Hi friends, yes i am here with the update. I know i haven’t updated for almost a week, but i was busy in diwali celebrations and then college work. Finally i got time to write. I am feeling nervous posting this part, Here it is….
Pain of losing
Omkara was driving the car and Ishanya sat beside him in the passenger’s seat they are on the way to Aadhi’s aunt’s place. After talking with Omkara, Ishanya felt lighter that she is not alone, Omkara is with her. But she is still confused about her feelings.
‘I loved aadhi. Yes, it was past. I don’t love him now, I know it. But, what are these feelings which are making me react this way knowing that aadhi is going to cancel his wedding?!’
‘I should not feel happy, but I shouldn’t feel sad too because he is no one to me now. Why amn’t I able to stay indifferent to him? That day too when I met him I couldn’t handle myself and when he said that he is going to get married I did felt bad.’
‘I felt all the same when he first broke our engagement before the court proceedings starts as he doesn’t want his family name to get tarnished. But I loved him at that time so I felt heart-broken. Now I don’t love him even then I felt bad hearing about his marriage, why?’
‘What is happening to me? Why am I nervous?’ she thought and cursed herself and took out her medicine from the purse and was about to take them, Omkara stopped her by holding her hand and she looked questioningly at him.
“What’s the need to take these now, Ishanya?” Omkara asked.
“To control my anxiety Omkara.” she replied looking straight into his eyes.
“But Ishanya, I thought I calmed you down!!” he said.
“Yes you did Omkara, but I need these to stay strong.” She replied.
“Isn’t my support enough for you to feel strong?” He asked looking at her in a serious tone.
Ishanya looked at him for a moment and kept her medicine back which made Omkara smile. He felt so happy that finally he is able to become her strength. No correction, ‘she’ is letting him be her strength which is definitely a moment to cherish forever to him.
They reached the place and before stepping inside Ishanya held Omkara’s hand. When he looked at her in shock she was just looking straight. He didn’t say anything and hold her hand. They went inside.
Only Prerna and Aadhi were present there in the living room. Ishanya sensed that prerna must have chosen to meet her there alone. When Ishanya entered with Omkara, aadhi got shocked seeing them there as he doesn’t know prerna calling Ishanya there. He was more shocked seeing them hand-in-hand. Before he can say anything his sister said,
“See, bhaiyya. Look at her, how is she holding his hands! Looks like she got new trap and that is why she wasn’t accepting you back and you still believe that she is innocent. Why don’t you understand that she is not good for you and see her real face?” Prerna started to yell.
Omkara thought that Ishanya might leave his hand but he thought not to let her, to his surprise she took a step forward with him without leaving his hand.
Before Ishanya can say anything aadhi replied looking at Ishanya, “Please prerna, keep it low. I know why she is doing this. She wants us to think exactly like this and think that I’ll stay away from her by doing all this. But she forgot that I know her well enough to read her mind.”
Omkara looked at Ishanya in shock and thought ‘is this true? Did she hold my hand only to show him, so that he goes away from her? Only to show him! Not because she felt like taking my support? Only to show him?’ but he didn’t left Ishanya’s hand nor did she.
“Prerna, is this why you called me here, to discuss about me in my presence?” Ishanya asked in her usual cold attitude.
“Still angry at me Ishanya?” aadhi asked flinching at her tone.
“Why will I be?” she replied.
“Ofcourse, why will you be? After all you got him back!!” prerna said rudely.
“For your kind information, I hadn’t accepted him back.” Ishanya replied in the same tone.
Before she can say anything else, aadhi asked desperately, “why Ishanya? Just give me a chance, I’ll make everything right.”
“What have you done to my brother, you witch!!” prerna yelled at Ishanya.
“Please, mind your words, lady.” Omkara said getting angry at her words.
“Why should I?” Prerna asked.
“Prerna please……..” aadhi was saying but he was cut short by Ishanya saying, “Will you both brother and sister cut this crap and tell me the reason why have you called me here. I have other works to do.”
Both prerna and aadhi were about to answer together Ishanya stopped them and said, “As I’ve came here because prerna asked me to. You only tell me the matter.”
“You have called her here? But why?” Aadhi asked prerna.
“Why else, bhaiyya? To warn her to stay away from us.” She replied
“Just leave my brother. Go away from our lives.” Prerna said looking at Ishanya.
“For the nth time prerna, I am telling you she hadn’t come to me. I went to her because I still love her. And please stop insulting her like this. I am not going to tolerate any of this!!” Aadhi yelled at her.
“But bhaiyya, she doesn’t deserve you. Have you forgotten what kind of a girl she is? You forgot the reason, you broke up with her in the first place? Have you forgotten the court’s verdict?!” prerna asked him.
Omkara felt Ishanya’s deep breaths as she was trying to keep herself calm as she was getting flashes of past, he held her hand tighter to assure her about his presence. She looked at him with teary eyes, he nodded her head in no saying not to lose control over herself. Ishanya gulped her tears and then looked at the brother sister duo.
“No I hadn’t forgotten anything. That is the reason I am ashamed of and feeling guilty because I betrayed her. I regret everything I did in the past.” Aadhi replied to her.
Hearing this Ishanya let her tears flow from her eyes and left Omkara’s hand. He looked nervously at Ishanya as he felt empty suddenly when she took back her hand from his hold.
He stood there staring at her while aadhi came forward towards Ishanya saying,
“I am so sorry Ishanya. I won’t justify myself, I know it’s completely my mistake. Don’t forgive me as I don’t deserve it. But please just give me one chance to make everything alright, just like we have dreamed together.”
Ishanya just looked at him with teary eyes while Omkara stared at her painfully.
“Bhaiyya, I haven’t called her here to get her back to you. I have called her to convince you to not stop this wedding. You can’t do this to shwetha. She is innocent. What is her fault that you are leaving her at altar like this and that too for this woman?! Who will just be a black mark in our lives!!” prerna yelled breaking their eye-lock.
“Just shut-up, prerna!! I have already done a grave mistake by leaving her alone at that time. Don’t forget that I did it for you, so that your marriage can happen without any troubles. But now it’s time to think about my life and my happiness.” He yelled looking at her making Ishanya smile in her tears. Omkara was still staring at her.
He then turned back to Ishanya and asked extended his hand to her,
“Everything will be back to normal Ishu. As if nothing had happened at all. Just one chance, please ishu. Trust me.” He looked expectantly at Ishanya requesting her with his eyes. Ishanya gave her hand into his making Omkara’s heart stop for a moment. He took a step back staring at Ishanya’s hand which is now in aadhi’s hand.
“Bhaiyya!! Don’t forget that she was proved a pr*stitute in court. She will just tarnish our reputation. Don’t do this!!” prerna yelled making Ishanya close her eyes and sob.
“Prerna, if you don’t stop right now, I’ll forget that you are my sister.” Aadhi yelled at her making her go silent while Ishanya looked at Omkara for a second and asked,
“Aadhi, please go somewhere else and talk in peace,” wiping her tears.
“Ofcourse, chalo.” He said.
They both turned towards door to go out. Ishanya looked at Omkara and said, “You can leave Omkara. I’ll return on my own,” and went from there while Omkara stared at their hands which were holding each other.
A tear fell down from Omkara’s eye as he watched them leave. He stood there for a moment too shocked and sad to even move his finger. Somehow he got back the strength and left from there. He reached his car on haste and opened the door in hurry breathing heavily but closed it and sobbed hard feeling the pain of his heart.
He looked here and there contemplating about drugs and ending his life. After few minutes he controlled himself when he got the flash of his brothers and wiped his tears thinking about his brothers. ‘I can’t lose myself like this. What if I can’t get Ishanya’s love? I have my brothers who loves me and can go to any extent for me. I should be happy that Ishanya is happy and got her love. I can’t think of ending my life like this.’ He thought and sat in his car and drove to his home, Oberoi mansion.
Please don’t throw chappals and tomatoes. Wait till the next part and then decide. I will post the next part as soon as you all read this part. please comment and express your views honestly. I am so happy to discuss the story with you all in comments from the last couple of chapters. Hope it continues.