Swasan_Journey from being stubborn to falling in love_Chapter 30
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We reached Swara’s dadaji’s house.. the main purpose of our visit to the Shona’s town was because this week was marking Shona’s dadaji’s death anniversary. The House that Shona’s Dadaji had was not less than a palace. I enjoyed his week’s stay in the town.
Swara had thought about giving a chance to Sanskar by dating him on Rajini Aunty’s insistence. The week had passed by very fast. Swara and Sanskar had gone for Tree Climbing, they had relieved the old memories by seeing old photo albums, playing cards and board games and also visiting town. Sanskar had then realised that he had already known Swara from his childhood. He saw that Swara was very popular among the guys he did get jealous knowing the fact but he knew that they none were her boyfriend.
One day Shona and i had gone and visited Mr. Veer Kapoor (best friend of Swara’s Dadaji and the head of Kapoor Industries). He also had enlighted me about his childhood and he had equal fun at his place. Shona told him that she is planning to date me. Though i was shocked, I understood that Shona is very close to Mr. Kapoor. She called him Dadaji and he told me also to call him Dadaji. He also told me how much Shona is weak though she says she is strong and told me to treat her with care. But I thought that he was just simply taking tension because from my point of view she was really strong and very tough to handle.
The day had come when they had to visit Dadaji’s grave and we all had paid him our due respect.
Even I had accompanied Shona’s family. The grave was in middle of nowhere and it had a small temple attached to it. The place had given him peace in his heart.
While others were in the temple, Sanskar decided to walk around the place and there he saw Swara talking to her Dadaji’s grave.
(Swara) “Dadaji, I said yes to Sanskar with an intention to reject him within sometime, if he didn’t give up on me after seeing the person who I am, but the more he knows about me, I feel his love getting stronger. I wanted to reject him but being with him this past week confuses me. He is not like how I imagined him to be. I realise why people are attracted to him. I thought that he was arrogant, tyrannical but he is nothing like he shows himself to be. He is honest, gentle, listens to people, considers others feelings, and makes a person feel at ease. He is also selfish, possessive, and sometimes adorable. His sincerity confounds me. I don’t know when it started, but I feel comfortable to be with him like with you or Varun. I feel safe. I like him. But I don’t know if it is feelings of love. I can see that Will loves me, desires me. But I am not sure of my feelings. I want to make sure of whether I feel that he is like a brother to me or I love him like a lover. I am scared to think further. I am scared if I will be like mother who found her true love later. I feel like I am doing something bad to Sanskar. I never felt guilty towards anyone else like this in the past. Sanskar is the first person to make me have these feelings. Oh! What should I do, Dadaji? I am confused. Please help me.”
(Sanky) “You should have told that to me.”
She turned around immediately. She was shocked to see me there. Her guiltiness was evident after she realised I heard her. I can’t believe I forced Shona to this point. She hung her head down in shame. I could only think of one thing. I kneeled down and hugged her.
(Sanky) “I am so sorry, Shona. I can’t believe that I pushed you to a corner like this.” She tried to budge. She struggled with her thoughts.
(Swara) “No, that is not it, Sanskar. You didn’t…”
I took her face in my hands. I looked straight into her eyes.
(Sanky) “No, I did. I should have given you some more time till you were sure. I only thought about myself. I thought that I might lose you if we didn’t have a chance to meet anymore. I forced you…”
(Swara) “No! You didn’t force me, Sanskar. I really like spending time with you.” Tears welling up in her eyes.
(Sanky) “And yet, you didn’t know if I was a brother or a lover to you. You could have told me that sooner. You are so sweet, Shona. Even when you were telling your Dadaji about me and your worries, you make yourself feel guilty. You could have easily said that you doubted whether I would be faithful. You are too kind, Shona. I am so happy that you trust me. Similarly, I trust you, Shona. You will remain true to what you are. You shouldn’t change because of anyone or even me. Even if you are going to hurt someone knowingly or not, I know that you would be hurt the most.”
(Sanky’s thoughts) Tears were sliding down to my hands. My hands were shaking. Veer Dadaji was right. I thought she was strong, so strong not caring what the society thinks, facing everything so bravely but I was wrong to think that she didn’t have doubts or insecurities. She is so fragile and hard to hold that I fear that she might break if I hold her too tight. But I can’t let go, not now. I need to make her feel secure before I break her because of my impatience.
(Swara) “Sanskar… I am sorry… sorry….”
(Sanky) “Listen, Shona. Listen to me. I am not angry. I am happy instead. At least now, I know what your dilemma is. You remember, once you said to Kavita that you might be a perfect match for me but I might not be a perfect match for you. I will try to change as much as I can to be the best man if not the perfect man for you. I will try whatever is possible. I am not forcing myself. If you feel I am like a brother to you, I will still cherish you. If you love me and want to be with me forever, I will stay with you forever and support you. I love you, Swara Gadodia. And I promise you, in front of your Dadaji here right now, that no matter how you feel, I will cherish you, support you, and protect you forever. I will wait, Jo, wait for you to decide, be sure of yourself.”
(Swara) “Oh! I am sorry, Sanskar… so sorry.”
(Sanky – all in action didn’t speak a word) I hugged her. She was crying. I never ever wanted to push her like this. I want to erase off all her insecurities and show my love for her. I want this to be the last time I make her cry.
(Sanky spoke after calming her a lil) “Hey, now. Come on. Stop. You didn’t do anything wrong. Stop crying or Varun will kill me for making his precious sister Didi cry. Come on, smile now.”
Till she stopped crying, I hugged her. Then we joined back the family in the temple after she had calmed down
Our trip had come to an end and I was dropped by everyone at the club. On my way when I was entering the club . I told Varun congrats on securing the highest grades.
Listening to me Swara asked Varun what was I talking about. Varun replied “About my marks and you already know about because I knew Mr.Anthony had informed you the day you came to pick me up from school.”
Swara felt guilty but at the same time she was happy and relieved because of Sanskar’s talk .
Sanskar thought that being rejected for the second time was like hell.
After our trip the time had passed in jiffy. Sanskar and I were able to meet only for work and sometimes when work got extended, went out for dinner. I really wanted to spend more time with Sanky to see what these feelings I have mean, but work got the best of us. Sanskar proved in his actions that he wanted to spend more time together. He moved next door to us from the club. He did say it was his mother’s house. He said he will be staying here from now onwards. The club was turned into an employee recreation centre. I am sure that is what it was built for. Most of the time after his move, we have dinner together. He brought the red BMW for my use and his own Porsche. After great persuasion from Varun and Aunty, I accepted the BMW. Varun’s Ferrari was in his garage. We went to work together on days I had to go to the Maheshwari building.
Precap: Swara senses some unaccounted feeling for Sanskar. Someone was being very mushy with Sanky…. Will sanky forget Swara and move on or will he still pursue Swara.. may be third time becomes a charm??
Hope u guys liked it… I am sorry for short update… love u guys.. please do comment as it keeps me motivated…. Next episode will be After 14th May but before 22nd may.. Please do love me and don’t forget me..
Credit to: Crystal