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After a month i got my self togheter and went to school..but what made the paid resurface was that…i saw him in the street with another girl…he had a smile on his face…one that never showed me…as he touched the dolls,,,i ran straghit backhome and looked at the dools at my room,,,,and tears feel…..why did he gave these to me…those dools were probably picked up by another girls….in a fit of anger i throw the dolls around..then suddenly the phone rang…it was him. he told me to come on the busstop outside my house,,,,i tried to calm myself at home and walked to the busstop….i kept reminding myself that…i am going to forget him…and that …it’s going to end….then he came straghit into my sight,holding a big doll.Sanky: jo, i thought that you were pissed off, but you really came,,?i couldnt help hating him,. acting like nothing had happend…and joking around, soon he held out the dool as usual…
ME: i dont need it..
Sanky: what….!!WHY??i grabed the doll from his hand and threw it in the road,,,
ME: I don’t need this doll, i Don’t need this anymore..i don’t want to see a person like you AGAIN!!….i spitted out all the words inside me…but unlike other days..his eyes were shaking…”i’m sorry” he apologized in a tiny voice..he then walked over the road to pickup that doll..
ME: you stupid…why are you picking up that dool….juat throw it away!!but he ignored me and just went to pickup that dool,then..HONK~HONK~with a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him…”sanky,,,move!!move away!!” i shouted!….but he didnt hear me ..he squatted down to pick up that doll..”SANSKAR….MOVE!!!,,” HONK~!!..”BOOMMM!!” that sound,so terrifyingthats how he went away from me,thats how he went away without opening his eyes, to say one word to me…after that day i had to go through everyday with the guiltyness and sadness of losing him…after spending two months like a crazy person…i took out the dolls,,,,,those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out…i remembered the day i spent with him,,,and atarted counting the days…we were in love..”One…two….three….” thats how i started counting the dolls….”four hundred and eighty-four…..four hundred and eighty-five,,,it all ended with 485 dolls….i then started to cry again,with a doll in my arms…i hugged it tightly…then suddenly….
“i love you~,i love you” i dropped the doll shoked…”i lo..ve …you??’ i picked up the doll and pressed in its stomach….
“i love you~,i love you” it can’t be…!! i pressed all the dolls stomach as it piled up on the side..,,”i love you””i love you””i love you”…those word came out non-stop “i love you~”…why didn’t i realised that….that his heart is always by my side…protecting me. why didnt i realised that he loved me this much,,,,i took out the dools under thebed …and pressed its stomach….thatwas the last dool, the one that fell onthe road, it had his blood stain on it….the voice came ot, the out that i was missing so much….
“shona do you know what today is? we have been loving for 486 days…Do you know what 486 is? …i couldnt say i love you…um..since i was too shy…if you forgive me and take this doll…i will say that i love you….everyday….i love you swara!…”the tears came flowing out of me…why?why?i asked god!..why do i only know about this now,,,why not before?…he can’t be my side…but he loved me until his last minute… for that…and for that reason…..to me…it became a courage….to live a beautiful life…
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