Why cannot we?? An OS

Is there someone out there whom you want to say “i have feelings for you” to or “i love you” to but are apprehensive about it? Before you make any decision, read this story, and you will know what to do.

TWINKLE’S FEELINGS(FULL STORY IN HER VOICE)

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in Goa, I met a boy.His name was KUNJ SARNA. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.

I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what
I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.

All through high school and even through graduation we’re always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful.
All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.

I went home hurting because I didn’t tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in Mumbai, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn’t tell him how I felt. But I couldn’t let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out.
I felt hurt that I didn’t tell him what I had inside my heart.

Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn’t spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.

I left Mumbai feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in Mumbai. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn’t written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: “meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things”. I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside.
We hugged until we couldn’t breathe anymore.

Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn’t written for a long time. He cried until he couldn’t cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn’t tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to Mumbai, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn’t wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.

One day he didn’t show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn’t come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?

I gathered my things and went to Mumbai for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn’t get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn’t know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to Goa. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.

The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to Mumbai and fell in love with another.

How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me.

Finally, the diary ended when it said,

“Today I will tell her I love her”.

It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

“If you love someone, don’t wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all”.
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hey how r u all my sweet sissies how r u all i hope in fine spirits and here i m wid one more sad but a beautiful message wala os yaar guys pls do commnt dis os is one which i wrote whole heartedly pls guys do commnt

53 comments

  1. Misha

    |Registered Member

    One word – MIND BLOWING

    This one shot blew my mind like to dynamite would!!!

    Hey Paavu! How are you?

    I have read something written by you for the first time and it is amazing.

    Well I couldn’t stop crying…because it’s like the best OS I have ever read.

    I mean description of so many emotions in a single chapter…amazing..

    Plus, you are right. The feeling of loosing someone when you love them to core is unbearable…

    A perfect message and a prefect shot!

    Hope you would write more and more and never end and I’m definitely gonna tell others to read your one shot!

    Take care 😍😍

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Yaar rula daala na misha sis itna acha commnt thanks itna specila commnt dene ke liye sach mein as u said ki u ve nvr read dis os before similarly I also haven’t got such a special and long commnt ever u made me feel special I love u I ll try to give more of dese writings if u like love u yrrr and I m veryhappy and thankful to u dat u are saying u ll tell oders to read it love u sissy

  2. Adya

    |Registered Member

    Paavu di …….ufffffff…it was soooooo nyyyccclyyyyyy written…..itna emotional…….rula Diya apne to mujhe……Uffff……mtlb mai Kya bolu
    …..ap wapis to ayeeeeee nd that tooo attee samay Khushi ke ansu ke bajay dukh ke ansu…le aye apne…..sry emotional ansu….. bahut pyara tha di….apke whole heartedly wale os ne to hmara dil hee jeet Liya….
    Keep writing darlo di……superb….love u

  3. Ramya

    |Registered Member

    Hiii paavu awesome amazing os
    Bt i think I have already read dis before I’m sry if I have hurted u
    Os was amazing

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey ramya I think u might have read sme oder type of stry cos dis I tho gt of today only one os was drr earlier in tu which ended in kunj death and gravr bt it was totally diff dus is diff I dont knw wt u said wer u read it??

  4. chandu

    I am crying…!! I think I am more heart broken than twinkle after reading this story…!! Woww…!! It’s fantastic…!!

  5. Fatima

    Heyy paavu it was amazing.
    But i really think that the same os was posted before..
    Like totally same one

    • Paavu

      |Author

      No It wasnt I dont knw wer u read bt I wrote dis on my own u can test it bt nw I m leaving tu as u all are doubting so I jave no right to be here

  6. Monica

    |Registered Member

    Okay, firstly this OS was great, no doubt! But but, I don’t know why but I guess I have read this before somewhere? Like the same story, exactly same! When I started reading your os, I could predict what would happen next! I am not really sure if I am wrong or right so please don’t mind. Sorry, if you felt bad!

      • Monica

        |Registered Member

        There’s nothing like that dude! I am just saying I’ve read a similar story earlier. You don’t have to leave tu for just this reason? I am sorry, I guess my words have hurt you. I really am sorry about it, genuinely sorry! Hope you don’t leave tu! x

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Yaar I dont knw wat all are saying nw I m just going to quit tu cos no one understand dat I wrote it srry if it wasss rude mw

      • Netra

        Noooooooooooo! How can u leave us
        And there’s nothing like that plzzzzzzzz forgive me plzzzzz sorry if my words hurted u
        Plzzzzzz

  7. Alex

    Hey ,I’m a silent reader.Today you just stole my heart. It was really amazing piece of writing…Thanks for this..love ya

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Oh meri chiku I m happy dat u loved it yaar I m bit hurt so I wanna leave tu but in some days I ll end my ffs and den I quit srry bt main abhi sochungi and I ll ask dis in my next post of ff and acc to commnts I ll do bt u r saying pls and u always commnt sirf tum logon ke pyar ki wajah se ruk jaati hun love u yaar

  8. SidVee

    Beautiful messege.. the story was amazing.. plZ don’t leave tu and and end ur ffs plz plz.. ur ffs are amazing n I’m waiting for them to be posted ❀

  9. Savanshi27

    |Registered Member

    Hey dear I usually don’t follow twinj but I saw ur os in comment section and thought to give a read and I must admit it was amongst one of d perfect decision I took….
    this os has brought tears in d eyes of a person whom ppl consider heartless…
    I had tears welled up in my eyes..

    U r a fafantastic writer the way u painted the inner turmoil of twinkle was unfathomable… the plot of ur os was something that made ur os get an xtra shimmer… u nailed it dear…
    bang onnn!!!!!

    Just can’t describe wat I’m feeling right now but I can say 1 thing that u have included urself amongst my admired writer’s list and I m happy that u are in it coz u deserve it….
    loads of appreciation… keep writing and plz let me know when u update something as I don’t follow twinj
    I would love to read ur creation

    Finally ending my blabbering…
    love u… b blessed😘😘😘😘😘😘

  10. Priya bose

    Hi paavu
    This is my first comment
    The Os was great but stealing other people os is not a good thing
    I remember clearly that I have read this os before and I remember every word of
    That one was also on twinj
    So if you wanna write an Os do it by your own
    And I am not gonna say sorry like others cause this is the truth that you copied someone os

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey afeeza I dont knw wat all are saying bt I dont knw wat u r also saying bt believe me why shld I steal one of ur os and write it here it ll defame me only why would I ???? And frst of all I nvr read dis os before and neither I ll go so many pages back ok to just steal ur os I wrote it fully myself bt just I got some idea from an article in a magazine

      • Paavu

        |Author

        Hey afeeza dont say dat I stole ur article coz now some are saying dat its written by someone else in oder site so he can u say me I dont need to steal ur article I have dat much good writing skill dat I can write on my own so jst dont say dat its like what the heck and srry for nothing

      • Netra

        Sorry for intintrepting but I think may u both have some confusion I told in my previous comment that I think i read but when I checked it it was a little bit different but although it was superb πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ˜
        Sorry once again

  11. Sara28

    |Registered Member

    The story and concept was really nice but idk why I feel like the same story I read somewhere. It may be my mistake and Im kinda confused. But either way, I really like it.

  12. SORRY!!!!

    dont be sad paavi… actually everyone read it in tu thinking,its written by aafeeza… when this confusion created I searched this story like copy and search… u can see it here…
    http://www.loverofsadness.net/sad_story.php?id=294

    this story is really written by meher named author… its real name is I still love him…

    srry if anyone is hurt..and paavu and afeeza so sorry…

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey how if she might copied it frm afeeza or mine dont knw wats going on??? I m just kecked off wat is going on ….. no I wrote smthng like dis not exactly same bt an idea fr it in a magazine only I m sure I can send u pic of magazine give ur mail

  13. Twinjfan.tamanna

    |Registered Member

    paavu paavu I seriously loved it…don’t leave tu plz… plz send me ur email id in private message … I won’t be able to reply through tu private message.. so I ll male u..

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey miss sorry dont be sorry u r humble and polite and ya I have read smthing in a magazine only of dis type just trust me I can send u pic of dat magazine give me ur mail I can justify

      • SORRY!!!

        paavu… I believe u.. may be its from the online website of the same magazine… srry I don’t have gmail account…

  14. aaku

    Pavvu everyone in TU trust u but its just that the same story was post by afeeza.The concept is same but the language is different.So pls don’t leave TU.Thank u for sharing such wonderful story with us.Pls don’t leave TU n pls don’t end ur ff, just becoz of this. I know u are hurt but sometimes it happen. Everyone gets hurt but only because of that u can’t stop writing. If someone hurt ur feelings in school then what will u do?U will stop going to school. That’s not the solution.So pls don’t leave TU.Hope u understand.

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey aaku love u dear to make me understand in nic eway bt believe me I m hurt vry much soooo I cant help it bt if I ll write also do anyone will commnt on my fgs whose story even I imagined on mine widout reading any magazine or anything and even I thoughr it wrote it whole heartedly bt ya its not written by ageeza only bt some people in cimmnts said dat in other site also smone posted and ya why I shld steal afeeza’s idea

      • aaku

        Pavvu dear pls try n understand. Everyone gets hurt but because of that we can’t stop doing the things that we love.U love writing n we enjoy reading ur creations.Ur creations bring a smile on my face.Whenever I read ur ff I never feel that I m reading it but I feel as if I am watching it. U are such a gud writer n we all TU family know that u r not a cheater, n we appreciate ur hardwork n dedication. N I believe that every one will comment in ur ff. If u don’t believe me then just post ur next epi n see how much comment n love u will get from us. Post ur ff soon.Sorry on the behalf of all who hurted u.Sorry dear.

  15. Twinj

    |Registered Member

    Pavvu aaku is right.Everyone gets hurt n just because of that u can’t leave TU. I know that u r very hurt but trust me slowly ur pain will reduce. But if u leave TU then u will never be able to recover. N everyone know that u are not a cheater, it’s just that the concept is same. I appreciate ur dedication towards ur writing n I know that u are a very gud writer n u don’t need to steal anyones idea. So cheer up n pls don’t leave TU n Pls don’t end ur ff, it’s really very gud n of course everyone will surely comment on ur ff. Hoping for a positive response.

    Lots of love,
    Twinj

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey twinj thanks fr giving me moral support and making me belief dat I m nt a cheater ya all u say so I ll cont dem bt further if I ll get commnts den nly I ll write nxt epis so pls dear commnt kar dena chahe ganda but pls bad wala commny hi kar dena love u and thank u

  16. Arshita

    U r not wrong may be the magazine was of the same website and may be that afeeza copied it from the website n said that i wrote it but it was written by mehar
    U told the truth that u read it from a magazine that’s it for us
    So plzzzzz don’t be sad for us

    • Paavu

      |Author

      Hey thanks arshita u r so sweet and ur sweet commnt relieved me ya I read magazunes and it wad means a story of s girl of usa as she was interviewed that magazine mostly dealt wid people’s love life

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