I hate that I still love him .
I hate everything right now . I hate the moment I met him . I hate the time when he came and saved me from some dangerous people . I hate that I fell in love with him at first sight . I hate all the times when I would day dream about him . I hate that I changed for him . I hate that day when I confessed My feelings to him . I hate his words that I was just a misleaded teenage girl . I hate that no one is there for me to tell that there would a prince charming for me . I hate the times when I cried for him . I hate the times when my cheeks become turned to pink at the sight of him . I hate that he is handsome even though it is not his fault . i hate every little thing about him but why can’t I just hate him !
Life has been going easy for me with the best parents who use to stick around with me and fulfill all my wishes , with the best friends who are there for me all the time with a earful of gossips , with my bike who is my closest friend , with Aunt Elizabeth who is more like my second mother and with everything around me until he came into my life .
Shivaye .
I remember the day when I first saw him , instantly I fell in love with him . He was attractive , handsome and charming . He wasn’t tall as most boys are but his height is perfect for him . The most thing that drawn me to him was his greenish blue eyes , his hair was dark brown and was neatly styled and he is perfect .
I thought I won’t meet him again because our first encounter was out of the city in a amusement park but then again I met him once when I was waiting for my School bus . I was in 12th grade when I fell hard for him .
Everyone here knows him except me , his name as said was Shivaye . At a age when they would be having their time of Life he was there for the poor , he was a social worker . He was kind and generous to everyone . My own father adored him and had a respect for him . He was alone with his mother living nearby our street . He did many other side jobs as well and also he is a kunfu coach , something that I didn’t except to come from him . He was perfect , again .
He knew my existence as only the Dr. Mathew’s daughter , Anika . My dad was a doctor and my mom Rose handled our family . I was so blessed to have them with me who let me be the person who I want , being my parents they had to go through daily my complaints but just other than a death glare they wouldn’t say anything . I was their only child and all their love was showered on me.
i was curious what happened in his Life that he is so hard on love until I understood he hasn’t moved on from past , where he loved a girl and they promised each other that their relation ship will be forever but the girl ditched him when she got a marriage proposal from a rich man in America and that made him angry and felt betrayed . He believed that Love is pointless because his father left his mom and now the girl did too , not to say that the girl is my cousin Tia Kapoor . It made things worse .
My family wasn’t against of Intercaste marriage , here in my place they fall in love , ask the approval of their parents , some agrees and happily accepts them , some disagrees which led to the couple running away from their house . It was as simple as that but it was kind of normal to hear when they left here . Why can’t just the parents agree and let them live their life ? My parents wanted me to be happy with whoever I was with , I wanted that to be him .
He was living a simple life and he preferred normal . I changed for him . I wore Salwars whenever there was a chance I will ran over him replaced by my causal Shirts and jeans . I started watching News on Television replaced by my favourite Pokemon . I studied hard at night replaced by watching some horror movies . I started thinking out of the box of the world and my society replaced my doubt what would have happen if there is no ladoo , how will chotta bheem fight back . That was all about my Life but now I m changed in a good way which surprises my parents so much .
What I hate most right now is that I agreed to meet up with him .
It was a unexpected call from Aunt Elizabeth telling that Shivaye want to talk to me but I refused if it was two days before then I would have literally broke my bed by jumping with happiness but now I decided that I have to move on , I need to find someone who will return my feelings , I need to get away from him but now when I will see him again then I will fall weak in my knees , that is another thing I hate the way he affects me .
At the end I agreed and Aunt Elizabeth picked me up telling she will give me the ride to the place . After one hour the car came to a halt and Aunt Beth gave me a reassuring smile . I nodded and stepped out of the car .
I took a deep breath as the cool breeze slapped my face , it was the same place where he rejected me telling that I was a little girl , I was different from his background and when I grow up I will realize that all this was some stupid emotions and he doesn’t feel anything for me. I cried for days thinking about it and I hate them but not him .
After that I Went to Delhi to study Medicine , I was following my father’s path and I graduated but not even once in the five years I felt the same feelings for anyone else . I met Shivaye at the end of the year when his mom was admitted in the same hospital where I am training , taking it as a best chance and also with a little concern everyday I use to check on her and not to mention the Whole two hours I take to dress up in the saree and climbing all the stairs to reach on time . Once there was a girl when I came in , damn she is so pretty and they way she talks to Shivaye I can see they are in love , her name was Mallika . i almost broke down the next day thinking all my efforts are just waste . My classes were over and leaving the parties behind I decided I will go home other than seeing Shivaye with that girl Mallika but God she was there in the station too , she said she was going home and I kind of acted rude to her but i was so sweet as sugar when she told me she is married and Shivaye is the one who helped her with it to elope with her lover boy – it is normal here . The rest of the journey we bonded very well , she was a sweet lady .
All the times when I did something for his mother he never had even mumbled a thank you , how arrogant and I love him , you know . When I returned I found that there was a project going on helping to get poor people to get married without dowry , another thing I hate and I have warned my parents not to give a penny to the person who is going to bear me for the rest of their Life .
Since I didn’t have anything to do I decided I will join them and started working on it with Shivaye . We had so many things to look after together so we became pretty close . Once he told me that it is his dream to make the world know about his mother , she was a poet and wrote beautifully . Once I had went there and read one of them not to mention I embrassed myself by showing a piece that I wrote about a fish ! Ugh , I mentally slapped myself thinking about it right now .
I had made friendship with a old man named Varghese who is a writer when I was studying he was just like my father and we got along very easily . I contacted him and asked Shivaye to come with me to meet my friend and he agreed quickly . That was the most surprising and shocking moment of his Life when Varghe Uncle handed him his mother’s book I can say that from his expression . We bid bye to Uncle and while going he said he was grateful to me and I saw a ray of hope .
It didn’t last long because the next day his mother announced that Shivaye will be marrying a girl in the list that is when for the second time I cried for him . I was so broken down and my world was shattered .I realized i was hurting myself in this and I have to move on from him .
I tried to take him out of my thoughts but when I closed my eyes the only think I could see is his eyes .
I was thinking to break every string with him when Aunt Beth called and Now I am here walking towards the place to meet him , Shivaye again .
This was one of his favourite spot and I found him there with his hands folded and praying . If there is anything I genuinely prayed it was to make Shivaye realize my feelings and for my well being of my parents . There he is standing and praying , what is he asking for ?
I don’t know how he understood that I was there because he turned quickly and the corner of his lips tugged upward making it a smile .
” Anika you know that I am a simple man ” He looked at me and said the same lines he told me before .
‘Now , he will say ” Anika you are from a big family ” I said to myself .
” Anika you and me are very different from each other and you are from a big family while I am a ordinary person” he repeated , god why i am here in the first place when I know that he will never say the words I am craving to hear from him .
Just great now he will say that ” Anika you still have a long way to go and you are destined for great things and while I am just a commoner ” .
He did and God can’t he at least change the words . I sighed and nodded my head deciding to leave from here as fast as I could .
” But I don’t care about anything now ”
Okay . What !? Did he just say none of this matters to him and he loves me . He is thinking of us and did he really tell or is it a part of my day dreaming ? My head shot to look at him and he smiled .
Taking my hands in his he confirmed it , he took a small box from his pocket with a grin and my eyes couldn’t believe seeing the ring that I bought for him the other day when I came here to propose him but when he turned me down I cried and it fell from my hands .
It means that he loved me from before ?
He slipped the ring in my finger and I still couldn’t register what happened . Did he mean he love me , do he have feelings for me like I do ?
“Shivaye” I called at him but it turned out to be a whisper . He looked at me and smiled again which is something I am seeing more today .
” Yes , It is what you think it is ” he said with a wink and held my hand and started walking , it felt so good to have his hand in me and It was perfect but..
” Shivaye , say the words ” I said crossing my hands on the chest and he took a deep breath before standing in one knee which I haven’t expected at all .
” I love you Anika , I am so sorry that I was so rude to you but actually I was running away from you . I was so scared of the whole thing called Love and I didn’t want to get betrayed again . I was attracted to you but I denied it to myself but no matter how hard I try to control my feelings I can’t But now I decided that I will give a chance to ‘ Us ‘ and our relationship . I love you Anika truly ” Shivaye completed and I felt like I was in cloud nine . It is really happening.
” I love you too , Shivaye ” I confessed to him with a wide smile plastered on my face and I know I maybe looking like an idiot but I don’t care anything .
” I have to show you something ” Shivaye said pulling me to a place and my eyes grew wide when I saw his bullet parked there . The thing which made me rooted to the ground was he had put the second seat back – for me . After Tia , he had removed it and decided that he will not let anyone be there in his Life and now that here I am with him holding his hand – I felt special and happy .
He took the his seat and gestured me to sit behind him . I smilingly sat and wrapped my hands around his torso and my placed my head on his head and I can see his smiling face and I felt complete .
Then the bullet roared to Life which is about us and we now .
* Oops , I have to change the title to ” I Love him and He love me too “.
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Hello my pretty friends , how are you all doing ? It’s been a long time that I came up with a OS and now I am here with it , the credit goes to Ahsana di , happy 2 month anniversary dear .
This story is not mine and it is the plot of a South indian movie which is one of my favourites . Ahsana di was the one who suggested to write it with Shivaye and Anika ! It seemed like a great idea to me .
I have added last dialogues on my own and yeah hope you like it . I am so eager to know your response and it’s pretty long and I guess it doesn’t bore you !
Love you all and Advance Eid Mubarak to everyone . Have a great day all .
Sana ?