Hiii…everyone…!! I hope you didn’t forget me…!! Sorry for being late… and I am helpless about it…!! Thank you sooo much everyone… for sharing your views and experiences in last episode…!! You people gave me soo many ideas to my ff… and showed different angles too…!!! I loved each and every one of your comment…!!
Let’s go into episode…!!
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RECAP: Sanskar Heartbroken…!!
SANSKAR’S POV:
Many say that ‘Love has power to change the whole world’….!! But why my love was unable to change her thoughts and beliefs??!!! Why my love has failed??!!! Is my love that much weak??!! Or is there any fault in my love??!!! I don’t know…!!
What she said was right…!! She has never tried to play with my feelings…!! She even warned me not to marry her…!! It was I… who exaggerated everything…!! It was I… who became overconfident… about my love becoming success…!!
Dil Jude Bina Hi Tut Gaye
Hath Mile Bina Hi Chhut Gaye
Ki Likhe Nae Lekh Kismat Ne
(The bonds between the hearts broke before they could join
The hands got separated even before they met
What has been written in the destiny?)
Baar Baar Ron Ankhiyan Tainu Jo Na Vekh Sakiyan
Khoh Leya Hai Yaar Kudarat Ne
Kattan Main Kiven Din Teri Saun Tere Bin
Main Taan Jiyan Na Maraan
(My eyes cry continuously without a glimpse of You, My Soulmate
It seems that nature has stolen You from Me
How do I pass the days and nights without You, My Soulmate
I feel neither alive nor dead)
Chhan Se Jo Toote Koi Sapna
Jag Soona Soona Laage
Jag Soona Soona Laage
Koi Rahe Na Jab Apna
(If a dream breaks in a single moment
The world seems lonely
The world seems lonely
When no loved one remains)
Tears have been continuously falling on my phone screen…as I was looking at the wall paper pic of her…!! I closed my eyes to control them… but still… they are finding a way out…!! Not only them…in fact…my whole body is not cooperating with me…!! I feel like I am dead…!!
All our memories together have been continuously striking my mind…!! Our first encounter in our college… our meet after 7 years…my sudden confession to her… our engagement…our first kiss…our marriage…our first night…our room sharing…our moon light dinners together…our dance in party…!!For whole night all these memories have been haunting me…!!
I WISH I HAD NEVER MET HER…!!
I had no strength to go to office … so I stayed in my room the next day pulling myself into pain much more…!! I heard the room locking sound… and I could sense her going out from house to office…!!How can she be normal easily??!!! Does yesterday’s incident have no effect on her??!! Is it nothing to her??!! I never knew that she is such a stone hearted girl…!!
Patthron Ki Is Nagari Mein
Patthar Chehre Patthar Dil
Phirta Hai Maara Maara Kyun Raahon Mein Tu Aawaara
Yahaan Na Hoga Kuchh Haasil Mere Dil
(In this world built of stones
All the faces are stony, even the hearts are made of stone
Then why do I remain lonely, and roam the streets like a destitute
You shall not attain anything here, my heart)
Chhan Se Jo Toote Koi Sapna
Jag Soona Soona Laage
Jag Soona Soona Laage
(If a dream breaks in a single moment
The world seems lonely
The world seems lonely)
Koi Rahe Na Jab Apna
Jag Soona Soona Laage
Jag Soona Soona Hai Toh
(When no loved one remains
The world seems lonely
The world seems lonely)
Yeh Kyun Hota Hai
Jab Yeh Dil Rota Hai
Royen Sisak Sisak Ke Hawaayein
(Why does this happen
When this heart cries out
Even the wind seems as if it is crying?)
Tears again started making their way from my eyes again… thinking about her…!! I know…that men shouldn’t cry… but I am unable to control them…!! I don’t know when… but finally sleep crept over me…for which I have been longing whole night…!!
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My phone started ringing disturbing me from my sleep…!!
“Hello..!!” I lifted the call and spoke out after a lot of struggle…!! My voice has been completely changed because of this crying and sleeping..!!
“Hello jiju…!! It’s me..!! Ragini..!!” Said from other side…!!
I immediately cleared my throat and started speaking trying to sound happy…!!
Me: “Hii…Ragini…!! What’s up??!!”
Ragini(formally): “How was the party??!! Have you people enjoyed??!!”
Me(covering my sadness): “Yaah..!! It’s good..!!”
Ragini(worried): “Hmm… Is didi with you now??!! I mean… is she back from office??!! It’s been 2 days since I talked with her…!! After party… she didn’t call me…!! I have been trying for her since morning… and it’s coming switched off..!!”
Me(shocked): “What??!! Is her phone coming switched off??!!!”
I checked the time… and it’s already 7.30PM..!! And her room is still locked…!! She should have come by now…!!
Me(assuring): “Don’t worry Ragini…!! She didn’t come yet…!! I will make her talk to you after reaching home..!!”
As soon as I cut the call…I started dialing her number… and as ragini said…it’s coming switched off…!! My mind is warning me not to worry about her… but my heart is unable to agree for it…!! Finally I decide to search her…!!
Not because I love her…!! Because it’s my promise given to their family….that I would safeguard her…!! For her… marriage might be some joke…!! But not for me…!! As a husband…I decided to fulfill my duty…until we get separated…!!
I started my bike and rode to her office…!! I found that she left from there too early…!! Then where might have she gone??!!! Is she safe??!! I called our house owner… and confirmed that she didn’t reach home… till now…!!I told her to call me back… if she has reached…!!!
Damn…!! Is she mad??!! Where the hell is she now??!! Why doesn’t she understand that… there are people who are concerned about her… no matter she gives importance to them or not…!!
I don’t know any of her friend’s numbers too…!! I immediately called Ragini…!!
Ragini: “Hello jiju??!! Did swara come back???!!”
Me(worried): “Woooh…actually Ragini…!! She didn’t come…!! She is not there in office too…!! Can you just call her close friends and ask them about her??!!”
Ragini(worried): “What??!! She didn’t come till now??!! It’s 9.00 already…!!”
Me(slowly): “Ha…!! I know…!! Just ask her friends about her… and call me back…!!”
Ragini: “Ok…!!”
I immediately cut the call… and started searching for her…!! Like a mad guy…I kept on asking all the random people on road showing her photo…!! I am angry on her… at the same time worried about her too…!! I just wanted to see her… and make sure that she is fine…!! After half-an-hour I got a call from Ragini…!!
Me(tensed): “Hello Ragini…!! Did you come to know anything about her??!!”
Ragini(worried): “No jiju…!! I called all her friends…!! She hasn’t gone to anyone’s house…!! They said that… she has stopped coming to Friday’s home parties even… after her marriage…!! Did you get to know anything about her??!!”
Me: “No..Ragini..!! Nothing…!! I have been searching for her…!!”
Ragini(doubtly): “Did anything happened to her??!!! I mean… is she sad or disappointed or happy or something like that??!!”
Me: “Why??!!! Just a little argument between us yesterday…!! Nothing much…!! I don’t think she might have been upset…!!She is fine in the morning…!! ”
Ragini: “Argument??!!”
Me(assuring): “I said naa…!! Nothing much…!!”
Ragini: “Actually… she has a habit of visiting beach or parks alone… whenever she is in mood-off condition… or in happy condition…!! But she never goes in late nights…!! Just check her over there once…!!”
Me: “Ok… Ragini…!! Don’t worry about her…!! I am there naa??!! Don’t take tension about this ok??!!And haa…!! Don’t tell anything about this to your parents too…!! Or else they even will get worried…!!”
Ragini: “Ok..Jiju…!! But please…!! Don’t forget to call me when you find her…!! Or else I can’t sleep…!!”
Me: “I said naa…don’t worry…!! Ok…!! I will call you as soon as I find her…!!Bye…!!”
I cut the call… and rode my bike towards beach…!! I started searching on roads… and parks too… that came across in between…but no positive result…!! As I was desperately searching for her… running on sand over beach… shouting her name…I suddenly caught sight of a figure sitting…far from me…!!
I ran over there….and found that it was her…!! She was sitting… with her legs folded and head down…!! I didn’t see her face… but I am sure it was her…!!! I looked at watch and found the time as 10.30PM…!! Doesn’t she have minimum commonsense…??!!! Doesn’t she know that it’s unsafe at this time… for girls… in beach…??!! How can she be soo careless and irresponsible???!!!
Just then…I got a call from ragini and I lifted it…!!
Ragini(worried): “Hello jiju…!! Did you find swara???!!”
Me(calmly): “Haa..Ragini…!! I found her…!! She is in beach…!! Don’t worry about her…!!”
Ragini(relieved): “Thank god…!! Can you give her phone once…!!”
Me: “Even…I didn’t talk to her…!! It’s already late…!! I will make her talk to you tomorrow ok???!!You sleep peacefully now…!!”
Ragini: “OK…fine..!!please take care of her…!! Good night…!!”
Me: “Good night…!!”
“SWARA…!!” I shouted angrily…as soon as I cut the call….but she didn’t respond…!!
I angrily went to her and forcefully pulled out her head from her knees… making her face me…!!
As soon as I saw her…I was shocked…!! Her eyes were closed… and I could see fresh tears coming out from them…giving much more effect her tear strained pale face…!!!It seems like she was even continuously crying…!!
My whole anger suddenly vanished and unknowingly started worrying…seeing her condition…!! I want to hate her… but I am unable to… especially after seeing her like this…!!
Because I still love her…!! Yess…!! No matter… what has happened till now…or going to happen in future…the fact is that I love her…!!
“Swaraa…!!” I called her gently with worry….holding her cheeks… for which she opened her eyes slowly…!! I could see guilt and dissatisfaction in her bloodshot eyes…!!
“SANSKAR??!!” She looked at me… with an unbelievable expression while crying…!! As soon as she confirmed it was me… she started speaking…sobbing… and taking heavy breaths in between…!!
Swara(sobbing): “Sans..kar…!!! I…I am really sorry…!! I really don’t wan..wanted to do…!! I am… I am really sorry Sanskar…!!! Please forgive me…!!”
“Shhhh….!!” I said wiping her tears… stopping her from speaking…. and immediately hugged her…!! She too responded and held me tightly…!! I could feel my shirt becoming wet…and I started crying while hugging her too…!!!!
Our both conditions are exactly same…and we both are equally responsible… for whatever happened in our relationship…!! She did a mistake… with an intension of marrying me… for her benefits…!! Not being less to her… even I married her forcefully… leaving her with no other option….even after knowing that she was never interested in this relation…!!
At this situation… being in each other’s embrace as support is exactly what we want… to let out our anger…our guilt…our sorrows…our agitations…EVERYTHING….!!
We just got settled over there…in the same position… letting out everything from our hearts… through tears… listening to the sounds of sea…and it’s splashing waves…forgetting this whole world and time…!!
PRECAP: A friendship agreement…!!!
I tried my level best to make it sad…!! Hope it worked out…!!
I would like to ask you people one thing…!! I have been involved in lot of my college works…and I am unable to mange myself being regular…!! Till now I wrote half of my planned things… in this ff…!! It reached to a point where I can end it now… or continue further till the end which I have planned before…!!
If I continue…I would probably most irregular… with 1 or 2 episodes per week and no episodes during my exams time…!! I just want to know…whether you want to me continue being irregular or end it now…!! Bye…see you on Thursday if possible…!!
(Chanu…!! My special request cum order…!! Stop reading ff’s at mid nights until you become well…!! Don’t dare to comment again… at mid nights…!! Or I will end my ff…!! Please…!! And get well soon…!! Take care… bye…!! )