Kriyam : kyun karte ho muhjse itna pyar (Chapter 25)

Small recap : Saiyyam forcefully removes sindoor from krishna’s forhead telling her he doesn’t deserve to put sindoor on her.. She tells him she has accepted him wholeheartedly..
Krishna is still holding the sindoor container in her hand..
Saiyyam : Krishna main… ( Krishna I..)
Krishna cut him off
Krishna : Meri baat abhi khatam nahi hui ( I haven’t finished saying what I have to say yet )

Saiyyam listened obediently
Krishna : yeh sach hain ke jab hamari shaadi hui thi main bohot naa khush thi. Tumse bohot nafrat kari thi. Bohot saari shikaayatein thi.. Par who sirf isiliye kyunki tumhara bartav hi aisa tha. Tum bure nahi ho saiyyam. Us waqt halat bohot mushkil te tumhare liye…par ab toh halat sudhar rahe hai saiyyam, ghar mein sab ne tumhe apna liya hai..tum kyun nahi sab ke pyar ko apna sakte ho… main nahi jaanti ki tum mujhe apne kareeb kyun nahi aane dete… kyun sab bhulaakar mere saath nahi chal sakte.. kyun tum bhaag rahe ho.. ( its true that when we got married I was very upset. I hated you. I had many complaints. But that was only because of your behavour. You are not a bad person saiyyam. Those were very difficult times for you..but now things are getting better.. everyone in the house has accepted you..why cant you accept their love.i don’t know why you don’t let me get to know you..why you cant forget everything and walk with me..why you’re running away..)

Saiyyam : Krishna main… ( Krishna I )
Krishna came close to him and held his hand….Saiyyam was surprised by her bold move.
Krishna : muhje sirf itna pata hai ki muhje nahi bhaag na. mujhe ani poori zindagi tumhare saath guzar ni hai..Mujhe tumse… ( I just know that I don’t want to run. I want to spend my entire life with you.. I have..)
Saiyyam got flustered and withdrew his hand… he had an idea of what she was about to say…or rather what she was about to confess..he wasn’t ready..He turned his back to her..

Saiyyam : Bas Krishna.. Bas (Enough Krishna.. Enough..)
He tried to mask his emotions with fake aggression..but Krishna could see right through him..
She came infront of him took his hand, dipped in in the sindoor box and made him fill her forhead

Dramatic music played while they both looked at each other emotionally…
Krishna : Maine yeh sindoor tumhare naam kar diya hai saiyyam.. Hamesha hamesha ke liye…. ( I have made thid sindoor of your name now…..forever.. )
Saiyyam was taken aback.. He left the room in a hurry..

Saiyyam had gone out and had a few too many drinks to drown his sorrows in. He came back homelate at night and went to the garden..He started talking to god..
Saiyyam : tuhje bohot maza aa raha hoga na yeh sab dekh ke… ek baath bata..tune kabhi mere hisse ka pyar nahi diya… zindagi bar akela raha hoon. Toh ab kyun… ab itna acha parivaar dene ki kya zaroorath thi.. meri maa jisse main sabse zyada nafrat karta ta..unse ab main nazrein nahi mila paa raha… kyun.… aur woh sambhav..mera so called baap… uss jaise darindey ko tune meri nazron mein itna mahaan kyun bana ya.. kyun ho raha hai yeh sab mere saath huh.. de jawaab! Aur Krishna…. Uss stupid ladki koh todi budhi kyun nahi deta tu..muhje apna pati kaise maan sakti he woh..tu kyun nahi samjhata usse ki main uske laayak nahi hoon. Kyun nahi samahjti woh ki mera usse door rehena hi sahi hai… aur tu ek aur baat bata muhje… main toh acha kaam kar raha hoon na.. Krishna ki life kharab hone se bacha raha hoon… toh phir yahan.. iss dil mein itna dard kyun ho raha hai…. Itna fark kyun palh raha hai ki woh meri wajah se dukhi hai..bata na..kyun reheti hai who iss dil main..kyun..nahi bataeyga na… nahi de ga jawaab! Toh teek hai.. sara mamla aaj khatam hi kar dete hain..jaa raha hoon main… yahan se bohot door… phir in sab ki life ka saara tension khatam! Jaa raha hoon main..

( you must find all this very entertaining..tell me one thing.. you never gave me my share of love.. ive lived my entire life alone, so why now.. why give me such a loving family, my mum, whom I used to hate most in the world… why cant I make eye contact with her..and that sambhav..my so called father..why did you make me worship that disgusting man..Why is all this happening to me…. Answer me! And Krishna..why don’t you make that stupid girl come to her senses..how can she accept me as her husband..why don’t you make her understand that I don’t deserve her..why doesn’t she understand that staying away from me is right for her.. and tell me one more thing..im doing something good aren’t I … im saving krishna’s life from getting ruined.. then why why is there so much pain right here…in this heart..why does it affect me so much that she’s sad because of me. Tell me.. why does she have a place in my heart.. why… you wont tell me na..you wont answer me! Fine.. I will solve all this today..im going.. far away from here..then everyone’s worries will be gone..im going.. )

Saiyyam starts walking and he stumbles and falls down…He passes out on the ground..Suhani and yuvraaj are watching all this from afar.. Suhani has tears in her eyes….
Suhani : humein nahi pata ta yuvraaj.. humara beta itni takleef mein hai..toot chukka hai woh… hum maa hai uski phir bhi uske liye kuch nahi kar rahe hain… ( I didn’t know yuvraaj that my son was in such a dilemma. He is broken inside.. I am his mother yet I have done nothing for him..)

Yuvraaj : aisa mat kaho suhani..tum ani taraf se koshish kar rahi ho.. and look at the Brightside suhani..iss sab se hamein yeh toh pata chal gaya ki saiyyam ke dil main Krishna ke liye kya feelings hai.. yeh waqt rone ka nahi he suhani..yeh waqt humare bachon ko ek karne ka hai..Saiyyam ko uss ka pyar dilwaane ka hai..( don’t say that suhani..you are trying.. and look at the Brightside.at least because of all this we now know what saiyyam feels for Krishna.. this isn the time to cry suhani its time to unite our children..to give saiyyam the love of his life )
Suhani: tum sahi kehe rahe ho yuvraaj. Hum plan kal subah shuru karenge.. ( you’re right yuvraaj, we’ll intitiate the plan tomorrow morning )
Yuvraaj picked saiyyam up and with suhani’s help carried him to his room.. There Krishna was pacing worriedly waiting for saiyyam when she saw them entering..
Krishna : Dadu yeh… ( dadu what..)

They put saiyyam down on his bed and Krishna was looking very concerned..
Yuvraaj : Bahar garden mein tha sharaab pi hai.isliye behosh ho gaya tha… Krishna ek baat keheni thi.. kal nashte ke baad mere kamre mein aa jaana.. muhje tumse kuch baat karni hai.. aur umm saiyyam ko bhi saat leke aana..( he was outside in the garden..he’s been drinking so he passed out.. Krishna I need to tell you something.. meet me in my room tomorrow after breakfast..i need to talk to you..and umm bring saiyyam along. )
Suhani told Krishna not to worry and they both left the room… Krishna was wondering why yuvraaj wants to talk to her and saiyyam… she went over to saiyyam and removed his shoes and his watch and tucked him in bed..
Krishna : Kyun karte ho tum aisi harkatein saiyyam.. ( why do you act like this saiyyam )

She turned and walked towards her sofa when she felt a tugging on her dupatta..
Saiyyam : Krishna!!
Precap : Yuvraaj : Maine ek faisla liya hai..tum dono ke rishte ko lekar..aur muhje aur suhaani ko lagta hai ki yeh faisla tum dono ke liye bilkul sahi hai…. ( ive taken a decision regarding your relationship and me and suhani feel this decision is right for both of you)
Hello friends… im back after a short hiatus….im soooo sorry last week was very hectic.. I will try my best to update regularly… Thank you all for reading and commenting..Love you all

Special shout out to Shaani dear as she gave me a shout out in one of her ff chapters recently..Hope you are well dear..
With love, Nnnya ( Naina )