I wanna heart to die but not soul to live – episode 35

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Anika – was laying on Shivavy chest put her hand on Shivavy face and pov Shivavy

Shivavy- what happened?

Anika- I’m not get sleep give my pills to me my hand is also paining see

Shivavy- why u burned it?

Anika- I haven’t burned it

Shivavy ( thinking)- yeh bhool gaye hai

Anika-was cuddling in Shivavy

Shivavy- covered Anika in his arms

Anika- Shivavy I’m going..

Shivavy- where r u going

Anika- I’m dyi…..

Shivavy- Anika kaha jaa rahe hoo

Anika- its paining

Shivavy- kaha ho rahe hai pain

Anika- my whole soul is aching

Shivavy- had tears in his eyes because he knows what his love is talking about

Shivavy- hug anika tightly and kissed on Anika forehead

Anika- was feeling his touch. Anika foward her hand

Shivavy crying- understood what Anika is asking for. Shivvay hold her hand and start kissing her

Anika- closed her eyes but breathing heavily, stiffing and was rubbing her face on Shivavy chest

Shivavy- Anika Kya huwa, Anika. Shivavy truned her face and smiled with tears eyes ” so gaye ” Shivavy caressing her face.
Anika main sab theek kar do ga meri khirkitor Anika

Anika- again had dreadfull flashback and she got scared and hold Shivavy tightly.. and she start pressing Shivavy close to herself.

Shivavy- yeh phir dar rahe hai. Anika don’t panic I’m here calm down and he start rubbing her back and pat his lips on her forehead

Anika- finally got comfort in her love embrace

Shivavy- too close his eyes both were in each other arms


Devi g- crying caressing Anika pictures forgive me beta its because of me why i called u back to hell it was good that u were far for me at least u don’t give this much pain to urself i know u have suffered alot but how can u kill urself like this. Don’t u even think about ur dadi how I’m living without u. First Aarohi left me and then u too are getting far from me. My Anika can never see anyone in tears but today u made ur dadi cry.
Anika share ur pain with ur dadi see how pretty ur smile is, twinkle in ur eyes ? I’ve lost it all.
Aarohi mujhe maaf kar dy main teri ” ANU” ko nahe sambhal sakhi main haar gye, main haar gye. ?

Bhavya- Dadi u r still woke and crying?

Devi g- what else I can do? Meri Anika khud ko mitha rahe hai aur main tumhari maa ko diya huwa waada pura nahe kar sakhi. I’m so bad

Bhavya- hug devi g, Dadi Anika di, did all this because we hurt her feelings and u know na see can’t punish those whom she loved alot and instead of that she punishes herself

Devi g- why Anika is like this how can she love some1 so deeply. And then why we all hurt her this much why?

Om- because she’s Anika

Gauri- Dadi i need to talk to u not only to u but to all

Devi g- what?

Gauri- its getting serious what Anika di did today is not good i know its dangerous but we have to take risk and we have to make Anika di to cry out her emotions did u remember chanda told that make di cry . What she did to herself was merciless how can she hurt herself to this extend
Devi g- how u will do this?

Gauri- we have no other option instead of recreating Anika di memories with maa

Devi g- nahe woh maar jaye ge ( no we can’t see will die)

Gauri- toh Abhi woh kon sa jee rahe hai

Om- guari if u don’t mind can u tell us why there’s no pictures of ur maa

Gauri- Omkara g this is not the time for all this first we have to make Anika di stable

Bhavya- gauri di is right we have to take a risk and if we delay don’t u guys notice she didn’t shade a single drop of pain. She was hurting her body but her soul was in pain i think we should do it right now

Devi g- Anika beta forgive me but I’ve to open the grave of ur memories that u buried

Om- Dadi g what’s that and what r u talking about

Devi g- come with me today I’m going to make u meet ” Anika”

Rudy- where’s Shivavy bhaiya

Om- might be in his room

Rudy- no he’s not in his room I’ve checked his room

Gauri- bhavya can u unlock di room i want to see is she is fine ?

Bhavya- come di and dadi wait we are coming

Gauri and bhavya step in to Anika room but find it empty

Bhavya – where can be di gone to club?

Gauri- lets check outside

Rudy- hmmm both love birds are missing might be in some corner and doing romance with eachother

Om- shut up Rudy and when u will grow up

Rudy- O mark my words

All four step outside the mansion


Pool side

Omru and Gaya came outside

Rudy- close his eyes to see shivika? so close see O both are sleeping peacefully in each other arms ?

Shivavy- in low tone ask Rudy to stay quite

Om- Shivavy what u r doing here and how come Anika bhabi is..?

Gauri- Shivavy bhaiya come inside

Shivavy- sshhh bohat mushkil say soyi hai( don’t make noise after much difficulty she’s sleeping)

Bhavya- but bhaiya u both are laying on floor u will get cold and Anika di is also not well

Om- and Shivavy when she will get conscious and see u close to herself again she will harm herself so plz get up

Rudy- Shivavy bhaiya and Rudy sign Shivavy

Shivavy- got tense to see Anika condition was again getting bad

Anika- though she was in Shivavy arms but having problem in breathing and was get restless

Shivavy- check her forehead which was burning . Again start rubbing her back but this time it didn’t work

Gauri- Shivavy bhaiya bring Anika di inside let me give her injection

Shivavy- slowly turned and took Anika in his arms and laid her on bed

Gauri- give injection to Anika

Shivavy- cover Anika in blankets and all walk out except gauri

Gauri- dadi, dadi stop this all

Shivavy- what happened gauri

Gauri- Shivavy bhaiya, Anika di is weak and she’s getting uneasy and groaning in sleep so we can’t do this today we have to wait till tomorrow

Shivavy- dadi if u don’t mind i want to see that room plz

Omru- yes dadi please

All followed devi g

Devi g- opened the door and turned on the lights

Shivavy- was hell shocked to see the room

Whole room was filled with Anika pics with her maa

Omru- start roaming in room not less then hall

Gauri and bhavya had tears in their eyes

Devi g- Anika was charm of the house. She was all rounder in everything except for maths ?

Shivavy- start smiling.

(” story narrated by dadi”)

Devi g- See that painting Anika for the first time paint it and she sketch her ” Maa” i still remember it was painting competition in her school and participates have to do blind sketching of something that is most important in their life’s. Anika hardly in few minutes sketch and painted her maa.

When principal question Anika about her painting she proudly give her speech though my eyes were closed but my heart was painting her ” heartbeat” and the only thing that’s wordly for me is ” MAA”

Aarohi was life line of Anika.

Anika was very careless about herself everytime she fall in trouble it was like that she herself give invitation to problems to hurt her

Shivavy- she’s still the same( Shivavy had a flashback of Anika how everytime she fall in trouble and get hurt and how he used to help her)

Rudy- Dadi tell us more about Anika

Devi g- see that pic, here Anika was climbing tree and she fall down. Dev instead of picking her up click her picture.

I scolded dev for this but dev with tears said maa these are our “ANU” memories and Aarohi want every memory of her princess and Anika won’t stop crying till she don’t see her maa

Anika- feet was wound aur Anika nay pura ghar sar per utha liya tha she was crying. Because Aarohi was not home and she was crying for her. But when Aarohi get back Anika clean her tears and start playing.

She was in pain but acted that she’s fine because Anika can’t see tears in her mother eyes.

All were enjoying Anika memories specially Shivavy

Anika love singing and devi g open the another door fill with music instruments.

The first song that she sing was for “Aarohi”

It was not like that Anika don’t love her baba but she was more close to her maa

Dev used to out off country mostly but when dev get backs he always look for Anika.

Shivavy- was lost in Anika

( rest of the narrating on salient mode)

Devi g- yeh thi ” Anika” Shivavy Singh Oberoi and what u made her.


Shivavy- was speechless

Gauri- dadi come we should sleep and i don’t know what this night morning will bring itself

Devi g- bhagwan koi aur tuffan na aa jaye

Next day

All woke up and were waiting for Anika

Shivavy- why she haven’t step down its late now hope she’s fine. Gauri plz go and check na

Gauri- sorry bhaiya i can’t go if she is awake na then I’m gone

Devi g- what’s doing in her room

Anika college friends came to Rajput Mansion

Kunal- shouted oye Rajputani Talwar were are u

Gauri- kunal bhaiya u here

Kunal- where is our rajputani talwar chutki

Shivavy- ab yeh kon hai

Manu- rajputani talwar nahe ” ALOO SINGH RAJPURI” ?

Rudy- who are they all and from whom they are shouting and what’s Aloo Singh Rajpuri

Om- gauri who are they?

Gauri- all are Anika di friends. This is kunal bhaiya, manu di, karishma di and Arjun bhaiya

Manu- Dadi g, is anika fine na

Devi g- why beta u r asking this

Manu- woh actually yesterday i saw her on road she was running on road like crazy her foot was bleeding and tried to stop her but she didn’t bother me

All glanced eachother

Karishma- dadi where’s our Aloo puri

Kunal- nahe rajputani talwar

Anika- step out and fone in between her shoulder and ear and was wearing her watch. Hello Chanda take first flight and come back to pune i’ll meet you in office

Manu- oye Aloo puri listen

Anika- wait Chanda and she step down

All four friends crushed Anika in bones

Devi g- beta aram say

Karishma- meri Aloo puri kaha chali gaye thi itnaye salao say

Anika- first leave me and how come u all are here and how did u know i’m here

Arjun- as i ment u before and yesterday maun called us all so we came here to spend some time with u

Karishma- oye aloo puri

Anika- see guys I’m already late I’ve some meetings so u guys should also leave

Kunal- rajputani talwar ki dhar to aur teaz ho gaye

Anika- don’t call me that again got it

Arjun- why so and still u don’t agree to our condition we won’t stop calling u aloo puri and rajputani talwar

Anika- ok fine say it

Manu- u I’ve sing a song for our band plz

Anika- its impossible and i don’t sing now i’m leaving

Kunal- rajputani talwar ki dictionary may yeh impossible kaha say aa gaya

All four pleading Anika

Anika- once i said no na its means no now leave my way and u all too should leave

Karishma- Anika plz for me u know i don’t have much time left and this reunion is for me please Anika its my last wish after such a long time I’ve meant u plz say yes

Anika- karishma what are u saying ?

Manu- she’s having hole in heart

Anika- but how come u where fine then how

Manu- yaar

Karishma- nodded no

Kunal- so its yes from Anika side and venue will be ur farm house. Done so meet you there at 5 pm sharp

Anika- but when i said yes

Arjun- we all know ur salience means yes so come soon and let us call the whole batch after all Aloo puri is singing

Karishma- now we should leave bye aloo puri see u soon and don’t take tension all instruments are available

Anika- listen to me

Manu- get back Anika who are these handsome guys

Rudy- i’m Rudra Singh Oberoi naam toh sunao go ga

Manu- nope I not but if I’m not wrong u r Shivavy Singh Oberoi and he hug Shivavy

Shivavy- glance Anika

Anika- ignore them

Karishma- Manu come know we have to inform every1

Manu- bye handsome
Devi g- Anika u r still upset with us I’m sorry

Anika- without any response move towards study to bring her files

All came to study

Shivavy- kaha jaa rahe ho

Gauri- Anika di atleast say something

Bhavya- how can u leave us alone

Devi g- Anika beta i know u r upset with us but how can u leave us and this time u won’t leave ur house and its an order

Anika- make her way and was stepping out when Shivavy ” Splash Water” on Anika face

Shivavy- now i think I’m not stanger miss panika

All cup their face

Anika- didn’t re-act on it and move out

Om- Shivavy she didn’t re- act on this nore she got angry

Shivavy- u all wait here and let me talk to her in her style now

Anika- was there to open car

Shivavy- break the windscreen of the car with bat

Anika- narrow her eyes but move towards other car

Shivavy- Anika plz talk to me. Tell me what’s ur problem and he hold Anika hand. Anikaaaa

And Shivavy start dancing
One, two, three!

I am a fool, I am a fool
I am a fool fool fool!
You big heart, you big heart
You got very big heart!

I come near, I come near
I come near near near
You go far, you go far
You go very very far

Arey thanda rakh kaleja
Thoda baraf pe ghis le bheja
Sorry le ja, maafi de ja humko free

( omru and gauri )

One, two, three!
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Pakde hum dono kaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry!
Bache ki loge jaan kya
Mehangi hai ek muskaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Bache ki loge jaan kya


Shivavy hug Anika

I know you love me and You know I love ya
Hai apne understanding to phir locha-lafda kya
I want a big big smile and
I want it only only now
Are! andar se tu okay hai upar se khaye bhav

Aise kaai ko atka
Tere ghar ka jhadu katka
Tu jo bole kar denge daily free!


Dadi’s and bhavya pull Anika

One, two, three!
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Pakde hum dono kaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry!
Bachche ki loge jaan kya
Mehangi hai ek muskaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Bachche ki loge jaan kya?


Shivavy crawling behind Anika

Final warning, final warning,
Don’t you break my heart
Automatic guilty feeling
One time over smart

See, see, see can’t you see see see
Kitne deep deep deep mere dil ke jazbaat
Hai kaai ko naaraaz
Karle maandavli maharaj
Hum sab aaj ye teri khaaj khuja de free


All with puppy faces

One, two, three!
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Pakde hum dono kaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry!
Bache ki loge jaan kya
Mehangi hai ek muskaan kya
Sorry Sorry Sorry
Bache ki loge jaan kya?

Anika- ho gaya sab ka listen to me know don’t ask for me to I’m nothing to u guys and most importantly “Anika Singh Rajput” don’t forgets her ” Enemies” nor she forgive them now go from here u have wasted my time

Bhavya- Anika di we are ur enemies

Anika- ✋

Precape khatam hui Anika ki khanani
Question: from all readers

” how was at fault and who suffered the most Shivavy or Anika.. was Shivavy ego was more than Anika love that he misunderstood her again and again but still Anika love was so pure and endless that she forgive him for everyone mistake he did but this time it was ” sin”
Do comment guys while reading it and also answer the question asked above

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  1. Deepu

    I am a fan of Shivaay i love everything about him but I think he is the one who was at fault and Shivika suffered a lot..bcoz of his mistake they parted their ways and annika is suffering like dis

  2. Nikita_jai29

    It is awesome dear… Update soon… I think shivaay fault is there and it makes Anika a hard shell…

  3. Harsita

    Is Anika going to die

  4. Yaar mainey toh umeed hi kho di thi ki tu ab next chapter post karogi it was an awesome chapter and ya Anika suffered the most and please do post the next soon I’m waiting.

  5. Lauren

    Amazinggggg dr… it’s phenomenal m crazy fan of both NAKUUL n SURBHI juzz love them…. when it comes to pain den both of dem have suffered equally on comparing anika has suffered more den shivaay… Post nxt asap dr… if u can den plz post nxt part by tomorrow itself if possible plz plz…

  6. Niriha

    Awesome…In this shivay is the one who was at fault..but anika is the one who suffered most.eagerly waiting for next part update soon

  7. Alekhika20

    Awesome update

  8. Shabnam

    superb dear shivay fault and shivika suffers next post soon

  9. Its awsome fIctiOn only ANika suffering alOt

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