Story : Friendship or Love (Chapter 3 Contd.)

Arjun was taking Radhika to her home. She was sitting beside him. And he was driving silently. Many thoughts were playing in his mind. He considered himself a stupid to act so foolishly in front of her. Always loosing his self control. But what worried him the most was Sam’s decision to marry Adarsh and the reason behind his proposal. He couldn’t guess what was Adarsh’s motive. That annoyed him. He felt helpless. Frustrated and dumb for not guessing the reason. He didn’t want to talk to anyone now. He wanted to be alone. To think about Sam and this sudden marriage. He had to save Sam. She was his princess after all. He loved her and he had to protect her. She was his best friend.

Radhika was observing Arjun since the last few minutes. He was silent. Ignoring her. He didn’t even see her while she got into the car. It hurt her. His ignorance.

What had happened to him? Why was he acting distant?
Why did he come closer to her & then go miles away the next instant?
Why?

She couldn’t handle it. His ignorance and the worry about Sam. She was already exasperated thinking about the reason behind Adarsh’s proposal and now he was ignoring her. She couldn’t deal with both of the things at one time. She had to cope up with it and the only way was to ask him about his behaviour. She cleared her throat to seek his attention.

He didn’t budge. Instead he raced up the car. Great. There he goes ignoring her again. What was going up in that brain of his?

“Arjun….”, she said after not being able to take his silence anymore. He didn’t reply. Hell! Something really got up in that stupid head of his. She called him again.

“Why are do doing this to me, Arjun?”, she almost yelled when he didn’t even after she called out for him for the fourth time. This almost yelling got his head snapped at her. “Doing what?”, he asked bewildered at her such a sudden outburst.

She raised her eyebrow at that. He really needed to ask her that? He just stared at her blank faced.

“Really? You are asking me?”, she replied.

“Listen Radhika, if this is another attention seeking drama of yours, then save it for another time.”, Arjun snapped at her. ‘What was wrong with Radhika?’, he thought. She was cross since morning. And now she was yelling at him. Couldn’t she see that he was tensed about Sam?

‘Attention seeking drama’, so this was what he thought of her. Dramatic. Couldn’t he sense the worry lacing in her voice? Couldn’t he see anxiety rolling on her face? Was he so innocent as to be unaware of the problems she was going through? He was the one ignoring her and he dare call her worries ‘attention seeking drama’.

Was this Arjun she was talking to? He didn’t seem a little bit like the Arjun she had fallen for. He thought so lowly of her? Wasn’t he supposed to be caring for her like a fiancee? Or as a best friend?

Radhika realized she had enough of him and his coldness. She couldn’t take any more of it. All this had to stop. The sudden intimacy they shared, the sweet banters they had, and this cold and harsh demeanour of his, every little bit had to stop. She had to clean this mess before it turned extremely dirty.

She decided to put on a facade and said, “Nope. My attention seeking dramas aren’t for you to see.”

Arjun flinched at her words. They were spoken with such an intensity that his insides shook with the effect. Her eyes carried so much distaste that he immediately regretted flinging those words at her. She was hurt and it was visible in her eyes. He tied to probe further into those deep brown orbs but suddenly they shut him out. They went blank and cold.

“Then what is it?”, he tried to whisper those words. But his voice came out gruff. His gaze shifted from her to the road ahead.

Radhika waited for him to ask if she was okay but it never came. The worry, concern and care. Neither of them came from his side. Whatever came from his mouth was completely unexpected. His voice was harsh and mean. He didn’t ask her if she was alright. Instead, he asked her what was it that she was yelling for.

She tried to maintain her cool. She couldn’t possibly let him see the tears which were threatening her to slide down her cheeks. She couldn’t let him know that it was him who had hurt her since she realized her love for him.

“Don’t tell me you don’t know what I am talking about”, she asked.

“I seriously don’t know what you are talking about. You tell me yourself.”, he replied fervently.

She huffed realizing he wouldn’t budge, “Fine. You are messing up with my mind.”

“Huh.”

“Yeah. You are doing this since a few days.”

“What am I doing exactly?”, Arjun asked as he pulled up the car at the side of the road.

He didn’t know what he was doing. Seriously! He was the one getting intimate one second and acting distant the next instant. No worries, if he himself wanted to hear the telltale of his, let it be.

“Theproblemisyoucomeclosertomeoneinstantandrunawaythenext.”,she breathed out everything in one go.

He only stared at her open mouthed. What did she say? He couldn’t decipher a single syllable. “What?”, he asked.

She sighed heavily. “The problem is you come closer to me one instant and run away the next.”

Arjun stared at her for what seemed like infinity. Did he hear everything clearly? No. It can’t be possible that Radhika could make a fuss out of such a small issue. It can’t be possible that she was cross about such a petty thing. No. No. No. Radhika wasn’t like that. She knew what was happening lately and she had enough brains to contemplate the situation and Arjun bet on a thousand dollars that at such a time Radhika wouldn’t worry about herself. Yeah. He may have heard wrong. He certainly had heard her wrong. “Come again.”,  he said knowing too well that whatever he heard was his illusion.

Radhika wanted answers. Answers from him, from Sam and from Neil too. She had noticed him acting different around Sam. She had seen the way his eyes sparkled when she told that Sam was coming, the way his dimples showed and laughter lines creased on his face when he teased Sam about her marriage and also how he got hyper when Sam told them about her marriage. She was sure something was going on. The way he reacted around Sam was the way she reacted around Arjun. She had realized her feelings and she wanted to know if Neil too knew that he was falling for Sam. Maybe he already fell for her. But right now she could get answers from Arjun only and she couldn’t possibly let the opportunity slip away. She knew she was being selfish thinking about their lives when Sam had too much at stake. She was getting married to trouble itself. Radhika knew Arjun must be worried about Sam but she couldn’t help worrying about them. Once she got her answers from Arjun and Neil too, she wouldn’t dare drift away her thoughts from Sam and her unexpected marriage.

She was brought back to the world by Arjun who seemed to be shocked, surprised and confused by her statement. What was so shocking about her words? Was he shocked that she could notice all this? Or was he shocked that she finally got her voice? Since she wasn’t a bit like Sam, she would blush and get fidgety whenever anyone talked about intimacy. And those three lunatics would tease her to the end of the world about it. Whatever was the reason, she could see Arjun waiting impatiently for her to repeat herself.

“The problem is you come closer to me one instant and run away the next.”, she found herself playing with her fingers while she said those words. She was getting nervous again. Heck! Where did all her confidence and willpower go?

Arjun couldn’t believe what he heard. It all seemed surreal. The words he heard, betrayed his heart. It wasn’t that he couldn’t get those words the first time, but the reason he asked her to repeat Herself was that his heart wasn’t willing to believe that his Radhika could say those words. His brain had already processed all those words and he knew what it meant. But hearing those words again from her mouth seemed to break every little bit of faith he had in her.

And then came what he was trying to avoid since long. All the pent up anger came gushing down on him. All the things he wanted to probably say to Adarsh were ready to come out of his mouth. But he couldn’t let those words slip out of his tongue so easily. But at the same time, he had to let her know that Sam was his utmost priority. Nothing else mattered at this point of time.

“So this is what you have been worried about……” he questioned but it looked more like a conclusion. She wanted to interrupt, to tell him about Neil and also that she was worried about Sam too, but he beat it to her.

“……I should have seen it coming. I should have known how you can be… “he drawled each word as if uninterested and started the car. Radhika couldn’t decipher where this was going. She hoped to get her her answer. Little was she aware about all the humiliation she was going to be a stock of.

“I should have known that there was so much behind that innocent and naive girl facade of yours. I should have known how selfish you can get. But I didn’t hope that you could be so sly to think about me getting intimate. Oh wait…. “, his forehead creased in realization and then he continued.

Radhika couldn’t take any more.  Those tears which were hidden behind her long eyelashes came pouring out. And with them came more and more and more tears.  Added to them was the hurt and humiliation she was feeling now. She couldn’t get more insulted. She never knew he would think so low of her. There was no regret in his voice or his face which clearly implied how easy it was for him to say it all. It was as if he was waiting all his life to throw those words at her face. She should have known it all along. She should have known it by now. But she couldn’t think like that. She thought he loved her. So foolish of her to assume stupid things. But that’s what Sam told her always. She said that Arjun loved her and she believed Sam even though Arjun never gave a single hint about it. Now she realized how stupid and foolish you could be when you fall in love and that too with your best friend.

“… Did you get your hopes high? Yeah you surely did….”, he answered his own question.

Radhika realized he wasn’t going to stop any soon. There were certainly many more things he wanted to tell her. Things he couldn’t say until now. All these years she was falling hopelessly in love with him, this was what he thought of her. She turned her head towards the window. She wanted him to stop but at the same time she wanted to know what he had kept inside him for so long. She wanted to see how much he loathed her. Now, she got to know the reason he ran away from her. She felt bad. No! Bad wasn’t the word. The word was………  Nothing was coming to her. She couldn’t get a grip on her vocabulary when he was sitting beside her and flinging his hateful words at her.

“You are expecting me to be intimate to ‘you’…. You should be glad that I am marrying you… ” he said speeding up the car. The way he said ‘you’ shook her deeply. There was so much hate and disgust in his voice and then there was the same hate when he said that he was getting married to her.

But enough was enough. She had enough of all the insults. It wasn’t just his words but his eyes too conveyed their hatred. His eyes were pitch black and pitying and there was disgust she could see in  them. It was his way of calling her cheap. He made her feel low, disgusted, unwanted, desperate and many more things. It looked as if he was calling her a slag.

It hurt her. She could feel something happening to her heart. There were words he said which pierced her heart and shattered it into million pieces. She could feel the hurt breaking every ounce of her self esteem, every ounce of the faith she had in the man she loved, her fiancé, her best friend. Nothing else in the world could hurt her more expect if anything bad happened to Sam. She was hurt but not as much hurt when she got to know what Anil did to Sam. That was the time when Sam needed her support but she found herself crying vigorously for days. Nobody knew about that incident expect her, Sam and Neil. Not even Arjun. He had asked her the reason she was crying when he had seen her swollen eyes but she didn’t tell him. She now thought if he faked concern then also.

She couldn’t let him go away so easily with all that he threw at her face. She had to tell him that she had a voice, that she had her back, that she wouldn’t let anyone point a finger at her or her character.

“Why the hell should I be glad that ‘you’ are marrying me…. “,  she tried referring to him in the most disgusting and distasteful voice. For one second, she thought she saw him flinch but whatever.. She couldn’t care any more. She would make him taste his own medicine. She wiped her tears.

“Tell me why? Because then I can get close to a guy like you. If so, then your bad Arjun, you are extremely wrong. I can get guys like you in a snap of fingers. And you of all people very well know that. So don’t throw the sly slag or selfish b***c or intimate and desperate bullshit at me. I have my way with guys.”

Arjun listened to every word she was saying. There was the same hate and disgust in her voice. He knew that she had her way with guys. She was naive but it didn’t mean that she didn’t knew the way guys leered at her. She was very much aware of her assets. Her perfectly curvaceous figure. But then the images of her getting close to other guys flashed in his brain. He gripped the steering tightly. No she couldn’t go to anyone else. No one could get closer to her. None but he. He was the only one who could touch her, kiss her. Damn. What was he thinking? He ought to be angry at her but here he was panting after her. He was sure that none could do this to him. None except her.

“Right. You have your way with guys. That’s what you know. Throwing yourself at guys. I never knew you were so desperate Radhika.”

It was it. She couldn’t be sane any more. She couldn’t think straight. There was so much to say to this bastard. But something got into her and before she realized, she heard the sound of a slap and then a screech of a car halting. She looked at him who looked equally bewildered. And then she saw finger marks on his face. She slapped him, she realized. She quickly composed herself. Now was the time to speak up.

“How dare you?”, she snapped.
“…. How dare you say that to me? Who do you think you are? If we are getting married, it doesn’t mean that you can blabber bullshit about me.”

To say he was shocked, would be an understatement. He was dumbstruck at what Radhika did. She slapped him. What for? For showing her the mirror?
For telling her how desperate she sounded when she told what had been bothering her? This weekend was full of surprises.

“You slapped me… Why? ’cause I showed you the mirror?”, he asked or better yelled.

“Yeah, I slapped you ’cause I hate you. I hate you like hell. And do you know why? It’s not because of you, but because of me. I hate you cause I regret trusting you. I regret having faith in you. I regret confiding in you. I regret expecting anything from you. I regret being your fiancee or best friend or acquaintance even. And above all I regret falling hard and fast for you. I regret giving up my everything to you. I regret keeping my hopes high that maybe one day I could make you fall for me…….. “, she broke down into sobs. She cried heavily. She had poured her soul and heart, her everything to be perfect for him and what did she get in return? Broken promises?
Heartbreak?

What did she just say? Arjun suddenly regretted his every action. His every word. He felt extremely guilty. He never knew she loved him. Though Sam always teased him about her but never in a million nights had he ever thought that she would love him. It was a dream come true for he thought that she said yes for marriage due to her undying respect for her father. But… He was such a dumbass, a jerk for hurting her badly, for putting her through all this. He regretted heavily whatever he had done. He saw her sobbing loudly. It was a miracle she didn’t run away till now. The Radhika he knew was peculiar about her self respect and she wouldn’t be sitting here unless…

Realization dawned on him and he waited for her to humiliate him, insult him and say all the bad things. But he didn’t want her to despise him. But she already did, didn’t she? She hated him, and pray why? Cause she regretting letting herself fall for him. Who else could be do pure, innocent, naive and intelligent at the same time? Who else but her?

He touched her shoulder. And the effect was immediate. She jerked off his as if he had an uncurable disease.

“Radhika…”, he called out her name and poured all his love in the action. He wanted to apologize. But he couldn’t bring himself to the task. He had lost everything the very instant she said she regretted even knowing him. How could he apologize for such a blunder he did. He wouldn’t be able to meet his very own eyes. He did a horrible thing. Something which was unforgivable. His heart ached and his breathing laboured. He didn’t realize when did the tears slid down his cheek. He called out to few times more but he never sad anything beside her name. He couldn’t apologize after flinging those insults at her. Could he? She didn’t respond. He reached out for her chin and made her say him, “….. Radhika”, he pleaded. He wanted her to understand that he was hurt too by hurting her. But what he wanted her to know the most was that he regretted doing whatever he did, he regretted saying everything he said.

Radhika turned towards him. He made her turn towards him.

“….. Radhika”, he pleaded. There was so much urgency, pain and hurt in his voice that her heart melted at once. She looked into his eyes and they were wet. We he crying? But why would he? She waited for him to say something, but he never did. Instead he looked anywhere but her. Now, he couldn’t even stand seeing her. This was going out of hand.

“Don’t Radhika me Mr. Mehra.”, she said sounding emotionless. “Don’t dare call me Radhika. Its just Ms. Mishra. For strangers like you…..”, she stopped midway when she saw his hand reaching out for hers from her periphery.

“Stop… “, she said coldly. Arjun flinched but nodded and kept his hand on his lap. He deserved it. All of this. He shouldn’t make an effort to apologize when he knows very well that there was no apology for what he did. Yet he was hurt when she called him Mr. Mehra instead of Arjun and then too when she said he was a stranger.

“Don’t you dare touch me or the consequences will be worst. I am not desperate for your touch. You think I was craving for your intimacy? Wrong. It was just….. “, she stopped when more tears spilled out and she knew her cold facade would break down anytime.

He knew what she meant. He now realized why was she worried about him being close now and far the next second. And now, he regretted not trying to understand her. How could he think that his Radhika would do that?

“You think its just you who worries about Sam. Isn’t it? Again you are wrong. Neil is more concerned about her. He worries more for her than you. And you think that I don’t understand what she is going through? There you are wrong again Mr. Mehra. I bet a million rupees that I understand her better than you. What we have among us is indefinable. We are sisters more than friends.”

“…… And you won’t understand it. Never in you life would you know what bond do we share. Not even in your dreams. So you better shut that filthy and disgusting mouth of yours and don’t let the crap fall out.”,she sneered at him and got out of the car. She turned towards him and said, “Good luck finding a new bride Mr. Mehra.” and walked towards her house with her head held high. She didn’t intend on saying those words. At the back of her mind, she knew why she said those words. She wanted him to try. To apologise to her. She wanted him to say that he was sorry for all he said and tell her that all those years they shared weren’t fake. She would have forgiven him for old times’ sake. She certainly would have. But not now.

She wiped her tears as she heard the fading sound of his ferrari and headed towards the entrance  all the while thinking what would she tell her parents.

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Is it too late to say sorry now????
I am really sorry guys. I know it has been more than two months since I posted. I just hope you guys haven’t forgotten me yet.

I have written most of this today only. Tomorrow I will probably be getting to know about the results for board exams. I am excited for that but more than that I am sorry. This can be your treat. Right?

Yeah I sound like a miser.

Nope I am not.

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“Sometimes, its just you, standing in the midst of the road, thinking about all the way you have come, all the pain you have endured, all the humiliations you have faced or ignored.”

This is something I wrote for my other story. Yeah I am writing another story but its on wattpad. It isn’t a fanfiction. But I request you guys to read it and tell me how is it.

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Its not a love story though it seems to be. Its just about a girl who has been through so much in her life span of sixteen years but is trying to be happy. Everyone of us has gone through some shit or another. So its about how our lives were as teenagers. I think I can write this story much better than the other one I wrote because I am a sixteen year old teen. Yeah. Just turned sixteen this 27th April. And this story is somewhat taken from my life. And note it, it’s SOMEWHAT taken from my life. What is similar between me the protagonist is the lack of friends at school and low confidence and low socializing skills. And nothing else in me resembles her.

This story includes:

Crushes. Supposed and real.

Friends. Supposed and real.

Happiness. Fake and real.

Depression. Real.

Parents………

School life. Real.

Socializing. Attempts and real.

And some interesting or boring crap……

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Sometimes its just you, travelling the road, traversing through different directions, finding new locations, some uphill and some down the hill.

Aditi’s P.O.V.

I want someone who cares for me from the core of his heart. Someone who understands me completely even if I don’t tell him anything. Someone who could tie the laces of my shoes. Someone who loves the whole world equally. Someone who doesn’t tag others. Someone who doesn’t rely on me instead one who believes in me. Has faith in me. Someone who guards my actions and my words. Tells me where I am wrong. Makes me see my demons and my own inner self. Someone who loves me not due to my face or my physique (not that I have a perfect figure, still…). Someone who loves me for my qualities, my irrelevant talks, my flaws, my childish side, my incessant blabber. Someone who stands for me. With me through thick and thin. Doesn’t judge me. Listens to me as I talk my heart out.

I am not talking about my love interest, not that I don’t want one, but I am talking about someone who could be my friend, as in a real and best friend.

Why does the word ‘love’ come in picture? You all must be thinking. Hold on. I am not talking about love in that boyfriend girlfriend thing, but about love as general which some of us have for our parents, nature, art, music, dance and the list goes on.

Oh yeah, I blabber a lot. Don’t I? You must have noticed this by now. Haven’t you? If no then you guys probably fall in the category of stupids. Don’t you?

Here I go blabbering again. When will it stop? Oh. Let me put it more seriously.
When the heck will my damn blabbering come to a f**king halt? Oh really? Who am I kidding?

Nothing can come out of me. Talking of myself, you don’t know who am I? Shit. I forgot to introduce myself.

Manners.

Well I am going to introduce myself. Introduce? I forgot to tell you how much I suck at introductions. I loathe them to the extent that I would kill the bl**dy idiot who introduced the concept of introductions even though I am not interested in violence nor do I want to end up in prison. So….. Where was I?

Yeah. Introduction. Um…I am Aditi Ranyal, a high schooler in none other than Delhi Public School. Nope. Not the one in Delhi but the one in Jammu. Umm..yeah I am in my senior year with two years left to go to this school with little to no friends at all. Okay. Back to the conversation. Really? Okay all right. One sided conversation, happy now.

So as I was saying, I am a high schooler. I am studying sciences with Physical Education as the optional subject. I wanted to take maths instead.

Nerd.

No I am not.

Every nerd says so.

But. I. Am. Not. A. Nerd.

Okay.

Yeah. I am just a bit wise. I am not praising myself. But you can call someone wise if she doesn’t study at home or at school but does get A’s in school. Okay I study at my tuitions, but that’s just three alternative days in a week. So other than that I don’t study much. Yeah I do read a book or two but mind you those aren’t any common books. Those are novels. Freaking fictional story books which I am f**king restricted to read. Yeah I am not allowed to read story books or any other books other than those black and white school books. Not that they are black and white but they are dull. So I just can’t read any books, except school books, at home or at school or at any other place in this whole goddamn world. But I being the adventurous me, always find one way or another to sneak out and read some books. I just issue those from my school library. That’s why school isn’t too boring.

More about me:
I hate making friends. Though I don’t have many friends. But still there are some people whom I get along with. But with new people, I just freak out. Get nervous. Yeah I am not at all good at socializing. I don’t make the first effort on the conversation until and unless I know the person. Their knowing me or not doesn’t matter. Weird. Right. That I am.

I hate introductions. You probably know that. If you have read the above passages carefully.

I am not a nerd. I have already told so but I am clearing this shit. I am told every time that I am a nerd by none other than my so called friends.

Continued……….

Sometimes, its just you, standing in the midst of the road, thinking about all the way you have come, all the pain you have endured, all the humiliations you have faced or ignored.

Aditi’s P.O.V.

Just as I thought that I was done with them, they decided to show up. Why? I was in no mood to see them again. They have been doing it all the time.

You must be wondering who are they. They are my so called bunch of friends. I thought that I had enough of them but alas, when am I ever right? I thought they won’t talk to me again but no, here they are asking about my well being. I was wrong. Absolutely wrong.

“Hey, Adi, what’s up?”, he started. She nodded her head seeming to be asking the same question.

“Sky and some birds.”, I said glancing towards the blue sky. Have you ever wondered why the sky appears blue? It appears blue because blue is the only constituent colour of sunlight which scatters the most.

“Very funny, Adi.”, he said.

“No, it isn’t funny,” I replied knowing very well that he intended being sarcastic.

“Not again Adi. You have been like this since a few days.”, Ananya decided to interrupt with her sweetest girly voice. But its not just her voice that I heard. It was a male voice too. And it didn’t cost me much time to recognize it.

“Yeah. Right Piyush. Not again. And what have I been like? Grumpy? You know I am like that only.”, I replied bluntly.

“Not grumpy but moody and ignorant,” he snapped.

Rest of them just ‘hmmed’ in response and nodded their heads as if Piyush was stating a fact.

Really they thought I have been ignorant when they themselves were ignoring me lately. Didn’t they remember the times I turned to them for help or some conversation, they were the ones to ignore me and continue talking with each other. Yeah, that’s what had been happening. Lately, Piyush and Ananya have been together in a relationship and believe me, they never get enough of each other. They are talking among themselves the whole time. So I am left alone in all of my classes. Navya’s in the same class too but, she doesn’t come to school regularly. And whenever she does, she gets in conversation with Piyush and Ananya, often leaving me alone.

“Really, you guys are telling me that I have been ignoring you all,” I said pointing to all of them “and you want me to believe this bl**dy bullshit.”

All of them raised their eyebrows at my comment. As if surprised by my comment. To hell with them even if they are surprised!
I am going my way. They are no one to stop and interrogate me like that.

I shoved them away and went towards the school washrooms. But me being me, the one and only, trouble inviter bumped into him on the way. None other than Siddarth Raina, the master of mischiefs. Hell, now he too will start taunting me.

I have had enough of this crap. Not going to entertain any more.

I made up my mind to ignore him and turned towards the other side.

Manners Aditi. My conscience spoke.

“Sorry….”, we both spoke at the same time. I nodded accepting his apology but my my…. he nodded his head at the same time. Now this was getting weird. Thank goodness any of my so called female friends weren’t here or they would have started some shit like connection between me and him. And I was in no mood to hear anything like that.

I just tried to go through the other side tried to but failed miserably as he stood between the corridor.

“Where do you thing are you going?”, he asked.

The nerve of the jerk to ask me that. As far as I am aware about our Indian constitution, we are free to go anywhere we want except the fact that we can’t trespass. Now I wasn’t trespassing. Was I? Hell no! Then why the heck was he asking me?

I cocked my brow at him. “Excuse me, I can go wherever I want as per what I know about fundamental rights. And its none of your concern to know where the hell am I going.”, I pushed him aside and ran towards the washroom. As soon as I entered the washroom, I locked the door and leaned on it. I don’t know when the tears started flowing down my cheeks. I needed to let it out. All those emotions which were bottled up till now had to come out. And I let them.

Though I know I cried for a few minutes but it felt like hours. I could feel that my eyes were swollen and I felt a bit groggy too.

I exited the washroom and headed towards the water cooler. No one was around. Maybe the bell had rung. I washed my face and contemplated my situation.

I was at loss of friends. Then they suddenly turned up. All the anger came rushing down. I snapped at all of them. I rushed out for fresh air and bumped into him. My supposed ex-crush. And snapped at him when he wasn’t at fault. I felt guilty.

What had I done in the spur of moment? I practically snapped my anger at everyone. Not that they weren’t at fault but still….

I realized my mistake. I am gonna apologize for it and make a fool out of my already dumb self.

Let’s head towards the class. I thought and went towards my classroom. It was a substitution. Thank goodness. Had it been Ms. Andriana, she would have probably given me an ear bleed. But.. I lost the opportunity to bunk the class. I told ya, I am not a nerd. But no use now. I was in the class. I entered the class and saw that my ex-classmates were here. They don’t have the same classes, then what are they doing here? Maybe they were here to spend some time with their old friends. Friends. I sighed and went towards my desk in the third row. I was sitting on the fourth bench. As soon as I sat on my seat, I put my head down on the desk. The seat beside me was occupied by someone just a few seconds later. I looked up to see a pair of black eyes staring at me amusedly. I frowned when I realized who it was. Siddarth. His expression changed too. His jaw locked and his eyes narrowed at me. Whoa! Who else could have the audacity to sit beside me without my permission and be angry the next instant.

I craned my head upwards and straightened my uniform. He was looking at me to speak up. I was going to start with the insults but then guilt washed over me. I had to apologize for snapping at him. I sighed and took a deep breath closing my eyes. But then, all the memories came crashing down. I felt alone, lost and empty. I could feel a tear slide down my right eye. Way to go, he was sitting right next to me and i was crying. I quickly wiped away the tear and opened my eyes to see him holding his handkerchief for me. He saw me crying. Shit.. Now the latest news will be “Nerdy Adi cried…. Such a weakling”.

I didn’t want it to happen, so I raised my brow questioning him about the handkerchief. He opened his mouth to say something but closed it again.

“I am sorry…”, we both said at the same time.

“You first.”

“Ladies first….”, he said.

“I am not a lady for crying out aloud…..”, I said and saw him smirking. I gently smacked his arm and continued…”..What I mean to say is that I am a sixteen year old teen. Not some middle aged lady.”

His mouth formed an ‘O’.

“Yeah..O” I said imitating him. “So you first.”

“I am not a lady nor some sixteen  year old teen. So you first.”, he replied.

Whatever.

“I am sorry for snapping at you earlier.” I said.

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So this is the part of the other story. It’s name is BEING ME. You can read it on wattpad cause maybe I won’t post it here on Telly updates. My profile on wattpad is “annie-fudge”.

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Credit to: anu

16 comments

  1. This is beautiful…girl are compared to earth in mythology…but when a question come to her character,nobody has dare to face her…u really portrayed those emotions beautifully…Arjun really need a punishment…i hope radhika should not forgive him easily…

    Ur other story is one fabulous..but which one is ur real story?? I didn’t read first chapters of it…

  2. Jessie

    Anu…. superb yaar.. U are just 16.. amazing talent at this age.. the story is now gripping its speed.. I liked how Rads snapped Arjun.. God.. he dint even bother to ask her further.. very much interested to know how u will bring it further..

    Abt.. being me… why can’t u post here too.. I really liked it very much..few things make me remember my school days.. I really loved d way u hv presented this story.. Awesome lil sis.. try to post here also.am not in wattpad.. loads of love.. TC.. congratulations on ur board exams result..

    • Jessie

      Hey… tats really a Great News!!??!.????. Hearty congratulations n Best wishes for ur career lil sis… ☺☺☺

  3. anu

    @rosie thanks dear. Yeah you know girls are represented by venus i.e. Goddess of love but there are a few people who realize it and respect them. Arjun is certainly at fault as he was overly worried about Sam. Anyways you have to wait for next up part….

    @jessie yaar thanks for the words. And about being me I will try posting it here but I have only this much till now.. And thanks for your wishes.. Means a lot..

    @brin and @sara thanks a lot dearies for the feedback but u must understand that I can’t update any soon.. And it will wrong in my part to get your hopes high

  4. Aaastha

    Hey Anu….. it’s been a long time……congratulations for achievement….. I too flinched at Arjuna words……it was too insulting……’m happy that Redhill retorted and slapped him for his venomous words…………won’t ardhika unite…???? Pizza make Arjun ask forgiveness from Rads and propose his love for her………….plzzz update soon…. Please don’t dissappear……..I liked ur other story too……..Adi reminds me of myself…..I too find it difficult to make friends with unknown people…..plzz update soon….

  5. Gauri

    Anu you are amazing 🙂 loved it 🙂 now will follow your story on Wattpad 🙂 love you

  6. Rg

    Hi anu this one was too gud.the emotions were so intense and fantastic. All d very best for ur result. Will follow ur story in wattpad. Please continue this one. It’s really gripping.

  7. Roma

    Awesome, marvellous chapter anuuuu my dearrr…..I was waiting for this story from very looooooong….thx for updating sweeeeeetheart…ardhika fought…ahhh….I’m so sad for them……will they get married or its a break up….I’m so tense …plz plz plz unite ardhika….n missed nesam so much here…plz reveal adarsh’s motive behind the marriage with sam…..anxiously waitingggggg for the next chapter. …love you loads. ..♡♡♡

    Your other story is very interested as wellll, I loved it to the coreeeee. …plz post it here tooo…I’d love to read it. ..

    You’re so talented my sweeeeeetheart, you’re so young but ur very mature and sensitive. …you write very very awesoooooome. ….congratulations for your Excellent result……keep it up honeyyy ….love you loads. ..muaaaaahhhhhh. ..take care sweetie. ..

  8. Roma

    What’s your ID on wattpad? I wanna read your other story….take care sweetie. ..love yaaa

  9. Sweetie

    Anu.. It’s fabulous dear.. I just loved how Radhika snapped at Arjun.. Radhika is also worried about Sam but she didn’t ignore other relations,right?? Then how can Arjun think of only Sam and ignore Radhika.. I loved the pace of your story.. Keep writing.. 😀
    Being me-It’s an awesome story as well..It just refreshed my school memories.. 😀 I would love to read it and so I’m gonna follow you on wattpad.. 🙂
    Congratulations for the perfect CGPA dear.. 🙂
    Stay blessed,keep writing and be happy.. 🙂 Lots of love to you.. 😀

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