Breaking The Silence -part 5
As she found herself in his arms she felt respite. On her own, her arms reached up to him and she completed the hug. and this was different, she was feeling safe here, away from any worries if she had any. moments passed when no one said a thing and both remained silent.he because he thought she needed some time and she cause she was afraid she would say a thing and it would all be gone.
She finally understood Archana’s words ,how special it was to be hugged by someone you love and along with that came a few more words of hers on which she thought about there current position.and blushed hard.
Gradually she tried pulling apart, a huge splash of embarrassment was back and she again tried to look away when he touched her arms and made her look to his side but she was too adamant to look up and that’s when he touched her chin and made her look up.
“Hey, no need to get embarrassed , or look away.” caressing her cheeks he said and she shivered with the touch. “ and also I wanted to ask why you always look away when I look into your eyes.” His voice was no same it was different much different.”
“answer Krishna.” A husky voice whispered. And mustering up the courage she looked up into his eyes. And he was looking directly onto her face and some different sort of look . did she just sense passion in his eyes?
And Unable to hold his stare anymore she turned away….. a little rudely. it was too much for her, too many emotions,too many feelings and all new to her.
He didn’t understand this gesture and thought she didn’t want to talk about it, so he got up from the grass and “ its 11:15 already ,lets go home Krishna .”he sounded upset and she turned only to find he has already wore his jacket and was ready to depart.
As she tried getting up ,he extended his hand and she took it . but he left her palm as soon as she was on her feet. And asked her to come fast.
Though they were walking side by side she was feeling he was upset ,more correctly angry .
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They started for home and she felt perhaps she should say something but as she started he turned on the stereo and she stopped herself from saying anything.
the older serenity of the same atmosphere was now starting to kill her.
Unable to hold it anymore and coming out of her usual self she took a deep breath and as she was again going to say something ,his phone ringed and he gestured her to take it, she looked at his face and he seemed normal. “he knew perfectly how to mask the feelings or maybe she thought too much and he wasn’t angry at first place.”she thought to herself.
Looking at screen she found it was ma and so she received the call and told they were reaching home in a few minutes.
maybe it wasn’t the right time and something was forbidding her to say anything (instincts ,as they say}.
Though the stereo was playing beautiful songs ,no one was paying it any attention.in any other occasion he would have been humming along, he also had a beautiful voice and she suddenly wanted that a few minutes old Sayyam back, was it already ruined even before a start? She was in her own thoughts when suddenly car came to a halt and as she looked up she found known places indicating they were home .
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After they changed and she came into their room with the jug of water, she found him sitting on bed, legs stretched out in comforter and laptop on his lap.
“didn’t he mention before that his project was done from his side and he was free, also it was past one hour when he usually slept so ….” Thinking to herself she kept the jug on the side table and sat on her side of bed, and asked, “ you said your project was completed then….she was cut midway . “I just noticed it needs more time and more attention.” He said without shifting his gaze from the screen.
“Did he just implied something?” She thought aloud. “No, I didn’t implied anything.” Came a cult reply. she looked to his side and understood her mistake.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean that.” She said in a dim voice. “It’s okay, go to sleep. You would be tired.” He said And she was dismissed she knew that.
Turning her back to him she tried to comprehend was she really wrong if she needed time in telling her heart or was it something other than that that he was behaving that way .
Sleep was no where near from both their eyes .
As he thought she slept He rested his back on the headboard of bed and tried arguing himself, was he wrong if he wanted her answer today itself, he knew it already he had sensed last night itself.
He didn’t know why he reacted that way, he always knew she had a few reservations. It was their first outing together and she was finally opening up ,now what he expected that she was going to say her heart out today itself. “But it was the perfect moment.” his alternate brains keep arguing with him.
On the other side she too was restless, but she didn’t know how to talk now when he already was upset with her.“let’s taste the real side of marriage Krishna.” her heart told her and she noticed it was the first time he was angry with her and she smiled on this .
She tried turning slowly on her back in an attempt not to disturb him and found him staring the sealing. And he looked so lost.
“Sayyam…you okay?” she asked getting up.
“you awake ?” he asked turning off the laptop .
“yeah, couldn’t sleep.” She answered sitting properly .
When he started getting up “are you upset with me?” came a voice.
He stopped in the process and said over his shoulder “no, I am just tired .” and went to keep his laptop on table properly and without looking at her entered into washroom.
Though hurt but she thought something and came outside of their room.
As he entered the room he found her nowhere and wiping his face and hands with towel he saw the balcony but it was closed already, thinking she might Have gone outside he was just stepping out of his room ,he found her with two mugs.
Extending one to him “ I thought we both are unable to sleep so it might help.”she smiled.
Muttering a small thankyou he took the mug and went inside the bed , she too joined him. And as soon he tasted the hot chocolate he felt the serotonin rush in his veins and heard “ chocolates lift up the mood, the happiness hormone start rushing in veins and heart feels at ease, also it helps in a good sleep.”
Smiling he kept sipping when she suddenly said, “I am sorry ,I acted a little differently but I just didn’t know how to react ,it was all new for me. Before you, talking with some man other than family was too much for me and you already know I get nervous at times .” She was saying without looking to him, she was again nervous and he knew that.
He kept his mug on the side table and shifted more to her and after sitting shoulder to shoulder he took her mug and kept on her side ,all this while she kept staring him trying to understand his acts.
And then settling properly on bed started, “actually ,I am sorry. I didn’t understand in that moment ,maybe I was expecting more as we were open enough today .but its alright I understand you need time.” The feelings overpowering her had no definitions, but she kept quiet. Though she believed she should say something.
She looked up to him and kept her head on his shoulder,she was finally at ease. “By the way we indeed have stepped ahead,” she muttered under her breath and he smiled inwardly on her and though he did not want to break this comfortable position he also didn’t want the hot chocolate to get cold.
Taking his mug back , “So now when we both are okay let’s not make the hot chocolate wait.” He offered and he indeed knew how to make her smile.
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Part 5 updated guys, I hope you like it and part 6 will be updated in no time because I am so excited for next part. Will be waiting for your response. With love Morusya.