MANMARZIYAN – I M SO LONELY BROKEN ANGEL

Confession..

Radhika- I m sorry Arjun..i had to take this step..i know i promised you to never leave your side..but we both know very well that this society will not let our dream come true..plz forgive me ..and if possible forget me..
Arjun- no Radhika plz..u can’t go without any explanation..i can’t live without you..atleast give me a chance…just because I am not of ur caste u can’t go away from me..

Radhika- i understand jaan..she choked bcoz from today she won’t be able to say him jaan..her jaan will be a complete stranger for her..only she knows how painful it is..she loved him since 9 years..she is scared to even think of staying far away from him..but she has to take this decision of separation..her father is not that modern to even accept love marriage and here it is intercaste..
Radhika – Arjun I m sorry..i m scared to talk to my father about this..he will kill us but never gonna except our relationship..i can’t live with this guilt feeling that I m cheating on my family..

Arjun- and what about those 9 years..what about the love ?? What about our moments..our kisses..our hugs..our promises to never leave each other..was i just a plaything for you..was it just physical attraction?? I know u are joking..this is not the first time you are trying this stunt..earlier too u have tried to separate with me..trust me this time too u are gonna come back to me..

Radhika- plz Arjun ..help me leave you..if u have ever loved me then..i don’t want to be in this relationship anymore..i silently cried in pain as if someone stabbed me in my chest..i know it’s not gonna be easy but at least one person has to be strong enough to break other’s heart otherwise we will end up hearting our family..
That day was the the last when Arjun finally asked her to leave him…radhika’s world seemed to be at the verge of the end..but somehow she managed to put up a fake show to convince herself about the long term advantage of the decision..
Radhika’s pov- i knw jaan i m a b*t*h..blo*dy coward but i can’t go against my father..i want you to know that I only love you..i love you..i love you so much..
it’s been more than 10 days but she keeps remembering him each and every second..arjun has stopped contacting me..it feels horrible..though i wanted the same but this pain in my heart is never going..my mind is always on one person..i don’t know whether he might be missing me or not..

i want to go away from him but i m so weak in front of his love..every morning i wake up with my Arjun’s dream..one day I dreamt that he came to me and said that plz don’t push me away from you and I woke up..noone can feel how it pains to get up every morning thinking about that my jaan is not with me..today only I saw a dream in which i was jumping seeing that Arjun is calling me..but i realised it was a dream..i literally want to insert a knife deep down my heart so as to die for once and all instead of this slow painful death..i know I myself is responsible for my situation..but i don’t have any other options..i still remembered..i was in class 6..it was my first time in school van..after receiving me the van halted near a house..from that house came two handsome guy..yes my Arjun and his brother..he was looking so damn handsome and s*xy..i know for a girl of class 6 having such thoughts are weird but i m kind of tv serial lover..it was actually a crush from my side unless it developed into a strong love..

He sat in front of me that day i remember..it was difficult for me to even make an eye contact with him..he was so damn hot..he was looking so fresh like a morning dew..days passed and v became friends..i always wanted to sit near him that’s y i always made circumstances so that he had no other option other than to sit beside me..i know i was being shameless and poor Arjun was small enough to understand my wicked ideas..hehe..i sometimes intentionally bumped over him at speed breakers so that v come in contact..i loved his touch and i m not ashamed to accept that..

months passed like that when suddenly I had to go to hostel at some other place leaving Arjun and this place..i cried the whole night..i knw it was crush but it was painfull..i feared i won’t be able to see him ever..i only knew his name and place..what if he was staying at rent and by the time i come here he change his address..so many questions formed at that time in my mind..yes for 4 years i was going to Ranchi till class 10..

Ohh god..in those 4 years i thought i will forget Arjun but it rather became a more strong crush .i feared what if he might be having a gf as he is so handsome..why would he look at me..a fatso and short height girl..i still remember when i was at my hostel..my friends used to tease me by his name..whenever they needed something they just have to make me swear on his name..bcoz they know i don’t believe in promises but only when it comes to him I can’t take any risk..i know it sounds silly bcoz on the other hand he was not even aware of his fan..yes i was..i am and I will be madly in love with him..i remember i was in class 8 when i saw his dream..i was so happy that i was literally dancing through the whole dormitory..

whenever I wanted to eat too much custard which was my favourites thn my friends used to control me by saying that what if he saw u this fat and will reject you?? I literally started dieting for few days..but how could i forget i being a big foodie can’t diet..at morning assembly in my new school I used to miss him becoz in my previous school I used to stand at the back of the line by fighting with my classmates as i was short heighted..and he was tall enough to stand at the back of his class..i admired his cuteness throughout the assembly and he wasn’t even aware of that..at class 10 again i saw his dream in which he is coming to meet me..ohh god that day i was in cloud 9..remembering those day still bring tear in my eyes..i was so mad for him..and now see what fate has written that I had to push my Arjun far from me..