Hiii…..?????? I don’t know what to say be happy or sad……. i can’t describe what I’m feeling… I guess I’ve gone mad or something….that’s why writing all such crap…..
sachhi batao mujhe bilkul samajh me nhi aata ki tum logo ko Meri writing achi kesse lgti he… well but lgti he toh good.
Enjoy it……
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Friday
8.40 pm
Dear Diary
Well….. I never thought that this would happen…..today in the morning while a was sitting on the chair… someone patted my shoulder and when I opened my swollen red eyes with a jerk …. they turned teary….. the nurse told me that my love , my life died…. I was shocked……I didn’t know how to react……. I was just thinking about her……. how could she die… leaving me alone in this world….. why the God is Soo cruel wid me……. can’t he see my happiness…….. I was Soo happy that we r together after such a long time…. and few months before when was our 1st anniversary two news came on the way…….
one made me jump on bed wid happiness and the other made me cry for hours and hours……. 1st was that I was going to be a father….. for a man nothing can be more delightful than this and this news lit my soul and the 2nd news was that my love was suffering from cancer…… I was literally broken after listening this……. nothing can be worst than this….. that my love is in danger and wid her ,my child or I must say our child , our symbol of love is also in danger….. can you imagine your self in my place…… no you can’t……. no one can…. only I know what I was feeling…… tears were rolling out from my eyes…………. and then I heard a cry …… I came to present and turned back and was surprised to see a little new born baby in nurse’s hand…… I asked her is that my …… and she replied yes sir, we couldn’t save both of them , so ma’am said to save the baby………
listening to this I again felt pain and tears were rolling out but then the baby looked at me and smiles….. I took her in my hands and caressed her face and then smiled back….????? at that time I thought that if she would be there then she would be so happy…… and closed my eyes in pain….. but my lill angel didn’t let papa cry and started crying herself….. I hugged her and made her sleep…….. now she’s sleeping and is looking as cute as her mother….. and I’m just smiling looking at her…… I wish she was also here but….. I’m happy that I have out symbol of love with me….. I was very sad for the first time when I came to know that she wanted to save the baby but not herself but after looking at the innocent face I just imagined her in front of me…..
ohhhoo bye my angel is crying…. and I can’t see her crying …….
bye Diary
and he closed his Diary and went to her angel…. and sang a song for her and made her sleep and kissed on her forehead……
his eyes again became moist……. today I don’t know that should a father be happy or should a husband be sad……. I’m both but I think that I should be Happy as a man because my woman must have thought a lot about it and that’s why my angel is wid me..
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I know that a husband can never be happy but I think he should be happy that what ever life takes him to is because of his wife’s decision……
I don’t know wether I’ll be able to do justice to this lill child….. but I’ll try my best to do a father’s duty and to respect and do what a wife wanted from her hsuband……
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Hey guyzzzz sorry if it was boring………….