SWASAN: If this is your love, my Prince… Then, please hate me! [Episode 5]

A month after the “accident”…
The last awaited Maheshwari’s car parks finally, the most awaited too, some domestic hurries to open its door under hundreds of photo shoots and reporters presentations.
This morning has been the laying of first stone ceremony at the Mandir’s project field where media met the new member of Maheshwari and Sons Company’s shareholders. The occasion was for Durga Prasad Maheshwari to give his first official declaration since the last months problems and the lost his family and company have had a month ago.
He pointed out that his family has known terrible ordeals the last year but as always, together they have surpassed all of them despite pain and sorrow and here they are, proudly facing the world and proving that nothing can break them down.
After pooja, the ceremony and a rapid tour of the project’s field, everyone has been invited to the inauguration ceremony of a more personal project…

The car’s door opens and a woman comes out.

Wearing a fit black suit composed of a mid calf skirt, a short cut vest on a black silk blouse with high officer collar knotted in her neck, her long silky black hair gracefully tied up in a messy rich bun was clearing her perfect round childish face which was mostly eaten by her wide big black eyes.
The “SS” hearted necklace shining at her neck and the pair of bangels ornamenting her wrists are the unique jewels she’s wearing.
Perched on a stiletto heeled sandals and a small assorted purse in hands, Swara Sanskar Maheshwari was absolutely stunning!
She’s warmly welcomed by Ragini who smiling, hugs her tightly whispering in her ear that she’s proud of her for being so strong.
Swara doesn’t answer, not to her or to the insisting reporter’s questions, Laksh takes the situation in hands with them, while surrounded by all the family member, she’s asked to make some steps more… take the pose for photo shoots… look to one side then to the other… she nods… salutes hands joined under her chin… her expressionless beautiful eyes not meeting anyone’s gaze, Mrs Maheshwari is already the mysterious young rich widow making everyone whisper behind her.
Her Ma comes to hug her too, then bade Ma and Sujatta mum, Uttara… this new mode of “hugging Swara” is becoming more and more choking for her day by day.
Since what happened a month ago, everyone noticed that Swara wasn’t the same anymore. If they weren’t surprised to see how sad she was and how much she prefers to be alone all the time, they were more worrying about her silence, her looking nowhere eyes and the impression she gives about barely supporting any physical contact with anyone, not her Ma neither Ragini… not even her Dida…
It took her a whole week to go out from her bedroom at Dida’s second visit.
Before that, she passed all her time sitting in her bed, surrounded by Sanskar’s stuffs, wearing one of his t-shirts day and night… her unique contact with the outside world is when Ragini comes a plate in hands to feed her like a small child discussing about what happens in the house without any response or when some company’s assistant stands at her door waiting for Ragini to give him back some signed papers.
Her days are punctuated by Bade ma and mum visits checking on her, assuring themselves that she’s fine, nodding or shaking her head she agrees for whatever they says and let them go smiling.
At the end of the week, Dida came again pretending a bad backache, making her finally go down to receive her, yet in Sanskar’s t-shirt and pajama pants.
After a short tour in the garden, listening absent mindedly to her gentle words about diverting subjects, she noticed that some plants were fading, may be just like her… it was Sanskar’s part in the garden, where he passed long hours caring for them… now that he let them, they are dying slowly without him… exactly… just like her.
That night, bade papa came to her room for the first time, giving her some other papers like Laksh’ usually does, but he didn’t ask her to sign them as she was waiting for.

*-*-*-* FLASHBACK *-*-*-*
Surprised to see Durga Prasad in her room, Swara tries to get up from her bed straitening her weaken body but he stops her taking a chair and sitting aside facing her:
“- nahi, beta… it’s ok”.
She waits for what he wants to say, her stomach already tied up with a big ball which wants to go up in her throat choking her and making her burst out crying, looking to the file in his hands, she just wants to do whatever he wants and then return to her bubble alone… all she doesn’t want is a long talking… so she just waits.
After what it seems to her an eternity, he tends her the file he has in hands and asks her to look at it. She automatically takes a pensile from her bedside table and clicks it opening the file.
Her hand freezes above the papers feeling goose bumps covering her skin as her blurred with tears vision gives her a sigh of Sanskar’s signature…
“- Swara beta, those papers don’t need your signature…”
Actually Swara doesn’t really listen to him, she couldn’t focus on the words she was hearing from him, her heart beats pounding in her ears deafening everything else… a word succeeds capturing her attention… she frowns looking up two tears escaping her wide opened lashes. Frowning she asks with a small voice:
“- a gift?”
“- ha beta… Sanskar finalized this contract many months ago, planning to give it to you at your birthday…”
She looks back to the papers, not able to read a word… another paper sheet full of nonsense… just like the letter under her pillow…
She takes a deep breath closing her eyes to swallow her tears then opens them expressionless again.
To the long pleading for her sake, she just agrees with a nod like usual… he knows that even if she’s hearing him, she’s not here anymore, she’s back in her buble…
*-*-*-* END OF FLASHBACK *-*-*-*
Swara is snatched from her memories as someone puts a pair of scissors in her hands, asked to cut a red silky ribbon, she tries to not express her discomfort with all this noise surrounding her… clapping, cheering, congratulating…
Her mind flows away in her memories to that night, after her bade papa visit and the usual “good night” wishes from the whole family members , then the obliged taking medicines moment by Ragini, she laid in her bed restless, hugging Sanskar’s pillow, she closed her eyes hoping that this time she’ll fall in sleep quickly and escapes her nightmares… she tuned to one side, to the other… memories haunting her again… sat in her place, took the letter from under her pillow and read her once more for the umpteenth time…
How much she hates him for that!!!!
But how big liar she’s being trying to convince herself about that …
How can she do?… he’s in the heartbeats of her heart, in the veins going under her skin… he’s in the wounds bleeding from his absence…
She looks to her marked hand…
“if something happens to Swara… it’s Sanskar who will suffer…”
His voice reasons in her mind like a warning against any further ideas!
Restless, she gets up… may be some fresh air in the balcony will make her feel a bit lesser worst!

She’s again snatched from her memories abruptly when Sujatta mum cups her face in her palms kissing her forehead then says:
“- Happy birthday, choree”
At the succeeding wishes for long and happy life, she closes her eyes suppressing a sudden need to run away… yes run far away from this drama… run until she reaches this bridge’s edge where she met Sanskar a last time… may be if she go there again, he’ll come to her… may be if she fall again he’ll come to wake her from this nightmare… but again…
“- if something happens to Swara… it’s Sanskar who will suffer”
His voice echoes in her ears muting the surrounding noises… then, for once, she notices finally that everyone is looking not at her but to the same upper point… above the wrought iron entrance gate… she looks up there to find the entwined “SS” shining like a throne beside a beautiful calligraphic inscription:
“ SWASAN… the heartbeats’ melody…”
Suddenly, it’s like if her bubble had exploded and she could hear her surrounding talks… about her birthday, about the gift, about her husband’s love, about a dream coming true, about music… memories of her bade papa explanations come unwelcomed to her mind…
*-*-*-* FLASHBACK *-*-*-*
“- Sanskar started that project long time ago, before Rajjad issue and what happened next… Actually, Maya ji, Sahil’s mother was our first partner in that, but after what happened with Sahil, everyone forgot about it… everyone except Sanskar…”
*-*-*-* END OF THE FLASHBACK *-*-*-*
Behind the imposing opened gates, was an immense haveli built in a beautiful combination between rajasthani style and Bengali’s one looking more like an ancestral castle than an academic building.
For Swara, it’s not the first time she visits it, she has already visited the renovation’s site when there was so many workers and materials… as usual, she just kept nodding for Laksh’s presentations and Ragini’s wonderment…
She remembers that she has hated that impersonal site, having for it just the same awful feeling that she has toward the papers she has to sign, to the letter she keeps always with her wherever she goes… the same bitterness she taste when she accepts the food her sister offers her recalling her that she has to take care for her health…
The couple of times she accepted to come here, she wandered along the long corridors with high sailings feeling that the big stole covering her t-shirt and pajama pants look couldn’t protect her from the coldness those walls were emanating!
She remembers that if one of the workers didn’t found her at the top of one of the four tours surrounding the building, she could let herself to be forgotten there forever. Chillness would brought her to that place where she wanted to go back from the moment she opened her eyes that night!
Today, looking around to the several parts of what all are saying “HER MUSIC ACADEMY” she keeps quite, astonished…
Divided by ages, by sections for traditional and occidental instruments… there were sections for playing music… for singing… even for acting… all was there, from the imagined organization to the colors of classes’ walls!
It was like if the architect has made a tour in her imaginary world and stole the vision she had for this childhood dream then brought it to reality… the thief was her Sanskar…
At the moment she steps in her office, she feels like winded, like if she’s falling endlessly in the vacuum… the deep blue and the scarlet white colors covering the too big space plunge her in her home, her room… Sanskar’s room as she found it the first day she entered the house named his wife… a sumptuous flower bouquet recalls her the one he gave her on their shagun, when he offered all her family members a flower blushing under their admiring looks…
She feels like if his perfume was embalming the whole space and suddenly she just want to go back in her bubble again, she wants to be alone… bade ma notices her unease and suggest to everyone to continue their visiting tour and let her take place in her office.
“Her office”… what a joke!
She stays a long time standing in the middle of the vast bureau, detailing its furniture… mahogany wooden desk and swiveling chair matching the bookshelves filled with several subjects books… the inscription on the plaque gives her goose bumps : “Mrs Swara Sanskar Maheshwari”… exactly what she signs every time some company’s assistant gives her a paper.
Like at that moment when someone knocks on the door, he stays at a defensive distance and waits for her to read… factures and engagements for teachers… it’s what seems first director’s assignments, she’s surprised it’s not bade papa or Laksh who gave them to her assorted with a long speech about… whatever!
She signs hastily starting with the entwined SS for both the words Swara and Sanskar… the head of the official papers recalls her the entry’s gate… the academy’s name… SwaSan… the heartbeats melody…
Giving back the papers to the guy waiting at the door, she’s relieved to chase the whole world away from her! She just needs to be alone…
She takes off her sandals, her vest, opens the buttons in her back to free her collar and holding on her necklace, she makes some steps toward the glass wall overlooking on a vast gardens where green scrubs are cut so they draw “SS” acronyms all around in the middle of her favorite colored roses… she’s taken aback on that day he promised her to be his princess… to the last words he told her that night…
“As long as Sanskar will be alive, Swara will be his princess…”
She rests her forehead on the glass closing her eyes and whispers:
“- but kyu, Sanskar… kyu? I know that you’re mad at me… I know that you’re punishing me… I know you’ve suffered so much by my acts… and I promise, I swear on the love you’re having for me in your heart… that I’ll be just as you wish… I’ll preserve myself from any harm, I’ll never hide anything from you, I’ll respect your decisions, I’ll stop playing detective, I’ll stop playing mahan, I’ll accept your silly gifts without arguing… I’ll do whatever you want… but just stop this…”
She slides along the glass wall and cries badly for a moment, hugging the letter she hates so much, she things about all the beautiful moment she lived with him… everything else was insignificant…
Suddenly, hearing a nightingale beautiful song outside, she opens her eyes surprised and gets up looking back to the gardens… searching for a moment then for the first time in the last month, she joins her hands and prays silently.
Wiping her nose, she brushes back the silky locks of hair escaping the bun tying them up… her eyes scrutinize the blackness a smoking piece of burned wood has marked on her parted hairs’ roots above her forehead… brushing back some strands, she hides it.
She’s about taking her shoes from the ground when something catches her attention on the desk…
A white plied handkerchief on its corner… her hand reaches out for it not believing the image her eyes was giving her, she touches its familiar fabric then smelling it deeply she bursts out crying again and looks around in disbelieve…
“- Sanskar…”
Her whisper echoes on the office walls without a response but she doesn’t care… wiping her eyes with it, she smiles for the first time not able to stop her flow of tears.
Suddenly a flute song comes from nowhere… “janam… janam…” song music… her heart skips a beat then aches badly at the memory of the last time she heard that beautiful song… she storms out yelling at her staff poeple:
“- who’s playing that song?… stop that flute immediately…”
Her secretary explains that there weren’t any music lessons today and the sound is coming from outside the academy.
Swara goes out searching, security guys look at her stunned, bare feet and undone first back shirt’s button, her messy bun not sustaining her hair anymore… she was just unrecognizable!
“- where the hell is this flute sound coming from!?”
“- Madam ji… it’s probably the old mad chacha living in the tent… somewhere in the fields around”
Laksh arrives with Ragini, Durga Prasad, Ram and Shekar stayed back discussing. Ragini surprised at Swara’s state comes to her:
“- Swara?… what’s going on?”
Swara doesn’t reply, the continuing music sound was playing on her nerves, she puts her hands on her ears closing her eyes.
Worried, Laksh asks them shouting:
“- Didn’t I order that all the illegal occupants of the fields around have to be taken away?”
“- Yes sir, and it has been done… but that old blind chacha refused all solutions security staff proposed to him…”
“- what does it mean? We’ll have children here… how will we assure their security…”
“- SWARA!”
Ragini’s voice startles him, when he looks back he finds that Swara has escaped Ragini attempts to calm her down and is running toward the field.
“- Swara!!!…”
They follow her through the fields of flowers asking her to stop but she doesn’t until she reaches the source of the sound making her go completely mad!
Panting she shouts:
“- STOP!!! Stop that music!!! STOP!!”
The old white bearded man, black glasses hiding his blind eyes and turban on his head, was sitting cross legged on the grass, wearing a long white kameez under a black sleeveless waistcoat…
“- I SAID STOP!!!”
Swara takes off the flute from him and throws it on the ground…
“- why are you here? Why are you playing this song?…”
She was panting, her feet bleeding from her race and her loosened hair covering most of her face. Ragini and Laksh finally joins her… followed by the security guys.
Ragini presses her hand trying to calm her while Laksh addresses the old man:
“- What is your problem? We gave you plenty compensations for moving from here, why are you refusing?”
The aged man searches in the grass with trembling finger for his flute before getting up slowly, holding on his back with one hand, the other gripping his flute possessively, he says with a pronounced pathan accent:
“- hey Allah!… these times bacchos… beta… ek question… ek response… at my age, too much questions at once, I’ll not remember all of them!… bullo… kya hua?…”
Laksh’ calms down feeling guilty for shouting at an elder’s face and moreover, who is blind and living in a miserable full of holes tent…
“- Chacha… you have to understand that you haven’t the right to be here, this is a private propriety and you have to go… we can help you to find a better place than this…”
“- A private propriety of who?”
Facing the sky, the old man waits for the answer, Ragini says holding on Swara’s hands:
“- of my sister, Swara Sanskar Maheshwari”
“- your sister bought this land with all what was on it… trees… flowers… butterflies… birds… haveli… and me!!!… I’m a part of this land! If she bought it… so she bought me with it… a man can…”
Exceeded, Swara points a warning finger at his face and says:
“- let your two pesos poetry to your companion at ashram or jail… you have the choice!”
“- oh little madam ji… don’t waste your energy on arguing with me… your henchmen tried their chance in vain… I’ve passed the twenty passed years playing flute here and I’ll continue that until my last breath…”
Expressing his words, he bring the instrument to his lips and starts playing the same song again… death subject and same tormenting melody… repressed unbearable memories comes back in her mind and choked, she asks again:
“- I-SAID-STOP-THIS-MUSIC!”
He smiles showing his blackened teeth and says:
“- why? You don’t like music?… strange for a music academy owner!… you don’t like this song… let’s play another one…”
He restarts playing again… another familiar sound… the “Guerua song”
Images of the day Sanskar proposed to her after a helicopter journey melted with those on a helicopter landing area… songs music… helicopter’s tuning helices sound… the crash… the explosion…
Holding her head with her both hands, she faints in her sister’s arms finishing lying on the ground.
Alarmed, Ragini tries to wake her up while Laksh takes his phone to call for rescue…
The old man who’s gone inside his tent, comes out with a cup of water, pouring some in his hand, he throws it on the ground wetting her face and most of her outfits.
She wakes up startled… looking around for marks… the old man voice brings her to reality, she looks up to him.
“- yello… make the little madam ji drink some water… she has run too much… and don’t forget to put ointments on her injuries…”
Swara was already getting up, she refuses the water cup and sustaining her weight on Ragini, she tells him:
“- you can stay here if you want but with one condition… never play flute again!”
Not waiting for his response, she turns back and steps in the security car which followed them asking them to take her home immediately.

PRECAP:
By night, the old men is seen sitting on Swara’s chair in her office, he takes off his turban, his glasses… then his fake long white beard… brushing his hair with his hands, Sanskar turns back to the wall behind him admiring the multiple photos of him and Swara ornamenting it.
He hugs Swara’s jacket tightly smelling its scents and says:
“- I’m sorry princess… I have to do it…”

100 comments

  1. Raina

    Raina

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    speechless…. god! didi what should i say, its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing, fabulous…… damn! i don’t even know what should i say, it was very nice….very very very nice, omg i am getting mad, it was toooooo good, just toooooooooo good. post asap didi, i just can’t wait

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Swara doesn’t look at anyones face since the accident… she avoids any eye contact because she’s living alone in her bubble even when poeple are around her ^^
      thank you for reading and commenting dear 😀

  2. Chanu

    Chanu

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    mahira di i ddnt read dis properly!
    ill read dis and tell u after my exams!
    bt wnt 2 say 1 thing!
    sanskar i hate u!
    hw cn u do dis 2 us? dnt u knw hw much we suffer?
    urrggg!…
    wt 2 do dis heart is nt letting u 2 hate!
    poor me !

    keep writing di
    be happy always
    lv ya

  3. aanyasiri

    Awesome ……sanskar zinda hein woah!!!!wt a surprise yaar…………….yeh padkar mein itna ezcited hui hion ki i am like pinch me situation……yaae waiting fr the next epi dearr post soon

  4. Shreeyu

    Shreeyu

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    Mahira diiiii….. Had Episode mein rulana is necessary Kya? Huh? Di loved it like always…. Swara’s condition is so bad …. I guess Sanskar suffered nothing as compared to her in those 6 months…. And I guessed when that flute was played at that very moment that its Sanskar …… Awesome Di…. And pls update asap

  5. nandhini anand

    Dil bhare diya. Love u . her sadness kill es a lot. Now he is here for her. My husband is the one who go through the pain for ur latr submission. I always ask him why mahira is not updating. Some time he helplessly stare towards me. Now am 4 month pregnant . My mood swing is on his nerve . And with thst my madness for ur ff. I think he pray to god to make u submitt

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      *blushing to my hair roots like Swara*
      It’s a honor for me that my poured madness in my FF is so waited by you dear
      at this rythm i’ll post the last chapter on your sweet baby borning day ^^
      all wishes for you for a safe pregancy and a healthy chotua^^
      *holding my ears again* sorry couldn’t post before^^
      Actually, it’s mostly on week ends that i post, saturday or sunday… during the week, my work and family takes all the time, so write little parts and as my chapters are always more than 10 pages long, so it have to take time^^
      your husband is a good “Sanskar”… being patient for you *imagining Sanskar if Swara is pregnant*… soooo cute!

      • Raina

        Raina

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        awww!!!!!!!!!!! even i am imagining sanskar if swara is pregnant. seriously. chooooo sweet and sooo cute and adorable

  6. nandhini anand

    Dil bhare diya. Love u . her sadness kill es a lot. Now he is here for her. My husband is the one who go through the pain for ur latr submission. I always ask him why mahira is not updating. Some time he helplessly stare towards me. Now am 4 month pregnant . My mood swing is on his nerve . And with thst my madness for ur ff. I think he pray to god to make u submitt
    ♥♡♡♥♡

  7. Swasan

    Superb😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

    Can’t wait anymore..Plz update soon
    Precap is superb

  8. sneha

    awesome .i am feeling sad for swara but i know sanskar cannot give so much pain to swara. waiting for next one

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Sneha you’re right, Sanskar can’t bear her sadness… but like he says in the precap, he has no choice 🙁
      thank you so much dear 🙂

  9. nandhini Anand

    Wow. My husband pout that my mood swing in my 4 th month nevrr hurt him. But my eager for the upate of ur make him restless.

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      aww… thank you so much dear Nandhini 🙂 … i’m so happy that you liked my story…
      *holding my ear* : sorry Mr Anand :p
      4th month of pregancy?
      take vitamins, more surprises are coming soon in this Swasan’s love story ^^

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      thank you Pramudi dear^^
      ha he’s alive and he’s back in Swara’s life without she even knows… now let’s see what he’ll do with her 🙂

  10. Anita

    I was waiting for sankys entry….nice comeback….wished if something had happen like in serial n swara to repent on her mistakes

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      thank you so much Anita dear 🙂
      I think that in the 6 months leap, both Swara and Sanskar was took wrong decisions… repercutions are now to be assumed, for the moment it’s just Swara who is suffering from Sanskar’s “punishment”… but what if after that she decides to punish him too???

  11. Adishu

    Adishu

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    DIDI….u really made me speechless…I m crying but I m smiling also like an idiot…Di I love you n ur ff….I don’t know why sanskar is doing this…but I’m sure that their must be some reason…. but ha I want swara not to forgive him so easily bcz she really suffered a lot….
    n please tell when r u gonna update next part……waiting…..

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Aditi my sweet chote^^ i love you to 😀
      Sanskar’s reasons, you’ll have to wait to know them^^
      Swara’s reaction after the truth… let’s wait and see too :p
      i’ll try to write fast but it’s probably for the next week end (imagine that it’s a serial passing on a channel from week end to other 🙂 )

      • Adishu

        Adishu

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        yup….but u know Di after becoming a swasanian I have become a impatient person….n moreover that I have my exams from 10march to 17april….so I’ll be offline in Feb ,march n till 17 April…its an important exam my first board exams…I have to give my best…n I don’t want to miss this also….n Di I promise to be back…but if on any chapter I didn’t commented so think that I’m busy with exams….I’ll be back with a surprise which I m planning day n night from past one year…..n soon I’ll put it in words but after exams….

  12. Arshaanya

    Arshaanya

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    In starting of ur ff i was on sanskarz side n wanted him to punish swara… bt d way he punished her is not accptble… i nvr thought sanskar can gve dis much pain to his princess😠😠😠… watevr b d reason i dun want swara to frgve him easily… he is one of d strong chrctr i really want to knw d reason of his doings… n sanskar it bttr b gud othrwse m gonna punch u hard 👊👊

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Arshaanya my dear 🙂
      this is the point of the story… who is wrong, who is right and why?
      Swara has always been a lioness… the past month has been adaptation period… living without Sanskar or “surviving” without him…
      He waited for her for 6 months, it has been just 1 month since he’s not here…
      is he just punishing her?
      where was Laksh these 6 months ? (as the story starts with Nikhil presence and no Mansi)
      why is Dida back?
      the story is still at the begining…

      • Arshaanya

        Arshaanya

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        I agree he waited for her for 6months n i was supportng him in dat bt atleast he was sure shez fine n alive..
        Hez away from swara for only 1month bt shez thinking hez gone frevr n d pain shez going tru is more dan sanskarz… fine if swara dies dan imagine how wud sanky feel.. he wil kil himslf… here sanskar is at fault for me

      • Arshaanya

        Arshaanya

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        I also knw hez doing al dis for some reason bt i dun agree wid his step n also said its bettr b good to prove his dis step othrwse 👊👊
        N watevr it is dun let swara to frgve him easily… i mean jus try to show him d pain shez gone tru by playng somekind of prank or anythng

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Remember what made him go mad with her the most… Her suicide attempt… He passed 6 months imagining what could happen if bade papa didn’t deviate the bullet direction from her temple… Somehow it’s his way to make her feel what he feels at this idea – especially that he knew the feeling of loosing her before –
      In the serial sanskar’s mad love has always been shown but Swara seems like a strong woman who can face anything

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      But the few times we could see how deep is her love for him it was outstanding…. Begging him to believe her love, unbearable sadness after they broke up, when she though he had accident, when he was poisened by sahil or targeted by armed people… When he told her to marry nikhil or when they though laksh was dead…. Swara’s love is as big as his love for her but she shows it less …
      He didn’t think that she’ll be suffering so much…
      And of course there another reason for all that…
      And swara’s anger is worst than his…. So don’t worry he’ll pay for those moments :p

      • Arshaanya

        Arshaanya

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        He didn’t think she’ll b suffrng dis much so thought to play dis trick 😒😒😒
        I still dun agree wid d way hez gven her pain… ya swara nvr shows her love or show less bt we cannot deny dat she loves him lyk d way he do…
        N sanskar in serial wil nvr gve him dis much pain not mattr if she rcprcts his feelings or not… m so much angry on him yr… jus think onve if u feel someone u love d most in dis world in nomore how wil u feel… i agree she dsrvd d punishmnt bt dis… never
        He made her lifeless body…

      • Arshaanya

        Arshaanya

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        I’ll nvr agree wid ur point on dis mahira… shez suffrng more dan him… in 6months she also suffrd bt didn’t show… fine lets say she suffrd less dan sanskar ok… bt nw dis much pain n suffering… he killed himslf infrnt of swara in d name of gvng punishmnt to d one whom he loved d most 😮😮😮… so leave it…
        Bt i want him to suffer nw really bad

      • Adishu

        Adishu

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        arshaanya…
        I too agree with u…whenever it comes to love stories…I every time think….that its so worse when one of the lover is died n other is left alone in this world…its like a lifelong punishment for that person without any crime…what’s is his/ her punishment… that he/she is left alone that’s why I don’t watch Aashiqui 2 anymore…. bcz I hate the ending …bcz one has died …left this world forever…but other has to suffer…suffer a lot…live the life without love….having so much pain in his heart….
        coming to Swara
        she really suffered a lot….lot….she lost her baby…bear that pain all alone…then her husband’s hatred….without any word…those six months like a prison…then seeing her love dying in front her eyes….n becoming sooooooo helpless….living a life she didn’t want without sanskar….
        then sanskar
        he too suffered a lot….bearing punishment for a crime he haven’t committed…. but I don’t understand why he is doing this….I hope their is a good reason….
        but Di I too want him to suffer….swara shouldn’t forgive him soon….

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      I can’t say much more as it will spoil what comes next in the story
      But I’m so happy that my story can make us debate like that
      Sanskar will be punished be sure of that and all of us will have pity on his state
      Swara’s love is as mad as his and he’ll regret every tear he made her eyes have those horrible days..

  13. Nandhini Anand

    His story similar to sanskaar. His first love is his first wife who is no more after the two month of marriage she died in a accident. Then we meet
    Iam his business partner daughter. My family know him well. But I meet him first in wedding day. Because I amd my mom stay in Switzerland for running the office branch in there.mine first marriage and first love. After the 4 month of marriage he realise his love for me. Its so funny one becausr he realise his love when he saw a small hurt in my hand while cutting veggies.
    He care me alot respect me alot. I think that why I like swasan on screen

      • Nandhini Anand

        Ya mahira its like a story but you know something. My frnds always told me that Sanskaar story in serial is just crap because its not happen really . But I can witness the truth behind the storyline because I had an example means Anand. He always respect love. His ideologi is that money cant never give us true happiness.
        Any way your made to go through my past. Its the most beautiful journey for me.
        Sorry for late reply. Now we were in paris for a babymoon. Literally means shopping and shopping. Jijus ATM is looted by me.

      • Adishu

        Adishu

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        wowwwwww Nandini di… I must say u have a beautiful love story…its too lovely to know that this happened in reality….
        take care of u,jiju n ur baby…n buy an ice cream for the baby from my side…n give it to him/her….I hope jiju wouldn’t mind paying the bill of ice cream :p :p…

  14. Prashasti7

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    Mahira diii!!!! Y it had to be soo painful y Ur words r soo heart touching y Ur words always make me cry like hell y y y I hate you sanskar I agree that he suffered alot in that six months bt acc. To my pov swara is suffering more than Sanskar bz he could see her meat her taunt her bt swara she lost even a single hope that she can see him even once also due to his death drama she lost that hope dii she is just alive due to his word that “if something happens to Swara… it’s Sanskar who will suffer…” she can’t harm herself for this I hate Sanskar soo much ……But u know na I can’t hate him also 😔😔 bz he is my prince charming …Hehehe n Diii u know I recognise Sanskar when he was playing flute see Dii m soo intelligent more than swara …I can be a gd detective haina Diii ….Hehehe love u alot Di wonderful episode hattsoff to u

    • Adishu

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      I agree with ur word prashasti….they r true….swara really suffered more….n now also… sansjar should get a punishment… a nice one…n then happy ending…bcz I can’t see them separated…after all swara is our sweetheart cindrella n sanskar our prince charming….

      • MAHIRA

        MAHIRA

        |Author

        Me too I don’t like sad ending… And like I said above he’ll be punished and you’ll tell stop, he doest deserve that… Huaaahaha *sadistic laugh* :p
        Best luck for your coming exams little one… Eagerly waiting for your surprise

      • Prashasti7

        Prashasti7

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        Yup I also can’t see them seperated n in this much pain may Mahira Dii bless them n unite them again ……Hehehe right adishu

      • Prashasti7

        Prashasti7

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        N Diii plz don’t give him difficult punishment u know na he z my prince charming I can’t see him in pain anymore 😔😔😔😔 n m sure there z some reason behind his this stunt bz he also can’t see his swara in pain I just hope they get unite soon

      • Adishu

        Adishu

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        accha ji… first u want him to have punishment… then u also want him not to suffer… hmm this is cheating…..

  15. Kakali

    Mahira Di,don’t u think it’s too much.. it’s really really too much.. !!
    well i love pain, i love to see Swara in pain..but not this much.. m literally having tickling sensation seeing my SwaSan..now m ready to watch Sanskar in place of Swara.. huahh haa haaa !! love it soo much..
    Thnk u.. ;-*

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Kakali my dear… i know it’s too much pain sorry for that…
      But just put yourself at Swara’s place… like Adi, Arsh’ said… she saw him kill himself in front of her eyes !!! without the buble where she’s jailed herself in, she would be death in those 4 weeks… a right he denied her by his warning !
      sorry if it’s too long sad taling but it’s my problem with details… writing all small details is my manner to write (and how i like my readings)
      but now he’s back int he story and it will bring new swings in the story^^

  16. MAHIRA

    MAHIRA

    |Author

    Arshaanya
    |dear, be sure about one thing, it will be a happy ending… lot of twists coming but it ends happily ever like in fairytale when the princess and her prince have to surpass lot of difficulties but finish together ^^
    yes Sanskar can’t harm Swara whatever be the reasons… and believe me, in this story, this harming is not to make her suffer at all… but can’t say more 🙂

    Adishu
    |my chotee Aditi… me too i don’t like sad endings, films when the hero dies make me feel sad even if i watch them for the 100000’ian time!! kal ho na ho, devdas, ashiqui, rangrasiya… for KHNH i can’t watch it anymore, it makes me go in deep sadness for days after the film *mad woman*
    so be sure, if i wanted a sad ending, i would really kill Sanskar, and let Swara helpless with her sadness… but… no… he’s here, caring for her from thedarkness where he’s hidden, being sure she’s fine… and preparing his return in her life^^

    Prashasti7
    | sorry dear for late reply, i wrote a long message in the afternoon but an internet bug eaten it 🙁
    thank you for reading and commenting… sorry for making you cry again, hope Sanskar’s return will bring some smiles for you all 😀
    he’ll be punished but you can see by yourself, Swara can’t live without him soo…

    INDICE:
    why did Sanskar came back this day? on her birthday?
    why did he offer her a castle to make her dream come true?

    • Adishu

      Adishu

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      my dear mahira Didi… don’t worry we’ll not force u to write it full story here in comments… because we r more eagerly waiting for it… n we’ll maintain our patience…. n I know that u will give sanskar his part of punishment….
      aacha Di tell me what title would u like to give to this silly debate
      for me the title can be
      “pagalpan of pagal swasanians”…
      haha :p :p :p…

      • MAHIRA

        MAHIRA

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        So yes sweety… You’ll have to be patient :p
        Pagalpan of pagal swasanian pagals … The new name of our shameless fan club *wink*

  17. Mica

    Mica

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    gooooooooooossshhhh.. it’s too emotional…
    i wish i get Sanskar point for doing this..
    if only it’s about his punishment to Swara to made him live in hell by her suicide attempt those time, hell Sanskar.. it’s must be about his ego, he has no more love for her, he loves his ego more than Swara….

    BUT……… i smelt something fishy here,..
    Sanskar too afraid to see how Swara madly in love to him until she has no space on her heart for herself, how deep Swara lost in Sanskar’s world until there is no Swara exist on her own world.
    he want Swara lessen her love feeling to him
    he want swara find herself again
    he want Swara exist again

    until he forget that, that is someone way to love their beloved one,..

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Thank you dear twiny 😀
      And yes swara’s love is soooo big that there is no place for anything else…
      He accused her for caring for her sister’s happiness for the past 6 months
      He accused her for being perfect sister, daughter, bahu, friend… But she stopped being his wife
      He accused her for living like a widow when he was still alive
      Then look at her
      Without him, she doesn’t bear anyone presence no her parents, no her sister’s presence, no her family in law.. No one… She just wants HIM and only him
      Somehow he though that her mad suicide attempt for his innocence was the worst she could be… Or it’s what he’s punishing her.. Being so careless for herself when she’s the reason of his life is a proof of love… And of NO-LOVE.. If she loves him so much how can she give him the pain of loosing her….
      So he’s giving her the same pain he lived with that idea for 6 long months having nothing to do but searching his brother and thinking about that… The difference is that he lived it before… When every one asked him to believe that she’s dead…
      BUT….
      Of course… There is something else.. Something making him helpless doing that..

      • Mica

        Mica

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        well i dunno the criteria of being wife on sanskar’s view , was she really stop being his wife those time ? is the separation mean there is no more left ?
        i ever told this story on an ff.
        once upon a time,,,, there was a husband and wife who decide to separate,
        their 2 children went to the mother custody, but in the end the elder decide to go with the father, the mother so upset, asked ” do you love your father more than me that you prefer to live with him ?”
        the daughter answered ” i love you both, and i surely know that you always worried about papa being alone, i’ll go with him to take care of him and to reduce your worried”
        how about himself ? did he never fail become her husband ?
        hh! but let it be…

        seem there is something big hidden which make Sanskar helpless 😀

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Stop being his wife was about her decision making their relationship no more until he brings her sister’s husband back… Her turning back to him when he ordered then begged her to stay… It was a shocking moment in his life as he never imagined swara do that … When he’s blamable too as he was the 1st saying that their relationship is over..
      Their love is imperfectally perfect

  18. Vrishti

    Sorry to say mahira di ……but. I HATE THIS SANSKAR
    How can he let her swara live in a hell where he is not present
    its ok he wanted to punish her, wanted her to realize his value in her life but that doesn’t me he’ll fake suicide attempt and that too in front of her eyes…..
    he himself told that “IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO SWARA ..ITS SANSKAR WHO WILL SUFFER ”
    when she left him for her sister (according to him) she had atleast let him see her but what did he do he hide himself letting her to be in a world full of agony. …. A lady (or we can say a person) loses everything when she loses her husband her love. .. How can he do that to her..
    ok I understand that he didn’t knew that she has lost her unborn baby they had lost their baby but why she hadn’t told. … its just that she doesn’t want him to feel that pain of losing their unborn. ..didn’t want him to feel guilty. …
    How can he let her be in a guilt live in a guilt of being the cause of her husband’s suicide. ….
    its really not justified

    Sorry if I hurt you….
    but I really cried imagining her state. …..

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Dear vrishti, thank you so much, don’t worry, you don’t hurt me saying that at all… It means I could translate swara’s deal sadness and pain with my words…
      Arguing about sanskar’s acts doesn’t mean I agree with him or I find it good at all… Even me I’m mad at him…
      But, who said that love can be reasonable.. He’s wrong of course..
      But… Wait and see what comes next…

  19. Vrishti

    hey mahira di, plz tell ur Facebook account name also….. wanna be ur friend there. ..
    so that we can chat

    • MAHIRA

      MAHIRA

      |Author

      Hi dear
      I don’t use Facebook so much, but you should subscribe here, in telly updates, so we can choose inbox mails to chat 🙂
      I would be happy to chat with you

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