The heart wants what it wants !!
Screw my life, screw everything. That’s exactly how I was feeling at that moment. I was driving to the place where I and Naira had been a day before the accident. When she said she loved me and that night we made love.
Anyone would think that I was stupid. Silly. Madly in love with the girl who left me. But I didn’t care. I still went to the place which reminded me of Naira.
I stepped out of the car.I went to the spot where I had kissed her.That was it. I broke down.. But I didn’t want to cry again.
Even though I was at top of my career my personal life was not so good. Everytime I got an award be it Youngest Executive of the year I always thanked everyone who supported me and stood by me no matter what. I couldn’t thank Naira in public, but I surely thanked her in my mind because wherever I’m today is because of her love and support. She didn’t stood by me physically. Somewhere in some corner of the world she was there, and that seemed to make me feel a bit better. But then again… I missed her.
‘Oh God Naira !! What’s taking you so long !! Stop having second thoughts and go to Karthik. Say you love him !! Dont run away from him !!’ That’s what my heart said.
‘Shut up !! Don’t listen to your heart. Go away from him if you truly love him. Stay away and let him be happy without you. You are not meant to be together.’ That’s what my brain said.
“Shut up !!” I yelled and held my head in hands. I realised there was nobody in the room except me. I let a tear slip from my eye and looked at the watch.
Ten minutes,Naira. I said to myself. I pushed myself from the bed and walked towards the wardrobe. I pulled out my jeans and my t-shirt and set it on the bed. I grabbed my bag and put my passport.
I sighed and kept looking at it as if it was made of gold.Bhai’s words were not leaving my mind. An image of Karthik and me kept on flashing in front me.
The way he held my hand, the way he said my name and made it sound so special, the way he looked into my eyes and complimented me, the way he played with my hair when he was bored, the way he cuddled me on cold winter nights, the way we spent our nights counting the stars together, our cute silly fights … everything flashed in front of me.
‘Am I really ready to let all this go ?!!’ I asked myself. I closed my eyes and the immediate response that came out of my mind was —
“No” I said aloud. I can’t live without him.
‘Yes, I’d made my decision. Doesn’t matter what happens next. Nobody knows the future. But I want to live my present. I want to live the happy and perfect life with him.’ I thought.
I didn’t realise that I was smiling to myself like an idiot. I’d let go off all the promises. There was nothing that could stop me from being with him, and that’s because I love him . . .
I threw everything away and rushed downstairs to find my mumma first.
I burst open the door of her room and there she was. Her head snapped up as soon as I entered and she gave me a confused look.
“Naira ?!! Aren’t we supposed to leave ?!! It’s almost four !!” She exclaimed frowning.
“I’m not going mumma. I’m going to stay. I’m going to apologise to him for everything. I’m going to make up for the last two years now…” I said.
As soon as I said that, her frown turned into a warm big smile. “I’m so glad that you made the right choice. I’m happy that I finally got my daughter back…” She said pulling me into a hug.
The mother-daughter hug lasted for a while and then I pulled back. I need to meet Karthik . “I’ve to go and see him. Now !!” I said.
I almost jumped in excitement and gave my mom a small hug and flew downstairs, out towards my car.
It was thundering. The bright blue morning sky was now dark grey. The wind was howling, the trees were looking as if they were dancing under the rain. It was getting cold outside…
And there I was. Standing alone under the dark sky, getting soaked in the rain. My perfectly set hair were wet and my shirt was sticking to my body.
I hated the rains and that day, the dark sky reminded me of myself. I was the sky and Naira was my sun. Now that she was gone, i was all alone. Like the grey sky was dark and sad without the sun,Karthik was incomplete without Naira.
I tried rubbing the tears brimming out from the corner of my eye with the sleeves of my t-shirt and hopped into the car.I closed my eyes and thought of all places where Karthik could have gone.
The first place that came to my mind was the one where we had gone a few days back. Where I had said that I loved him and it was raining that day as well.
My vision was blurry as I opened my eyes. I blinked a few times and prayed that Karthik was there and he was fine. l drove faster since there were not much cars on the road.
The viper was on and I was frustrated as I couldn’t focus on the road because of the viper that moved in front of me. Anyway, I had almost reached my destination…..
I looked at both sides of the road. But no car or person was seen. And then suddenly, my eyes fell on a familiar car. It was a red coloured Audi R8. I heaved a sigh of relief as I saw that car….Karthik’s car.
My heart was still beating loudly as I saw him in front of me, all alone. I took slow and nervous steps towards him. A part of me doubted whether he would forgive me or not, but I couldn’t hide my feelings anymore.
“Karthik ?!!” I managed to say while keeping my voice steady. It was too cold outside, and the rain didn’t seem to have a plan of stopping for another few hours.
He heard his name being called. He opened his eyes, which were closed as soon as he heard the voice.
“Karthik.” I called out again. This time louder. Maybe he wasn’t able to hear me, I thought.
Karthik took a deep breath and turned to his left from where the voice was coming
He scrunched up his brows in confusion and then his eyes grew wide as a soccer ball as he spotted me there all drenched in the rain.
“Naira ?!!” Was all he managed to say.
I took another step closer to him and now both of us were facing each other. It was thundering and it was difficult to hear the sound of anything except the howling wind.
“Hi.” I said.
“Naira what are you….” He said but I cut him off.
“First listen to me.” I said. He didn’t say anything since he had no idea what was happening.
“Look. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. okay ?!! I acted like a b***c….” I said as the wind roared.
“I’m so sorry. I acted so childish.so stupid two years ago and left you !! You probably don’t even want to see me again. But all I can do is to apologise !! Even after how I acted and even after seeing me with Rithvik,you loved me.. I thought you must’ve forgotten me completely in these two years….you must’ve given up !! But I realized you never did !! You never gave up on me, on our love. It’s just that your love was stronger than mine. I was too weak.I should have realised that staying away from you would only make me weaker.” I continued and took one step closer.
“But they say it’s better late than never. And now I’ve realized that you make me strong. I don’t exist if I dont have you.Ah !! I know I must’ve lost all my chances and you must have given up on me now but still I don’t want to live in a guilt that I broke your heart because of my stupidity.so I’m sorry !! I’m sorry for everything.” I said.
He was taken aback for a while after my long speech. He didn’t know what to say. Of course, he was happy,but it was like a sudden change for him. One moment his life was miserable, the next moment everything falls back into place.
“Say something.” I cried. My voice was cracking due to the cold.
“What ?!! ” He kept on looking blankly at me.
“Anything. Just say that you forgive me. I love you and I also know that you don’t –” I started but he cut off me in between.
“I love you.” He blurted out.
“I love you,Naira. I always have and I always will” He said.
“I love you too, forever” I said.
The rain didn’t seemed to stop. We kissed in the rain. Our lips moved in sync as Karthik smiled in the kiss. He tried to pull back but I only held on to him tighter. Finally, he gave up and grabbed my waist. He couldn’t stop himself from wanting me more.
Finally we broke the kiss and looked into each other’s eyes.
“Now what ?!!” I asked.
“Now we go home and continue what we have just left incomplete.” Karthik said.
“And what exactly is that ?!!” I asked.
“You’ll see when we get home.” He said cheekily.
“Acha. Well, then I’m eager to see.” I said as we both burst out laughing.
Soo here is the most awaited kaira reunion. How was it guys ?!! Hope I have lived upto your expectations.
Also I want to know if you all want me to continue with the story or end it here. If you all want me to continue with this story then I will show some sweet kaira moments for a while and then think about what to add in the story !!
but if you ask me to end it here then I have an idea and a plot in my mind for a new ff !! It would be completely a new story….
So the call is your’s. Tell me through your comments what do you want me to do !! I will decide according to the majority of the comments.
PS : Don’t ask me to do both the things as I won’t be able to write two ff’s at the same time.I want to concentrate on one ff at a time.
Do comment. Keep smiling. Keep watching Yrkkh.