guilt…shivika os by anu….

Hey guys…this is anu here…a idea popped up in my mind so I am going to type it straight away…I don’t know it would be a good one but still I am gonna give it a try…so hope you like it….enjoy reading…..

GUILT….

(This would be completely based on POV or you can say a guilt story in shivaay’s mind)

Shivaay sitting in his room..alone…and looking at the moon…

Shivaay POV..

How much I loved her…the great shivaay singh oberoi who was never afraid of anything all of a sudden became numb when it came to feelings….especially my feelings towards that jhalli pagli girl…ANIKA…

I married her for my purpose…..I forced her for my purpose…I did everything for my purpose…. but did I ever cared for her feelings…no….never….

She cried in front of me…she pleaded in front of me….and as om says I am stone hearted….so her pain never entered in my heart….

But….I love her….I could never speak out anything….I could never make the world realize that this shivaay singh oberoi loved a middle class girl,who had no surname,blood line,lineage…..I could never do it…..

I tried to surpress my feelings as much as I could….and I succeeded in that…but I failed in ishqbaazi…as dadi says….

I regret each and every moment for not realizing my mistake….I became an animal after my marriage…or a deal in my words…with anika…..

Only because of you I became a human….a proper human…who has feelings….who loves others.. who cares for others….from shivaay singh oberoi you made me shivaay…..

But i am in guilt for losing you…..i am repenting each and every moment for my mistake…..

Only because of those two……..

Tia and daksh did their maximum to make me think anika is….no she is not a girl like that….but….at that situation I believed that…

And I made it more hard for anika to live in this world….

By seeing those pics or I can say morphed pics of daksh and anika in a compromising position and tia filling my ears with all sort of unwanted things about anika made me truly mad…..

At last anika and sahil had to leave mumbai because of me….

That day,

After listening to tia and seeing daksh and her pics I had gone mad….I couldn’t even imagine that anika….I loved her truly…but I didn’t trust my love….that is my biggest mistake done by me in my life..

I forced anika to go out of my sight…..and how much can a girl handle…

All these days she suffered a lot…and all because of me….but she was ready to accept everything….why….because she might have loved me…..

At last she and sahil left mumbai woithout letting anyone know….and I was also shocked with that….

And one that day she left when I came back to OM after an unending search for her I was shocked to see that ….

Ranveer or ACP Ranveer was arresting tia and daksh….seeing me tia started to shed her crocodile tears and called me…

With that I went to ACP and asked for the details……I was shocled to hear that….

Tia and daksh were trying…no…they were cheating the oberois.. and me….

Tia and daksh were alreafy married…and they were plotting against me….to get my property…but for this so called property I lost MY ANIKA..

With anger i told to take them away…but before going I gave a tight slap to Tia and daksh…and they went with the police….

After that till these 3 years I am trying to trace anika and sahil…but no use….till now I didnt get a single clue about them….but I am sure that I will find her one day…..I will surely find her one day….

And moon….I know anika is very much attached to you….and you both are close friends. .so pls convey this message to her…

PLEASE COME BACK ANIKA…I HAVE UNDERSTOOD MY MISTAKE AND I WANT TO RECTIFY IT…AND PLEASE DO FORGIVE ME…I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU…..I AM INCOMPLETE WITHOUT YOU….

I LOVE YOU ANIKA….I TRULY LOVE YOU ANIKA….

Hope you all like this ……I am just giving it a try…….pls pls do comment…….pls do comment..if you want I can make it ffew shots also……….

Signing off

With love
Anu Johnson…