Dream that can’t be fulfill….. Sidmin os(twinj)

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Here we go…

I was thinking how my life changed after i started working with her. Yes she is none other than Jasmin Bhasin. I fell for the very first time i saw her on the movie Vaanam.

At that time i was just a model. She is first and last crush i have had. I still remember the time when rakesh sir made me introduce to her on the sets of Tashan-e-ishq.

But I got the biggest shock when i got to know ki mujhe villain banna hoga uske life ka. Jo main nahi banna chahta tha chahe wo real life ho ya reel life. My mind told me to leave whether my heart tells me stay. Pehle toh i decided that i will leave the show. Then i choosed to go with my heart. Aur uske baad i don’t know what happened to director sir he told me to be in lead next to her. I was so overwhelmed that i choosed to got with my heart. Sahi kehte hai log Hamesha dil ki sunni chahiye. Waise toh i should thanks rakesh sir for that sacch mein he is a nice person.

And after that time I got friendly with twinkle. We shared good bonds. Infact audience use to like our jodi. And as the day passes by i fell more and more for her. I also want her to tell the thing that aman told to naina…

Naina kaash mein tumhe bataa sakta, mein tumhe kitna chahta hoon. I love you, I love you very very much Naina. Main aankhein band karta hoon toh tumhe dekhta hoon, aankhein kholta hoon toh tumhe dekhna chahta hoon. Tum paas nahin hoti toh tumhe charon taraf mehsoos karta hoon. Har pal har ghadi har waqt mere naina mere Naina ko doondhte hain. Ise pyar kaho, paagalpan ya mere dil ki dhadkan. Mere liye ek hi baat hai. Pyaar toh bahut log karte hain, lekin mere jaisa pyar koi nahin kar sakta, kyonki kisi ke paas tum jo nahin ho. Main tumhe bhool nahin sakta Naina. Main tumhe bhoolna hi nahin chahta. Tum meri ho, main tumhe zindagi bhar pyar karoonga. Marte dam tak pyar karoonga aur uske baad bhi.

I also wanted to tell all that to my Jasmin…

But it is said that sari aachi cheezen ek na ek dinn khattam ho jati hai so does my thought. It was the time i get to know about Suraj who is her real love. That’s the reason why i left the show halfway. Lekin kehte na durr rehne se pyar ghatta nahi balki aur badhta jata hai. Waisa hi mere saath hua. These were the worse day of my life. I was so jealous to see her working with naman.

I am lucky that now the serial ends. I don’t have to see them together. Wait i think i should be ready my self.

Next scene,
As soon as I reached there I saw her, yes i saw her after 4 months. Just i know how i live without even glancing once at her.

As soon as i entered zain waved his hand. I shared some talks with zain and naman. And i shared some silence talks with jasmin Infact i was about to talk to her. But shit media people reached us….

I just hate them for that i thought when I heard her telling “Yeh kya mere do do paati”.

Like really? How can she even think to say that i thought. And moved my way towards bar. I gulped 2 or 3 three shocked when i never use to drink but in these months i got habitual to that.

I waked up in suprised as i found jasmin who drunk full bottle in just one go. Without even wasting a single second i took him back the pillars.

I: Let’s go to room Jasmin….

I was repeating that but she ignored it continuously when i found just a way. So i put her up in my arms and was moving towards the room when i found her telling….

You’re the last thing on my mind at night. You fill my every dream. You’re the very first thing I think of when I wake up–and you don’t know it. So, I am confessing my love to you.

I always miss you when you’re gone. I miss you when you’re sitting close to me. I miss you when I can’t see you smile. I miss you any day that you’re not here.

I want you like you’ll never know. I want you, body and soul. I see your face, I want your heart. I want your love, I NEED your love, but I won’t tell you because I can’t. I can’t tell you how I feel, because I know you’re just my friend. I know that you’re happy with that. I know you’re not looking for someone to love. I know. But, I don’t understand.

I want a day when it’s just you and me. I want a day when my heart can tell you how I feel. I pray every day that you’ll tell me that you want me the same way I want you. I beg every day to that unseen force that you will one day be mine.

I’m moving away, but I’m leaving my heart with you. Forever and for always, my heart will belong to you. My heart NEEDS you. So please love me or leave me. I love you so much Sid. But i don’t want you to love me back. Its enough for me to live my life that i am yours forever and ever.

I was just abstract to hear these words from her mouth. I feel like i am on cloud infinity. It was better than the words that aman tells to naina Infact it was the best confession I have ever heard.

I came out of the shock.

I love you too jas. Infact i love you from that day only i saw you on your movie. But i never have guts to tell you. I want to say her that but leaving that i took her to the room and laid her to the bed. I was about to go when she hold my wrist and told..

Tumne jawab nahi diya abhi tak. And she made me fall on herself. Firstly  I lost balance then i loose my control. I kissed her at lips. And kissing her i turned her to the back and came to the top of her ,moved her hair to the one side and kissed her at both shoulders by moving her cloth a bit down.

After that i again got consciousness that what i did a while ago. I was feeling so shameless. I composed myself and wake up from her. My eyes got filled with tears to know that i touched her even without her permission.

When she told….
Bharoso hai tabhi toh chaha tha,
Haq hai tabhi toh aajmaya tha,
Pyar hai ye bhi toh bataya tha,
Par Sayad tumne meri baat ko majak mein udaya tha….
I love you Sid.  You don’t need to be guilty. Ok. You have all the rights in me as i said…

But…just tell me do you love me? She continued

I: Khud se Jyada chaha hai tujhko Khud se jyada manga hai tujhko Khud se jyada jiya hai tere liye Khud se Jyada pyar karta hai ye dil tujhe…..

Wo bhi aaj se nahi balki tab se jabse tum mujhe janti bhi nahi thi. Jasmin.

They both said I love you so much and they kissed each other…

THE END…

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