Swasan: HIS PAIN TS (Part-1)

Heyyy guys I am writing this ts on swasan after when swasan n raglak had ghar pervesh…I think something was missing in that scene so I wana write about that According to me some distance make a relationship strong very strong but in swasan case their distance didnt made their reletionship strong but it created wall between them beacuse of their hatred, taunts blaming eachother… Guys I know u all are waiting when will i Post but guys I am busy with my Studie n not only  Studie guys but even with my health I have some Problem with my health that why I cant Post but will try to Post on weekends…Hope u guys will like this ts…

Soo lets start I hope u guys will like it…

Swasan n raglak entered home after their ghar parvesh with New begining New hope while entering swara remembered her 1st day when she entered with him   during their fake marrige their forcefully marrige beacuse of ragini n their love marrige her eyes became teary while remembering their beautiful Moment….

They went towards their Temple n prayed for their life and relationship and took the blessings of god on annapurna ‘s instructions both
sanskar and laksh adorned their respective wife’s hair partition with the holy vermillion…
A lone tear escaped swara’s eye as sanskar adorned her with vermillion….

She felt so blessed being again his as SWARA SANSKAR MAHESHWARI after that He tied her mangelsuter which she always carried with her from last 6 months on hope to wear again from his hand…

They all spend time with eachother again after long time their house is filled with lots of happiness laksh is back n their doughter in laws are back with their respektive husbands…After spending their time with family they left towards room respektivly….

Swasan room…

Both entered in their room swara felt happy After long time she is in her room but somewhere she felt sad and hurted seeing their room which was filled with their picture but now everything is changed there is no single picture of them…she remembered the Day when she had memory loss how sanskar decorate their room with their picture for her…Tears start falling down from her eyes ? ?

She looked towards sanskar but he avoided their eye contact..he took his nights clothes n went towards washroom she was looking him with teary eyes but soon whiped them thinking about their 6 months sepration n his anger n hatred n smiled sadly…even she Took her coloths n left for changing when he came out of Washroom….

Sanskar was laying on bed when swara came out washroom he became happy seeing her back in his room as his wife she was looking very beautiful feeling his gaze on her she looked at him and shared their beautiful eyelock soon they  broke their eyelock she went towards her bed side n laid down beside him…

Both were looking eachother happily after wishing eachother good night being tierd slept but sanskar sleep was far away from him..he opened his eyes n looked towards swara she was sleeping peacefully n had a beutiful smile on her lips…he was looking at her with full of love n leaned towards and kissed her forehaed lovingly ? n crassed her cheeks lovingly…he missed her soo badly n today he was soo happy which he cant describe feeling her movement sanskar stop crassing her cheek n left towards Balkony…

He took long breath feeling fresh air n closed his eyes relaxing himself and was drinking wine it became his habit now drinking when swara left him till now he drunk beacuse out of pain but today out of happiness having her back…

Sanskar: (monlog while drinking) life is soo complicated the Girl whom I loved and adore most had to Face my hatred n taunt ahh I am hating myself how could I hate her how could I insult her soo badly not only that even I didnt took stand for her on uttra engament I am hating myself she always fought for right n mostly she fought not for herself but for our family to unite them but me what I did I left her alone to Face everything….she never complained for anything but me always did she wanted only from me my Support but my Ego ufff my EGO is the reason of our 6 months sepration hatred towards herself…and looked at her After seeing my hatred hearing my taunts she is still here with me being my wife again I never thought she will forgive me so easily I know we have lots of thing to clear and mostly to talk but I dont know i cant talk to her know so openly I am sceard beacuse I fear to loose her again which I cant aford…but this is truth I hate her being to much great which can effect on our relationship..now I promise self she can do what ever she wont but this time I wont let her go far away from me…

Thinking all that He slept…

Its been 2 week since swaragini are back…and our great swara is again on a Mission forgetting everything about herself n about her husband sanskar…who was trying hard to spent sometime with swara which was now getting Difficult for him again he was loosing his control he was feeling alone having her near him seeing her everyday but still He felt alone….he felt alone seeing swara taking care of everyone thinking about their Problem making their bond and relationship strong that she forgot about her relationship they didnt talked till now after 6 months sepration….beacuse she was on a Mission again making uttra understand that Chirag is not good for her even his family member….not to loose his control he drink everynight without being notice by everyone…

Swara after completing her Mission to make uttra understand and after showing her his true color..was now going to her room to talk with sanskar beacuse he requested her to talk with him…When she entered in their room she saw sanskar was Working on Laptop but seeing her he stoped Working he was about to say something when ragini entered in their room to talk with swara making sanskar more angry on hearing coversation broken…

Rag: swara wo i wanted to Talk to u

Sw: han ragini tell

Rag: u know ma called me she is missing its been many day that we didnt went badi so I was thinking we can go tomorrow even I have asked ma

Sw: yeah u are right ragini so we will go tomorrow and even we to discuss mr. Sharma doughter marrige there is lot of Work I dont think after tomorrow we will have time…

Rag: I know yaar that why after day tomorrow with laksh out..

Sw: ohhh happy to know..

Rag: lets go down u know everyone is there we will spend sometime toghter or lets Play game what u think

Sw: hmm (she looked towards sanskar who was now pratending to Work again thinking that He is busy so said yes) ok lets go (about to leave) sanskar  (he looked at her ) plzz join us (he nodded n she left with ragini smiling)

After completing his Work he joined his family seeing him swara smiled they were talking when uttra got idea n she Run to her room seeing her runing everyone became confuse but After seeing her coming with guitar towards sanskar they got to know what she wont…

Ut: (giving guitar to sanskar) bheiiii plzzz

San: no uttra plzz u know na

Ut: bhei its been long time we didnt heard u plzz

San: uttra plzz

Ut: (looked towards swara for help) bhabi u say na

Sw: plzz sanskar

Sanskar looked at and nodded in yes he took guitar n start playing..seeing him playing swara felt she didnt even knew that He also love singing on his engament with kavita she Came to know about that n today she also wanted to hear him n playing guitar like her…he looked towards swara n smiled sadly n start singing…

Milne hai mujh se aayi
Phir jaane kyun tanhaayi
Kis mod pe hai laayi aashiqui

I don’t know why, loneliness has come
to meet me again..
At what turn has love brought me..

He looked towards swara sadly hearing him swara smile faded she dont know but she felt he was telling her his feeling through this song…

Khud se hai yaa khudaa se
Is pal meri ladaayi
Kis mod pe hai laayi Aashiqui

Is my fight against myself,
or against God Himself,
At what turn has love brought me..

He remembered her ignorance when she Came and whenever he tried to talk her about themself but she only had one topic was their family…

Aashiqui baazi hai taash ki
Toot-te bante vishwaas ki

Love is a game of cards,
of breaking and building trust..

They remembered how everyone distrust them n blamed them and now all are toghter…he remembered how she Broke his trust n start hiding things from him…

Milne hai mujhse aayi
Phir jaane kyun tanhayi
Kis mod pe hai laayi Aashiqui..

Jaane kyun main sochta hoon
Khaali sa main ik raastaa hoon
Tune mujhe kaheen kho diyaa hai
Ya main khud laapataa hoon
Aa dhoondh le tu phir mujhe..
Kasmein bhi doon to kyaa tujhe..

Don’t know why I think,
that I am an empty road..
Have you lost me somewhere,
or have I gone lost myself?
Come find me again..
What should I promise you again..

Singing those line he looked swara for answer…
Did he loose himself sooo badly in her love that He even didnt relized that she became his World his life line and mostly important his life…

Toota huaa saaz hoon main
Khud se hi naaraaz hoon main
Seene mein jo kahin pe dabi hai
Aisi koi aawaaz hoon main
Sun le mujhe tu bin kahe
Kab tak khaamoshi dil sahe
Aashiqui baazi hai taash ki
Toot-te bante vishvaas ki..

I’m a broken musical instrument,
I’m angry with myself,
I’m that voice which is hidden
somewhere in the chest..
Listen to me without saying anything..
How long can the heart bear silence..
Love is a game of cards,
of breaking and building trust..

He was thinking his taunts which hurted her most…he was saying her he is angry on himself that in his hatred he didnt relized whom he was hurting…now he want to make everything all right between them…he was looking n was saying through she was read me why not now…

Milne hai mujh se aayi..
..kis mod pe hai laayi aashiqui..

After finish his Song he avoided looking at her..his eyes became teary without saying he went while whiping his a lone tear which notice only by swara…
She tried to go behind him but was stopped by everyone…

After sometime she left towards their while runing…she looked around in room to find but he was no where…she saw Balkony door open she thought maybe he is there thinking that she went towards Balkony…
Seeing that sight infront of her Broke her completly never in her dream she thought she will sanskar drinking beacuse of her….she was looking at him with teary eyes while he was busy in drinking….

Sw: (shocked broken) SANSKAR

To be continued…