Kriyam: Kyun karte ho muhjse itna pyar (Chapter 40)

Saiyyam awoke the next day with a slight headache.. Flashes of the previous night began to appear in his head..He thought to himself whether it was the alcohol that made him say the things he did..He thought about Raj. How he would potentially be ruining his life..And how good a friend he is to him. He then thought of everything everyone had ever said about his relationship with Krishna. Then he remembered one particular advice his mother gave him the night he signed the divorce papers.

Suhani: tumhe pata hai saiyyam. Jab meri aur yuvraaj ki shaadi hui ti tab koi khush nahi ta..Yuvraaj bhi nahi.ek maa hi ti jisne mujhe apna ya..unhone mujhse kaha ta ki koshish karne wale ki kabhi haar nahi hoti..unhone mera hausla bada ya ki hum sirf dadi ka hi nahi yuvraaj ka bhi dil jeet sakti hoon. Aur humne koshish ki. Hum dost ban gaye..aur kuch hi dino baad yuvraaj ko humse yar hogaya.aur hamari zindagi main bohot muskile aai aur hum alag bhi hue…par woh pyar hi ta jisne hum dono ko phirse ek kardiya.. Saiyyam hum yeh nahi kehe rahe hai ki tumhara faisla ghalat hai. Aur naa hi hum tum par koi dabav daal rahe hain. Hum bas ye kehe rahe hain ki Krishna tumse pyar karti hai aur who bhi humari tarah is rishte ko bachane ke liye bihit koshish kar chuki hai..jis rishte mein pyar ho who rishta kabhi nahi toot sakta..agar tumhare dil main Krishna ke liye kuch bhi hai…toh yeh faisla badal do..iss rishte ko ek mauka de do beta…( do you know saiyyam, when yuvraaj and I got married nobosy was happy. Even he wasn’t. it was only maa who acceped me. She encouraged me to not only win over dadi but yuvraaj as well. She tols me that one who tries never fails. And I tried, We became friends and overtime yuvraaj fell in love with me..and we faced a lot of problems in our lives, we even got separated but it was our love that brought us back together..No Saiyyam im not saying that your decision wrong or am I forcing you to change it. Im just saying that Krishna loves you and she is also trying as I did, to save this relationship. Those relationships which have love never break. If you feel anything for Krishna then please change your decision..Give this relationship another chance.)

Saiyyam stood, listening obediently and then awkwardly proceeded to ask his mother
Saiyyam: par mujhe pata kaise chale ga ki mere dil main kya feelings hai..(but how will I know what feelings are in my heart)
Suhani smiled

Suhani: agar tumhare dil ne kisi koh apna mana hai na.toh uski parakh tab hi hoti hai jab who insaan tumse door ja raha ho..jan who nahi hote hain toh tumein bechainy hoti hai. Ajeeb sa darr mehesoos hota hai..aur jan tum unhe dekh te ho toh dil ko sukoon milta hai..aur ek alag si bechainy hone lagti hai. Par darr nahi hota..sirf khushiyan hi khushiyam hoti hai…( if you want to find out if you feel something for someone, the best time it comes to light is when you feel like you are losing the person, when they are not there you feel uneasy, nervous, and you have this irrational fear..and when you are with the person you feel content. And calm. And a different kind of nervous..but no fear..only happiness)
Saiyyam came back to the present. He realized that , that day then and there he had realized his love for Krishna. And he only brought Raj and went along with this marriage drama because he was convinced that it was the right thing to do… He closed his eyes and thought of every moment that he had spent with Krishna..a stupidly silly smile had crept up on his face..Lastly he rembered Krishna saying she would wait for him…He opened his eyes and said to himself..
Saiyyam: Main aa raha hoon Krishna (I’m coming Krishna)

Saiyyam had gotten ready in record time and headed downstairs..Everyone was in the temple area and the veneration had already started…Saiyyam joined in..his gaze continuely going towards Krishna.Finally when the veneration was over. He seeked his mother’s blessing, took the Prasad and instructed everyone to wait..He then went over to Krishna and brought her infront of the idol of the goddess. He took the sindoor bowl placed near the idol and sprayed it all over Krishna..Everyone stood completely shocked..

Saiyyam: Yaad hai Krishna jis din humara divorce hua tha tumne aise hi mujh ar sindoor pheka ta…aur khud sindoor laga kar tumne mujhse kaha ta ki hum dono ek doosre ke rang mein rang chuke hain….us waqt main yeh maan ne ko tayaar nahi tha…par aaj..aaj mujhe sab kuch bohot clearly dikh raha hai Krishna…maine tumse shaadi tumhari zindagi barbaad karne ke liye kit hi…aur aaj tum khud meri zindagi ban gayi ho….main aaj bhi nahi manta ki main tumhare layak hoon Krishna…par yeh zaroor chahta hoon ki main tuhare layak banoon..tumhe woh har khushi doon jinhe cheene ki maine kabhi kasam khai thi…Zindagi ke har modh pe tumhe apne saath leke chaloon…bin maange pyar mila ta na..isliye kadar nahin kar paya…par agar tum mujhe ek mauka doge toh main tumhe utna pyar doonga jitna iss parivaar ne hum dono ko diya hai..tumhara itna khayal rakhoonga kitna humari maa aur dadu ne rakha hai…tumhe utna pareshaan karoonga aur chilhaooga jitna yuvaan aur yuvani karte hain..tumhe utni khushi doonga jitna tum mujhe deti ho….(Remember Krishna, the day with got divorced you splashed sindoor on me just like this, then put some on your self an d said we.ve been coloured in each other’s love. That day i wasn’t ready to accept it..but now..today Im seeing everything clearly..i married you to destroy your life..but you yourself have become my life..i still don’t believe that I deserve you, but I do want to be the man you deserve, to give you all the happiness that I promised myself I’d take away from you. I want to have you by my side for the rest of my life..i got love when I wasn’t asking for it or expecting it. So I didn’t respect it but if you give me one chance I will love you ad much as this entire family loves us. I will take care of you just as much as maa and dadu do, I will annoy you and tease you just as much as yuvan and yuvani do..i will make you as happy as you make me)
He splashed the remaining sindoor onto himself..

Saiyyam: Main poori tarah se tumhare rang mein rang chukka hoon Krishna…I LOVE YOU..( I have completely been immersed in your love Krishna.. I LOVE YOU)

Krishna emotionally hugged saiyyam…It was a long passionate hug…an embrace that let each other know it would get more heated once they were alone…one filled with love and desperation…An embrace that had truly been worth the wait….Krishna had finally gotten what she wanted. The man she loved raw and vulnerable, wearing his heart on his sleeve..not afraid or running away from his feelings…embracing her infront of the most important people in their lives…Saiyyam was feeling unburdened..free..happy..He had no regrets and he was enjoying every passing second.. a huge weight lifted off his shoulders he had finally learned to accept Krishna’s love. Finally felt okay to love Krishna himself… They were still in each other’s arms..Krishna was crying tears of joy and saiyyam was stroking her hair lovingly….Both wishing this moment would never end..

Precap: Sangeet..

Guys im sorry I know I promised sangeet but Cmon.. This chapter should be a stand alone… Thank you to everyone who stuck around for 40 chapters until it finally happened. Just don’t abandon me now that you all got what you wanted.