ABHIGYA OS:WHY FEELINGS????

HI GUYS…AYTAC AGIAN…………..
Feelings…What is feelings?Emotions…Right…Why they always comes between a relationship…Why?I always ask this question from myself…but …I didn’t get a proper answer which can satisfy my heart…
ONE DAY,change my life …i don’t know …how?why?

That day was the day of mixed emotions.which we called feelings…why i am still stuck to that day…why my life is still stuck at that moment …that moment…the worst moment of my life…I seriously wanted to forget that moment …i wanted to remove…it.but i ..am not able to do that…Now u all will think why i am saying all this…u all r saying that this person is in LOVE..Right.ya .i..am in luv…with that girl.Oh GOD can’t describe u that how much i am mad at her…She is most beautiful girl of the world…BEAUTIFUL is not only the thing which can be seen by outside .it is the reflection of ur heart .it is also reflected by ur words .by ur smile…which we called inner beauty…it is found in …very few people…So…started laughing…
MAI BHI NA…I JUST REMEMBER HER…!WHENEVER I REMEMBER HER NA…I JUST WANTED TO TALK ABOUT HER MORE AND MORE…AND FORGET ABOUT THE THING WHICH I WAS SAYING…

But .now i am unable to see her…smile..i am able to see her smile but.her smile.which comes from her.heart .that smile.i really miss that smile…
beacuse i lost her .forever…She is with me.but she is not with me.why i feel like this?
ughh…Angry fEELINGS ..i hate this FEELINGS from the bottom of my heart …She is infront of me…she is talking to me..i am able to listen my name from her sweet tongue…But i think i lost her .because of my so called feelings …FEELINGSSS…they were the reason …that i lost her…they always come in between us …kiya ye better na hota .if ..just once i control my feelings…but at that moment my feelings was at peak..And this the result of that .peak feelings that today i am not able to feel her…i am trying hard to feel her presence …but …i am standing alone…this is my idiot thought …She is with me and i believe that she will never leave me …because today is the day…again iam able to feel her…her fragrance… her smile …her presence …and today is the best day of my life…Because of feelings …LOLHow strange?na..FEELINGS …but i think ke this the part of life .
JO HOTA HAI ACHEY KE LEYE HOTA HAI

But where is my answer…i am still not satisfied…
because i am talking about the moment na…that change my life…so dear.kindly accept that ..u didn’t change because of that incident.IK INCIDENT .SE KBHI KUCH NHI HOTA..there are many more moments..which still hurts me so much…
ughh…again feelings…HURTS…Why always feelings??
I am not that kind of person who gets hurts on small things…Even on that person who hurts me…IF i am sad na tu.i am on myself ..FEELING GUILTY…
ugh.again…feelings…why feelings??
i am fool…i am seriously a fool…That how can i believe someone so easily…i think i can never forget this …because of my so called feelings…because they always reminds me of my …idiot thought…they always make me feel guilty …BUT don’t worry.one day …may be …my feelings died and .there will be no more guiltiness…than i will be a free bird…
TODAY I GOT THE ANSWER …THAT IS …KE…WE SHOULD LEARN THE VALUE OF EACHOTHER…IN THE SEPARATION PERIOD…AND AFTER THAT FEELINGS …DAILY … WITH EACH PASSING SECOND MY RESPECT .FOR HER…IS INCREASING…BECAUSE SHE FORGAVE ME …ON WHICH I THOUGHT THAT .I NEVER GET FORGIVENESS…
but glad that i get her back in my life…but what to do with these feelings …ughh…why feelings??