Hi this is VHM signing in with a new FF ….The concept is given by our friend FFFAN1234 aka Dipti….please ignore the grammatical and spelling mistakes….I hope you will continue to shower your support as you have always shown for my earlier write ups …….
Please note I May not be regular in posting the episodes due to personal commitments…however I promise I will not keep you waiting for a long time too……..
TAM : Thoughts at the moment / Thinking at the moment
Shivaay ‘’Whatever you said yesterday night is it true?’’
Anika ‘’what did I say?’’
Anika ‘’ohh that decision that I will not talk to you…yes that is right..i will implement it from today…infact I didn’t talk to you since yesterday night did you observe’’
Shivaay ‘’you said YOU LOVE ME…do you really mean it Anika’’
Anika stood still…..
Shivaay came to her and turned her towards him….she bent her head down……
Shivaay ‘’Anika do you really LOVE me?’’
Shivaay lifted her chin up….. Anika had layer of tears in her eyes….
Shivaay ‘’Answer me Anika’’
Anika ‘’I don’t remember I said any such thing..and after what all happened why will I say that’’ she spoke trying not to look at him…
Shivaay ‘’don’t you remember anything really?’’
Shivaay ‘’then why were you running away from me? ‘’
Anika ‘’I was not running away..i was just ignoring you as I said I will not talk to you …that’s it’’ She turned to go
Shivaay dragged her and back hugged her..wrapping his hands around her waist, he came close to her ears and huskily said ‘’YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME Anika’’
Anika couldn’t afford to turn and look at him……she stood still…….
Shivaay ‘’I know you remember everything that you spoke yesterday night …I know why you were trying to run away from me…because you confessed your love yesterday…in whatever state you may be …but you confessed your love’’
Tears rolled out of her eyes….she wiped her tears and turned towards him, took a step back looked at him for a while and then spoke…
Anika ‘’yes I remember everything and yes I confessed my love to you…because it is the truth I LOVE YOU…but I know one more truth …’’
Shivaay’s eyebrows frowned….
Anika ’’and that truth is you don’t love me…’’
She turned away and tried to move……Shivaay held her hand and pulled her towards him…
Anika ‘’Shivaay leave me’’ nervousness clear from her voice, Shivaay Ssshhhed her, moved towards her ear and huskily spoke
Shivaay ‘’I LOVE YOU ANIKA’’
Anika eyes widened in surprise, happiness and shock all at the same time…Shivaay came back to normal position, looked at her , cupped her face and joined his forehead to hers and continued
Shivaay ‘’I LOVE YOU TOO ANIKA….please don’t go away from me ever’’ they both stood in same position with eyes closed…
Anika’s tears started rolling after what she just heard…Shivaay opened his eyes and stared at her….wiping her tears he spoke
Shivaay ‘’I am sorry Anika…I am really sorry…I have hurt you many times…I have never tried to understood what you might have undergone…’’
Anika ‘’why are you sa..’’
Shivaay ‘’sshhhh…let me say Anika…because if I cannot say this now then I don’t think I will or can say it ever …..’’
Anika looked at him
Shivaay ‘’when we came back from Nainital ..I said such words to you which you never would have expected…but trust me i said all those intentionally…I thought I will say those words and you will get hurt and in turn hurt me…but I forgot a simple fact…’’
Shivaay looked at Anika…Anika reciprocated the looks while her tears were not stopping……
Shivaay ‘’I forgot a simple fact that you can never hurt me because if I am hurt you will bear the pain…so I thought to woo you, to impress you, to make you happy….but I failed even in that…not just failed …I failed miserably… when you gave me the theme of love…I arranged everything for you because I LOVE YOU….but I made a grave mistake of playing that prank and hurt you again…but yesterday whatever you said before leaving this room has made me understand how it feels when someone very dear to you hurts you…I felt the pain …I felt that pain that is caused not by actions , but caused by words…you showed me the reality with those few lines……thank you so much …thanks a lot Anika for breaking my false image…’’
Shivaay didn’t let her complete and spoke
Shivaay ‘’you know what Anika…. I always thought I am perfect in everything and when I failed, I realised I am not perfect in anything……be it wooing you, impressing you , making you happy or expressing my love…even now I don’t know what I am speaking and what I am trying to say…but one thing I want to say being all in my senses is ..i am sorry Anika …I am really sorry’’
Shivaay ‘’let me say Anika…..don’t stop me …I thought I am not vulnerable to anyone..but I understood I am vulnerable when it’s about you…every time I did something wrong with you, I was never happy…be it our forced marriage, be it during Daksh’s incident, be it throwing you out of OM insensitively, or hurting you knowingly or unknowingly…I didn’t know the reason why I was not happy when my so called ego was satisfied….i thought I hated you…but I never understood what I thought hate was actually my possessiveness, my inclination for you…and …when this possessiveness and Inclination became the reason of my happiness I don’t know…when I sent you away from me, I felt like my everything went away from me…my everything…’’
He couldn’t understand when tears started and when his voice choked…..
Anika ‘’Shivaay…Shivaay please’’ she held his face trying to wipe his tears…
Shivaay ‘’today let me cry Anika…may be you are the only person infront of whom I can cry like a child…cry as a man …can cry my heart out….which I have never done before and which may be I will try not to do it in future….because for you I am just Shivaay, not Shivaay Singh Oberoi or the great wall of Shivaay Singh Oberoi…a normal person like anyone else…these tears were held by me and filled me with the feeling of guilt for a long time…today I want to let them out…and this I can do only before you…’’
‘’no Shivaay…don’t do this’’ Anika hugged Shivaay and Shivaay reciprocated the hug tight, letting his tears out…..
Anika ‘’I can’t see you like this Shivaay…’’ she broke the hug and wiped his tears…
Shivaay ‘’I am so’’
Anika placed her finger on his lips and nodded in NO…she kissed his cheeks and spoke
Anika ‘’I don’t need any apologies Shivaay …I just want your love…because I LOVE YOU….’’
Shivaay ‘’I LOVE YOU TOO ANIKA…and I will always LOVE you…till my last breathe’’
Anika ‘’no…till OUR last breathe’’
They smiled while tears were running out of their eyes……and sat back on bed ….
Shivaay ‘’have you forgiven me?’’
Anika ‘’Shivaay …sending me away was never your mistake …i did not trust our bond…and after that whatever has happened was not in our hands….i already said I just need you to be with me and we be together…’’ she spoke will resting her head over his shoulders…
Shivaay ‘’I will always be with you’’ he spoke intertwining their hands….
They sat in that position calming themselves and enjoying those bliss moments…..
Anika ‘’waise Shivaay…what was running in your mind that you mixed bhang in food and tried to spike the fruit punch’’
Shivaay ‘’nothing…’’ he looked other side so that he could avoid answering
Anika ‘’mr.Billu Singh Oberoi…don’t try to fool me?’’ she started irritating him
Shivaay ‘’ok fine…I will say it ..but in your ears’’
Shivaay whispered something in her ears……..Anika’s eyes opened wide and she closed her mouth with her hands , blushing heavily
Anika ‘’hawwwwwwww……you thought to do so…cheapde Singh Oberoi..chi…I am feeling michmichi’’
Shivaay ‘’come on I have full rights to do so…’’
Anika ‘’shut up…chi…’’ she hit him with pillow…Shivaay reciprocated the pillow fight….tired they laid on bed laughing…
They stared at each other and together said ‘’I LOVE YOU’’ and went into an eyelock , the gap between them was getting reduced …..
What happened later is left to your imagination !!! No cheapde 2 rs thoughts …lol !!!!
This is definitely not the end of their Love story this is the new beginning of their Old Love Story !!!!
So this was the Fifteenth part…please let me know how you felt after reading this by posting your opinion in the comment section…I will reply as soon as possible…….
First of all A huge number of Apologies for being so irregular, which is not usual with me…SO EXTREMY SORRY ALL THE READERS FOR BEING SO IRREGULAR AND REPLYING LATE TO YOUR OPINIONS.
Next, THANK YOU SO MUCH DIPTI, FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO WRITE YOUR KHIDKITODH CONCEPT…I don’t know and never understood why you chose me to write your concept.. but I feel lucky to be chosen by you….Hope I have not disappointed you…Thank you for bearing me, my mistakes and my tantrums too…it was a real pleasure working in coordination with you…you showed so much of patience and composure which makes you the most beautiful hearted person …loads of best wishes and love to you from my end….always keep smiling and take care
THANK YOU SO MUCH ALL THE READERS OF THIS FF FOR WISHING ME ON MY BIRTHDAY AND MAKING IT THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER…..
THANK YOU TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU ,FOR : YOUR TIME, PATIENCE, POSTING YOUR OPINIONS, LETTING ME WHAT YOU LIKED, WHAT YOU DIDN’T LIKE, SUPPORT , ENCOURAGEMENT, LOVE and BEST WISHES…These things I will miss the most !!! Love you all…Keep smiling and take care…
I don’t know when I will be back but whenever I come back I hope and wish to see all of you to stay by my side and support me as you have been doing since a year….
NIDA, my bestie I missed you a lot throughout this FF!!! PRIYADAS may your soul rest in peace…I know you will be reading all this from that unknown location and giving us the support!!!