SWASAN: If this is your love, my Prince… Then, please hate me! [Episode 9]

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Swara was standing in front of the glass wall in her office, her gaze grazing absent mindedly the fairy scene painted under her feet… In a maxi long black dress, its mid arms sleeves discovering her shining bangals assorted with the hearted entwined SS pendant she’s playing with at her in neck.
Her look focuses on her reflect on the glass, her right hand presses on her lower belly wondering:

Has she changed?… Now that she’s not alone, now that a tiny small life was beating with her heart there, has she changed?
Her face was tired, her eyes swollen with long night’s cries yet sparkle was illuminating her huge black irises and for the first time, a faded rose was coloring her cheeks and yes it seems like a smile on her face…
It even seems like if somewhere… Somehow… She feels a kind of warmness in her heart, a warmness she forgot about for so long that she doesn’t know if it means really happiness. Ha maybe that’s it… She’s going to be a “ma” and she’s surely happy for that.
A knock on the door cuts off her thoughts, she closes her eyes taking a deep breath, throw back on her shoulders her loosened hair and goes to sit at her desk. At the second knock she says wiping the pearling tears at her eyes corners:
“- come in!”

Dragging his bare feet lazily, the old chacha walks in, she details him from toe to hair, in his short black kameez and churidar, his opened sleeveless mid waist coat and the turban hating his white hair, his eyes hidden behind the black glasses and his right hand griping his flute tightly, he would look somehow classy if his outfits wasn’t so covered with dust… he stands in the middle of the room waiting, after some times, he clears his throat and says:
“- ehm… ehem… little madam ji, if you don’t know yet what will you say to me, I can come later…”
“- kya name tumhara?”

Sanskar frowns behind his glasses, something has changed in Swara’s voice, she’s even detailing him with interest which was making him nervous, did she discover the reality? No way! She would be fighting with him like the lioness she has always been and…
“- I know you’re blind, but not deaf… name?”
“- Aman… dekho, little madam ji, if it’s about my music, promise… I’ll never disturb you again… don’t worry”
Sanskar was honest, after what happened last night, he promised himself to never try to disturb her again…
Actually, the idea of coming here with that fake identity was the unique way to keep an eye on her when family isn’t around, he has noticed how careless she’s becoming day by day, she could have been harmed in that accident at the temple project field, or worst when she stayed for long hours at the top of the tour in cold… it was impossible for him to just stay away.
Then he saw that she was losing hope; losing strength… didn’t he tell her before? He can handle angry Swara… not sad Swara… As long as she keeps fighting with him, she’ll be alive!
But last night he wasn’t here, he couldn’t protect her and at the idea of what could happen if he didn’t come back early he shivers… thank to God she didn’t fall ill, bade papa has been very evasive when he asked about what doctor said, so he was so happy when guard informed him that she wanted to meet him at her office.
“- if you want, you can even keep the flute with you to be sure, I’ll not…”
“- shhhh! I asked for your name… just name! take a seat, Aman ji!”
“- ha!?”
Sanskar’s mind bugged for a second… she sighs repeating like if talking to a small child:
“- sit down, please…”
As he sits on the ground, she exclaims:

“- nahi nahi… sit on the…”
“- oh no little madam ji, it’s ok, who am I to sit there… and don’t worry, I’m more used to sit like that…”
He crosses his legs and was about apologizing again when she says:
“- I’m sorry Aman ji… I know you didn’t mean to disturb me; and I’m really sorry for your tent, I don’t know…”

“- hey madam! Stop apologizing like that…”
Sanskar starts feeling really bad, what’s going wrong with his Swara? He adds:
“-I’m confused… why are you…”
“- can’t you just shut up and listen to me?”
She startles him, for a second he imagines himself at home… saying some nonsense at his usual and Swara scolds him playfully. This memory breaks his heart, his look begged Swaraa for forgiveness behind his glasses… feeling overwhelmed, he bows his head afraid to let her see his sadness.
“- I came here last night to talk to you, but you weren’t here…”
She takes a deep breath closing her eyes then opens them and says :
“- I’ve decided to take my sister’s advice and engage you at the academy… you can teach flute to students as honestly you’re really a good flutist”
He looks up shocked!
“- kya hua? You want to stay here, hai na? and you want play flute… then join Swasan Academy, I’ll ask them to prepare one of the staff rooms so you can live in it”
As he keeps quite, she asks:
“- WHAT? Say something!”
Sanskar returns to sense and mumbles :
“- em… eh.. em…”
He frowns more trying to think about it and says:
“- nahi nahi little madam ji, I don’t need your pity, I can manage!”
She looks to him, her beautiful big eyes veiled with what? Sadness… hurt… he feels guiltier and adds:
“- dekho… it’s so kind of you, you’re really a great person little madam ji… but I’m not the kind of persons who can have a stable job with monthly salary and fixed work’s time… I can work here as a servant, making tea or snacks, cleaning around, this kind of things but teaching, I really can’t…”
Swara thinks for a while then says:
“- ok, done! But at one consition…”
“- Can I ask you something?”
“- Of course play for me… Guerua song…”
Sanskar was disappointed, he asks her tightening his grip on his instrument:
“- play for you? But you hate this song!”
“- who said that?…”
She stands and walks toward him before saying :
“- this song is…”
Tears fill her eyes looking aside to the outdoor decor… Those roses recall her that day when her Sanskar has promised her to make her feel like a real princess… She chases her tears away wetting her lips then look again to him asking:
“- I really want to listen to you playing this song today… Please!”
“- but…”
“- you didn’t forgive me?”
Her pleading wide eyes make his close his eyes afraid that she can see behind the wall his glasses were separating them with…. It was hard to keep a detached tone on his voice as tears were warning to overwhelm him too:
“- how can you say that? It’s just that I feel a bit… Shy…”
Swara has a small heartful giggle startling him, for few seconds she was his Swara, beautiful and bubbly Swara… He forgets how to breathe until her voice makes him land on earth again:
“- I’ll not look at you then…”
Applying her promise she goes to her desk, sits on her chair and turns her back to him looking to the photos ornamenting the wall there… At the first notes of flute her memories flow long time back to the first time she met Mr Sanskar Maheshwari… the devil who became her prince…
His acting madness with Ragini, his hatred toward his family, his cuteness avoiding her scrutinizing gaze… His guilt facing her with truth and his redemption path putting his life aside for hers… Until slowly, she became his life…
He faced her ignorance with patience, her anger with a consoling chest to cry on… Even in his anger he kept protecting her… Scolding her for being so careless for herself… Tears beams at her eyes thinking about his arms holding her from behind dancing on those same notes…
That’s what she wants her baby to know about… She caresses her belly letting tears flow freely on her cheeks, she whispers in her heart:
“- this is your ma and baba story little one…. This is the love which blew life in you, sweetheart… Not what happened yesterday!”

***************FLASHBACK***************
Ragini helps Swara get up freeing her from her mother in law’s grip, she is trembling still weak and shocked about the accusations Sujatta was throwing at her face, her hands pressing her sister’s forcefully.
She looks to her in disbelief, may be this is a nightmare too, she keeps having nightmares since sanskar let her alone!

“- look at me Swara!!! Tell me whose son have you brought in our house?… Who’s shame are you making us handle?”
Swara chokes hearing her words, she yells stopping her:
“- what are you saying mum!!!”

“- never say mum again!”
Sujatta rises her hand furious, she’s about slapping her shocking everyone one when Laksh’s voice reasons from upstairs in chorus with Ragini:
“- chachi ji!!!!!!!!!”
Ragini buries her sister’s face in her chest protectively, Laksh runs down stairs to stand face to his aunt, his back to his wife and her sister
“- what the hell is going on here?? Papa, ma? Have you all gone mad?”
Both his parents and his uncle bow their heads speechless, if there love and trust in Swara have no boundaries, Sujatta’s words were true…. At their mutism, he turns to his wife asking:
” – kya hua ragini? What happened”
Sujatta makes him look to her pulling on his elbow to snatch him from her way toward swara:
“I’ll tell you beta… Tumhara bhabi is pregnant”
Laksh’s face illuminates with joyful surprise, his eyes veiled with tears, he looks back to Swara who was crying in her sister’s embrace, Frowning again he asks:
“- this should be a happy event, hai na?… Chachi how could you raise your hand on the mother of your son’s son!!!!”
His smile has turned to an angry face remembering what he saw when he arrived.
“-don’t ever say she’s the mother of my son’s son! Ask her where did she spend her time for the past months!”
“- chachi ji!!!” Ragini shouts at her aunt face. Swara cries more without a word.
“- shut up chore… I know she’s you sister but you’re this house bahu… Your role is to protect his honor from that…”
Durga Prasad voice stops her:
“- Sujatta!!!”
“- kyu bhai Saa… What wrong have I said… You were all here hai na…. Ha Laksh beta… You weren’t here, but ask them all… Here, here in this place, in front of all of us Swara humiliated your brother accusing him for your disappearance, accusing him for not searching you and blaming him for sister’s sorrow…”
She grips Swara’s elbow manhandling her to the center and continues:
“- my son stood here helpless when you gripped his collar daring him to stop you!…. In front of all of us you announced your sentence! No more relationship between you until he brings his brother back… Ha or na ! Tell me!”
Annapurna tries to interfere:
“- Sujatta! You’re hurting her…”
“- No, she’s hurting us! Like she hurt my son walking out even after begging her to stay… She hurt my son for long six months living peacefully when he was going through depression searching his brother in day and mourning his love for her with a glass of wine in the nights… ”
Swara was sobbing silently feeling every word aching her heart more. Sujatta looks back to her:
” it’s all your fault if my son is gone today! He loved you more than his own life and what you did? You walked on in someone else arms!”
Swara closes her eyes about fainting feeling like if someone has punched her in her stomach but her mother in law grips her hair forcefully making her wince in pain, Ragini cries out asking her to let her in vain:
“- Say the truth choree.. Whose child is it?”
“- chachi! Let go of her”
Ragini and Laksh try to free her from her grip but she doesn’t let go of her:
“- answer me !!! My son is not here to put you at your place… I have that right! So answer me!”
Swara opens her eyes filled with tears and looks straight in her eyes saying:
“- sa… Sans… kar….”
“- juuth!!!!”
She balances her making her almost fail if Ragini didn’t catch her at the last moment.
Swara straightens herself holding on her necklace.
Laksh tries to reason his aunty saying:
“- let her defend herself.. We all know that swara is not like that!”
Sujatta has small devil laugh saying:
” who is talking! After all those time you keep protecting her like at first sight”
Ragini frowns in disgust:
“- chachi ji how dare you? Laksh is just standing by the truth side… Swara would never be like you’re saying… Sanskar has always been the only man in her life”
“- really!?.. You’re adult ragini, you know how we make babies so tell me… Swara was at badi for the last months, did Sanskar come to see her? Did he stay there with her? Tell me.. May be you know something I don’t… No? Yes? No.. Nothing ha? The only man in her life my foot! Kabhi Laksh, kabhi Sanskar, kabhi Sahil kabhi again Sanskar and ha…. That boy! The childhood friend Nik… Ha jiji, remember that… Nikhil who was living at Gadodias home… Hai na swara? When my son was poisoning himself with alcohol, your childhood friend was sleeping peacefully under the same roof with you!”
The last statement startles swara shocking all the persons around… But laksh faces her angrily:
“- what nonsense!!! Nikhil was the police inspector in charge in my case… He was there to protect them at the approach of the trial and to stop Sanskar’s researches as they became dangerous for me!”
Everyone looks to him surprised, he turns to swara explaining:
“- sorry Swara, I should have informed you but since my bhai’s d…”
She stops him raising her hand at his face, the last thing she needs is to hear that fact again. She says :

“- I wasn’t saying that it’s Sanskar’s child, mum… I wanted to remind you that mere Sanskar would set fire in this house if he hears your words!”
Sujatta smirks detailing her from hair to toe and says:
“- thank to god he’s no more, he would set fire in your murdered body and finish his life in jail”
Annapurna wipes her tears approaching Swara:
“- beta… Forgive us for what I’ll say, but you have to talk, you have to explain the situation… I trust you but… But, you’ll have to prove your innocence!”
Swara’s drenched with tears face is illuminated by a sad smile, she looks at her belly pressing her hand on it protectively and says:

“- nahi bade ma…. I have been accused of being a characterless woman since the first day I put my feet in this house so at Ragini’s engagement… I had to fight so many times to prove to you all that that I deserve your trust… I deserve your love… Every single person here doubted me one day, the only person who has the right to interrogate me isn’t here for now…. Thanks to god because… ”
She wipes her tears shivering at the idea of thinking about his reaction at such accusations, closing her eyes, her memory is filled by the images of that night…
his kisses brushing away her tears, his hands caressing her face, her hair, taking off her dupatta…. His hungry love bites over her body, the storm in his eyes when he possessed her for the first time after so many months, his moans of pleasure against her bare skin… His words blown in her ear claiming her again and again making her all being raise until reaching heaven then land again in his protective possessiveness when he mutes himself burying his cries on her lips….
Blushing hardly, she faces her mother in law saying:
“- defending myself mum, isn’t insulting me, it’s insulting you…. Insulting my husband… Insulting Maheshwari’s blood I’m carrying, insulting this house’ grandson to be… ”
She couldn’t say the word her heart aching at this idea, but Sujatta wasn’t convinced, she continues her sentence:

“- fatherless! Ha fatherless son of a fatherless mother!”
Everybody is shocked at her words, Swara closes her eyes in pain, Ragini sustains her as she’s about fainting, but Sujatta doesn’t stop, she looks around saying:
“- kya? You really want me to believe her nonsense? She has nothing to say for her defense, no one to prove her lies, this why she’s…”
“- I CAN TALK FOR HER”
Everyone look to upstairs shocked at the familiar voice they heard
“- Adarsh!?”
He walks down toward them and stands in the middle looking to Swara whose angry eyes were piecing him, then he bends to his father for blessings, but Durga prasad makes a step away, his mother looks away and when he turns to his aunt, she warns him pointing a finger at his face:

“- don’t ever try to approach me! I’m in killer mood… ”
He smiles joining his hands on his chest asking forgiveness and says:
“- I know we have a lot to speak about but let me at least clarify this situation”
He looks back to Swara who turns away from him thinking about the last time they faced each other, playing with sindoor and promising death of one of his brothers, she feels like about vomiting at this memory:
“- of course Swara is pregnant with my brother’s son, they patch up during Uttara’s sagai function….”
Swara looks to him shocked, he smiles at her reaction and turns to the family members who were still not aware of what he just said:
“- don’t look so stunned! I was in jail but Parineetha was here, she didn’t go anywhere that day, I know chichi ji asked her to go to her mother’s home but she stayed here and she informed me about the broken relation that dey… The patching one too…”
Everyone looks aside in disgust:
“- sorry Swara, I know it was bad to spy on you but… I scolded her for that but…”
Sujatta mumbles in confusion:
“- k… Kya patch up? Your Parineetha is fool! I found them in the store room… And my son claimed to everyone that nothing from it seemed to be is going on there!”
“- I’m not talking about that, chachi ji… They were there before that, after she danced, after Ragini went to hospital with that Nikhil… I told Parineetha was spying all of you!”
He walks toward Swara and Ragini, but Laksh stands in his way a hand at his chest and fire burning in his eyes.
“- Lucky!!! I’m so happy you’re alive little brother”

Laksh hits on his chest making him back off as he was about to hug him:
“- don’t even dare!… And never call me Lucky again… ”
Swara feels exhausted, she couldn’t bear anymore as her legs were turning jelly, she looks to her sister and asks her:
“- Ragini, can you help me please going to my room?”
Ragini wipes her sister’s face forcing herself to smile reassuring her and holds her tighter making her walk, Sujatta wanted to stop her but Durga Prasad stops her saying:
“- we’re all tired, enough drama for tonight… everyone goes in their rooms…”
He looks to Adarsh for a long moment, then after everyone left from there, he turns away when he was about to talk to him and goes upstairs letting him alone.

*************** END OF FLASHBACK************
At the last notes of the beautiful song, Swara wipes her face brushing her hair back with her hands; she has to be strong now… her child needs her!
She turns her chair back startling Sanskar who was standing up, her smile doesn’t hide sadness her eyes were expressing and as usual, he have to look down to avoid her look feeling the urge of just take her in his arms and tell her everything… absorbed by his thoughts he doesn’t notice her when she approaches him, she was already standing at inches of his face, her fragrance playing on his senses… he scolds himself trying to focus on his aim. Her voice makes him swallow hardly.
“- Thank you Aman ji… it was beautiful”
she takes his hand in her hers opening his palm and putting a silver wrapped piece of chocolate in it making him frown surprised, he asks her:
“- a present for my song!?”
Her smile widens at his tone, she takes the chocolate back and unwraps it saying:
“- no, a celebration… I love celebrating good things with chocolate”
“- and what are we celebrating? Me working as a servant in your castle, princess”
He slaps himself in his mind for his false note… focus Sanskar Maheshwari!!! Your wife can smell fishy things at kilometers…

She has a new small laugh surprising him again, and as she puts the piece of sweet at his lips, he opens them unconsciously biting on it, she says taking the rest back:
“- nahi Aman ji…”
Looking straight to his hidden eyes behind the black glasses, she says:
“- I am pregnant…”
She puts the rest of chocolate in her mouth and turns her back to him letting him stunned, the world has stopped turning, his heart beats deafening anything else at his ears but those three small words repeating in his mind… pregnant!… Swara was pregnant… she was going to give birth to his child… she going to be a ma… and he’s a father!!! He feels winded! Like if the world was falling in ruins around! This is wrong! This shouldn’t be like that!… he should be taking her in his arms, spinning her around him with happiness… asking her if she’s feeling well… reassuring her that he’s here with her!…
he extends his hand to her shoulder almost touching her, closes his eyes in pain pressing on the flute in his other hand until her metallic shape incrusted in his hand making him feel another kind of pain, physical one which he wished could erase the heart’s one… blood oozes from his injury flowing along the instrument like tears made their way on his face to the ground.
Swara eyes was unstoppable too, closing her eyes tightly her both hands on her belly… she doesn’t want him to see her crying, to see her pain in that moment, she prays him secretly to just go away and when she turns back she wasn’t there anymore.
She knees on the ground and lets go of her pain, crying badly. When she opens her eyes, she sees the red mark of blood, wiping it with her finger, she goes to the glass wall looking for the man who was there but couldn’t find him…
Sanskar was far away… punching on a tree truck with both his fists like if he was boxing a sand’s bag, blood start oozing endlessly as he was injurying himself at every beat but he doesn’t care, he needed this pain to support the storm shattering his heart… he thinks about Swara’s tears, her weakness, her state last night… her state over the passing month… her words on the funeral function, her pleading that night on the landing area… her sad smile saying she’s pregnant… tears were drowning his face as he’s about breaking his hands’ bone when a gentle hand stop him pressing his forearm.
*****
Swara looks to her reflect on the glass for a while then to her fingers reddened with blood her thoughts flow back to the moments ago, when she announced that she’s pregnant to that stranger, to last night when she was on the bench waiting, when she came to the garden not founding him at his tent’s side…
She closes her eyes and whispers:
“- don’t punish yourself like that, Sanskar… i can’t handle more!”
Then looking again to her reflect, she draws her headline with the her finger filling her burn marked maang with his blood… her Sanskar’s blood!
“- whatever you’re doing, Sanskar… you need me to think you dead… but do it faster my love, your princess is now needing you more than ever, my prince!”
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“- bas beta… bas! What will your Swara say if she sees you like that?”
“- Dida-ji!”
Sanskar buries his face in the old woman neck crying like a small child while she caresses his back reassuring him:
“- we’re approaching our goal, beta! You’ll not be weak now hai na?… remember, you’re doing that for her too!”
He looks to her wiping his nose and says still sobbing:

“- for her ONLY!!! I’ll do anything to protect her…”
She caresses his face smiling to him but he hugs her again crying more.
“- cry beta, cry… it will sooth your heart!”
PRECAP:
Ragini is preparing Swara’s plate for dinner, she comes out of the kitchen hearing Annapurna asking for her when Sujatta enters there secretly looking behind her to be sure no one is seeing her. She takes some substance from bottle and drop it in Swara’s soup before disappearing when she hears Ragini coming back.
Outside a hangar, Adarsh comes out from his car and enters there greeted by guard at the entry… the driver is Sanskar disguised with a darker skin and a beard.
Inside, Adarsh comes in front of a man giving his back to the entry, he bends over to his feet and takes blessing before saying:
“- they’re not talking to me at home yet, but don’t worry baba… I’ll win their trust again”
“- and Swara?… tell me about here…”

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88 Comments
  1. You take to the verge of crying with every episode of yours. Brilliant as usual.

    1. MAHIRA

      sorry for make you cry… thank yo uso much dear 😀

  2. Soujanya

    Awesome…

    1. MAHIRA

      thank you Soujanya my deay 😀

  3. Awesome, just loved the blend of emotions and a small request please don’t let anything happen to the baby plzzzzz

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much dear… i’ll try my best so Swasan’s baby will be safe…

  4. Simi

    U make my day??
    Swara knew he is sanskar.. ????

    1. MAHIRA

      Simi my dear, thank you so much 😀
      happy that i brought a smile on your face ^^

  5. swara recognized him that he is her SANSKAR. .yayyy ???(I am having happy tears in my eyes)
    she deliberately shared with him that she is pregnant…. right??
    I loved the way she said that “her SANSKAR will burn the house if he comes to know that she is being insulted there ”
    here adarsh had a change of mind for good or bad?????
    and most important DIDA knows that SANSKAR is alive aur ye sab Dida ,SANSKAR and DP ki mili-bhagat hai…..
    Kya adarsh bhi mila hua h unlog k sath???
    there is many more to know for us…, right????
    aur where is parineeta????

    But diiiii the chapter is awesome

    1. MAHIRA

      No one but her should annouce that to him… she couldn’t the first time but now, she’ll not let anyone deprive him from that…. whatever can be the situation around them, they are Swasan… and this is their love… they’re suffering but yet they’re here for each other
      thank you much dear 😀

  6. Raina

    swara knew sanskar is……………………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????
    OMG OMG OMG didi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is a super duper blockbuster epi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cried as usual!!!!!! brilliant epi didi!!!!!!!!!!! i just can’t wait for next part!!!!! post it soon! post it soon! post it soon!!!!!! please!!!!!!!!!! getting infinity angry on sujata!!!! and don’t let anything happen to the baby!!! ok??? aww!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my swasan!!!! how much they have to bear?

    1. MAHIRA

      Raina my sweety!!! sorry for crying again… and THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
      for the baby, wait and see… and Sujatta is as her usual, moody like a chameleon… it’s Sujatta how can i change her!

  7. Simin

    Superb
    She knows he is only her sanskar
    Di u nailed it

    1. MAHIRA

      aww, thank you so much dear Simin 😀

  8. Superb episode dear..wow swara gets to knw abt sanskar…lovely….bt plz save swara frm sujata….really worried abt swara….now plz post next epi soon…

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much Mansi my dear 😀 i’ll try to write faster but as you see episodes are very long so it takes time 😀

  9. Kaynatk01

    swara knows sanskaar wow dancing…..but no swara’s child cannot die plz and waiting eagerly

    1. MAHIRA

      Kaynatk my dear, thank you so much 😀
      wait and see… there is more surprises to come ^^

  10. Tamil

    Awesome swara knows he is only her sanskar eagerly waiting for next part

    1. MAHIRA

      thank you so much dear 😀

  11. Omg…..swara knows tht old man is her sanskaar???whats this Aadarsh upto….

    1. MAHIRA

      you’ll have to wait a bit more to know what is Adarsh planning… and who is “baba”
      thank you much 😀

    1. MAHIRA

      thank you my dear 😀

  12. Wonderful……No words to appreciate u???????

    Plz update soon …..Can’t wait more

    1. MAHIRA

      aww… thank you so much dear 😀 *blushing*
      i’ll try to write faster 😀

  13. Swarna01

    Wat a love. Both r know abt eachother pain n both r so connected by heart dat without a single word can understand eachother. Wat a twist all r in a group. Dida, dp, sanky. Awesome. Waiting 4 next epi. I love dis ff yaar.

    1. MAHIRA

      Swarana my dear, thank you soooo much 😀
      and yes, it’s Swasan love, it’s not always joyful, not always easy but they can’t live without each other haven’t to have long discours to understand the other…
      thank you again :^^

  14. Thanks dear but unite them before delivery because sanskaar want to enjoy everything of pregnancy with his princess its the most beautiful part one go throughout. Father is the one can feel his wife ki mood change. Soooooo waiting for u

    1. MAHIRA

      don’t worry my dear Nandini… they’ll be reunited soon, Sanskar will never let her alone…
      thank you so much 😀
      how is maternity doing with you?

  15. Arshaanya

    Wonderful chappy ???
    Loved it mahira… i knew it she got knws nw dat hez her sanskar only….
    Fb was gud… shocked dat dp didn’t took swaraz side ???
    Okay si dida also knws abt sanskar being alive.. all r in plan n giving pain to swara…
    Bt m shckd wil swara frgve him dis easily??she knwz hez alive n wants her to blve hez dead for some mission or somethng n she’l do dat only… bt i dun want her to frgve sanky… aftr clrng al d mess i want her to leave sanky n al wid her baby… i want him n al to suffer…
    Continue soon

    1. MAHIRA

      Arshaanya, thank you so much dear 😀
      Durga Prasad is somehow helpless and keep quite as he doesn’t want anyone to discover the truth about Sanskar… and actually, Sujatta didn’t let anyone stop her drama…
      suffering more for Sanskar… emm… he will (have promised to torture him after mica’s ff :p)
      but it will make Swara suffer too…
      thank you again dear 😀

  16. Independent

    how can u easily manage to make us cry yaar each and every words of urs are making me cry u r such an auspicious writer

    1. MAHIRA

      sorry for making you cry dear *holding my ears*
      thank you soooo much, i hope you’ll keep loving this story 😀

    1. MAHIRA

      thank you so much 😀

  17. Mica

    1 word.. i wish i was Parinetha

    1. MAHIRA

      you know what’s better than being Parineetha?
      BEING SWARA :p

      1. Mica

        waa.. in that store room, …. NOOOOO.. yuck! Mahira Diiii!!!!!
        i prefer watching than …… uugghhh you!

    2. MAHIRA

      really… it has its charm too you know… against rules, fear of been caught and inpredictable passion in unespected moment and place… if they waited for a proper room they’ll be waiting until Raglak 3rd child as i don’t know why, but there is always someone calling one of them when they’re about… ehem… ehem…

      1. Mica

        I know !!!! but replacing Swara ????? NOOOO wayy !!!!! yuck yuck yuck !! 😀
        iiewwwwww..

    3. Arshaanya

      ??? mica
      I wish u was parineeta n gve us live update ????

      1. MAHIRA

        *can’t stop laughing*
        if you ask, i can add a live update… but ehem… it will not be allowed to everyone!

      2. Mica

        Arshuuuuuu!!!!!! huh! what kind of magic you have ! your nose tooo sharp to smelt shameless topic! OH gOOODDD!!!!!
        But seem really we are twin 😀 😀

    4. MAHIRA

      Micuaaa??? look straight in my eyes… keep still… oh God! how much your nose in becoming longer… longer…. longer…………………………………………. stop it pinocchiooo!!! you’ll destroy all the Swasan world like Alice drwoned wonderland with her tears!

  18. Mica

    i hate you! you made me crying

    1. MAHIRA

      I LOVE YOU TOO *showing tongue*
      sorry for making you cry… i miss them so much 🙁

  19. Mica

    my Swasan always crazy and unique to applied the word “love”
    that’s my Swasan, and always be my swasan…..

    1. MAHIRA

      and this why we love them sooo much *looooong longing sigh*

      1. Adishu

        o god u all have really gone mad… how can u guys be so shameless don’t forget that children’s r also here :p…. n mica Di it’s not only ur’s swasan it’s our swasan…. Swasanian’s swasan…. okay….

  20. Aarushi_99

    Fabulous.. the love and connection between Swasan is amazing, and Swara being able to recognize Sanskar and yet she remained silent, understanding that her Sanskar was forced to lie to her.. that’s what made me fall for them again in you ff❤️❤️, but still when everything gets settled Swara should give punishment to Sanskar?
    I loved the twist, I mean the twist that both Dida and Dp knows about Sanskar’s lie and are supporting him.. I wonder if someone else knows that too, maybe Adarsh?
    Anyways I loved this chapter.. waiting for the next one!

    1. MAHIRA

      yes… their is our Swasan love…
      remember when Swara has been kidnapped by Sahil and Sanskar found her with police and Raglak… she looked traight in his eyes asking him to go away, saying she found true love with Sahil… he knew she was lying, he could simply shout at Sahil that he knows that she’s forced to say that… but his trust in her was so huge that he simply agreed , because he knew that it Swara wants him to act believing that lie so she must have a good reason for that… he told her ages ago when they were in fake marriage that he doesn’t need to know the plan, he always knows that she’s doing what she does for a good reason and he’ll stand by her side even not knowing the reason
      and may be he could engage himself in that mysterious case… believing that she loves him as much as he does and that she’ll support him as he always did… even without knowing the truth…
      thank you so much dear 😀

      1. Aarushi_99

        Swasan’s connection and trust in each other is always beyond explanation, be it in the serial or in the fanfictions?❤️

  21. OMG….!!!!this was a bang…!!!! Superb….swara knows that the oldie is her sanskar…!!!?❤Mahira di what r u upto…seriously u r fabulous writer…!!!!?Plz dont let anything happen to baby…?and parineeta…u shameless lady…spying onto swasan’s personal moments??☺ by d way her spying helped a lot….????. Sujata are u nuts ur son will burn d house along with u if he comes to know about ur allegations….?
    Loved the chappie soo much…????

    1. MAHIRA

      awww DA my dear 😀
      thank you so much… *blushing to my hair roots*
      lol sometimes bad manners have their use too… thanks God it wasn’t Adarsh himself who spy on them… imagien dining moment after that confrontation :p
      Sujatta… she thinks she’s safe, her son is dead… she’s not aware of the danger she’s putting herself in accusing Swara… she shouldn’t give birth to a mad lover boy…
      thank you again dear ^^

  22. loved it a lot

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much my dear 🙂

  23. Shifa96

    As usual it’s awesome di..
    It’s beyond words to describe..
    Loved the update..
    So swara knew he was sanskar..
    Waiting for the next..

    1. MAHIRA

      thank you so much my dear 😀
      hope you’ll keep loving the next chapters too ^^

  24. Laxmi1996

    I think here suji is negative,becoz she knows swara well then too she blamed her.i think suji is behind all this

    1. MAHIRA

      Sujatta has never been positive or negative because she’s always moody and she loves Swara a lot sometimes and hates her so easally…
      wait a bit to know what is the mystery behind all that drama…
      thank you somuch ^^

  25. Shiksha

    Awesome, beyond words can express.. So Swara knew about Sanskar much earlier… Both knows, understands, n feel each others plan…
    Now what stunt is sujata going to do
    Will she be a grey shade or the villan her son’kid or the saviour…
    Will be waiting eagerly for the next episode… Hope to see you very soon …

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much dear 😀
      i’m so glad my story is inspiring you all thoses questions…
      you’ll have to wait to know who is bad and who is good… who will help and who will turn his back …
      thank you again 😀

  26. Adishu

    OMG do… u know till last episode I was crying due to sadness but now I’m crying because I m happy…. very much happy….
    swara knows that he is sanskar… but from how long did she know this????
    n Di please explain last 4-5 lines of precap…like who was saying that n what was he saying… please make it a bit clear…. n what was that sujata doing why I think that she thought of killing the baby…. if that happens I’ll kill her for sure….
    n Di I can’t tell how much happy I m today… after reading this part…. n u made us happy….
    n Happy Promise Day….
    today on this day here I’ll promise u all that never in my life I will forget this friendship of us… n will not let u all too…. n I’ll also promise to our Swasan that never in my life I’ll give their place,that in my ♥ heart, to anyone in this world….
    I LOVE U ALL n I LOVE MY SWASAN….

    1. MAHIRA

      Aditi my sweet chote… sorry again for the crying session but at least it’s from happiness…
      How long is she knowing, you’ll know it in the next chapter…

      in the precap, Adarsh comes in some hangar to meet someone, whose face is not shown yet, Sanskar is his driver (but he doesn’t know him)
      Adarsh comes in and go to the unknown man, he bends to his feet to take blessings and tell him about Maheshwaris, that his at home again, they don’t talk to him but he will win their trust again… he calls him “baba”… and that guy asks about Swara…. ???
      that all 😀

      THANK YOU SO MUCH from the deepest part of my heart , you gave me tears too you know… your sweet words and promises… i wished being born in India to have such days like “promise”, “friendship”….
      I promise you to never ever forget about you and about all this Swasan’s pagal fans… Thanks to Swaragini for making us meet one day, beyond boundaries and cultures… it’s magic!

      1. MAHIRA

        Beautiful days indeed.. So happy Valentine’s day sweet choree 🙂

    2. MAHIRA

      and chotee… too bad to listen to elders shamelessness!
      for my defense, it was Mica who started :p

      1. Adishu

        what can I do if elders start talking this in public :p then everybody will read…
        n Di what r u saying I don’t think that thhes

      2. Adishu

        what can I do if elders start talking this in public :p then everybody will read…
        n Di what r u saying I don’t think that these days r celebrated in India only…actually these days r just for couples 🙁 that’s why celebrated during Valentine’s week… but u know no Indians r Indians they don’t need reasons to celebrate festivals… they don’t need bf or gf to celebrate this….n soo we celebrate it with our family and friends….. it’s so awesome na so many nice nice days starting with
        rose day
        propose day
        chocolate day
        teddy day
        promise day
        hug day
        kiss day :p
        Valentine’s Day
        I like chocolate day the most :p :p….

        n Di swara knows he is sanskar… n she is waiting for him to reveal truth… but don’t forget that when he returns she should be angry with him… hell angry….

  27. AnuAnn

    Emotional chappy.. Loved it

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much anu 😀

  28. Kakali

    Mahiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Di, ufff after a long decade..!! Missed u..!!
    Waaa awesome chappy..!! U knwo, i was almost grinning reading the emotional part as well as Swara’s part..!! Ohhh god, it was soo peaceful for me to read..!! I love this kinda pain..!! it gives me pleasure..!!
    Loved it sooo much..!! i have read the last two parts in one go..!! Those were also superb..loved it..!! post next one soon.. , n haaa plzzz Ask Mica about my MENU..she knows what menu I’m talking about ..
    Thnk u.. ;-*

    1. MAHIRA

      KaKU!!! you’re here!??? i missed you so much… started thinking you don’t like my story na :p
      thank you so much so you’re my twin too… cause i can’t appreciate love stories without pain, may this why i loved Swasan so much… i grew up reading such dramatic stories like Les Miserables and The Hunchback of Notre-Dame and much more like the roman “Love Story” which gave me my first break heart !!!! soooo… yes some pain for more pleasure (i’m becoming some mister control freak!!!)
      2 last chapters!??? about 40 pages i think!!! i’m so happy you loved them ^^
      and euh… menu… GOD! beta… you’re talking to the shameless fan club leader, her shameless brain is already thinking about several kinds of tasty menus! and you… ehem… Aditi, shut your ears and eyes

      precise dear… precise what kind of menus… may be i would like the same too :p
      Mica! give her her menu beccharee Kaku… look at her puppy eyes :p

      1. Mahira Diiiiiiii !! Actually my 12th board exams will be starting from 20th February so now a days m rarely visiting TU.. Don’t ever think that i don’t like ur story..okkk..!!
        it’s just that i was not getting enough time to read..!! Heheheh but don’t worry from 17th March i will be fully active..!! *Crocodile hug.!!
        Happy hug day Di..!! lemme feel the warmth of my Di’s embrace..!!
        Yup,we are twins as we love PAIN..!!
        I LOVE PAIN..!! uff people call me sadist.. but I’M..!!
        Di,u understand me sooo well.. but this moron girl #MICA.. she is a huge KANJOOS MAKHISUSSS..!! 😀
        She is not going to spend a single penny for atleast a menu.. !! Huh i don’t expect food..!! Just a menu.. but NOOOOOO..!! that’s why i cursed her n publicly bashed her some days ago.. u know what i cursed… to get a HUMSAFAR like Johny Lever..!! 😛

        I’m still saying ask her about #MENU… she will definitely say a proper NO..!! huh..!! :0 :0 :0 :0 :0 :0 :0 ;0 ;0 ;” ;” ;” ;”*sh

    2. MAHIRA

      Best of luck my dear *di’s teddy bear hug*
      And micu.. Give her that menu

  29. Bang on mahira.. This was superb.. One of the best so far.. I was waiting for your story dear.
    So our swara knows that amanji is her Prince.. And sanskaar too got to know about his baby.. Great..
    Sujatha.. This woman is impossible.. How can she accuse her dil & her own son’s blood. I’m angry with dp & ap. They didn’t stand for swara. Parinitha.. Eww.. Such a shameless women.. How can she poke her nose in to someone’s personal moments.. Plz dear don’t let anything happen to baby. Swara already had gone through a miscarriage. So plz..
    Waiting for the next part dear.

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you so much my dear
      And yes Swasan are understanding each other without talking… I have always found their love really magical like a fairytale… He’s kabhi her prince kabhi her villain.. And she is the center of his universe…. Every breath of his is dedicated to her…

  30. Awesome dear

    1. MAHIRA

      Thank you dear 🙂

  31. Prashasti7

    Sorry sorry sorry Diiii I know m late but what to do this network problems na uff Dii it’s soo irritating anyways coming to the story it was fantastic Diiii I love u sooo much finally u gave some piece to my heart which was bleeding due to swasan separation it was shock for me to know that swara knew Sanskar identity but u know I was sheepishly grinning when swara offer choco to Sanskar my mouth was also watering after listening the word chocolate I love chocolate soo much but Dii C how gd wife she z she firstly celebrate this happiness with her Sanskar only I am soo happy Dii n happy hug day Diii *a big penguin hug* hehehe???? kya karu I love penguin too much don’t be angry * innocent puppy face* I know u love me too much

    1. MAHIRA

      Love you dear choree pinguin 🙂
      Thank you so much.. Sorry for late reply, Internet problems
      And I am a chocolate fan too may this why I fell for Swasan
      I wanted that special moment for them only… Like the engagement day, they celebrate d it with family but he played the charming Prince before… Proposing to her alone… Sirf Swasan
      For the baby too.. Sirf both of them

      1. Prashasti7

        Yupp Diii that’s y I love u most u and Ur unique ideas hattsoff 2 u

  32. Mynalove

    I HAVE FINALLY READ THE WHOLE STORY
    i am late in commenting
    but what i need now is too comment and tell u what i think about this

    u have left me spell bound and speechless with your story
    this is a mind blowingggggggggggggg story
    and at the end of every episodes i have read i am in tears
    this story creates a flood of emotions inside me
    i love this sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
    god this is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing
    this story creates a havoc in my mind

    i don’t know how should i ever thank u for this amazing and fantastic story
    YOU ARE A TRULY WONDERFUL WRITER
    the emotions, u describe them sooooooooooooooooooooooooo well that ifeel as if i’m in the story or else as if i’m ding both the parts and can feel swasan’s emotions

    YOU ARE AN AMAZING WRITER
    THIS IS A VERYYYYYYYYYYY SAD STORY AND IT TRIGGERS ME TO CRY
    BUT I LOVE THIS STORY VERYYYYYYY MUCHHHHHHHHHH

    i read this story as a whole and the effect was tooooooo great
    tears are not stopping
    that car blast was the saddest thing

    YOU ARE A FANTASTIC WRITER
    I LOVE YOUR STORIES AND COMMENTS, MEANS EVERY PIECE YOU HAVE WRITTEN

    this episode was a bit happy
    i was kind of doing a happy dance(it didn’t look so, i was crying and smiling when i read the last part)
    swara telling only sanskar has the right to interrogate her was the best
    swara telling sanskar she was pregnant and knowing that he was sanskar amused me veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy much and i think now it was the best part
    ohhhhhhhhhhhh wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i loved this one
    but how does swara know about sanskar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    now i’m going to drive myself mad thinking when u will post the next chapter

    plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss post sooooooooooooooooon

    MAHIRA DI YOU ARE ONE OF THE BEST AND ONE OF MY FAVOURITE WRITERS.
    POST THIS ONE SOON ENOUGH

    1. MAHIRA

      Myna my dear *di’s hug*
      Thank you so much for your sweet words, you made eyes all teary… Yes, I’m a too emotional person too 🙂
      Thanks too Swasan for being a so inspiring couple 🙂
      You know I used to be an serialoholic… Not for Indian drama only but for about 100 American series… And about the same for Egyptian ones… And I’m not talking about cinema…
      But really Swasan story is special lot of things are not politically correct (French expression)… If we compare in Indian dramas only, sanskar is the only lover who killed a person for his love
      … I tried to remember but Nada, there is villains in every story but they usually finish in jail … But sanskar shoot rajjat killing him!
      Don’t forget he almost killed ragini or kavia for swara…
      Sanskar is the villain. Who turned to be the prince…
      Swara… God she’s the most unusual type of heroine ever, she used to be blind for months not seeing his love and ignoring it deliberately later when she is very intelligent…. She’s the most determined and open minded woman character we’ve seen with a strength facing anything and anyone but yet she could knee in front of him asking him forgiveness and belief in her love… She’s the girl who stopped her dadi from slapping her daring her with her big eyes yet she has been slapped by her prince (even with all what has done ragini and all the revenge from
      laksh he never did it)
      She could so easily forgive her baba, her dadi, Maheshwari s, laksh and most of all ragini but yet when it comes to sanskar she’s very exigent in her love, just because he’s her sanskar
      Ehh… I miss them so much… And I really hated the end which if it wasn’t so pressed to end it letting so much issues not solved, would give us more beautiful moments….
      Thank you again dear emmmmouah

      1. Mynalove

        a bear hug from my side di and ur this comment is soooooooooooooooooo true
        again thanks for writing this story
        take care di

    2. Kakali

      Mynaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*cough..
      Omg i almost slip into coma reading ur comment..!! Gosh..!! Kidoooo*pinch ur cheeks?

      1. Mynalove

        don’t go into coma Kakali di
        *throwing a bucket of water on u

        di i’m ssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyy
        i know u have written a ss and a os on swasan but i haven’t still read them
        i’m soooooooooo sssssssssoooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy
        these days i’m sooooo busy due to exams that i haven’t even checked tu properly
        do forgive me
        but i know ur stories are going to be amazing, fantastic and emotional toooo
        pls write more stories

  33. Mynalove

    a million hundred thanks for ever joining tu and posting stories here

    Take care di

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