You have to fight your bad days to deserve the best one !!
I hate myself !!
Why did I say that ?!! How could I say that ?!! I’m such a horrible person. How could I do this to him ?!!
I cursed myself for doing something I never even dreamt of. I told Karthik that I was in love with Rithvik.
I lied. . .
I didn’t love him, and I never will. Hell, I didn’t even have any feelings for him !!
It didn’t matter to me, how much rude I was to everyone, how much of a b*t*h I had become, even I knew that I hadn’t changed from inside. Because when I saw that look on his face when I told him that I was in love with Rithvik. I felt miserable. Even worse than that.
I hated myself for being such a big fat liar. But then, I went home and thought about it once again. . .
‘I lied. I was wrong. But he, he cheated on me as well. Wasn’t that wrong ?!!’ I thought as I recollected how Rithvik told me that Karthik cheated on me several times. And that’s when I realized the reason for my big fat lie.
I lied, because he did. He kept secrets in the first place. He didn’t tell me about Rithvik. He didn’t tell me that he cheated on me before.
He had made such huge, unforgivable mistakes, and yet, he expected me to be faithful and understanding.
Rithvik was right. I should’ve never trusted him. I went to meet him, only to finish off the things between us, and now that it’s done, I don’t think there is any need to stay in touch with him.
Although I told Bhai and Keerti bhabi about whatever happened back at café, I just didn’t tell them that I lied, because I knew they won’t keep their mouth shut, and soon, Karthik would know it as well. To avoid all this mess, I decided to go with the flow.
It was almost night time, almost 10:30. I crashed on my bed, and tried to sleep. As soon as my eyes closed, the lights in my room were turned on. I blinked open my eyes to see bhai standing at the doorstep. He walked towards me and sat on the corner of my bed.
“ How are you ?!!” He asked, giving me a quick hug.
“Alive.Since the last time I checked. What’s up ?!!” I asked.
“You don’t know what’s up ?!! Other than you being in love with Rithvik, even I don’t know what’s up !!” He said. I saw that one coming. How could he not stand up for his best friend.
“If you’re here for Karthik, then please feel free to leave. I am not talking about it.” I said.
“You’re just running away !! Do you even realize what you are doing ?!! What is wrong with you ?!!” bhai asked.
“You want to talk about me being with Rithvik . Fine then. I don’t think I did anything wrong.” I said.
“You dont know what you’ve done to him. He’s broken. I’ve never seen him like this before !!” He said.
“He deserved it.” I said and his expression changed suddenly. He was looking at me like he was looking at someone else,some other girl !!
“When did you become so insensitive ?!! Why ?!!” He asked.
Insensitive. No, I was worse than that. I deserved all the hate in the world for spoiling Karthik’s life with that one lie.
“Yes, I’m insensitive, okay ?!! I know, I’m selfish !! I don’t have any feelings for anybody !! I smoke all day, I drink, that’s all I do !! Isn’t this what you want to hear ?!! You heard it now. Just leave me alone !!” I exclaimed.
He didn’t say anything, but got up to leave, just before he could step out of my room he turned around and walked a little closer.
“You love him.” He said.
“No !! I don’t !!” I cried and let the tears slip. He sighed and wrapped his arms around me.
“Why are you doing this ?!! I know this is not you. Something has changed you. I don’t know what,but Naira, you need to know that I love you and want you to be happy. Just tell me whatever it is.” Bhai said.
“I can’t !!” I sobbed into his chest !!
He rubbed my back and held me back.
“Okay.If that’s what you want ,but one day, I’m sure that you’re going to see how much Karthik loves you, and you are going to accept it and love him back. Destiny will play it’s game and bring you two back together. All I want you to do for now, is take care of yourself.” He said and after a long time, I felt comforted and loved. He grabbed the packet of cigarettes from the table.
“Try to quit. We want you alive.” He said, before engulfing me in a hug and walking out.
Tired, I laid back on my bed. I buried my face in my palms and thought of everything that would’ve happened, if I had not gotten into that accident.
We would’ve been happily engaged. But then again, I would have been living a lie !!
Precap : Depressed Karthik. Naira asking Rithvik to pretend to be her boyfriend. Naksh getting a huge promotion. A celebration at home !!
So she has lied about being in a relationship and love with Rithvik. Don’t worry peeps soon Kaira would be together.
I have read all your comments on previous chapter’s page but I have not been able to reply as I busy with uttarayan celebration. I am so sorry peeps but I will reply to each one of you by tonight !!
Happy Makar Sankranti to all of you.
Do comment. Keep smiling. Keep watching Yrkkh !!