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SWASAN FF I Hate u & I Hate Myself Because I Still Love U

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Sanskar’s POV

It has been 3 months since Swara have gone missing. Everyone have believed she is dead but I will not I know she is alive and fine somewhere. Otherwise I will not have had this peace.

He opened his diary and took a photo of Swara

San: u know Swara everything went upside down since u gone. Ma is in a trauma she rarely gets out of her room not even talking to anyone. Dad is angry on me that I blamed u without proper investigation and even I wonder Swara how I did that. Ragini bhabhi is like a lifeless body she still cares for everyone does all the household works and even help dad in the matters connected with our educational institutions, but she is not having that smile, that attitude on her face which made her THE RAGINI LAKSH MAHESHWARY. Bhaya also is ignoring both of us. He is not even ready to talk with us. Yesterday I got to know that he is planning to leave to Bangalore as he got a job there. I know the main reason is that he doesn’t want to see me and bhabhi in front of him.

Shomy ma had a minor heart attack one month back. Now she is fine rather pretending to be. Baba is also not at all in a healthy condition. Thank God that Adi bhaya is there. He to was angry with me but thanks to pankuri bhabhi , she convinced him to forgive me seeing my efforts to find u.

I can handle everyone in our family Swara but this ramnath sir and arnav Bhai na. U know Swara last week I met arnav Bhai and Anjali di at market, if Anjali di was not there he would have killed me.

I’m not hurt with their accusations or angry dear, because I know I deserve it. But Swara what u did really hurts me a lot. I’m sorry yaar plz come back I can’t handle this separation any more. Everyone is saying that I’m mad, that I still didn’t agree with that nonsense. How can I be alive when u r dead Swara, I don’t know why they are not understanding this simple logic. If I’m sitting here calmly talking to u then it’s obvious that u r there somewhere safe and sound.

Sharmista’s POV

I know I’m a bad mother. I always ignored my own children and always give importance to ragini. I was helpless beta. When I was married to shekar ma(Parvathy gadodia) told me that I was there only as a caretaker of ragini. When I was pregnant with adi she did scanning bribing the doctor and as the child was a boy she didn’t opposed. She took care of me because I was going to give a heir for the gadodia empire. But ragini again became insecure because of ma’s over care towards adi. So I left adi with ma and always stayed with ragini.

When I was again pregnant ma again bribed the doctor and when she came to know that the child is a girl she compelled me for an abortion and when I was not willing she tried many other ways. When shekar came to know about this he disowned her and sent her to her brother’s house. When Swara was born I was afraid as ma was not there and if my concentration is on Swara then what will I do if ragini again became insecure. So I made Swara ragini’s doll. And in the name of helping ragini I took care of Swara. It was easy for me to because ragini always cared for Swara and she also have no complaints with me taking care of Swara.

But when Swara and ragini were standing against each other and I had to choose one among them, it was very difficult for me. The first thing came into my mind was the scared face of ragini at the day of my marriage. I didn’t wanted to make her breakdown. And I was sure that Swara is quite strong enough to handle herself. After all she is an IPS officer.
But I didn’t knew that fate will play such a cruel game that it didn’t even give me a chance to ask forgiveness from her.

Above all my son and DIL was also apart with me and shekar that they decide to leave the house. I lost my one daughter already, now an another loss I couldn’t take it and that lead to my heart attack. Seeing my condition they dropped the idea to leave us.

Sanskar comes here everyday and takes good care of our family but laksh he couldn’t forgive us. And we too did such a big mistake , no no it’s a sin, I know but for that God should have punished us why Swara. Oh God u could have taken my life. But in all these years things when I see sanskar’s confidence me too hope Swara is alive and is fine. Please beta plz come back soon.

Done.

48 Comments
    1. Mariyajap

      thank u anu

  1. Simi

    Nice chappy

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u simi

  2. Soujanya

    Awesome

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u saujanya

  3. Abirsha

    Awesome dr….. Loved it…. But a request swara shouldn’t forgive all easily….

  4. Anniya

    Awsm …

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u anniya

  5. Nice one dear 😍😘😘😍😘😍

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u vidhi

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u krsytie

  6. Swara should not forgive any of them easily after d mission completes. Update soon dear plz dont take much time to upload nxt chappy

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u anita for ur comment will try to upload soon

  7. Radhika..

    Awesome part dear . saskar is right and all of them anger is justified as they don’t keep their work properly of trusting someone, investigating ….., but now sanskar also fell bad for his doings…… Loved the part 😃😃

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u radhu

  8. Vyshu10

    aww…hope sanskar gets to know abt swara soon

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u vyshu

  9. Awesome dear. Please update soon

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u febi

  10. Rosey

    nice 1 but i dont like shomi’s conclusions i know she just do all this to make ragini feel better but still she didnt belive swara he own upbringing so thats why i m against them dont mind haan i just said my POV

    1. Mariyajap

      di u dont feel bad bcz i’m also against them

      1. Rosey

        ok now i m happy

  11. Arshaanya

    Loved it..
    Bt dis sharmishta shekhar ragini dun dsrve frgvns huh….

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u arshaanya

  12. Abdul hafiz(Uma)

    Tch tch tch, the whole family…But you guys deserve it*evil smile…Sanky you know what, you are idiot and stupid no.1 😡😡.. Anyway, chappy is mind blowing dear…loved it.. Keep it up.. Waiting for nxt..
    Take care
    Keep smiling😊

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u and u said it right sanskar is always idiot no.1

  13. Dharshini

    Amazing

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u darshini

  14. Anu

    awesome..plz next parr soon!

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u sammy, will try

  15. Mariyajap

    thank u sammy, will try

  16. Simin

    Awesome dear
    How are u now hope u are fine and discharged from hospital

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u simin, i’m fine, have some restrictions in using mobile as there is swelling in my finger joints. and that is why i was late

  17. Deeksha

    Nice mariyajap….!!!!!!!! Continue soon…..

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u deeksha.

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u kaynat

  18. Awesome 🙂

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u stg

  19. Dear Mariya after reading your FF I became ur biggest fan. If it can be possible then post it daily plz.

    1. Mariyajap

      Thank you shriya. And I will try

  20. Awesome Maria dear 🙂 loved it

    1. Mariyajap

      thank u mirna

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