Swasan- Meri Sazaa

Guys, this is my first fan fic. I’ll try to keep it short and nice but please do read and comment. I really would like to know how much you guys liked it!

Swasan ki kahani, Swara ki zubani-

I do not remember exactly when I first met him. Now, when my eyesight has become so poor, at this point of life I feel his absence. Something was missing within me, my soul. Wicked time snatched him from me 50 years before. No, I couldn’t blame time. What happened that day was all because of me. I am still getting punished.
It was a bright Christmas morning, I clearly remember. I was in my 20’s back then. Sanskar proposed to me in front of the famous Orchid Garden. My happiness did not know its bounds. I knew exactly what I had to reply, “Yes,” I saw a tiny drop of tear appearing at the corner of his eyes. It was clearly visible how much he loved me. We soon started the new phase of our life. Sanskar did not leave any of my dreams unfulfilled. I knew how much he adored, loved, respected and trusted me. My life seemed to see its completeness with him. His world revolved around me but at that time, I had no idea that my love was so weak.

We were the type of couple everyone looked up to. My friends envied me. Whenever we went to a party, I could notice all eyes fixed upon us. And then one day, our son, Swansh came to this world. Sanskar and Swansh were the best thing that ever happened to me. Sanskar was a perfect father and a more perfect husband and I knew he surely must have been the fruit of all my good deeds.
Then came the day which snatched everything from me. On a chilly Morning, I heard the post man ringing the bell. “Maybe that’s from mum,” I thought. I opened the door. The city was covered with a white blanket of snow, the sun hiding behind the clouds while flocks of birds were making their way home,I took the envelop and signed…. The sunset painted the sky a starling orange.

The post man was long gone, and I, rooted to the floor stood frozen. The contents of the envelope nearly killed me and left me hollow from inside. It contained Sanskar’s pictures with Kavita. Sanskar had once told me about kavita and kavita often visited us. But were they doing this behind my back? The person whom I trusted the most was doing this to me?. Was he cheating on me? I was thunder stricken. This was the worst thing that I could ever have seen. I wanted the Earth to crack open and swallow me. Now when I realise that his love was as pure as the most sacred place on the earth, I’m left with nothing except for guilt. The day I stepped out of ‘our’ house, which was in fact the biggest mistake of my life for which I deserved a severe punishment. I went to my mom’s place with our little Swansh in my arms and swollen eyes of mine. My mom said that if was surely some misunderstanding but I believe I was not in my senses back then. I don’t know why ‘my’ love failed that day. I called him and told him that it was all over, he tried to explain so many times but little did I understand. Something did not let me trust him. That was a sin, now I know.

“How were the pictures? I bet they freaked you out,” Kavita, called and told me on the phone. “Chill, It’s 1st April and I thought to test your love and trust and I’m pretty sure you passed it. I photo-shopped…” before she finished the phone dropped from my hand. I was absolutely scandalized. But deep inside I knew Sanskar would forgive me so without any delay I rushed to my Dave.

The door flung open and I dashed inside, Sanskar was nowhere to be seen. I went upstairs. What I saw was petrifying. Sanskar laid flat on the floor, blood everywhere. He had slit his wrist. He was gone and I saw our white wall screaming out, “I would love you, forever and always.” with his blood. He painted that with his blood, for someone who probably didn’t even deserve this.

It has been 50 years since that day, my hands are shaky now, I really Sanskar to told them but he is punishing me for not trusting him. I can now imagine how he might have felt when I left him just on the basis of some worthless photos without any justification. I deserved it. Our Swansh, he rarely shows up as he believes that I am responsible for what happened and indeed I am. Life was punishing me. I know I am responsible for all this, I am getting punished, for his love was so pure and mine so hollow.

Credit to: Suhasini Khanna


  1. vini

    I really felt the story from the bottom of my heart. I have a relative who have been through a similar situation. I can feel how Swara felt after losing sanskar

    • suhasini

      Thank you soo much. Its a really big pleasure that you are reading this. You are such an amazing writer. I really admire you..

  2. Lovely

    Nice Suhu.I read your criticisms and I’m happy to see u writing ff.Good job and yes this was a emotional one and amazing too 🙂

  3. Nina

    Critics Queen this was suprb,and i loved your criticisms and this one shot too.U r a swasan fan hah?

    • Suhasini

      I will say something very honestly. I have never watched a single episode of Swaragini. I’m just a telly updates reader ? keep reading. Ill try my best to keep you guys entertained ?

  4. Ashita

    Awsome!!! I must say u have amazing writing skills.Plz start a ff,I’m sure u will win many hearts.

  5. Riddhi

    Ummm first fanfic?And that too outstanding.Plz keep writing and this was sooo emotional.I loved every single line of this ff.Amazing

  6. Vidya

    I’m a diehard fan of Swasan and this was a fab…True love story that was shattered with a single piece of misunderstanding..

  7. Anny

    Mindblowing…….I never expected this to be like this..i thought its like there will be separation and then again they will unite,but u wrote it so differently.Love stories shatter if there is shortage of trust in that love story….your 1 shot proves that…

  8. Simmi

    Suhu umahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…i love u yar…too good..and i loved this soooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!

  9. Bobby

    I’m not an indian so often find trouble reading Hindi scenes. But this. I could connect with this so much. So rich grammar. Where do you study if you don’t mind me asking? You will really shine. Keep writing sis

  10. tokar

    Wait, really? Your first ff? Omg you wrote will such feelings and expertise. Girl. You rocked..

  11. Kinari Parekh

    How dare you copy someone’s one shot…guys if you go to the top right of your page and search for “Punishment” then you will find a ff which was written long ago by someone suhasini has just changed the names in the previous one shot Sanskar was replaced by Dave and Kavita was replaced by Maria….Suhasini you have absolutely no right to copy someone else’s one shot and take credit for it…I don’t like being rude but when it comes to such matters…I lose my temper…

    • Suhasini

      That Punishment is also written by me lol 😛
      But just with my original name, wanna prove it? Check out the writer in facebook XD

      • Suhasini

        That time, I was new to telly updates so didnt know that All I could write is about serial characters dumbo…
        Check out the fb profile
        maybe that would help you solve your misconceptions….
        Stop judging people before you know the exact thing, ok?
        Oh gosh you’re so pathetic, why am I even talking to you?

      • Abhishri

        suhasini we understand…but thinking from kinaris view point she is correct…if you find a ff with just the names changed your first impression will be that the author has copied it…you will not clarify first…

    • Sanskari Girl

      We know her for very long. there must be some serious reason for why she dopied that, first ask her. please dont start being rude……………………………………….

    • Eva

      Suhasini, you don’t need to give an explaination.. there are some people in this world who would always put their nose in other’s pie just because they themsleves cannot do anything special…. So just relax and ignore

  12. Kinari Parekh

    That is why if you notice in the fourth paragraph it is written “so without delay I rushed to my Dave”, this is because it was copied and Suhasini forgot to substitute that name….

  13. Bisha

    I just cant say how happy I am reading your story! Such an emotional and awesome story. Keep writing like this i just cant explain my feelings after reading it..

  14. sethooty

    Oh..my god superb..we can connect this story in real life incidents..thatz y my heart aching….any other story of urs..? Pls tell me…

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