Swasan- Meri Sazaa


Guys, this is my first fan fic. I’ll try to keep it short and nice but please do read and comment. I really would like to know how much you guys liked it!

Swasan ki kahani, Swara ki zubani-

I do not remember exactly when I first met him. Now, when my eyesight has become so poor, at this point of life I feel his absence. Something was missing within me, my soul. Wicked time snatched him from me 50 years before. No, I couldn’t blame time. What happened that day was all because of me. I am still getting punished.
It was a bright Christmas morning, I clearly remember. I was in my 20’s back then. Sanskar proposed to me in front of the famous Orchid Garden. My happiness did not know its bounds. I knew exactly what I had to reply, “Yes,” I saw a tiny drop of tear appearing at the corner of his eyes. It was clearly visible how much he loved me. We soon started the new phase of our life. Sanskar did not leave any of my dreams unfulfilled. I knew how much he adored, loved, respected and trusted me. My life seemed to see its completeness with him. His world revolved around me but at that time, I had no idea that my love was so weak.

We were the type of couple everyone looked up to. My friends envied me. Whenever we went to a party, I could notice all eyes fixed upon us. And then one day, our son, Swansh came to this world. Sanskar and Swansh were the best thing that ever happened to me. Sanskar was a perfect father and a more perfect husband and I knew he surely must have been the fruit of all my good deeds.
Then came the day which snatched everything from me. On a chilly Morning, I heard the post man ringing the bell. “Maybe that’s from mum,” I thought. I opened the door. The city was covered with a white blanket of snow, the sun hiding behind the clouds while flocks of birds were making their way home,I took the envelop and signed…. The sunset painted the sky a starling orange.

The post man was long gone, and I, rooted to the floor stood frozen. The contents of the envelope nearly killed me and left me hollow from inside. It contained Sanskar’s pictures with Kavita. Sanskar had once told me about kavita and kavita often visited us. But were they doing this behind my back? The person whom I trusted the most was doing this to me?. Was he cheating on me? I was thunder stricken. This was the worst thing that I could ever have seen. I wanted the Earth to crack open and swallow me. Now when I realise that his love was as pure as the most sacred place on the earth, I’m left with nothing except for guilt. The day I stepped out of ‘our’ house, which was in fact the biggest mistake of my life for which I deserved a severe punishment. I went to my mom’s place with our little Swansh in my arms and swollen eyes of mine. My mom said that if was surely some misunderstanding but I believe I was not in my senses back then. I don’t know why ‘my’ love failed that day. I called him and told him that it was all over, he tried to explain so many times but little did I understand. Something did not let me trust him. That was a sin, now I know.

“How were the pictures? I bet they freaked you out,” Kavita, called and told me on the phone. “Chill, It’s 1st April and I thought to test your love and trust and I’m pretty sure you passed it. I photo-shopped…” before she finished the phone dropped from my hand. I was absolutely scandalized. But deep inside I knew Sanskar would forgive me so without any delay I rushed to my Dave.

The door flung open and I dashed inside, Sanskar was nowhere to be seen. I went upstairs. What I saw was petrifying. Sanskar laid flat on the floor, blood everywhere. He had slit his wrist. He was gone and I saw our white wall screaming out, “I would love you, forever and always.” with his blood. He painted that with his blood, for someone who probably didn’t even deserve this.

It has been 50 years since that day, my hands are shaky now, I really Sanskar to told them but he is punishing me for not trusting him. I can now imagine how he might have felt when I left him just on the basis of some worthless photos without any justification. I deserved it. Our Swansh, he rarely shows up as he believes that I am responsible for what happened and indeed I am. Life was punishing me. I know I am responsible for all this, I am getting punished, for his love was so pure and mine so hollow.

Credit to: Suhasini Khanna

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  1. Maharana Pratap

    Oh and I loved you one shot too..

  2. Wait, really? Your first ff? Omg you wrote will such feelings and expertise. Girl. You rocked..

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  3. Nice

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  4. Suhano si ek laski

    Hi, awesome yaar.

  5. Suhani si ek ladki

    Sorry my name spelling is wrong

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  6. I’m counting you in my fav one shot queens. Loved it.

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    1. I’m glad that you liked it ?

  8. You are like shakespear lol

  9. Wow nice

  10. Lovely piece. I enjoyed reading

  11. Really a nice one huggggsss and kissaseeeessssssss

    1. Hi. Thanks

  12. Nice. Really adorable.

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  13. Kinari Parekh

    How dare you copy someone’s one shot…guys if you go to the top right of your page and search for “Punishment” then you will find a ff which was written long ago by someone suhasini has just changed the names in the previous one shot Sanskar was replaced by Dave and Kavita was replaced by Maria….Suhasini you have absolutely no right to copy someone else’s one shot and take credit for it…I don’t like being rude but when it comes to such matters…I lose my temper…

    1. That Punishment is also written by me lol 😛
      But just with my original name, wanna prove it? Check out the writer in facebook XD

      1. That time, I was new to telly updates so didnt know that All I could write is about serial characters dumbo…
        Check out the fb profile
        maybe that would help you solve your misconceptions….
        Stop judging people before you know the exact thing, ok?
        Oh gosh you’re so pathetic, why am I even talking to you?

      2. suhasini we understand…but thinking from kinaris view point she is correct…if you find a ff with just the names changed your first impression will be that the author has copied it…you will not clarify first…

    2. Sanskari Girl

      We know her for very long. there must be some serious reason for why she dopied that, first ask her. please dont start being rude……………………………………….

    3. Suhasini, you don’t need to give an explaination.. there are some people in this world who would always put their nose in other’s pie just because they themsleves cannot do anything special…. So just relax and ignore

    4. Divine Beauty!

      haters gonna hate but we trust you ^_^

  14. Kinari Parekh

    That is why if you notice in the fourth paragraph it is written “so without delay I rushed to my Dave”, this is because it was copied and Suhasini forgot to substitute that name….

    1. thats because she wrote both the pieces Kinari

  15. I just cant say how happy I am reading your story! Such an emotional and awesome story. Keep writing like this i just cant explain my feelings after reading it..

    1. Thank you so much Bisha, I’m glad that I could make you feel good ^_^

  16. Sanskari Girl

    Suhasini yaar loved it…. God Bless

    1. Thanks 😀

  17. Hi, I will also write a ff, please read it, I’m Swasan fan, please comment there.

  18. This writing really inspired me.. very happy to read this

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  19. Oh..my god superb..we can connect this story in real life incidents..thatz y my heart aching….any other story of urs..? Pls tell me…

    1. Yes I have written more stories. Will post it soon.
      Glad that you liked it ?

  20. Lovely piece…

  21. Thank you everyone for your valuable comments… Keep reading ?

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