Two Shots – ISOLATED SOULS : ISHANA AND SOWMYA [By Renima-part 1]
Hello ishqies, I just felt 2 express my view on the two wonderful ladies of Ib- ishana and sowmya who are actually isolated individuals and it’s just my thought 2 make a meeting of them…….
Back ground of story – Sowmya feels much hurt because of rudy blaming her as the reason for all problems in his life and she leaves oberoi mansion and decides 2 join a new college out of Mumbai for continuing her studies…..Ishana feels herself as guilty for playing with omkara’s emotions and also hurt from heart since omkara blamed her upbringing, culture and family. She decides 2 find a job out of the city since she finds hard 2 change herself as the city knows her as a congirl only. Both sowmya and ishana catches the same bus and they have been seated in nearest seats only though they are strangers….They lost themselves in their thoughts throughout their journey…..
I never expected this kind of a day in my life…..When that gun’s trigger was pointed out on rudra I didn’t think much….I rushed 2 save him and declared him as my husband….I don’t know how accidentally I talked like that….But it came from the depth of my heart only…… When bade bhaiya asked rudra 2 say sorry I find a kind of refusal in rudra’s eyes which were telling me that for him my presence doesn’t values….For satisfying his big brother like a gud brother he apologized and I find that it was not an expression from his heart, but only necessity demanded it and he was supposed 2 do so……I didn’t find any sort of place in that house for now as they have their own family issues and perhaps life is complicated for them. Bade bhaiya has engaged himself 2 prove as a better husband and bade baal waale bhaiya is unable 2 understand why life has been rewarding him pains only ?? I wonder they are the same brothers who show concern towards me and give me the right 2 tie raakhees on their wrists like priyanka ? Dadi has almost forgotten the fact that am her friend’s grand daughter only and I don’t have any regrets for it because every one has their own personal space and I can’t be a pet grand son like shivaay bhaiya for dadi, because I came to that house as part of continuing studies in college and stayed there for some time also….But I forgot the fact that I was nothing, just a guest only……And now I can’t be in their family , perhaps rudra will definitely won’t accept me from his heart…..I feel myself 2 be lonely and finding myself as a guest , I thought 2 leave that house because guests can’t stay forever…… I lost my bhaiya who was the best companion in my life …..My mom is involved in her own world only, she never tried 2 enquire me whether I was happy or I was sad…..She was busy 2 bound me in a relationship with rehaan who already broken my heart once… I didn’t utter any single word against it because I was not able 2 find myself whether it is right or wrong……The marriage which happened among rudra and me is nothing just a bitter memory only….I don’t know why am still keeping that mangal sutra with me when that relationship doesn’t matters 2 rudra……. Why I am feeling bad when he said that it just happened accidentally only, What was my mistake ? Why am getting these lonliness? Why ??
I was unable 2 stare his eyes when his face went 2 anger ….I witnessed a kind of fire in it and I was almost burnt myself before it……I hurt his heart by pretending as some one else…..I can’t explain it 2 him why and what made me 2 do this ? He questioned my character, culture and family back ground and there I understood that he is not the genuine person who introduced his name as omkara before me without surname and that made me 2 burst out my pain on him by blaming his rich family , lineage and status….He prefer 2 be an ideal person always who some times lacks 2 realize the reality of life and I was forced 2 cover myself with certain faces as situations demanded me 2 do so…..I simply continued 2 con certain people and perhaps this time i myself 2 be conned by omkara’s eyes only……I was unable 2 reveal the truth before his eyes though I wish I could do it as early as possible instead of breaking his heart……When he said that he finds my heart as true I was almost lost myself in that words, but I preferred 2 take my eyes from him and suppress my feeling in his heart because I can’t give preference 2my feelings rather than my family and I am not able 2 favor truth always because am a simple girl who wishes a peaceful life for her family……I betrayed him for my necessity. But if he is able 2 see my truth then why he is not able 2 see that I am helpless….. But what he has given me and I has given is nothing just immense pain only…….I don’t know whether destiny will give me another chance 2 meet him, but I find him as a broken soul now and am like a wandering soul who is incapable 2 find a place……I can’t constrain myself in chains before law and order because my absence may create big problems for my family….Iam myself standing as a shield 2 protect my family without looking back and from heart am punishing myself for conning as well as betraying omkara…..I am not able 2 nourish my identity as time never waited for me , it just rewarded me fear, sorrows and pain only……. I am burning myself per day and trying 2 defeat my own fate by fighting with this whole world for my beloved ones……In my heart I myself has punished me for my deeds several times and daily I am breaking my heart into scattered pieces only….. I cried a lot, there was no one 2 wipe out my tears because my paapa himself stated that he himself is a failure in his life and how can he wipe out other’s tears ? I was alone in my sorrows and omkara’s painful eyes are making me 2 suffer more and more pain only …..Why this is happening with me ? Why ??
PRECAP : IF THE BIGGEST GIFT REWARDED BY LIFE IS PAIN, THEN WE WILL BE READY 2 RECEIVE IT WITH A SMILING FACE……..
I know this one is pretty short….. And due 2 lack of time I have 2 end this episode here only……I wrote it on my lunch break for changing my mood as now am fighting with my own life only…..If u find it as an article 2 read , then kindly drop ur views…..It’s just my view which come straightly from my heart……Pls don’t ask me abt updating next shot….it’s really hard for me 2 write now….Wait for my articles, if u can……I won’t force you……
An apology note 2 my readers and friends…..I don’t know when I will be able 2 update my ffs not only because of my hectic schedule but also due 2 certain personal issues and I hope u allow me 2 take a break for some time…….I prefer u guys don’t ask me what it is because it’s really hard for me 2 convey ….Hope u guys understand me ……I will continue all my ffs when I feel 2 write…..Sorry for the inconvenience….as some times life demands 2 fight …..I am really grateful 2 all my readers and friends who supported me…..I will be back but when it would be ? Perhaps it’s a question mark only……