Was it my fault? I never knew. I thought him as my best friend. I dont know when I started to have feelings for him. He said he liked me so much. Maybe he said that in a friendly way and I took it seriously. I gave extra care for him that I did not even notice that he started avoiding me. I loved him more than anyone in this world. Is it a crime to love someone so truly? I had hatred towards each and every girl he talks to. It was not due to jealousy. It was due to the love which I have for him.
He started avoiding my messages. He stopped asking me if I ate. He stopped taking care of me. He stopped asking me for the choice of his shirts. He stopped asking me if he should trim his beard. He stopped asking me to teach him his subjects. He stopped teasing me. He stopped saying that I looked beautiful. He stopped asking me my pics. He stopped calling me at 2:45am when he couldnt get sleep. He stopped texting me till 4 in the morning.He stopped calling me out. He stopped everything but I couldnt stop loving me. His memories haunt me every night that I cry myself to sleep. I couldnt go to sleep without checking his last seen in whatsapp.I still believe that one day online will turn into typing and the double grey ticks of my messages turn into blue ticks. I never knew wat mistake I have done. I could see hatred in his eyes when he sees me. I hated myself because of him. I couldnt let go of him. He loved all those things that I loved. But wat about me? I loved myself too but he left me behind making me hate myself.
He had a love story which I know.He loved her and she also loved her. They broke up after 8 months. He told me once that he never liked her but proposed her just because of his friends.Little did I know that he said that in anger.She started texting him again and he showed me each and every text of hers. I got a bit jealous yet happy because he does not reply well to her texts. One fine day he told me she texted me and I asked him wat. He refused to tell me and said that she was her close friend and that he will not tell anything. I was taken back by his words. If she was his close friend then who the hell was I.
I fought with him for that. And slowly the distance between us started increasing. I have also asked him sorry for the mistakes I did but he never forgave me. I realised it later that he still loved her . I was the one who was in between them. I am such a fool to have noticed it so lately. He could have told me directly that he loves her. I would have made up my mind for that. I couldnt accept that fact now. But wats even more worse is that I let him love her because his happiness lies in her and I always wanted him to be happy. I stopped texting him. I stopped calling him.I stopped wishing to see him. I stopped disturbing him with my stories.I stopped everything except the part of loving him and thinking about him.
My day begins with the thought of him and ends with his thought. He looked so good in my dreams. I wish he was happy with her. I wish she took better care of him than me. And I wish I was her…. if he had looked into my eyes he would have known how hurt I was. And I realised that life is all about letting go. I have now learnt to love the sound of my foot steps while letting go of things that were never meant to be mine. I wish I will stop thinking about him and move on. I never mentioned his name right? He was purab.
And im AALIYA. Atleast I have you people to listen to my heart when he couldnt listen to it. Thank you so much people.
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