Swaragini An Angel is my love (If winter comes, can spring be far behind?) Episode 12

I’m not gonna take the spring ’cause the spring don’t mean a thing.
I’m not gonna take the winter ’cause my winter is a splinter.
I’m not gonna take the summer — summer is such a bummer.
But I am taking the fall ’cause if I ain’t got you I got nothing at all.

Here comes the spring. The season of love, the blossom of fragile flowers. Unfettered by responsibilities, an innocent love flourished & mingled like destined to entwine together.
In summer, some vital parts of his relationship withered away. Like the havoc of sand dunes in the barren desert land, outside battles panged his sweet innocent love & bursted the intensity of his charismatic love bubble.
Now the fall started with the arrival of winter. His hopes were scattered like the gold, crimson leaves shed during winter on the chilling earth bed. He lost the desire to live with out his love. But there is something else written in his future. The direction of storm has changed. The mist in love, the envy of darkness & chill of hatred have changed to a ray of hope. Although he lost everything in this season, but the fact can’t be overlooked that it’s the season when seeds are sown, the seeds of love..
How comparable is his passage of live with the altering seasons? What stayed unsaid is,”If winter comes, can spring be far behind?”

A sudden sound of horn has distracted his thoughts. For the first time, he is not driving the car. Yesterday’s nightmare has made an adobe of fear in his heart. He was trembling when he held the steering of the car while returning from office.
Driver: sir, we reached MM.
Sanskar: yes, you park the car & send the keys.
He hastens to his room. Swara is all set for sanskar. Just when he opens the door, he finds an angel is sitting on the bed & waiting for his prince charming. She has worn a blue gown which has presented by him with open straight hairs & curls in bottom lines. He is spellbound at her beauty & stares glances of her as the way she has managed to handle cuteness & grace like a diva.
Swara: why are you standing at the doorstep??
Sanskar(coming to his senses): how can you manage to look so pretty today? Is anything special? (In a teasing tone)
Swara(shyish tone): I don’t know. For me I am looking as usual.
Sanskar: then what is the reason for the glow in your face?
Swara: (thinking) may be your surprise.
Sanskar: (a bit worried) nods & goes to washroom to freshen up. I don’t know about the surprise swara, whether you will like it or not. But today I am going to reveal my past to you. Can my second love be succeeded?
Both leave MM after taking blessing of elders & waving good bye.
Sanskar opens the door of car for swara. Swara enters the car by reciprocating his curtsey.
There is complete silence in the car. Swara is excited to know her surprise though in heart she wants sanskar to tell her about the caller.
Sanskar is happy to find swara next to her but a bit hesitant that can swara accept him the way he ‘WAS’?(mind you its in past)
Breaking the silence swara utters,”where are we going, sanskar?”
Sanskar: it’s a surprise shona.
Swara after hearing this same statement again, doesn’t want to spoil his surprise & remains quite without asking further questions & only feels the shooting cool winter breeze. Sanskar is taking glaces of her through out the way for their destination.

The car halts near a dark, calm place.
Swara: sanskar, why do you stop the car?
Sanskar: we have reached the destination shona.
Swara opens the door of the car & finds an apartment there. Sanskar parks the car & joins her. They move towards the apartment & go to lift. Sanskar presses the button of 6th floor inside the lift. Swara is confused as she has no idea what’s going on.. They both reach near 6th floor & sanskar accompanies her to room no- 69. Swara just follows him & eagers to know about her surprise.
Swara takes an bird’s eye view through out the room. She is speechless to view the serein atmosphere of the room. Everything is placed in order. In front of the main door, a cabinet is present where many awards are situated. On curiosity swara asks,”Whose flat is this, sanskar?”
Sanskar replies ‘mine’.
Swara: You have never told me anything about it? How many secrets do you have?
Sanskar: I will clear all the doubts popping up in your mind today. Before that can I ask for your help?(worried tone), I know tomorrow is your birthday but to make it lively, I desperately want your support.
Swara: What is the matter sanskar? I am observing you from quite few days. You are disturbed, distracted.. You can share with me. I promise to be with you in every thick & thin of your life.

Sanskar(a bit relieved) : I want your help to pack certain things. As alone I am unable to do it.
Swara: sanskar, look at me!! Please tell me everything. So that I can help you in a better way.
Sanskar: (suddenly) Tomorrow is the day when she left me forever before 5 years.
Swara: (shocked) who?? Kavita??
Sanskar(teary eyes): Yes swara, she left leaving me all alone in this cruel world & look at my fate!! Tomorrow is your birthday. I don’t know to feel happy or sad.
Swara(a bit hurt): You loved her so much sanskar.
Sanskar: Yes, I love her a lot now as well. After completion of 5 years also I am unable to forget her. Please help me to be out of her thoughts & scatters on the sofa.
Swara(with a deep pain) thinks my husband still loves her a lot & he wants me to get rid of her thoughts. Why god? Is it the surprise you have planned for me?
Swara:(with a painful heart) sanskar! Please don’t cry. You have helped me a lot in my life. I will help you for sure.
Sanskar(shocked) & thinks,’Is it like give & take?’ As I helped her earlier, she is going to help me now. But there is no love.
Sanskar: (looking at swara) Are you upset with me?
Swara(hesitantly): no sanskar, tell me what we have to do now?
Sanskar takes her to the bedroom. It is fixed with automatic lock system. When swara enters the room, she is astonished to find the room is full of his & kavita’s photos.
Sanskar: I need your help to unframe these photographs.
Swara thinks why are you taking my test god? How can I bear his love for Kavita now as she was his past but reluctantly agrees.
Swara: OK, then we will take out the photo frames all together & keep it in storeroom.

Sanskar: No swara, I just want to remove those photos not the frames as they are very heavy.
Swara is still doubtful with his words & asks, “why do you want those frames sanskar, please tell me honestly.”
Sanskar: you get me right swara. I want to create new memories of us with them.
Swara after many hours smiles a bit like ages have past when she has smiled before.
Swara helps him in unframing the photographs & just then her sight catches a number, that resembles his room number 69.
Swara: sanskar, is there any uniqueness in number 69?
Sanskar: (shocked) why are you asking this?
Swara: as you can see, kavita is wearing a ring in this photo having the same number.
Sanskar: swara, its because 69 was having a deep meaning to her then.look at the numbers individually then look at them simultaneously. They are just opposite to each other. Like if you rotate number 6, you will find number 9 & finally if you joint them then they form a complete circle, like compatible to each other, like mingle in unison. For her, we both are opposite in nature but not different, rather one.
Swara bursts in tears after listening this intense love of sanskar.
Sanskar knows he is going to loose swara now as she doesn’t want to be her second love as he is still not over from his past. But her case is totally different. She loves only him & has totally forgotten her past.BG plays

‘Hey Humnava mujhe apna bana le
Sookhi padi dil ki iss zameen ko bhiga de
hmm.. hoon akela, zara haath badha de
Sookhi padi dil ki iss zameen ko bhiga de
Kab se main dar dar phir raha
Musaafir dil ko panaah de
Tu awaargi ko meri aaj thehra de
Ho sake toh thoda pyaar jataa de
Sookhi padi iss dil ki zameen ko bhiga de.’

Sanskar: I am sorry swara. I made you cry. This is the fear I have from a few days. When you will come to know that still I am unable to forget kavita how will you respond? Look I have lost you again. The protector & saviour of yours, now is a cause of your pain. But trust me swara, I love you & please be with me to take me out of this darkness & undesired nightmares. I don’t want to loose you & pats her back to make her stop crying.
Swara is still sobbing and throws her arms around his waist & rests her face against his heart & pulls him more closer…

Swara: sanskar please don’t tell sorry. As I am sorry for my behaviour. I have become selfish for sometime. I am surprised to know this side of yours. How can a person be so deep in love that he can spend his life with only her memories? You know i have never loved laksh like this. Still I am in doubt that am I able to give you the same love that you deserve?
Sanskar hugs her tight & wipes her tears & puts a finger on her lips & says,”don’t say like this shona! You love me much more than you think.” You have given a life to this lifeless flesh. This second life of mine totally belongs to you. I want to be honest with you to proceed this relationship further. So, I open up my heart before you.
Then the much needed 3 magical words at that moment comes from her mouth, “I love you sanskar” I accept you as you WERE. I am not also flawless. I just want to be with you to love you, to care for you in which way you come to my life. Sanskar understands this winter will not be cruel on him, rather will bring spring in his life. BG plays

“Tere aane par jaana maine
Kahin na kahin zinda hoon main
Jeene lagaa hoon main ab ye fizaayein
Chehre ko chhooti hawaayein”

Swara now pulls out her from his embrace & asks him,”what more are left sanskar?”
Sanskar takes her to the guest room & opens up the drawer. There are too many love letters, cards & gifts present. Swara picks them one by one & sanskar narrates the story behind them. Just then swara finds a drawer half open & asks the cause of it.
Sanskar: Actually it was the day when she left me forever. The photo present inside the drawer was her last clicked pic in bridal attire. I never opened the drawer fully as it reminded me the fact that she was no more & unable to close it as I thought my family was her killer. Until & unless my revenge would be completed I vowed not to close the drawer. But as the vengeance is burnt to ashes now & you are my life at present, please take out the photo graph & close the drawer, swara.

A few drops of tears fall down from her cheek into his palms & he pulls her into his arms to give her solace. With in a couple of hours, the structure of the rooms are changed. All the photos are unframed, gifts, cards are stacked in cartoons & are kept in store room.

After such hectic hours, they both are relaxing on the sofa. Sanskar folds his knee, rests it on his another leg & places his arm on the back edge of sofa. While she is sitting on his bent knees & he is holding her waist from the back in a circular fashion. He drops his chin on her shoulder & she rests her head against his face & feeling each others embrace. Just then his phone starts ringing & swara looks at the clock showing 11:30pm. Sanskar goes to pick up the call & with in few seconds returns to her.
Swara: who is it on call? (Hoping that sanskar will tell truth now)
Sanskara: shona! Come, I want you to meet someone who has called me now.
Swara: (thinks) At this late hour who has come here.
Just then the door bell of the flat rings & sanskar opens the door & swara finds a beautiful lady standing in front of the door.
Sanskar hugs that girl & turns to swara.
Sanskar: shona!! Meet…

The girl interrupts his introduction & says, “you must be swara right!! He always talked about you when ever I called him.” Happy to meet you swara & extends her hand to wave a formal hello.
Swara(in shock & hesitantly) reciprocates her hello & says,” I am swara & you?”
Girl: I am sanskar’s darling..
Listening this, like the floor under swara’s leg has carried away as this is the same word she had seen in sanskar’s caller ID ..’DARLING’ on that day.

Guys, I have a serious doubt that you all will like it this episode or not.. As I have written it hurriedly.. The episode is bit lengthy as well.. Feel free to criticize if you don’t like it.

Credit to: Kashis

86 comments

  1. ayesha

    Very nice yar and plz reveal the truth of this darling as soon as possible bcz u know na I am going on 9 Dec so plz yar update soon…

  2. bhuvi

    Written hurriedly…??? God… Dam amazing… Litterly I got tears while reading…. Dunno my heart felt very heavy…

  3. sumi

    all r good… it is not so much lenghthy.. I was expecting more frm u kasish… really I don’t want any suspension in ur ff.. I couldn’t wait for ur ff… and nxt thing as usal it is super duper grt….

  4. Sruthy

    Yaar kashis ur storyline is awesome n d story of 6 n 9 n forming a complete circle is all too cute n makes me think abt d fact u just wrote.
    But u r also cruel y anodr DARLING 4 sanky man this is 2 much 4 swara
    Hope it doesnt affect swara negatively…….

    • Kashis

      Sruthy… In my story no character is negative… So don’t worry.. Swara won’t be negative.. Neither they can be parted… Thanks for liking

  5. radhika

    OMG! The mystry still continues…. Swasan scenes were very emotional n heart touching…as always it was amazing dear…eager to know further story…the way u described sanskars feeling in d beginning were just superb dear… Amazing storyline kashis…mind if I ask what u study?

    • Kashis

      No dear I won’t mind… I m a btech student.. Pursuing mechanical stream… Thanks for your comment dear..

  6. Saba

    Hey Kashis!! Dear not fair again! Jab tumhara ff parho to mukamal sans rok lo, aur akhir tak le jate hue tum sans khushk kar daiti ho! Ab yeh darling ka kya qisa hai maybe kavita Ki sis hogi, sanskar k sath bahan Ki tarha hogi! And their embrace is super yar! I wanna watch them in real also!! Love your episode! Specially winter lines! Yeah winter isn’t cruel just seem like! Yeah his character is just like winter!(in my ff) but love this lines! And I’m still holding my breath dear! I think you’ll gonna murder me by your ff! Yeah song is perfect chosen(my favourite one) and you narrate everything properly! Hattss off to your imagination. I can feel sanskar’s pain as well as swara’s! It’s really painful when we know we’re sharing our love to another person also(no matter she’s dead or alive)! At the end! Love you dear and thanks sweetie! For this beautiful and lovely… Actually not lovely painful episode of today and I’m also listening the songs of”humari adhuri kahani” duriing reading your ff! So it’ll affect directly to my heart!! But stay blessed! And I wonder are you really student of technology? Yar your skill of describing romance recall me the words of Wordsworth! Must write a book in future! Stay blessed dear

    • Kashis

      Thanks saba.. Such a big comment & praise.. Made my day… For this I will comment on your swasan ff first… What to do dear?? Fortunately or unfortunately I am a technical student.. But as I have already told u where my interests lye??? So I think this is the effect of those interests… And in sah Allah!! May I will write one day like u… And also seeking ur autographs for ur book launch… By the way give me ur fb Id girl??

    • Saba

      Hey Kashis! Thank you to give your support! And dear In Shaa Allah you’ll write a book! Then illl not ask you to autograph! Because that’s time! We’ll great friends! So no need to keep any autograph by you, but yourself also! But ill give you my book In Shaa Allah if you know to read it! Hahaha!! Thanks for commenting on my ff! Otherwise ill not update it! And I’ve give my fb id in ep5 well https://mobile.facebook.com/saba.shiekh.5688?_e_pi_=7%2CPAGE_ID10%2C9902080756 this is link of my id

      • Kashis

        Sorry dear, I have not seen the fb I’d that time.. After that when I searched I found it.. Already sent u a msg.. When u will find time, do send a request. And also help me to learn urdu . so I can read ur book & learn a lot of literatures…

      • leku

        Yeah saba today I may last to comment in ff…
        Sorry actually I have lot work!!!once I finish will comment!!!.
        Bye dear…

      • Kashis

        As u know saba I have already commented this time on ur swasan ff, then u will definitely upload it & after that I won’t comment till 1 day and wait for everybody’s comment must be completed till then. Ha! Ha! Then again I will return after 1 day to give my synopsis.. Revenge completed… Mission successful..

    • Saba

      Yeah Kashis! I got you on fb! Yeah sure In Shaa Allah ill teach you and also learn from you much more things stay blessed

      • Kashis

        Leku provide me the time when u will come…?so till then I won’t comment & be in last spot… But if still I lost the last spot still eager to hope that u must grab it for me & we will share a hi-fi… That time I wanna see Saba’s face & capture her expression.

    • Saba

      Hey Kashis!! This is not fair! I hate you, I hope leku and me will share hi fi when you again miss the last spot and yeah ill not upload my next episode until you comment on my ff! Then what will happen Haan??

  7. leku

    Thank you so much kashis for wonderful episode….mystery game is over!!!…what a love man!!! Awesome…
    Swara was hurt but still understand and respect his first love!!! Song selection was nice…but if swaragini writers read ur ff for sure they make this story line in real soap drama(haha) yeah I’m serious…..Amazing writer man..!!! And last waiting to know whose that”DARLING”???? But what to do till 2mrw will wait..co its pleasure and worth waiting????

    • Kashis

      Thanks leku… Worth while to get a friend like u. Its honour for me that u liked it so much… And I will try to update it faster to lessen ur suspence…

      • leku

        Yeah i like share one Tamil movie theme and dialogue”there is life after love failure”…
        “whom we love the most in thos world if they left the world its not means even we have to go away,one day our life will change as we love”..!!!
        “If there is no life after lover failure means,no one can live after 25years”..!!!!

    • Saba

      Hey leku! Nice dialogues leku! But I don’t understand is everyone face the failure of love at the age of 25? It means I’ve to wait for three years! Hahaha!!!

      • Kashis

        But for that u have to fall in love first saba.. But your fb status shows u r quite single. So changes are rare that u will find a cardiac attack… If so occurred in between these three years, then why we are there girl?? Like true friends to make u laugh!! In shah Allah! U must not face that situation.. HiFi leku for the dialogue..

      • leku

        No no saba..actually it means before 25 age most of ppl had fallen in love (except few like u??)….some will failure so they should move on in their life….and pls no need to wait dear u pls carry on if u interested ?

    • Kashis

      Dipanwita its just their (swasan) day… Raglak also have their importance… And in previous episodes raglak has imp part.. Next updates will have their part.. Sorry for today.. That raglak part is not there..

    • Kashis

      Oh sorry ahana!! Its already too big update that i cant write more in this episode… Wait for tomorrow dear

  8. Niti

    hey..kashis no dear it was amazing epi as usual..ohho.. kavita was the reason for his weired behavior.. I loved the way swara has understand him yar..it was too difficult for her to accept the situation..I loved the way she reacted after knowing sanky’s love for kavita..sanky loves her so much.. again new suspense who is the Darling ? I am thinking that she may be kavita’s sister or relative.. whoever she is I am waiting for ur next part..good job dear

    • Kashis

      Thanks niti. U loved it. This episode is just out of my flow of writing.. I never thought it.. Just continued. Thanks u understand the situation…

  9. sethooty

    Its beautiful yaar.swasan scenes are very emotional and touching. Loved dis episode. His pain fall on her like rain drops and she wipe out all that pain from him..who’s that girl darling , I have a guess may be she is someone special who is related with kavitha …

    • Kashis

      Thanks sethooty… I have changed the photograph dear.. Check it once.. And tell me do u like it?? Wait for tomorrow to know it.

    • Kashis

      Thanks nik.. Some mystery has already solved & some still left… Hope u return to read it in next part..

  10. Shraddha

    Kashish!!!! God tumme bohot kashish hai! I am an avid reader of yours!!! Your story today just kept me thinking not abt SwaSan or the story but how gifted you are your way of narration? the intensity hidden in it is just Spectacular. I’m really stunned by this ff the meaning that so elaborately you ve explained 69 half drawer my God??really amazing! So glad that I read ur ffs honestly after veen’s I keep wanting for ur ff n saba’s ff ? loved it

    • Kashis

      Thanks shraddha… I think this is the first time u made comment in my ff. Thanks for being supportive.. U all guys are my support & source of inspiration.. Though I don’t know veen’s ff but I liked Saba’s update a lot & also waited for it..thanks also I included in that list. Need to learn a lot more from u saba.. Can u plz provide me the ff name of veen’s?

      • Shraddha

        Veenas ff were also superhit just like yours n sabas.BTW Veena had commented on ur ff I think her name is vinne ross n her ffs name is SwaSan fanfiction. You can even ask saba abt it ? n i think i had commented only once or twice but not this big because I just couldn’t control myself today u were absolutely ravishing?? n miss veenas ff but urs n sabas ff I found like compensation??

    • Kashis

      Sorry shraddha.. May be I missed your comments that time.. And dear I joined this telly update site recently and yes i found out her(veena) comment in my episode of first fan fiction(his feelings). Now I get u.. And hope & request veena to write another ff as her fans are eager to hear from her… Thanks for the honour at least we can give u compensation… Stay happy always..

      • Shraddha

        Don’t say sorry ur ff is a blockbuster from 1st episode itself??yaha waha miss hogaya toh np. All we need is just u to continue ur work which you do fabulously!!! Urs will also be one of the ffs I’m always gonna read again n again? do you write on any other websites? Like India forums n all?

    • Kashis

      No dear!! This is my first ever ff. I have never written before & also not writing in any forum. And firstly i only wanted to write 2 episodes but u all are the guys who inspired me to write more.. So I m continuing so with all your support..

      • Shraddha

        Omg? never written before? Chal jhutti?…Just kidding… But wat can I say your simply gifted dear really there’s so much intensity hidden in your ffs which makes me such avid reader of yours? Great job plzzz continue.

  11. Ramya

    Woww! The way u explained about 69!! OMG!!! That was totally Mind blowing?? n those winter lines! Extremely cute❀ For the very 1st tym I luvd a Swaragini without Raglak! ?Gud work! Ur words express every little thing exactly ?

    • Kashis

      Thanks ramya; I will also focus on raglak as well..but its just swasan day… Thanks u liked them with out raglak…

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