“”A DREAM”” (SWASAN SS by Kakali) part 18

Hello ev1… how re u all? Fine na¿
Thnk u for ur response on previous parts.. Thnk u silent readers.. So here is d next part… let’s go inside d DREAM…

Here we gooo,,,,

Ashqon mein hain yaadein teri,
Bheegi bheegi raatein meri,
Gum hai kaheen raahein meri……

[In my tears there are your memories,
my nights are wet (with tears)
my paths are lost somewhere.]

Main tere ishq mein gumrah hua
Main tere ishq mein gumrah hua
Main wo chaand jiska
Tere bin na koi aasmaan
Main wo chaand jiska
Tere bin na koi aasmaan

[I have become astray in your love..
I am that moon which has no sky for it..]

Meri duaaon mein hai mannat teri
Tujhko padha hai tu hai aayat meri
Jannat tu hi hai tu hona na door
Azmat hai tujhse tu hi hai mera noor…

[ In my prayers there is your wish,
I’ve read you, you are my holy phrase..
you are the heaven, don’t go far from me..
my glory is all from you,
you are my divine light..]

Dil ki salaakhein qaid rakhe hain
Jaise parinda koi, haan koi…
[The bars of my heart keep me imprisoned,like some bird in a cage..]

Ashqon mein hai yaadein teri
Bheegi bheegi raatein meri
Gum hai kahin raahein meri
Main tere ishq mein gumrah hua
Main tere ishq mein gumrah hua
Main woh chaand jiska tere bin na koi aasmaan
MAIN WOH CHAAND JISKA TERE BIN NA KOI AASMAN…

[My tears there are your memories,
my nights are wet (with tears)
my paths are lost somewhere.
I have become astray in your love..
I am that moon which has no sky for it..]

Sanskar is blankly staring Swara who is sleeping peacefully without having any emotion.. without any movement but with a pale face having dark circles under her beautiful eyes who has lost it’s charm now..

He wants soo badly to lie down next to her on the bed, to wrap up his arm around her and sleep.. JUST SLEEP TOGETHER in d most innocent sense of the phase..But he lacked d courage,, bcz he is guilty,,, .. having no option he walked back to his place resting his head against d wall, remembering that horrible incident which almost took his breath away..

FLASHBACK :::

“NOOO SWARA U CAN’T LEAVE ME,
SWAAARRRAAAAAAA”…

“Sanskar,, Sanskarrrrrr betaaaaa…”(Someone is calling him with a worried tone)..

Sanskar jerked from his bed sweating badly… tears r continuously flowing from eyes making his eyes so tired n red… He looks around n starts to shout “SWARA..!! SWARAAA. !! PLZ COME BACK.. I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT U..PLZZZ SWARA..”

“Sanskar betaaa.. shh!! Shhh !! Nothing happened to Swara.. !! She is finee.. !!! Calm down.. calm down… “…

Sanskar hugs her tightly n cries his heart out.. “Mom Swara.!! M.oom… Sw.wwraa. . She.. she left mee !!. Mom..” says in a choked voice n breaks down in his mom’s embrace…

“Noo..beta.. kuch nehi huwa Swara koo.. she is fine. U must saw “A DREAM”(*nightmare).. don’t cry beta”… says AP rubbing his back in a manner to calm him down..

Sanskar looks at her hurriedly n gets up….”Mom,Mom… something is wrong with Swara..!! I know..Mom..
Mom she needs me.!! Plz call her..
Noo nooo… let me call.. (dials her number but it’s switch off)..

His tears r unstoppable now.. “Mommmm see na her phone is switch off.., WHY? Mom i need to go.. I will go to her home.. i know she is not fine … I KNOW MOM SHE WILL LEAVE ME.. I HAVE HURT HER A LOT.. now she will never show her face. Nn..evverrr” blabber Sanskar without thinking what he is saying n falls in his knees crying bitterly..

AP is looking at his son shockingly.. she has never seen him so broken,so helpless…”No Sanskar.. !! Nothing will happen to Swara..(cups his face) look at me..,, look at me beta(Sanskar looks at her) U go to her home n meet her.. don’t worry everything will b all rit…” says AP with a bright smile n kiss his forehead…

Sanskar nods taking his keys n makes a way to Swara’s home… “Swara. I will never let anything happen to u.. u can’t leave me.. u don’t know how much I LOVE U.. i will die without u… I WILL DIE… ” says Sanskar n again remember his horrible dream …

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AFTER SOMETIME:::

“No Sanskar beta,Swara doesn’t live with us.. i mean she has been living in hostel since 5 n half month.. ” Says Jhanki placing a cup of tea in front of Sanskar…

“But aunty.. i don’t have any idea about it.. infect i don’t even know from when she is living there.. Aunty Swara is fine na.. ! Why is she not living with u.. ? N who is that lady ?(point towards a photo frame) ”

Jhanki smiles n says” She is Sharmishta,, my sister n SWARA’S MOM”….

Sanskar is shocked with this new revelation n asks with a trembling voice “Swara’s mom !! But u r her mom .. then how come?”

Jhanki understands his misconception n says” No beta. M not her mother.. !! I m her Maasi maa.. !! Actually Swara lost her mother at d day when she born (She narrates everything regarding Swara’s so called father accusation till d day she left for hostel)..”

After listening all this Sanskar is froze at his spot.. he is guilty,sad,heartbroken, as well as ashamed of himself… he doesn’t know what to do, what to say as he remembers his harsh words which he used for Swara.. it’s stabbing his heart like anything n his restlessness increasing with passing second.. an unknown feeling starts to occupies in his heart indicating like something is very precious going away from him… !! He is unable to bear d pain n rushes out saying he has something important work… !!!

He takes long longgg breaths n consoles himself saying” Calm down Sanskar,calm down..nothing will happen to UR Swara..”..

He again dials her number n it’s now also showing switch off… !! Now he calls Simin” Hello,,hello Simin ,where r u? Where is Swara? Is she with u?plz give her phone. I want to talk to her.. plzz Simin r u listening what m saying.. Siminnn !!!(says with a fearfull voice)…

“Now what u want Sanskar,, ? Nothing is left.. !! Swara will never talk to u.. never…”Says Simin blankly…

“Simin don’t joke.. okk. tell me Where is Swara? Tell me she is fine. !!.i want to meet Swara.. where r u both? Answer me God damn it…. “Shouts Sanskar impatiently…

Swara is infront of me.. lying on city hospital bed … SHE HAS NO TIME TO TALK WITH U..infect she has no time for anyone.” says Simin in a cool tone n disconnect d call…
Sanskar murmurs in utter disbelief n shock”City hospital,,¿ Swara?(again thinks about his Dream or u can say his nightmare)Noo Noooo… Swara is all rit.. !! I know.. Simin is just joking…”….acts like a mad

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Sanskar stops his car in front of hospital n goes to receptionist but in a huge dilemma “What will i ask?” But i guess he is not needed to ask anything as he sees Simin who is buying medicines..

“Simin whh.eree . Wheere iss Sw..awara?”

Simin smiles painfully n points towards a door..

Sanskar is about to move but “u know Sanskar,,, she LOVED u.. LOVED u without any expectation… u was “A DREAM” for her since last 3 years..
she always wanted to b with u.. always wanted to loved by her loved once..
but see her fate.. ev1 broke her from inside. 1st her Mom left thinking her to give a beautiful life…
2nd her papa left her bcz according to him she snatches his beautiful world …

Then u broke her again..AGAIN N AGAIN.. !every time with ur words with ur actions ….. but now look at her… !!
Sanskar ,Swara has less time.. she has no hope..she lost herself. !!her each n every DREAM is shattered ,,,

SHE IS NO MORE… SWARA IS NO MORE SANSKAR… !! ”

Simin sits nearby a chair to help herself from falling….

Sanskar is starting her with an emotionless face …..

Precap-Sure last part…

#Ignore my all mistakes…?

Hello guyzzz… ?…1st of all sorry for being late… ?
2nd u all might b thinking why i didn’t end it as i said in last past..? but it’s next to impossible for me to end it in a one chapter..?. actually m not well to write long chappy… ?so write this part with a blank mind… ?sorry if it was not good enough to read…? but m helpless.. hope u all understand… urghh let it b… ?

¤SIMMU? party toh banti hai..?. !! Don’t forget… i need 100 chocolates on 8th December.. be ready with it… ?

Thnk u sooo much for reading..
God bless u all.. 🙂