Hello everyone, this is Pavithra here. This is an OS by me, dedicated to my grandmother. This is not dedicated, its all about her. About her last two months, the worst time in my life. These are real happenings. She left me 1year ago, 6th Feb… This day, last year… But I know she is still around me happily, supporting me all the way she can… Please read and comment.. Please..
It was diagnosed that she had cancer. But she survived with all her strength for 3 years and it was all ok…. Her health problem was almost gone. She was almost like relieved from her health problem. But everything changed on 17th December 2016.
Morning 4:30… 17th Dec 2016….
She woke up from her sleep. Her home nurse was near her fast asleep. She stood up from her bed and started to walk.. Usually we wake up this time to go to the washroom. But she was not going to the washroom. In my home, her room’s doors opened into another roo whose doors only opened to the main hall.. She was walking to the door of her room. And she suddenly sat down there like falling… That single second changed her as well as my life…
After this incident, I have seen her without much problems was for only one day. That night, she slept and she was never able to stand up from her bed. From that falling, she got her spinal cord fractured.. As she was over aged, there was nothing to do for her.
That morning, it was though that she was woken up just to fall down….. The first step to her death..
Later she was hospitalised. She didn’t even talk to anyone. She kept her eyes open all the time but had a blank look.. She kept her eyes glued on the ceiling of her room. One day, I saw tears rolling down her cheeks.. That time, I didn’t think in my life that I will loose her.
On 3rd January, she was moved to another hospital at Ernakulam, the metro town of Kerala. My mother’s brother’s wife was a daughter there. That means my grandmother’s daughter-in-law.. So she got special treatment.. What use for that? She was left dead, na?
We were always in ernakulam.. I was present in school for only 13 days that month..
My exam started. Two of my exams were postponed to 6th and 7th of February…
Feb 3rd , Friday… My mom called and told me that she is going to EKM because grandma is critical. She told me to stay in my friend’s house that evening and she will pick me when she come back that night.. So, like she said,I came to my friend’s house. The first thing i heard that my mom is not coming that night and I have to stay in my friend’s house. That time, I didn’t know what should I do, I thought.. should I cry or laugh or be angry?
The friend I said is a girl from the other division of 7th.. My relative too. But, to be frank,I don’t like her!!
So I stayed there the whole night. I kept my eyes open all the time..
Next day morning,my sister came from her hostel and picked me up and we both stayed in our house that day… 4th of February.. At evening, one relative of ours came and we went to her house… We stayed at our relative’s house that night.. Next day that is 5th February, my father came and picked us from our relative’s house and let my sister go back to hostel. We both went to EKM… Those 3 days without seeing my mom, I don’t even want to remember..
Evening 6:00.. 5th Feb 2017…. We went to the hospital to meet mom and grandma… I thought grandma is OK.. She can talk. She has improved. But it was not like that… The moment I entered the hospital room, I found her half dead. She had swelling all over her body.. She kept her eyes closed. I couldn’t believe my eyes.. The oxygen mask, the gurgling sound of water and the beep sound still scares me..
Mom told me to touch her hand… I was actually scared to do so. But I touched and felt it really hard. I didn’t know that it was the last time I am touching her. Before leaving I glanced a look at her half dead body…
The next time I am seeing her was with two cotton balls on her nostrils and a band tied around her face.. Yes, she was dead. The stand-by told us… The moment before her dead, she opened her eyes and let out a smile saying bye to this world. Without even struggling for life, she just bid bye…
After her death, my life changed.. I am not joking.. Its true.. My whole life changed…
This is to you ammumma (we malayalis call grandmother’s ammumma..) Its been 1 year since you have left me but I am sure you are always with me. Sorry for those arguments. It was your death that taught me how important you were to me… I really miss your ‘Vava’ call.. I know you are in heaven seeing all this happily… Love you a lot ammumme…
*Real life incidents.