing her again.
(Nandini’s POV) He stopped as we were walking around the house. Why? What was the reason? I finally got my house, he doesn’t like it? I don’t care about it. He wanted me out of his place and I wanted to be out of his place. I walked over to see what his problem was.
“Manik!” (shouted Nandini)
Suddenly, he(Manik) carried me and hugged me firmly yet gently and buried his head on my shoulder. What is he doing?
(Nandini)“Manik, let go of me. What prank are you trying to pull here?”
(Manik) “Nandu”, he called me in a soft gentle voice.
(Nandini’s POV) The way he called me, made me feel all tingly. He looked up. We were in the same eye level. His blue eyes, looking into mine fixated me. No, no, no! What is he doing! I struggled to break free.
(Nandini said)“What? Let me go.”
Looking into my eyes, he(Manik) said “Nandu, I love you.”
(Nandini’s POV) It was almost like a whisper. Like a spell, it bound me for a second. I couldn’t answer him. Looking disAppointed, he buried his head between my shoulders and still didn’t let me go. All these days, I thought he hated me. Now, he says he loves me. Even if he says he loves me, I…………………
(Nandini) “Manik, let me go.” He didn’t budge.
(Manik) “No. Not until you answer.”
(Nandini’s POV) I don’t even care about him. But I don’t want to hurt him like I have hurt others, I don’t understand why; yet, I cannot say that I love the person if I didn’t.
(Nandini) “Sigh. Manik, I don’t love you. Not right now. I like you. You have changed a lot from when I saw in Rishabh’s school but I don’t feel anything towards you. I am sure, you are not clear about your feelings as well. We have known each other for not even a month. So please……”
He let me off slowly.
(Manik) “Nandu, it is true that I am not clear about what I am feeling right now. I tried every way to fight with my mind that I didn’t love you but I don’t know what else to describe these feelings I have as. I don’t want to part with you. My days have been fun and hectic ever since you came into my life.”
(Nandini said to Manik abt her parent’s past)
{ Flashback begins
“True love takes time, months, maybe even years, to form. I told you, my parents are lawyers, but I never told how they met. Dad ran away from home when he was thirteen. He studied law with help of his wrong friends in order to help them out. Mom was a famous public prosecutor’s daughter. They met when father was in his last year of college. It was love at first sight. They thought they clicked but they realised their morals were different. They thought that they could manage but it was a huge obstacle between them. They went out for some days and decided to marry immediately after their studies. Mother’s father was furious when they got married. They didn’t bother about other things when they got married. There was nothing wrong till I was born. Sometime after I was born, dad started bringing home his friends. Mother didn’t like their attitude and behaviour. She didn’t want them to come home.
Father started staying out of the house very often. Whenever he came home, there was a fight always. I was kidnApped once when I was four. After lots of struggle, I was brought back home safely. Father promised mother that he would cut ties with all his friends. He came home daily, played with me. That time, which I don’t even remember properly, may have been the best time I had with my parents. Then, mother had Rishabh.
Slowly as days progressed father reverted back. When I was nine, one day, he came back home drunk and fought with mother. I tried to step in and I was hit with a vase. Lucky for me, it hit my leg. Seeing me faint in a pool of blood, he ran away. That was the last time I saw him. Mother took me to the hospital and admitted me there. She Applied for divorce. Mother slowly stopped spending time at home. A housekeeper was there in her stead. One day, she came with Venkatesh Uncle and she said we wouldn’t be seeing her anymore.
Venkatesh Uncle took us to Dadaji’s home.
Flashback Ends}
(Nandini continued) Rest, you know. Their marriage ended in the worst possible way. It did not affect their lives but their children’s. I don’t want to commit the same mistake like them. I want to wait or even better marry the person Venkatesh uncle chooses since he knows me the best. As of now, I don’t have any feelings for you. Care, maybe, but not the desire to live with you. If you can wait and see, maybe, your wish would come true or maybe not. You should go out with other girls. Some of them maybe more accommodating and would suit you. You don’t have to change yourself or anything. What you do is up to you to decide. I am going to uncle’s home now. I will catch a cab. You can take the car. I like the house. Hope you will sell it to me. I am sorry if I have hurt you.”
Manik didn’t move. Nandu stood there for a while and walked away from me.
(Manik shouted so that Nandu who was walking could hear)“I will wait, Nandu. I don’t vary once I decide something. If I change, it will be to become a better man for you. I don’t have the desire to date anyone else. Till now, you are the only girl to have made me feel this way even without a reason. I am not your father nor are you, your mother. We are different.
Our life need not be like theirs. Think about it, Nandu.”
She left waving her hand. She didn’t even turn back. I went to the car. I slumped on the steering wheel. I was rejected in the worst possible way, making it impossible to make the next move. But no matter how much I convince her now, she will keep rejecting me. Better get back to the club. They will be moving this week. Though he tried tomove on, tears filled his eyes, he didn’t know with whom to share. He was just broken…….. BG Song
Dil jude bina hi tut gaye
Hath mile bina hi chhut gaye
Ki likhe ne lekh kismet ne..
Baar baar rod akhiyan
Tainu jo na vekh sakiyan
Khole aaye aaj
Kudrat ne..
Kataan main ki ve din
Teri soth tere bin
Main toh jiya na mara
Chan se jo tute koi sapna
Jag suna suna lage
Jag suna suna lage
Koi rahe na jab apna
Jag suna suna lage
Jag suna suna hai toh..
Yeh kyun hota hai..
Jab yeh.. dil rota hai
Roye sisak sisak ki hawayein
Jag suna lage
Precap: Will Manik be able to cope up with rejection?
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