SWASAN – Acceptance (14)

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Episode 13

Hello everyone..I was really, really busy today. Sorry for not replying friends but I read your comments.

‘what about your revenge?’
‘ does killing him will return your parents’
‘ but you can’t leave the one who made you suffer’
‘ love is strong than hatred’
‘ you need to harm ram Prasad’
Swara sighed for the battle between her heart and brain. She is walking along the desserted road under dark, grey clouds. It seemed like it would rain heavily. Wrapping her arms around herself, she made her way to graveyard. The chills sent by the cool breeze, the haunted look of the place, the dense fog didn’t affect because it is the place she loves the most. Gulping hard, she walked few steps and saw two graves. She kneeled infront of one and placed her palm on it.

” ma!” She called out for her mother with tears. Few childhood memories of her parents pampering pained her.
” why only me ma? Why did you leave me? What mistake did I do to loose your love?”
Tears now knew no limits and they kept their way down her cheeks. Swara pressed her left cheek on the top of grave and closed her eyes in pain. She lifted her head to sky when a tear drop touched her cheek.
” atleast, I have some one to cry”. Rain is a symbol of joy, fresh life but for her it is unseen sorrow.
” please ma.. Don’t cry for me” she murmured with choked voice. She cuddled herself by pressing her kness to her chest. She wrapped arms around her knees and supported her back to the grave. She sobbed and sobbed until it felt like hours. Noone is there to listen her pain, her emotion. she is left alone in this world as always. Her eyes burned with revenge once again. She wanted ram Prasad to experience loneliness but not sanskar. She soaked in the heavy rain and shivered occasionally when cold winds touched her. Nothing is new, nothing is new to her.

Suddenly, she felt something warm around her shoulders. The wind had a very familiar scent which didn’t need any thinking because swara knew it. She lifted her head from knees only to see Sanskar’s emotionless face with painful and caring eyes. He stood beside her waiting for her arrival. Swara wiped her tears and followed him to the car. Casually, she turned her head to left and saw some child shivering on the road. She smiled a sad smile and donated the jerkin which sanskar gave her.
Swara changed into night dress after reaching manison. Her heart is too heavy to notice anything expect her parents. Their images kept running in her mind so the tears. She slept on the bed but tears didn’t stop. She closed her eyes thinking about her childhood. She badly wanted someone to soothe her, someone to burst her bottleup emotions but she is lonely in this world, always, forbidden by the society. Some soft fabric softer than cotton touched her cheeks. She opened her eyes and saw sanskar standing beside her.

” shh” sanskar said to swara sitting beside her on bed.
Their eyes met but she trailed off. Seeing him straight into his eyes is making her weak more than she is. Sanskar sighed and wiped her tears. It shocked her but that didn’t go into her brain which is preoccupied by her parents. A blank period came in between them in which either of them don’t know who initiated but they end up in hugging each other tightly. Sanskar’s protectiveness and care melted her and she sobbed burying her face in his nape. He rubbed her back assuring her and it felt like heaven. She badly wanted someone to soothe her and here, the person whom she gave pain is again by her side..it just increased her pain.
” I was ten” swara spoke out once she calmed. Sanskar still pressed her tight to his body.
” deen dayal gadodia is my grandfather. They were not rich but managed to send my dad foreign for studying business course where he met my mother and married her. Their marriage resulted in a war between my dad and Mr. Gadodia just because my mother is a Bengali but they are rich. My papa was forbidden by them and so he settled in London.” Swara took a deep long breath and pulled herself from the hug. Sanskar angled his head reading and understanding her.
” my maternal grandparents helped my dad to establish a business and he became successful. Once, he had to visit India for one business deal and it is with your dad.” Sanskar gulped and sighed.

” later they became partners and my parents came to India. I was suppose to come after a month because of my semester. I was all jumping in joy to meet my parents because they didn’t leave me for a second. With some much of excitement, I landed in Kolkata. I reached my house along with one of my dad’s friend but… ” she choked. Fresh set of tears formed in her eyes thinking about that day. Sanskar gave her water bottle. She drank and waited for a moment to calm down.
” my mom and dad were lying on the ground, lifeless surrounded by pool of blood. For the first time in my life, I saw my so called grandfather.. I thought that they will shower me the love that was taken by God but…” She smiled sadly ” he didn’t allow me to stay with me. I was impure for him. He didn’t even allow my parents funeral as my dad did a sin of marrying a Bengali girl according to him. So, my parents bodies were buried. I remember, ……my dadi pleaded him for me but his stone heart didn’t melt…he..he threw me out of the house and replaced my dad in business”
Her fingers trembled as her lower lip. She tried to surpress her pain but failed, badly.

” let your pain out” sanskar said to her in a deep, caring voice. He placed his hand on her shoulder for support.
” what else.. I stayed on the road. My dad’s friend’s wife didn’t allow me to stay there and no one even cared for me. I passed my days on footpaths. Sometimes, I wanted to end up myself but being a ten year old, I didn’t know anything at that time. Four days passed. I was feeling hungry but no source. To satisfy my hunger, I forward my hands but received stray food…what a people we have in our society. Then I understood that noone will help me. I must either survive or die but as I said, hunger changes a person. I started theft of food items once in two days. It didn’t felt wrong because I want to satisfy my hunger.” She paused for a moment and turned to sanskar who had shocked expression plastered on his face.
” may be four or five months I guess..after that, I was kidnapped by beggars mafia. I was so afraid. There were many children who were crippled. I heard two men discussing about how to cripple me and others. My heart raced. I didn’t want it but I had no other way. I became angry with my so called Dada. I prayed God to save me and I think for the first time in my life, he listened me. That night, police ride happened and we were taken to orphanage in Kolkata and then shifted to Mumbai.”
” how did you meet vansh then?” Sanskar questioned her in a low voice because it is not correct time to but he equally wanted to know .

” few orphanages just show up.” Swara continued ignoring him ” mine was the same. We were never given good food, good clothes. We were never loved by the management and it burned me. Revenge is the only word that kept running in my mind. I studied hard and thanks to orphanage for that. Just two years before, vansh came to me. He introduced himself as my dad’s neighbour friend and said that he knew who killed my parents. That’s it. We both plotted against your family and entered laksh’s life for revenge.. But..” She choked again.
” you end up in loving me” sanskar finished her and she widened her eyes.
Sanskar gave her a faint smile ” sleep swara.”
” sanskar!” She called him.
” hmm”
” you said you hate betrayal and that’s what I did ” she cautiously spoke reading his expressions.” Then why did you forgive me?”.
Sanskar closed his eyes before opening them ” because you are not wrong. I know how it feels when you miss your loved ones. You betrayed me but the reason is true. You just want to..to satisfy yourself. That’s it and mainly you didn’t betray me for money ”
Swara smiled at him and leaned on the head rest. Sanskar is still sitting beside her.

” laksh once said that you love black. Even my favorite color is black” swara said staring into the emptiness of the room with broken voice. ” it is color..”
” of emptiness” sanskar cut her and continued ” color of pain, color of fear, color of attitude, color of coldness, color of dark, color of sadness and definitely not a color of..”
” victory” swara completed him. They both stared into each other eyes transforming unspoken words which only they can understand. The heat and truthfulness in his gaze burned her and so she shifted her eyes to his left arm. Something came to her mind and she frowned.
” sanskar” she called him mysteriously.

“What happened?” Laksh asked sanskar glaring swara at the dining table. Swara stared at her fingers which are rested on her lap.
Sanskar shrugged and raised his chin to swara ” she has something to share with”
Laksh’s nostrils flared and he stood up in rage.” I am not going to listen her. ”
” laksh please ” ragini pleaded squeezing his hand. His eyes softened and he resumed.
” you continue” ragini stated to swara. She lifted her head with guilt written on her face. She glanced laksh before turning to ragini
” there is someone else who is trying to harm sanskar” her voice is replete with truth and confidence yet it is shaky.
” it will be definitely you” laksh snapped sanskar’s glare shit his mouth
” why do you think in that way?” Laksh asked swara trying to act calm and mature
She locked her eyes with laksh ” because, neither me nor vansh attacked sanskar at mall.”
Laksh opened his mouth wide.

Credit to: Sree harini


  1. Dhara

    Wow this time you nailed it. But u thought u were in hurry to show swara’s POV. It could have been little longer.

    • Sree harini

      Thankyou dhara. Actually I have more to show you. So swara’s pov is here but don’t worry, sanskar didn’t forgive her..still

  2. Dev

    So emotional n touching fb of swara yaar bt i lovd d way sanky stood by her n d description of black colour…sree as always u rovck d ff page with ur writings

    • Sree harini

      I said you right, sanku is a very intense person…description of black..lol just a random idea. Thanks for the appreciation.

  3. Needhi Singh

    Wow…… .It was heart touching.Sree once again i fell desperately for Sanskaar.I.am speechless .All i can say is that this episode is beyond words. Just beautiful and impleccable.Emotions flew through the whole episode and ya u were absolutely correct that hunger too is a very strong emotion.Loved it.Love u my sweet sis.

    • Sree harini

      Hi needhi..I think you had exam yesterday. How was it?…whao how many times will you fall for him…now I definitely want to say thank you for the appreciation. You all are my strength. Hunger is more dangerous than any emotion.. Love you too my sissy. Ummah.

  4. bhuvi

    Honey.. Yo r v bad. Yo made me cry so much… Absolutely awesome episode… So so so emotional.. Still sanskar loves her rite??? Swara also falling for him rite??? N don’t tell me that the mall attack was made by lucky????

    • Sree harini

      Me!!! I never thought that this episode will make you cry dear because I planned one where seriously you will but…your are so emotional… Your questions will be answered about SWASAN..I won’t say anything about laksh. What made you think that way

  5. Harani

    Awesome is not enough ..more than that ..some words ..how much emotional it is ..being thrown out by society makes everyone angry and they become most dangerous people ..u hAve portrayed these emotions so we’ll Dr ..love u loads ..who is the other one attacker ..fingers crossed 🙂

    • Sree harini

      Being thrown out of the socioalways doesn’t show negative effects dear. Some will be strong but others will be weak. So feeling bad for swara?? Keep reading for further details.

  6. Hope

    OMG…I love suspences..ur ff is a thriller..i don’t read every ffs..only d ones with a uniqueness..ur ff is unique..half of d ff’s here r just similar to d original track,but der r some ffs lyk urs make new ideas and entirely dfrnt frm d concept..luv u 4 dat..

    • Sree harini

      Omg omg..thank-you so much hope…as this is my last ff, I wanted it to be mixture of all emotions. That’s it
      I am glad that you love and follow my story.

  7. L Khan

    Superb……means u planned to kill us with suspense it’s just mindblowing………swara’s childhood was very emotional I hope no one should ever face that type of situation in life…………waiting eagerly for next part

    • Sree harini

      Hey..I didn’t plan to kill you all.I agree swara’s childhood is really bad but there are few stories in our society which are worst…

  8. mitti

    Wow Di. ..u really made me emotional ..sanskar being in her side even after knowing what she did n letting her speak d truth….It was heart touching. …seriously for this beautiful update. …

    • Sree harini

      Hello mitti.sanskar did this because he understood her pain but what’s the reason for acting cool is yet to be revealed . don’t get emotional dear. I really planned a episode where you will cry. So preserve it..lol

  9. Anjali

    Hey…Sree… Sorry for not commetnting in the previous chapter.. I read it but I had fever and was really tired so didn’t comment…
    Now am feeling a bit better so decided to tell you….

    LOved both the epis… I just love ur imagination and creative skills…. Can’t wait for next.. <3 <3

    • Sree harini

      It’s okay dear. I am happy to know that you are okay now. Even I had a hectic day…I must thank-you now for the appreciation. Love you too..my friend.

  10. Wow dear..
    As usual nice episode n I thought nobody is wrong..
    She is right on her POV n sanskar also..
    But the turning point is good that she never attacked sanskar..
    Too mature man..
    Loved it dear.. 🙂

    • Sree harini

      Hi falguni..everyone are right according to them and it’s the main theme…so finally I justified swara. Agree?. No take a long breath because swara didn’t attack him..lol

  11. lata

    maybe laksh as suddenly laksh dissappeared from the mmall at the time of attack…..may beee ….as i think so :/

    • Sree harini

      He didn’t disappear at the mall. He was back of them only but a bit far..you need to read further for revelation. Thanks lata.

  12. Awsm part….i loved it…..swasan moments and sanskar understanding was amazing….waiting for next part….keep writing and keep smiling dear… 😀 😀

  13. OMG…another twist who could be the person!!!But really you can explain every emotion so purely…today’s swasan conversation was really emotional..hats off to u

    • Sree harini

      Hello shabrin. How are you? Thanks for the appreciation dear. So you felt for swara..nice.. No hats off my friend.

  14. Natasha

    Awesome epi??….u really really nailed it sree……..sanskars care towards care was soooooo*i’m not able to express the feeling*…….i fell really sad for swara??……….i actually cried wen she went to the grave…..and wen she told her past ???…………waiting eagerly for the nxt epi……pls update soon dear….pls…luv ya loads?????

    • Sree harini

      Thank-you thank-you Natasha… Hey there, even you fell for him. Oh..don’t cry my dear. You look so emotional. But I am successful in potraying swara good.

  15. sweety

    Awesome!!!! U made me cry yaar!!!!!! But really I loved it…….I think u definitely have some magic in ur writing……coz one can even feel that intense pain just by reading…….awesome!!!!! Waiting for the next update…..

    • Sree harini

      So..did you feel bad for swara? You felt pain then I nailed it. Haha. Don’t cry my dear. Please

  16. Neha

    Sree you were correct yaar u really made me cry for her I never thought that she would have gone through this much a ten year girl suffered the hatredness or loneliness of society and it was really painful to know that her own grandparents bow her this today the hatredness or disappointment which I owned for her has just been taken over by sympathy and love this girl deserves love I must say if I would have been in her place I would have done same or even much more but I’m happy that this time when she needed someone sanskar soothed her this comment is just for swara u justified her character dear first time I fell for swara so bad that today sanskar’s pain is replaced by hers
    I really felt like crying for this innocence soul she said correct hunger can make you do anything I don’t wanna make her feel insulted using the word pity she needs love she needs care affection she craves for them still she is in the agony of her parents death how cum on basis of caste people can abandon a child true colors of society are like this only SELFISH IN THE NAME OF RESPECT OR SHOULD SAY SHOW OFF sanskar plzz forgive her she was bound for it man do love her she needs you she is pure all I could say make her happy soon sree plzzzz really feel to take her in embrace

    • Sree harini

      So finally you fell for swara..and you look so emotional dear. Childhood experiences will shape us and I took it. You can understand the personality of a person who is just thrown away from the society and spent a life without care. The worst part is that she was once rich…I agree with you dear. This girl really deserves love. What!! You will kill someone?? Hah just kidding. I said already, sanskar Is an intense charecter so she supported her but doesn’t mean he forgave her. It really takes time.. A big no!! Sanskar has his place and I will make you fall for him again.
      According to me, Hunger is more strong than any emotion. Don’t worry dear. I will give her what all she deserves. You don’t become so emotional. It is worrying me. Most of the people are still living in the era where people are biased by caste. Even my family is no exception. My parents, elders forbid the one who gets married to other caste or religion. We can’t change them…sanskar is a gentleman and he will surely dear. If not, I will make him love swara by hook or cook. Don’t worry….take her in embrace..love you dear. Seriously I didn’t expect this to turn on everyone emotionally

      • Neha

        Yeah sree in our society people are biased by caste my grandparents have the same thinking but thanks to god that my parents thinking is not like that so much and dear u don’t need to make me fall for sanskar bcoz I have already fallen for him so bad just for supporting her inspite of not forgiving her he soothed her that was really appreciable I love swasan

    • Sree harini

      Thank-you dear but please don’t cry..you have more episodes for that..lol. Don’t cry.

  17. Sree harini

    Hello everyone. I am really sorry to mention that I will be on leave for four days. An unexpected journey to my grand parents house and the place is rural where I hardly get sim network. So I will upload after Tuesday..really sorry guys.

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  18. Nive...

    Shree you won’t believe I took more than 2hrs to finish this epi … you made me cry… you were right “hunger changes every person” why not swara..? You justified her… I think vansh used her for his someother personal vengance… you explained swasan emotion through black colour… that’s too great…black is colour of empty, pain, fear, attitude, coldness, dark sadness but you didn’t mention one thing… “Black is also a colour of mystery like your ff…” full of suspense and twist…  even I too love black colour… Its colour of Lord Krishna… One who is meaning of everything… I hope sanskar will turn as her Krishna… and she will become his Radha…

  19. Bhargavi

    It was awesome. I am a silent reader of your ff. But today I couldnt stop myself from commenting. The way you are taking up the story was just awesome dear. I am in love with Sanskar character. Still he is caring for swara, even though she has betrayed him. Just waiting for the next episode.

  20. Haru

    Sree, very glad to know abt this….. I just got to know u started a ff…… u r fav writer…. so searched ur ff and completed reading the whole ff till now today itself…….. it is mind blowing….. i hv read all ur ffs till now….. n would never love to miss this one…….

  21. Anjali


    Missing you like hell!!!!!
    Please come back soon with another awesome epi!!1 Pleaseeee

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