Shivika TS_Main Phir Bhi Tumko Chahunga_ [2 years Ago](By Anya) Last part.

Kindly Ignore Grammartical Mistakes and Typos

Happy Reding.

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Shivika TS–Main Phir Bhi Tumko Chahunga–
(Part 2)

As he took the last sip of his glass he saw Mr.Ahuja coming his way with a lady whom he didn’t saw as it was a little crowded there.He felt the hair at the back of his neck stand up as his heartbeat sarted to thumb in his ribcage making him even more anxious.”I hope you are enjoying the party Boy!”Mr.Ahuja smiled”yes I’m”he replied softly,his eyes not moving from that lady “Well that’s great!”. “Uncle you called me is there any problem”Suddenly a fimiliar voice was heard from behind Mr.Ahuja and his breath caught in his throat as he saw her standing before him talking to the old man unaware of him.He blinked his eyes as he thought that it was the effect of alcohol but ,his heart beating inside his chest in a whole new phase.

Finally he saw her after 2 long years,Yes his annika was standing in front of him talking to someone claded in a simple long black flowy gown,his view getting hazy as he felt like tearing up,he had a good look of her from top to bottom and realized that she had lost a lot of weight and the glow which was on her face was gone,weather no one can understand it but he was her husband and he know her much better than anyone else.There was no spark in her eyes ,her smile seemed fake as it didn’t reached her eyes but the innocence in her face was as same as it was.He smiled as he saw her narrowing her brows with a frown but suddenly she was shaking with mirth at the words of the old man.

Tum mere ho iss pal mere ho
Kal shayad yeh aalam na rahe
Kuch aisa ho tum tum na raho
Kuch aisa ho hum, hum na rahein…

Yeh raaste alag ho jaaye
Chalte chalte hum kho jaayein…

you are mine, in this moment, you are mine,
tomorrow, things may or may not remain the same,
maybe something happens that you don’t remain yourself,
maybe something happens that I don’t remain myself.

maybe our paths diverge,
and we get lost while walking.

Still laughing her eyes met his and she stilled,he can see her eyes widening in shock.”darling come I wanted you to meet someone”the man said while looking at shivaay,she just noded.”Shivaay meet my daughter and the curtesy of this evening night goes to her and Anni this is Shivaay Singh Oberoi,the CEO of Oberoi Industries,well Shivaay was really impressed by the decorations so I thought to let him meet you”the old man said with a smile while little did he know that they know each other more then them selves so this small introduction doesn’t make any difference.All this while they had their eyes locked.Annika felt a wave of millions of emotions washed over her as the beautiful moments they spend with each other flashed in front of her eyes and her eyes filled with unshed tears but she just bite her lower lips hard to stop the wimpher to escape her mouth as the events of that day struck her hard,she just closed her eyes.The older wounds were opening one after the other.Anger,betrayal,pain was all he could see in her cocoa brown orbs as she opened her eyes.But there was something else also in her orbs ,but he just let it go.

Main phir bhi tumko chahunga…[4x]

Iss chahat mein marr jaaunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga

but I’ll still love you,
I’ll still love you.
I’ll die for this love,
but I’ll still love you.

“Hello Mr.Oberoi”she wishpered and smiled fakely at him to show Mr.Ahuja as she doesn’t want him to know about her past.”you two continue I’ll excuse myself”and with that the man left from there leaving Shivika alone.”Well I’m glad that you love tonight’s party inspite of that it was managed by a girl who doesn’t have name,blood and Lineage”She spitted out coldly after a few second but she felt a sharp pain shoot up in her body seeing him totally broken while shivaay felt as if he was stabbed hard on his already broken heart,he closed his eyes for a breif period to lesson the pain that the words caused.

Meri jaan main har khamoshi mein
Tere pyaar ke naghme gaaunga
mmm…

O my life, in every silence,
I’ll sing the songs of your love.

Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Iss chahat mein marr jaaunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga

“Annika”he whispered and moved forward to grab her hand but she in turn took a step back making him stop in his track”Don’t dare to come forward Mr.Oberoi stay were you are as you have stayed when I was going”she said once again.shivaay know he deserved this!Yes he was at fault for all this and annika’s behaviour towards him was totally right but she must understand that he was helpless at that moment but now he know that it was wrong and that he loved her.Yes he loved her!

Aise zaroori ho mujhko tum
Jaise hawayein saanson ko
Aise talashun main tumko
Jaise ki per zameeno ko

You are necessary for me,
like air for breathing,
I look for you
like feet look for the earth.

Livng without her for more than 2 years had made him realize that she was his lifeline or maybe heart beat? people say a man is the most happiest person on this earth and also the most sad person ever and he thing the latter part suits him well.”Just listen me once”he whispered pleaded”Now there is nothing in listening or saying Mr.Oberoi We are over”she said and put her palm in front of him to stop him to say further.he just felt suffocated at this.How can she leave him?She love him right than why she is doing this to me why? “How can you just say that Annika?You are my wife I real…”his words died out in his mouth as she started laughing “Wife? now where does it came from Mr.Oberoi?I remember you had disowned me from that title long before.Don’t you?”she said while he loooked at her with blood shot eyes as now it was getting difficult for him to control his emotions.

Hansna ya rona ho mujhe
Paagal sa dhoondu main tumhe
Kal mujhse mohabbat ho na ho
Kal mujhko ijazat ho na ho
Toote dil ke tukde lekar
Tere darr pe hi reh jaaunga
mmm…

whether I have to laugh or cry,
I look for you like someone crazy.
whether you are in love with me tomorrow or not,
whether I have the permission tomorrow or not,
with the pieces of my broken heart with me,
I’ll stick to your door only.

He don’t know what to say?Weather to laugh or cry he don’t know. After she left He looked for her everywhere every damn place!Investigators were still looking for her and he never loosed hope as he know that One day he will be able to find her to confess his love to her,to take care of her.But now when she is infront of him and saying that they are done,he can’t just let it be.losing her once again won’t go well with him.no this seperation will be the end of him.

She was shaking with nervousness as she was not able to get a grip on herself as seeing him like this,his orbs which is one of the most beautiful eyes she had seen seemed dull with black bags under them,it was haunting her she thought.His beard a little disheleved as well as his hair a little messy ,He looked different like a deafeated man who had lost his evrything,well she doesn’t know that he had lost his everything since the day she left him.The unshed tears now was going to make their way to her cheeks as she was not able to act like this anymore,she just can’t aford it to happen.”Hey Gorgeous”A man in his early thirties came from behind and whispered in her ears making her thank god for sending him at this very moment,she just composed her self and smiled at him thnaking him from her eyes while he just blinked in response”What are you doing here Anni? the dance had started and you are still here.You promised that you’ll dance with me so let’s go”the person said and started to drag her from there when he saw shivaay who was holding his glass as if it will broke down Any moment.”Hey Bro I’m Sameer ,well can you please excuse this beautiful lady for now”he said while forwarding his hand for a shake and ended it with a Wink.Shivaay just didn’t said much and shake hand with him,smiling fakely”Yeah no Problem! Carry on”he said while looking straight in annika’s eyes making her look everywhere except him.

Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Iss chahat mein marr jaaunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga

but I’ll still love you,
I’ll still love you.
I’ll die for this love,
but I’ll still love you.

Sameer just went away from there with annika while shivaay loooked at their retreatinf figure with a broken look.,ordered for a glass of wishkey as he sat there looking at them dancing with eyes full of rage.Why are you angry shivaay?Wasn’t it you who just let her go away from you?Wasn’t it you who choosed your family against her?Who made her heart break?So now when she is with someone else it is all because of you!She needs to be happy shivaay.and you must be happy that she moved on in her life not like you who is still regretting his decisions.

“Thank you Sameer I thought that I wouldn’t be able to act anymore I was loosing my grip but you came and helped me.”she said with tear filled eyes,he just smiled”No need to thanks me gorgeous I know what you were feeling after seeing him after a long time but believe me I’m proud of you that you were able to do this”he said while caressing her face,she just gave a feeble smile to him.while he hugged her and kissed the top of her hair as she tightened her grip on him.Sammer and Annika shared a beautiful bond and with in this two year they came really close and they become bestest of frnd,Annika said all about her past to sameer while he promised her that he will never let anyone harm her or make her weak as he love her fierce cute Annika and If that Blue Eyed cat seems to trouble her he will not let him come near her as he doesn’t want another heart break for his friend as she was still broken and another blow will totally shaterred her and he can’t see her like that.Sameer was the fiance of Mr.Ahuja’s daughter who died long before in an accident he felt a different level of affection towards annika just like he used to have for her ,when he saw her so broken but still carrying that beautiful smiles of her on her face made him fond of her much more and slowly slowly they become good friends and she opened up in front of him,making him feel really over wehlmed by it and didn’t know when he fallen in love with this pure soul.But Annika always consider him as her friend and nothing else,while he respected this and kept this secret deep inside his heart.

Well he feel pity on shivaay as annika loved him very much but the fear of getting hurt once again devastaded her.

“Anni I was getting a feeling that he will punched me at that very moment but I was relieved when he didn’t done that nahi toh tujhe hi mera mahal Patti karna padta”he said while loooking at the bar and trying to make the atmosphere light and it seeem it worked as annika giggled at his last remark and smacked his shoulder lightly “you are such a Drama Queen”she said and pulled his cheeks”any doubt?’he asked with a smirk and wink at her while she nodded her head in a no.”I must say he loved you very much Annika”he whispered after a long pause.She looked at him and diverted her gaze towards him and saw him staring at her,Her eyes once again teared up as she could see how much devastated he look,Pain was evident in his dull orbs along with the longing for her.

Shivaay saw her hugging him while he kissed the top of her hair making his blood boil in rage.how can that dog touched her annika?He just wanted to go and give a punch straight on his beautiful face but controlled himself.”Shivaay why are you here go and dance it will be fun”he was brought back from his world by Mr.Ahuja’s voice but he simply refused to it.he saw her staring back at him Love filled eyes and didn’t know when a drop of tear rolled down his cheeks,He just wiped it off immediately but she had seen it’I wanted to be alone for sometime Sameer please excuse me”she just left the dance floor and ran outside the venue as this was getting worse,she needs to cry her heart out.Shivaay saw her going away and followed her but lost the track.

Tum yun mile ho jabse mujhe
Aur sunehari main lagti hoon
Sirf labon se nahi ab toh
Poore badan se hansti hoon

since you have met me,
I feel more golden,
now I don’t smile just with my lips,
but with my entire body.

She went and sat on the bench while crying.With each passing second she felt her heart cracking.How she just wanted to go and hug him tight and never leave him.How she wished to go and kiss him senseless making him believe that she will never leave him no matter what.But the fear of another heartbreak made ehr guards down.No she can’t handle another blow,It was so difficult to move on from the dark which had engulfed her after she left him and letting her jump in the dark once again don’t go well with her.Sahil needs her,if she let him overpower her than she will loose her.Sameer helped her in coming out of the depression she just can’t break his faith.

He started to move on the almost deserted Road looking for her when he heard some one sniffing from behind the bushes,He pushed them aside to clear his view and saw her sitting on the bench sobbing.He goes to her and placed his palm on her shoulder”Sameer If you Love me than please leave me Alone for sometime”she whispered as she doesn’t wanted to talk to anyone.Shivaay stiffen at her words”I’m happy that you moved on Annika”he said softly with pain dripping from his each words,she looked up and to see him looking at her with a small smile with blood shot red eyes.She stood up to go but he held her hand causiouly”Can we sit here for sometime?”he asked tightenng his grip on her wrist,she closed her eyes as she felt as if her heart was squeezed in her chest mercilessly.she tried to come out of his grip”Please”he almost whispered making her stop struggling.

Mere din raat salone se
Sab hai tere hi hone se
Yeh saath hamesha hoga nahin
Tum aur kahin main aur kahin

my days and nights are beautiful,
all this is because of you only.
this companionship will not be there forever,
you’d be somewhere and I, somewhere else.

As they sat on the bench keeping a safe distance between,looking at the full moon shivaay thought to break the ice”Annika..”he started”I know i have done wrong to you but believe me I was in a mess at that time,You know what since Iv’e got my senses I was made to believe that Naam khoon and Khaandan are everything but now I’m regretting it everyday and every second,I’m alone annika I killed myself with my own hands.Karma is a b*t*h see I have given you so much pain and now I’m going through it but all becoz of me.I nee…”he was cut off by the ringtone on annika’s phone,she rubbed her tear stained cheeks and looked at the caller Id and than at shivaay who was intendly looking at her.After a small pause she picked up the call with hesitation “He…Hello yes Sameer.Yeah I’m fine—- Arre yes I’m absolutely fine—–.hmm..I’m in the park—– no you don’t need to come I’m coming”these were the words which she spoke and ended the call.”I need to go Mr.Oberoi”she said with a steady tone while keeping a big stone on her heart and stood up to go”I hope you’ll enjoy your life ahead Annika best of luck!”he said and smiled brightly but it didn’t reached his eyes”Thank you”she said ending it in a cracked voice and with a last look of him she went away leaving him alone in the dark.

Lekin jab yaad karoge tum
Main banke hawaa aa jaaunga
O…

but when you remember me,
I’ll become the wind and come.

“I’m not feeling well so I’m going home—No I can manage you don’t come—Yeah Bye!”She ended as she made her towards her home.She just wanted to go home where her brother was waiting for her as she wanted someone to pour her heart and at this very moment Sahil was the one.as she closed her eyes sitting in the cab his beautiful smiling face came infront of her and for a brief moment she forget all her sorrow and pain.

Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga
Iss chahat mein marr jaunga
Main phir bhi tumko chahunga

Main phir bhi tumko chahunga

but I’ll still love you,
I’ll still love you.
I’ll die for this love,
but I’ll still love you.

but I’ll still love you.

He sat Over there looking at the stars as flood of tears streamed down his cheeks But he had a small smile on his face,in a satisfaction that after more than two years he was able to see her and ensure that she was save and happy.he know he should have been crying or throwing things at this very moment but he was tired of all this now.His heart was already broken and now when it is totally scaterred it doesn’t make any difference.Doesn’t it? at that time it was hurting and now also it is hurting so now he got use to suffer this pain and he will continue to do it in future though. or maybe his whole life? He kept his palm on his right side of his chest and felt it beating but it was burning.He just rubbed over there softly and closed his eyes and the first thing which came was her smiling face and his heart cooled down a bit and he will try to life with her memories.Althought it will be difficult but he knows he deserved this, maybe the punishment of losing her forever was far more worst then Death.His Principle of Naam Khoon and Khaandan took away his everything.But his heart will never stop beating for her.And he knew this Because He loved her and will continue to Love her.

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The End!

Author’s Note-

Hello Everyone! I hope I’m not that late in updating it.Well this song was really matching their situation so thought to give a try to my imagination.I really wanted to know wether I was able to stand to your expectations? as I’m not sure is the end was good.In this story Shivaay choosed his Naam Khoon Khaandan instead of annika and he must regret this dicision his whole Life isn’t it? So this was a small try on it. And was I able to relate the song to this story?I know most of you must feel bad becoz of this sad ending but believe me I tried to make a lot of changes but messed it up.I never wrote such angst filled stories ever and this was my first time so do tell me how was I in writting it?And cricticise are the most welcome as It will help me to improve as a writer.

Also I’m really sorry for not replying to each one of you,as I’m a little busy but will surely do it when I’ll get time.Until then A big thank you for liking and reviewing on this*Big Hug*.It just really means a lot to me <3

Waitng for your response!

With much Love,
Anya.

26 comments

  1. Sana

    O my my . U know what you made me cry by the end of series n I found it heart wrenching yaar
    now m not able to find more words to describe it

  2. Purva

    The ending left me in tears. But I agree with the fact that shivaay should regret his decision his whole life.

  3. Bhavana

    Hey anya! what can i say yaar… I’m speechless… U made me spellbound nd its fantabulously written… Loved it to the core…

  4. preetha

    Hey cmon yaar plzzz post next episode …join shivika together. ..post another part. ..give a good and happy end please please please. ..am waiting for next update yaar plz plz plz plz plz plz plz

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      Hello preetha!
      please don’t hate me more If I’ll tell hat I won’t be able to give this story a Happy Ending.

      Don’t get offended but it’s just that Shivaay need to suffer this his whole life and live in regret as I have said before.

      As shivaay’s character is potrayed I thing he will also choose the same.

      Annika’s wound are more painful than her love for him.Yes,she loves him unconditional but she know that he will never accept her ok scratch that he won’t be able to love fully her without knowing what is her surname In which family she belongs and whose blood is running in her vein.No he will never do it.and the thought of getting another heartbreak doesn’t suit her well.

      On the other hand Shivaay can never distanced himself from his principles.when an iron rod get’s eroded,how much we try we can’t revome it isn’t it? and if we try we lost it completely.The same thing happened here—take shivaay as the iron rod and his principles as rust,how much he tried he pleade he cannot leave it,HABIT DO DIE HARD ans so he choosed to life in regret his whole life rather than going back to annika.the day she left him ,he knew he lost his everything but as we say’Umed pe duniya kayam hai” he to hoped but in these years he realized he can never change.NO! A big fat NO!

      I hope I was able to make you understand why i can’t give this a happy ending.
      And Once again sorry dear!

      Love you always,
      -Anya. : )

  5. Adhya

    Mindblowing..Every emotions and every feeling the way u expressed is Awesome…Its Beautiful i must say Wondrful…Anya u deserves the best buddy..Hats off to u dear..Keep Rocking waiting for ur next move

  6. Jerry_36

    Jerry_36

    |Registered Member

    Hey Anya !! It is beautiful. You know what that you are being an inspiration for everyone here.
    You are always good at expressing emotions but I never thought that you are excellent at this.
    You made me cry and I hate you for this this, but you gave me a wonderful piece of literature and I love you more and more for this.
    Anika’s part was Heart wrenching and lovely too !! For shivaay’s part I have no words. Again you left we Speechless.
    A big se bhi big vala hug to you.
    This song was most appropriate for this super amazing update. And yesss you are not late this time❀

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      CutiePie! *Big Hug and that too a tight one* I’m glad that I’m able to inspire you all.but believe me I really don’t know anything about literature as I’m a sciene student but I’m really spellbounded to see that you all enjoy my stories.
      And i will try to keep this in future.

      Love you always,
      Anya

  7. Elishaba justin

    Please post the next episode soonπŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡ i love the way you writing.fantastic. Please make it a happy ending

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      Hello dear! Can you please read the comment Iv’e given to Preetha just a little above you and you will understand Why I won’t be able to give this story a happy ending.
      Dear every love story should end happily is not like that but there are stories which doesn’t have a happy ending and it has it’s own beauty.<3 I hope you will understand me.

      Love you always,
      Anya

  8. Haridhra

    Haridhra

    |Registered Member

    I can’t say anything other than it was a marvelous one , as a writer u did a wonderful job ,but coming to the story the last 2 paras were a heart wrenching ones.. My top was literally drenched with tears ..such an emotional one. The most cruel thing in world a person culd do is sacrifice their love even when u knw that the other person also reciprocate ur feelings…

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      HEllo Dear! thnak you for your kind words.
      Your last line is 100% true.! And I really wanted this to show to you all and I’m glad that you understood it!

      Love you always,
      -Anya

      • Haridhra

        Haridhra

        |Registered Member

        Hi di I’m glad that my thoughts matched with ur’s , n di they say only an incredible writer can accurately show they emotions n thoughts lively through their work,so no wonder I understood ur point..πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰….

  9. Vivikhta

    Vivikhta

    |Registered Member

    Anya di…..
    Well…..I have been a silent reader of your works from like, forever.I really loved this beautiful story because it’s something totally different.Your earlier works, though eloquently written were always on a light and cheerful not….b it your AniRu drabblr (hilarious it was)
    A memorable trip (which I absolutely can’t read with a straight face…people think I have gone insane …because I laugh, looking at my laptop like an idiot), other romantic one shots, and all the beautiful pieces of literature which u have Penned down so far…
    But this, as u said in your author’s note is uncharted territory, but u passed with flying colours….Although, of course, like any human being, I wud have preferred a happy ending, but still this story was unsatisfyingly satisfying……I loved how u portrayed the truth that all love stories don’t have a happy ending…..
    Bit whatever it is, u made my cry…..My eyes were tearing up full time….but I was kinda mentally prepared…because the song u have related to is from a movie which does not have a happy ending(I guess)…After all half girlfriend is supposed to b a sad story..(the book)
    So the first thing I did was scroll down to the last para to check if my suspicions were true…
    Anyways..bahut bakbak kali main, just wanted to let u know, ur an amazing writer.
    Loads of love
    Vivikhta πŸ’• p
    PS friends pls?

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      hello Vivu! Darling as I have said before we are friends there’s no doubt in it.And really sorry for the late reply as i was a little busy.Anyways..Thank you a ton for this lovely feedback.Yes Baby you are right! every story should end happily is not always true there are stories whose ending is sad but they have their own beauty.Actually I too don’t love sad ending stories,I just move away from them but donno how I was able to write this anyways i’m glad that you all loved it as you give love ot my other works.
      Well half girlfriend is a little bit of sad story but it had a happy ending so don’t stress out!It’s a really good story was in love with it!<3 I hope you too love it.

      Love you always,
      -Anya<3

  10. Anyakhan32

    Anyakhan32

    |Author

    Hello charley! dear what are you talking about?I really didn’t get it :s
    And what were you looking for? Please enlighten me with it.

  11. Akshaya_13

    Akshaya_13

    |Registered Member

    Oh my god! I was all the while controlling myself thinking that the ending will surely be happy as eveyone’s is…but I got like..around a 440volt ka shock after completing the part….and hats of that u (i feel) made almost everyone on the verge of crying or crying dii…..LOVEDDD IT…yaar dii somewhere i am jealous of u too…that u are SUCH A GOOOOOOODD WRITER YAAR!!!!!!!!(I am texting as if I am a lot more experienced writer which I am not…..:P) i AM A SLAVE OF ALL UR WORKS…..sorry if written too much…..

    • Anyakhan32

      Anyakhan32

      |Author

      hello dear!
      hahhhaha…well please don’t feel jealous dear it is giving me bad vibes.LOL
      but yes I’m really sorry for making you shock by giving it a sad ending but if you want a happy ending of it do read my Ts-Pal Bhar which is a sequel of it as I thought I must give this story a proper ending.So this was the result.
      I hope you will like it.

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