Swasan : Destiny (Episode 16)

~~Chocolates and Decisions ~~

It’s not the end. . .

Swara’s pov ~

I crossed a date in my calendar. It was marked red crosses everywhere. Except those last four days. Four days more, and then, I was going to be back in London. Back to my old life. I had University to attend. I had friends back there. And I thought, maybe that life could take my mind off Sanskar.

I would be a big fat liar if I say I wasn’t in pain. It was hurting. Every piece of me that had fallen back into piece in the last few days, was breaking again. The fact that he thought of me as some stupid and immature girl wasn’t hidden from me. To him, I may be that girl. But to me, it all made sense.

Back home, I was sitting on the kitchen counter. Crying and hogging on little ‘Dairy Milks’. I was down with five already and was eating the sixth one. I hadn’t even bothered to switch the lights on.
I had once read in the food magazine, for a girl in depression, chocolates act as best friends. It was true.

Suddenly lights in the kitchen were turned on. I looked back to see my mother standing in the doorway.
She looked horrified as she eyed the kitchen area. There were wrappers of chocolates thrown carelessly all over the floor.

“What’s all this, Shona ?” She asked.
“Wrappers.” I shrugged, now munching on a caramel bar. I probably had chocolate all over my face.
My mom sighed and picked them up one by one as she knew I was not gonna do that.
“May I ask why are you eating chocolates at midnight? You didn’t even have the dinner.” She stated, crossing her arms across her chest.
“I wasn’t hungry.” I replied getting down from the counter.
This time I made sure to throw the wrapper in the bin. I opened the refrigerator, looking for any more sweets to dine.

“We dont have any more chocolates.” She said sternly.
I groaned internally and slammed the door shut. I was craving for more and more. It was getting worse.

“Swara, I know you are worried about Sanskar.” She said. Not again. I didn’t want to think about him. I wanted to pretend like I never met him. But every person and thing around me, reminded me of him.

“No not now ma.” I tiredly replied, checking the drawers for some snacks.

“Shona, you have to understand that this stubborn behaviour of yours is gonna lead you nowhere. You are not only ruining your life, but also his.” She said.
She already knew the real reason behind me leaving this place. She was the only person who knew. Apart from Sanskar now, of course.

“Its not my stubbornness ma. Its my belief. That if I stay with him any longer, something’s gonna happen to him!” I exclaimed, dramatically throwing my hands in the air.

“How can you be so sure?” She challenged.

“Him getting into an accident was not a coincidence ma. It was a fu- freaking sign! Why can’t you see that ?”
I was so hyped that I had almost pronounced the f-word in front of my mother.

“No I can’t. From where I can see all this, I know that you and him clearly love each other. And if two people love each other there is nothing that can stop the world from being together.” She said. She sounded like a love expert.

Nevertheless, those words of her wanted me change my decision of going back. Just for a split second, I thought that I was wrong. But then taking again this risk and putting Sanskar’s life in danger would be the last thing I wanted to do.

“That’s rubbish, ma. If I love him, I can love him from a distance. But you have to accept the fact that I m nothing but sheer bad luck for him. I have almost love him once. I cant do that again.” I said.

She heaved a deep sigh. I sensed a mother- daughter heart to heart conversation coming up. She straightened her position before speaking up.

“I never told you but your dad and I too had our problems. We have gone through some really tough times. There was a time, when I was stupid enough to let go off your dad’s love. I got carried away. You were only eight back then. But soon I realised that surviving without him is not possible for me. Shekhar is the man wo has accepted me the way I m. No matter how much ever we fight or argue, we ll always love each other. And there’s nothing that can keep me away from him.” She said. I was completely unaware of this story.

“Today I can see myself in you. That look in your eyes say you are dying to be with him. But you can’t. I have gone through this same phase before, Shona. And trust me, it sucks. I dont want my daughter to go with same patch that I have gone through before. I want you to be happy.” She said.

“I m happy. I ll be at least.” I said bluntly.

“Dont let go off your love. Because I know God is not so cruel to separate two people in love. Please Swara. . . don’t so this to him and to yourself.” She said, taking her warm hand in my cold one. I pulled back immediately.

“I m letting him go off because I love him. And I m not changing my mind.” I said and started off to my room when I remembered something. I turned back and opened the tip most kitchen cabinet to take out a packet of gummy bears.

“I always know your secret candy hiding place.” I mumbled, before sprinting upstairs with the packet.

I m sure nothing could change my mind. . .nothing. . .

Next part: Change your Decision
Another episode is done. I tried to show mother-daughter bond in this one. And of course her stupid decisions.
Keep reading to find out if she changes her mind and how Sanskar decides to cancel his ‘Hating Swara Idea.’ And don’t forget to comment, please 🙂
I know the last few epis sucked because of high octane emotional drama. So in the next few epis I’ll try to bring back the same fun

Spoiler ~~
I know many of you might be thinking how can I separate Swasan so here I bring a news.
Sanskar will change his decision and will try to make Swara realise that they are meant to be together.

This is the second update I’ve posted today so make sure you read the prvs part “I’ll kill you”

Credit to: Anu


  1. jaf

    anu ur ff’s r really interesting! Bt d point is u end it abruptly! Incomplete! Lyk star couple…..
    it was so nyc at d beginning but then u ended it without showing raglak & swaragini!
    u promised us dt u would make swaragini sisters but u didnt! Dat was really disappointing!
    but anywys its good!!!!

    • Anu

      Somewhere I thought ppl might not like this epi due to Sanksar’s absence but I m proved wrong. Tysm !!

  2. krishna

    actually iam a silent reader but the way u write ur ff and that to everyday without any break and the way u carry all the emotions, hat awesome keep it upppiness etc…….. jus

  3. Isabel

    This s nice and emotional a bit and I knw already that u won’t seperate swasan but their breakup made me feel bad, anyways ur update makes me happy so a v big thanx for u, longing to read the rest, I’ll be waiting so pls update asap..

  4. Meghs

    Wow…. Now sanskar should make swara understand facts not to be superstition …. Hw can she think that

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