I’m so sorry for making you upset :/ I never wanted to. Many of you are not happy with the way the story is shaping up. All I can say is have faith in Swasan. They will unite soon 🙂
~~Change Your Decision ~~
It has been a whole day since I had seen last Swara. Spoken to her, heard from her or felt her. I was missing her too badly. Some part of me was hating her for being so immature. But the other part of me, which was dominant, urged me to forgive her. I loved her, after all, how was I supposed to let her go ?
‘But was forgiving and forgetting going to help ?’ I asked myself. The only answer I got was – no. It wasn’t gonna help. She was stubborn. She wasn’t going to stay, no matter what I did.
I had spent my whole day playing Xbox and eating junk. The only time I stepped out of my room was when Ashmit had a fall while playing in the backyard. I had to take him to the doctor.
Nothing seemed to distract me from Swara’s thoughts that day. To double up my frustration, was the headache I had caused myself due to lack of sleep.
I tossed and turned in the huge bean bag in my room. Nothing seems to calm down the throbbing pain in my head. I had to do something. I looked for painkillers in my room but could find none. I was barely at home, due to my work. So I had no idea where they are kept.
What was the need to keep medicines ? I had once thought. I truly regretted that now.
Asking mom for them was another option. But waking her up at midnight was not right. On top of that, her overprotective motherly nature was gonna earn me a long lecture of how I should not torture myself and what not. It was then, finally, when I decided to head out to the pharmacy myself.
Groaning and cursing, I drove my car to the nearest pharmacy which was about 9km away from my house. Many of them where closed shut even with a board hanging on the top which said – Open 24 hours. . . .
“Thank god.” I mumbled spotting the pharmacy along the mai road. It was more of a general store with one compartment full of medicines. I walked in, and was about to ask for what I wanted, when a lady caught my eye.
Wavy long black hair. Tall and lean figure. Wearing an Indo-western attire. Covered with a shawl. I was too close to recognizing her when a thick voice interrupted my thoughts.
“Oh bhai. Kya chahiye. Jaldi bolo yaar.” The shopkeeper snapped in a really bored tone. He eyed me like I was a guilty criminal out of jail. I instantly looked away from him.
“Yeah. . .I need a Crocine for headache.” I said, still focussing on the woman who was now behind the back of the counter
“Twenty bucks.” The shopkeeper announced sounding least interested.
I checked my wallet and damn. . .there were no notes of ten or twenty bucks.
All I had was five hundred bucks. I handed it to shopkeeper.
“Don’t fool around, man. I don’t have change for this.” He said.
I guess, I knew it. I sighed, not knowing what to do. I had to head back home or buy something worth five hundred bucks.
Shit. Who was gonna do that ?
Just as I was about to turn back to leave, someone stepped in and placed a twenty rupees note on the counter. I looked back to see the same woman whom I was noticing earlier. Well it wasn’t some woman. It was Swara’s mother – Sarmishtha aunty.
“Aunty, I – why did you pay ?” I asked astounded to see her there at such an odd timing. Her lips curved into a polite smile which instantly reminded me of Swara. She was an exact replica of her mom.
“Its okay beta. Anyway. What are you doing here ? It’s been so long since we met!” She exclaimed putting me into an unexpected embrace.
“I know. Years, I think. Anyway, what are you doing here this late ? All okay ?” I asked, concerned.
“Yeah yeah. . Just Swara’s a little sick since morning.” She said. Suddenly, I could feel a deep knot in my stomach. I wondered what must have happened.
“What happened to her ? Is she okay ?” I asked showing my overprotective side. Aunty shook her head in denial.
“No she’s been living on chocolates and candies and all the junk since yesterday. Now she’s not been able to digest it all. That’s what had caused the pains. And you know that this city sleeps by ten. No doctors are available at this time.” She said.
It struck me then, that Swara was stressed out. She had this bad habit of eating anything anytime whenever she was tensed or stressed about something. I just hoped she was okay.
“Stress. She’s still not gotten rid of that habit.” I sighed. I wondered how would she become a doctor if she herself was so careless!
“No.” Her mother smiled weakly.
“Just . .um put her to sleep. If she doesn’t, show her some chick flicks. She likes Mean Girls or show her that silly Mickey Mouse. Also, try to ease her out. Tell her, there is no need to stress about anything. Why am I telling this to you? You are her mother. You know the best. . . .what am I even saying ?” I rambled nervously, while she just smiled at me.
“Sanskar. Hey, its okay son. I know my daughter the best. But you know, who’s the closest to her after me ? It’s you. She loves you like anything.” She said. I nodded.
But I couldn’t even deny the fact, that her love for me was separating us in the worst way.
“Look Sanskar. I know its wrong of me to interfere between the two of you. But you both are my babies. I want the best for you both. I’m not saying you that you should forgive her. That’s your choice, and you are hundred percent correct on your part. But as a mother I cannot see my daughter suffering so much. Neither can I see you like this.” She said.
“I’m fine aunty. Really. I’ll be okay.” I assured, even though I was myself not sure of it. I knew, I would never be the same person without Swara.
“You might have forgotten but I know you since you were I grade 3. We may have met after a long time. But I can easily make out when you lie.” She stated with a slight smile.
I nervously rubbed the back of my head.
“See Sanskar. You and I we both know how stubborn Swara is. She’s a little immature sometimes and makes wrong choices. She gas already made one. As far as I can see, she is regretting it. But she won’t change her mind. I’m tired of convincing her now. You are the only one who can break the chains. She only listens to you. I’m asking you to help me there, because I want my daughter back. And I guess you are the only one who can help me with that.” She said.
I didn’t know what to say. How was I supposed to help ? Hadn’t I tried too much already ?
“I don’t think I can. Since, the day we have met again I have done every thing possible to convince her to stay back. Now when I know the reason behind her, of her leaving, I feel it was all very immature of her. Honestly aunty, I’m now trying to accept the fact that I have already lost her. Because that’s what she wants.” I said.
She laughed inwardly. “No.” She said.
“Swara wants you. Swara wants her family, her friends. But she’s not able to see anything in front of the vow she had taken two years ago. As a mother I can only do this much. But as a friend, and as a man who has always loved her always, you can cross all the limits to make her realize the path she’s walking on is wrong. It’s superstitious. Please, don’t turn your face from her.. .. .. Change her mind. . .”
A few tears rolled down her face as she tried to hold them back.
I couldn’t see her crying.
I couldn’t see my life falling apart.
I couldn’t see my love going away from me. . . I had to do something. . .
I wiped her tears gently.
“Okay.” I said. She smiled at me with a lot of hope in her eyes.
“Okay. I’ll do everything I can do to change her mind. I promise you aunty, that you’ll get your old Swara back.” I smiled. She nodded.
“Alright then! I’ll take your leave now. Swara must be waiting.” She said. I hugged her before she hopped in her car and drove away.
Now all I had to do was stay strong. This was it. I had to do everything I could to make Swara realize that what she was doing was wrong. That we can write our own destinies. I had to win her back.
For myself, for her mother, and most importantly for us. . . for Swasan. . .
Next part : Last night.
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