Chapter 14 – Part Two – Sayyams POV
‘About us, there is an ‘Us’ now.’ I said. I felt relieved that I said it but I was afraid of how Yuvan would react. He was very quiet and didn’t respond.
‘You know, don’t you?’ Krishna said to him.
I was in shock, I didn’t expect Yuvan to know about us. He stormed off while Krishna ran behind him, leaving me behind.
I felt hurt and disappointed. So many thoughts were running around in my mind. Why did Krishna try to stop me from telling Yuvan? Why did she run off after him?
I stood outside the house for a while waiting for Krishna. I could hear shouting. I realised that right now isn’t the time for me to speak to Yuvan, it will only make the situation worse.
I decided to walk to the beach to clear my mind. The beach was mine and Krishna’s favourite place to spend together. We both always found it so relaxing and calming. Being at the beach felt like we were away from the rest of the world, it was as if nothing else mattered but us.
I sat there reminiscing all the times Krishna and I spent together since I came back to India. Those thoughts were then clouded by my memories of Yuvan and our friendship. It was tearing me apart knowing my best friend is hurt and it’s my fault. My happiness turned into sadness, tears started falling from my eyes. Deep down, I knew. I knew nothing was ever going to be the same.
I heard small footsteps approaching me, I knew it was her. She sat down next to me. We sat for a while in silence staring at the water, not knowing what to say to each other.
I knew what she was going to say. I knew it was over. I knew she would choose him. Even though I knew, it still didn’t prepare me for the pain I would feel. It felt like a sharp object had been pierced through my heart.
Once she left, I sat there crying uncontrollably, completely heartbroken.
I lost my love
I lost my best friend
I lost everything
I had no-one else.
Yuvan and Krishna were all I had. A few hours later, I walked back home. I didn’t even know if it would be my home anymore. I saw Yuvan sat on the front garden bench. I approached him, but he wouldn’t look at me.
‘Yuvan, let me explain..’ I said.
He turned to walk away.
‘Look, Yuvan. She’s chosen you.’ I said as he walked back to the house.
I know he is upset and angry with me. He will feel I have betrayed him. He has always loved Krishna and he will feel I have taken her away from him. I didn’t know if our friendship could survive this. I used to think our friendship was unbreakable, we had a brotherly bond. We were always there for each other and knew we could rely on each other. But this could ruin us, things may never be the same between us again.
It was the next day, I was tossing and turning all night and struggled to sleep. I couldn’t get Yuvan and Krishna out of my mind. Questions were going through my mind. Why couldn’t I control my feelings? If only I stopped myself from acting on my feelings for Krishna, none of this would have happened. I should have stayed in London.
I sat at the outhouse all morning, nervous about facing Yuvan. I wanted to speak to him, but I didn’t want to make the situation worse.
‘Sayyam, Sayyam get out here!’ I heard Yuvan shouting outside. I rushed out to speak to him.
‘Yuvan-‘ Before I knew it Yuvan punched me to the ground.
I didn’t want to fight back, it’s not his fault. He was angry and upset, he needed to vent his anger on someone. I already felt bad for causing him all this pain, I deserved to be punished.
‘Why Krishna? You knew how much I love her, yet you pursued her. Was it to upset me?? Did you do this to spite me?’ He shouted in anger.
‘No, no it’s not like that.’ I said while trying to block his punches with my arms.
‘Yuvan, please listen to me.’ I pleaded but he didn’t want to listen.
‘What did I do to deserve this? I thought of you as my best friend and you betrayed me!!’ He said throwing more punches at me.
I have never seen Yuvan so angry and it was all my fault, I shouldn’t have acted on my feelings.
‘She’s mine and only mine!’ He shouted. ‘You and I can never come back from this!’
He carried on hitting me until I heard someone running up to us. Krishna came and stopped Yuvan. She was hysterical. She tried to help me but I pushed her away. I didn’t want her help, I’m nothing to her anymore, she chose him.
I slowly managed to get up and walk into the outhouse. I could feel aches and pains all over my body. I tried to apply ointment on my wounds but I struggled to reach the wounds on my bare back.
I felt a hand on mine, my heart skipped a beat, I knew it was hers, I turned to see Krishna. She looked hurt and upset. Her eyes were awash with tears. She touched my bruises on my face lightly with her fingers and felt the wounds on my body. Every gentle touch of her fingers drove me crazy.
I felt her soft lips gently brush the wound on my back as she hugged me tightly. The touch of her lips sent a shiver down my spine. I could feel little drops of tears trickling down my back. Each little drop made my heart melt even more. I turned to face her, she wouldn’t look me in the eye. I lifted her chin for her face to face mine. Every time I look at her, she takes my breath away. She looks more and more beautiful every time I see her.
Tears were flowing down her cheeks. It broke my heart seeing her upset. It pains me to see her like this. I brushed my lips on her cheeks to wipe the tears from her eyes. I couldn’t handle seeing tears fall from her eyes. Our eyes were locked on one another’s. I couldn’t control my feelings any longer, I gently pinned her against the wall and started kissing her neck and shoulders. My feelings overtook my body. I wanted her so much, I wanted to kiss her, I wanted to embrace her in my arms and show her how much I love her. She makes me feel like no-one has ever done before.
Suddenly, flashes of Yuvans attack on me came rushing in my mind. I moved away. I fell back to reality. She chose Yuvan. I told her to leave, I couldn’t look her in the eye, I knew she would be upset. Seeing her hurt would distress me even more.
She ran out towards Birla House. I put my t-shirt on and made my way to the house. I wanted to speak to her.
I stood at the terrace. I looked in from the entrance to see the whole family sat in the living area. Yuvan was sat with Suhani Aunty. Krishna had not long walked in and Soumya Aunty was there. Suhani Aunty rushed over to Krishna and hugged her.
‘Krishna, we have a surprise for you.’ She said smiling at her.
‘Yuvan has told me how much you both love each other Krishna, I’m so happy! I always imagined you as my daughter in law.’
Daughter in law? I was confused, what was happening??
Krishna stood there unresponsive in shock.
‘Your mother and I have set a date for your engagement. You and Yuvan are getting engaged the day after tomorrow.’
Everyone was so happy, they were all hugging each other
I looked away heartbroken, my back hit the wall. I slid down the wall, slumped onto the ground and buried my head in my arms. I was devastated. Suhani Aunty’s words were repeatedly ringing in my ears.
My heart felt like it had been shattered into a thousand pieces.
I have lost her. I have lost the woman I love, forever…
Precap- Yuvan and Krishna’s Pre-engagement party. Kriyam dance.
Hi everyone
There are a lot of emotions flying around right now for Kriyam and there is plenty more emotions to come. Please let me know your thoughts
Shaz x